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2004 13 March :: 12.44pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: the voices in my head!
hahaha
Well yesterday was friday night and i hadda work... it was all good cuz jessie invited me to tha mall after, but then she never called so i pretty much had a shit night! w.e! i got a new digital camera... and its ADORABLE... but i still dont have a computer to plug it into :( im on my aunts! well my cousin is having one of those partys where they sell like fake coach and prada bags, but shes getting relle good ones so she sed if anyone of my friends wants to come just tell me!! she wants alot of people to come! just tell me if you wanna:)... not all of the bags are ugly... and there is like jewlery and things like that there too!!
... well this week has been... unusual!! well i found some things out about my "friends"... i relle hate people sometimes, especially when they lie!! its not true i guess! Kelsey i love you darling!! lol! ... anyways... tuesday was Emmes birthday... i love spending the day with that sexy beast! shes wonderful! its so nice to see all my old friends and to know that they are REAL! its like with some of my new friends i cant tell if they are telling the truth... my old friends arent like that... they dont lie to me, and they tell me whats going on... that just doesnt happen like that at NHS! i shouldnt be saying my "old Freinds" because they arent... the will always be my friends, not my old friends. they are the ones i know will always take care of me! i feel the same way about some of my new friends, but not all of them! it makes me so angry when people lie to me that are supposed to be the people i trust most!.. w.e oh well... i will eventually learn!! dont worry whoever is reading this... i still love oyu, i just need some time to see if i can trust you!! haha lol jk! thursday is an early release day... dunno what im doing, probobly having fun...well hopefully!
this journal is dedicated to all my "old" friends and some of my new friends!
~emme, amanda, becca, christina, gorgea, jennie, amanda m, elizabeth, kelc, meg, katie, Darien ....
theres more peopel i love... but i cant really think because i have a headache! lol!
<3 NikkiE!!!
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2004 8 March :: 3.16pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: chewing of darien and cheese
uggggggggggggggggg
YIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIE!!!
iu havnt been on a fuckin computer in so long!! im at dariens... and i still dont have a fuckin computer... wow i ahve so much to say but i cant! takes too long! so... well me and my dad finally started talkings(we havnt since feb. vacation) and hes taking me shopping on tuesday nite... w/ the credit cart!! woooooooooooooooohuuuuu!!!!! oh... ya so me and darien are going to the clay Aiken, kelly clarkson concert! im excited! then tomorrow is a half day... so off to kelseys! I love you Emme! happy birthday! wont see becca for at least 10 days... shes in italy! Have fun baby!! i love you ohhhh so much!
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2004 19 February :: 4.00pm
:: Mood: angry
bull shit!
so for now the only thing i can really say is BULL SHIT!!!
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What does the word BESTFRIEND mean to you?? i think it means not lying, not talking behind your back, and always being there for you! it looks like i cant trust anyone!!
Vacation sux!
hopefully going to amandas house this weekend!! (maybe even today!!) but i dunno! my phone doesnt work so i cant call her!! grrrrrrrrrrr.... there are a few people that i know will always be there for me and she is one! i can count on emme, lizzy and christina too! (cant forget Darien) i miss emme!! i havnt talked to her in so long :'( it makes me sad to think about it!
we used to be inseperable and now look what has happened... its like the whole thing was a waste of my time... but when i think about it i cant say that because it could NEVER be a waste of my time! those were the best times of my life!! i wouldnt be the person i am today without those people, that person! i love her so much... but its like now that its over theres nothing i can do to save it! i guess im happy that shes having a "better" life and getting to know "better" people... but it still hurts inside to know that i can be dropped like that... for someone that is so much better than me!! I love you so much... and i always will! the phone calls every once in a while dont cut it... i never see you... when we used to talk about it i couldnt imagine even a day without you... how long has it been now? weeks? months? i cant help thinking about it because it makes me cry... I miss you... i really do!!!!
... so if you ever need me i'm here... dont ever forget that... dont ever forget me! i love you!
<3 nikkie
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2004 18 February :: 6.17pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: the sound of my concience!! lol
blah!!
i spent like 3 hours trying to find the html codes for the pictures in this thing because funky-chickens is down!! i finally found a good site!! yippie!!! isnt it pretty?? i like the waterfall one:) im so tired and excited!! my aunt got me kiss concert tickets so once again i m going with her... but unfortunatly my sister is going so i cant bring any one! hopefully i will see janet there and we can sneak up to the front!!! hell ya!!! cant wait till then baby!!! lol!! Bahamas in a few months!! needa loose at least 15 pounds!!
someone tell me not to eat!!!
<3 nikkie
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2004 18 February :: 8.31am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: kiss 108 guy talking!
computer!
Havnt written in a while............
I fucken dont have a computer!! its all gone for like 3 weeks!!! :( im so sad! i hafta use my aunts computer... but it doesnt have aim!! someone help me! ok so anyways my vacation have been so boring!! it has consited of going to the gym with my aunt, going to hicksville Nh with my parents, going shopping with my grandma, and talking to darien with text messageing!! somebody save me!!! going to amandas tomorrow hopefully... and going out to dinner with my baby BECCA!! i miss her so much words cant even say!! i like cry when i talk to her on the phone because i think about last year and i dont know how i am making it throgh this year without her! its amazing i miss emme and amanda too!! last year we were inseperable... now this year i dont see any of them... at least emme and amanda still have eachother at school!! i love them ohhh sooo much!!!
anyways.... i think im surviving mostly on the part of lizzy darien nd manda!! they are so cute! Me manda nd lizzy need to chill over vacation... im way to stressed!!!
Kiss Concert 2004!!! hell ya baby cant wait!!
me and auntie cindy go every year!!!!
<3 Nikkie!!
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2004 11 February :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: ski market comercial... lol
lalalalallala
lalalalala im so bored... practice was.... gay.... today! like 30 ppl werent there so we had to change the whole entire halftime for our last game tomorrow:( tear tear!!! omg...i realized that whatever happens happens between them.... she can have him and i can have her... i care to much about my friends to even think about it!! i made 2 new friends today!!!
People who choose their boyfriends over their REAL friends suck... it makes me sooooo sad to so one of my bestest friends hurt like that! its not even fucken funny!! its rather bull shit in fact!!!
Lizzy sweety dont cry anymore... but just think about it this way... look at how many friends you have gained over this expirience!! and i love you more than 100 people ever could! we we have had smgt over the fucken past years... we got scared shitless... we made oscar cry... we "played" in the house at jonson... we had a 3some with darien... i mean so many fucken good times lol!! you are MY valentine!!!
M E A N D A M A N D A A R E T H E S A M E F U C K E N P E R S O N ! ! ! ! !
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2004 7 February :: 1.36pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: the tv!
Alrighty... this shit is so gay! yesterday was the worst day... EVER!! i had a bad day at home and school... i HATE everyone! at least when i got home( to traci's) i had fun! jan jan and kathleen came over... and we talked to nessa on the phone! I miss her :'( !!!
We watched Freddie vs. Jason... good movie! we talked to or yellad at justin for like an hour! so fun!!!
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2004 3 February :: 8.23pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: gilmore girls!
game!
I had a game today... and we lost... because we SUCK!! apparently me, alicia, traci, and jan are un picked capitans! thats what kim said. We "dont listen to anyone else on the team, and we boss people around!" alrighty then w/e!
Well in other News...
I found some things out today...
I LOVE LIZZY! shes sooooooooo sweet! shes the best ever!
Christina Ceruti is the other best ever! smgt i love talkin to ya babe!!
Mucho amor
<3 NixiE
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2004 2 February :: 5.44pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: AWWW sad! :( poor wilson!
There You'll Be Lyrics
When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me
[CHORUS:]
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
[Repeat chorus]
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always
[Repeat chorus]
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2004 2 February :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: shania twain!!!
grrrrr
people needa keep their mouths shut unless they know the truth! tracii baby im sorry people keep runnin their mouths and like to talk shit! you did NOTHING wrong! i love you so much baby! wipe the tears from your eveys cuz "we're in here... Im changing" lmao!! funniest thing ever! lets clap when that girl gets off the bus! hahaha be quiet! love you so much babe! bf4eaeaeaeaeaeaeae! (and ever again) lol
<3 NiKkIe!!!
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