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2004 11 April :: 3.09pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Ruff Ryder All Star Freestyle
Easter is such a fucking boring holiday.
+*+ Essentials +*+
Name: Kelsey Elisabeth
Age On Your Next B-Day: 15
B-Day: July 21
Zodiac Sign: Cancer
+*+ Your Room +*+
Color of Walls: Nostalgic Deep Purple
Computer?: Duhh
TV?: Yep
DVD Player?: Yep
VCR?: Yep
Phone?: Yes...I have it all
Bed or Futon?: Bed
Twin? Full? Queen? KING?: Twin
+*+ Beloveds +*+
Book: Haunted Sister
Colour: uhh pink purple black white silver..
Year In School: uhh 8th I guess, Freshman year sucks
Friend: I love em all
Sport: Soccer
Smell: The Ocean, barbecues, summer nights
Magazine: Seventeen
Lotion: Abercrombie Sweet Blossom, Perry Ellis America
Body Spray/Perfume/Cologne: Bath&BodyWorks-SweetPea & Moonlight Path. Victoria's Secret-Sexy. Axe/Old Spice/Curve
Beverage: Chocholate Milk,Lemonade, Orange Soda,Coffee
+*+ Cronies +*+
Secret Keeper: Kate
Good Listener: Kate
Trustworthy: Kate & Liz
Good Shopper: Meg
Best Personality: Liz
Best Athlete: Dont know
Best All-Around: not sure
Most Honest: Liz
Liar: dont know
Betrayer: umm I've decided to forget that
Lovestruck: Meg
Moody: Meg
Morbid: whats that mean?
Drama Queen: Andrea
Annoying: I could name a few
Dork: Meg & Kate
Intelligent: Amanda
+*+ Your Family +*+
Like 'em?: Depends on who and whats going down
Brothers?: 2
Sisters?: 0
you like your parent(S)?: At times
Why?: Long story
Oh...: Ya....
+*+ Misc +*+
like to shop?: Yep
Colour of Backpack: umm I have a skyblue one and a navy blue one
Brand of Backpack: LL.Bean
Email Address: babyblue2189@aol.com
AIM ScreenName: krazykelc1
Burn CDs?: Yep
DL Musak?: Yep
Awesome-est Site: dunno
Did You Like this survey?: If I didn't would I be taking it?
Why?: Are u that thick?
Oh...: Ya..you are
What Kinda Comp/Laptop you got?: Dell
niiice...: ya u know it
Ciao: adios
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krazykelc1
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2004 11 April :: 12.03pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Mobb Deep-Got it twisted
Happy Easter
HaPpY EaStEr!
I woke up early this morning, around 9:00. I had gone to bed early because my stomach hurt and my eyes were aching from being dilated so long. yesterday was my 2nd time tripping..it was really intense. time flew by so quick and when the trip was over I could barely remember anything I did. I only wish Liz could have been with us this time since we had enough for one more person. anyways...today I don't really have anything planned. My parents didn't make me go to church which was suprising. my brothers coming out from Boston sometime this afternoon and some of the cousins from N.H.
I got $20 from my parents as an Easter gift.. I was planning on using it to reimburse myself from the money I spent on the shrooms but I'm not even sure if I wanna do that anymore... I think I might just save my money from now on instead of splurging on drugs.
COUNTDOWN: 9 days
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2004 10 April :: 9.04pm
:: Mood: upset
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............................................................... im so fucking upset i cant even write in here! i have a big bruise on my face and my arm now! i fucken hate crying but now theres nothing else to do! theres not anyone i cant talk to and even if there were they wouldn5t really listen!no one understands me and i guess im the one to blame... because thats what everyone else says! i just cant take my life anymore... when im not out somewhere and away from my family... if thats even what i should call them, then im sitting at home getting hit or yelled at for half of the shit that i didnt do! this isnt gunna work anymore... so if you can think of something... tell me please because i really dont like sitting in front of my computer crying and typing and thinking and hoping to get out of here soon! please help me!
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xonixieox
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2004 8 April :: 9.14pm
:: Mood: angry
grrrrrr!
i hate EVERYONE!!!
That pretty much speaks for itself!
wow...
so today and yesterday were both really gay days! so yesterday traci got into a fight with her mother! i love traci so much and i was so sad watching her fight! then today my parents became complete assholes(even more than they were!!!!) ahhhhhhhhh... im so fucking mad! i had to get dropped off at school by my gram because i couldnt even stant to be in the car another second with my mother! she says all this shit to me like she cant wait till i move out, and that she doesnt love me anymore, and she hasnt for a while! and then when i fucking come to school all depressed on these days fucking "my friends" are all like ahhhh what a bitch... what the fuck is her problem, and ohhhh oyur fine! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i fucking hate EVERYONE! its not even funny anymore how many of my friends i dont want ot be around anymore! everyone talks shit and then around oyu they act like nothing, when they know other people are just gunna tell them anyways!
well ..... i will miss lizzy for the weekent when she is in canada!!!!
i havnt seen my old friends in soooooooooooo long... i think a reunion is depratly needed!!!
"My salsa hooooo hoooo hooooo" hahahahahhahahaha
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2004 7 April :: 6.18pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: 50 Cent/Tony Yayo-Face down
Sarah McLachlan mood..
I Love You
I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road
we meet at the lights
I stare for a while
the world around disappears
just you and me
on this island of hope
a breath between us could be miles
let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek
oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away....
and I forgot
to tell you
I love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you
I grieve in my condition
for I cannot find the strength to say I need you so
oh you're so beautiful
with an edge and a charm
but so careful
when I'm in your arms
cause you're working
building a mystery
holding on and holding it in
yeah you're working
building a mystery
and choosing so carefully
you woke up screaming aloud
a prayer from your secret god
you feed off our fears
and hold back your tears
give us a tantrum
and a know it all grin
just when we need one
when the evening's thin
oh you're a beautiful
a beautiful fucked up man
you're setting up your
razor wire shrine
Sweet Surrender
it doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home
and sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give
and I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall
I miss the little things...
oh I miss everything
it doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold room
Do What You Have To Do
What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...
and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight...
COUNTDOWN: 13 days
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2004 5 April :: 3.41pm
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: Ruben Studdard-Sorry 2004
New Journal
I had to reset my journal because it got fucked up somewhere along the way... so I decided to completely start over, hope you like...
-kelsey
Why do you cry?
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2004 31 March :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: happy
ok so i love douglas sherman! he is the nicest person ever! me and traci now worship him! Thank you sooooooooooooo much Doug!!!!!
<3 NikkiE!!!
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2004 27 March :: 12.42pm
:: Mood: sad
ok so im at my grandmas house for the weekend because my mom and dad away... thank god!! but today me and traci we supposed to do something but she is apparently doing something with jess so w.e i fucking dont care anymore! so im gunna call christina and amanda in a lil while to see if we are still chillin tonight! they are the best anyways, i love them so much! i havnt seen christina in like forever!!
well yesterday was... interesting!
so 1st period me amanda and traci dont go to 1st period, but we sit in the caf and wait for lizzy... when some fucking bitch teacher is like where are you supposed to be! we were like study so she was like "good i will escort you down there" so in our way down to "study" traci is like what day is it guys? we all act stupid and this fucking bitch brings us down to ms. bertucci's office! amanda was like well i have geometry and i sed me 2! She was like we needed to get some work done so we wouldnt get in trouble! so ms Bertucci gave us passes and we didnt even get in trouble! it was fucking awesome!!! lol...........
then me and meg skipped real study with Krista, and went into the bathroom! they had a ciggarete and i was good so i just sat there, and i was facing the other way and a fucking teacher walked in! it was so bad she was like i smell something funny in here! i jumped so high... and then she thought i was smoking!!! hahahahahahahahahha
i T w A s F u C k I n G h I l A r I o U s!!!!
<3 NikkiE
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2004 21 March :: 1.36pm
:: Mood: sad
i officially hate my life!! well i dont wanna sound like one of those people who whine, but....
ok so this whole weekend i was sick... my ear kills and my throught hurts, i cant breth cuz my nose is all stuffy! but today, on sunday is the worst day!
i woke up and did my english project cuz i got a message from Jackie saying we should do it on our own... then my dad woke up in an awful mood anyways... fuckin drunken asshole!
so i called my aunt to come get me because i know how my father can be, but then my mom called and said id didnt want to go!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... so i went downstairs and told my mom to call her back and my dad was like your to loud shut up.. i was like no mom messed everything up, so he told me to get out of the fucking house, and when i didnt move he fucken lifted me up by my arm and threw me into the tile floor! then i went upstaris and called my aunt, and he came up and fucking hit me again!
i hate him so much, but what hurts me the most is that he has never touched Dj or Mellie, he only hits me, evin if they do something 5 times as bad:(
well i guess i will be wearing sweatshirts for the rest of the week :(
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2004 14 March :: 1.48pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: none
blah!
Well... i still dont have a fucking computer... and if i dont get it back soon i think the answer will be suicide! hahah someone egged my sisters window last night! my parents were mad but i kinda think its funny! lol! last night we went over to my auntie evas for uncle bruce's birthday! it was a cute little family gathering... BORING!! but at least i got to use the features on my new camera! i took like a million pics of the baby!! then i just chilled in laurens room with her for a while!!
the early release day will suck!! its supposed to be like shitty out:(
bye for now!
<3 NikkiE!!
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