dreams vs. reality
what a topic. but i'm not sure i'll get into that. it'd be a fun conversation...i'll dip into it just a touch. it's really interesting to me who the PEOPLE are that enter my dreams. especially guys. (big surprise, there.) i wonder if it's just my train of thought floating apon subjects that cause me to relate to the guy in my dreams. what i wonder is, what if the things i do in my dreams are things i specificially wished to have done...? it amuses me greatly how the people i interact with on a regular basis in my daily life differs from those i encounter in my dreams. maybe i'll post this as a topic on the forum. my first topic! haha.

well, on to current events. i'm sure you just LOVE hearing about my life. i sure do. *insert sarcasm here*

monday: slept in, watched tv, and studied bio.

tuesday: slept in, watched tv, studied for bio, got my teeth x-rayed (wisdom teeth), and had a horseback riding lesson. there weren't any jumps in the arena left from the show so it was sort of poopy. we did no-stirrup work and went over a 1 stride like 50 times.

wednesday: woke up at like 11. HA! and thought something like 'SHIT! I HAVE TO BE DOWNTOWN IN AN HOUR AND A HALF!' met ali and sarah downtown and hung out. we looked at stuff in tiedown and ate yummy food. first we had fish n chips, then a frappeccino, and then frozen yogurt. mmm...we also spent like an hour at los altos card and party, staring at cards and them being embarassed while i said 'sex' in a very loud voice in front of old ladies. lol! then we looked at charms and jewelry, and then decided that if i didn't make invitations now, i never will for my VERY belated 15th birthday party. sooo...spent like an hour staring at all of the pretty paper and arguing, not being able to use the calculators on our cell phones to figure out how much it would cost, counting how many people were to be invited, etc. as we were saying all of the names, this cute old lady comes up to us and is like 'i'm about to have my first grandchild. i hope it's a girl, so could you write all of those names down? they're so pretty!' we couldn't tell if she was serious or not, so we didn't. after many cute cell phone pictures, many arguments, and a lot of fun, we bought the paper and went back to ali's house to make the cards. we ended up just talking and dancing and such. it was fun! finally ali had to kick us out because of her dress rehearsal, though. :0(

thursday: my day of fun with louise!! got up and went downtown with louise!! we stopped at the ususal louise and the gang stops: jamba juice and posh. i'd never been in posh before, but it was cool! i got a pizza bagel, inspired by sarah who bought one when we were downtown some other time. then louise and i ranted about anti-women essays at pinewood and track people. fun stuff. we eventually walked to her house and yeah. there was this guy staring at louise's ass (in her skanky shorts...which aren't nearly as skanky as MINE!!) so i happened to turn around...and guess who it was? HAHAHA. let's say that now i have an excuse for mr. shaull. i saw him, he's fine, so i don't have to do something with him. HA. whoo that was great. anyways. louise and i then proceeded to sniff paint fumes (her room had just been painted...it's really pretty!!) and look at egan yearbooks and talk about people. yay! we then looked at iTunes and listened to music. heehee. decided to see starsky and hutch and then went! yay! movies! i ate more yummy food and we were greatly amused by the movie. i'm sure we didn't get like 75% of the jokes because we'd never seen the original starsky and hutch before, but yeah. it was pretty cute.

*break to listen to rhapsody in blue and think that it is the coolest jazz song EVER.*

so then my mom drove louise and i home and yeah. i did more bio and listened to music and read and such.

friday: got up again, like one hour before i had to be at ali's house, and then changed into my bathing suit to go. oh, and found my mom's glue gun. (costume emergency.) so yeah, got to ali's house, hung out with sarah and ali more, and made the invitations! yay! they're really cute. well, you'll most likely see one. there's 20 people total, including me. but enough about possible exclusion. then we hot tubbed (yay!) and talked some more. after a while we were all really hot and hungry, so we made annie's mac n cheese!! yummmm!! i swear, i was sooo excited. then we talked more and fought over the star puncher-outer. LOL!! oh and we danced a lil and ali made fun of my taste in music. SHUT UP! haha. so now we're doing the dance to 'conga' and yeah! whoo! i'm excited. sarah and i eventually had to leave again, because i had a horseback riding lesson. sarah came, and then we realized that i actually DIDN'T have a lesson. grr. but i got to practice ride anyways. sarah coached me. :0D heehee. then we went home and sarah read the journal that's between ali and i when we were being bitchy and yeah. i showered and washed my hair. then we drank jamba juices and went to my friend mary's ice show. it was really good!! it's exactly like a showtime (dance) show, but on ice. there's cute little kids and sorta good 10-ish year olds and really good older ppl. mary (she's from the barn) was in the top group. very spiffy. the theme was 'broadway on ice' so i was like HOW COOL IS THIS?!?! every song was from a musical...:0D it was great fun with sarah and bonnie. then we talked to mary after the show and had a WONDERFUL conversation about their bad habits. hehe...i love those two! sarah and i mainly laughed and stuff. it was fun. then my mom drove us home and i texted my dad about lunch today and then went to bed. *yawn*

and now i'm up, ready, and my dad's gonna pick me up in like 15 mins to go eat at the cheesecake factory. yummmm... so anyway, i'm like 40 pages behind in bio (oopsies!) so i guess i'll do that this afternoon before sleeping beauty with sarah (featuring ali!) at 7:30. fun stuff!

off to eat and stuff! bye!

i'm so lucky!! :0D
i hadn't thought that i'd have such good luck! the day after i decided to move on, someone IMs me and we end up flirting online quite a bit! then, as he's off college searching and i happen to be drooling and squealing over a picture of someone, that very someone IMs me to see how i'm doing! and then, after my horseback riding lesson, an unknown person IMs me, daring me to guess who he is, and it turns out to be one of my good friends from church who's starring in the musical this year! yay!

ahh memories...

how i love the internet. :0D

oh, and i'm in serious need of camp unique and band camp. but that can wait for the time being if the boys keep coming... :0) haha. love you all!

Mel's Musical Challenge
the internet is for porn.

i am the angel of music. come to the angel of music.

he's always decieving you into believing he's only hunting for mice.

but everyone is beautiful at the ballet.

no one mourns the wicked!

i hope that when i do, it won't be on a plate.

will i lose my dignity?

look at the sky!

i'm just a sweet transvestite.

to life!

MAJOR PROPS to anyone who can name all of the musicals mentioned! (i'd be surprised, there are a few hard ones in there...)

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALISON WHO GOT THEM ALL RIGHT!! she knew all of them without cheating!! yay!!

feel free to post your answer or try to stump me with your own musical challenge!

don't you love it when things just work out for you?
yeah, i always like that. :0D let's just say that i had a spankin good time last night! (all within the comfort of my own home of course, while staring at the computer...)

well, i have an appointment to get my teeth x-rayed today (wisdom teeth) and a horseback riding lesson. should be pretty fun!

ick. i have a cold. not a horrible one, but enough so that i'm coughing a lot. :-/ well, i should probably get going on something productive!

I DON'T WANT TO STUDY OVER SPRING BREAK!!
it's not fair!! my biology SAT II is in 2 weeks! NOOOOOOOOOO!! i don't want to learn about cellular respiration and organic chemistry and all that other stuff i never bothered to learn! i have to learn 26 pages of the stuff per day to finish by sunday! ugh! i'm taking the molecular test (as apposed to ecology). in my prep book, the molecular section is 91 pages long and the ecology is 15. DOES THIS SEEM FAIR TO YOU?!?! *tear*

oh well. it'll give me something to do. otherwise i'll be bored out of my mind.

my weekend was cool, though!

saturday: studied for the SAT II, washed my hair, and partied with friends! we went to santana row and ate dinner at a YUMMY pizza place and then saw thoroughly modern millie at amtsj. :0) then we ate yummy chocolate and cream cake from max's (oh yeah, i hafta plan a bday party...) and watched snl until about 1:30.

sunday: woke up at 7:30 and was off to the horse show. bullpenned ivy and waited for casey to ride dante (very uncusseccfully....you have to get the horse GOING to jump the fences, even if they ARE only 1'6''...) so i could hop on. warmed dante up, went over some fences in the warm-up ring (BEAUTIFULLY) and waited. rode my first two classes, hopped off and gave dante to monkey (aka sara...there's like 5 sara(h)s at my barn) and got ivy. hopped on ivy, rode around, took a few warm up fences and rode my second 2 classes.

then i rested. well, until mary came. then i helped her sign up for classes and get richmond. THEN i rested.

tacked up ivy again and rode my lil hunter hack class. i was sooo lazy.

here's the lowdown on ribbons:

Warm Up Hunters-2' 5th (Dante)
Novice Hunters-2'-2'3'' 4th (Dante)
Novice Equitation Over Fences-2'-2'3'' didn't place (Ivy)
Open Equitation-2'3''-2'6'' 5th (Ivy)
Open Hunter Hack-2'3'' 6th (Ivy)

I SOO did not deserve to place in open eq. i was sooo tired and my equitation was CRAP. ha. go figure. there were like 15 ppl in the class too. i was so proud of my horseys though!! it was dante's first show and he's usually all pissy when he has to go alone. both ivy and dante hate scary looking fences and they were both so good! :0D

then i had my clarinet lesson, choir, and youth group.

Jerry finally announced the cast list for the musical!! yay!!

I am: Kezzy not that that means a thing to you. LOL!

I open the show (yay!) and have like half of a song, plus a few solos here and there. here's the parts:

Kezzy: Kezziah Wesley, the youngest Wesley sister (Me)
Hetty: Mehetebel Wesley, later an author (Courtney)
Suzanna: Mother of them all (Christina)
John: John Wesley, called "Jack" by his family and friends (Andrew)
Charles: One of the most famous hymn writers of all time (Kyle)
Sophy: American lady, courted by John (singing role only) (Annie)

so that's that. ummm *yawn*. how bout i NOT study? okay. ugh.

wow, i haven't updated in a while!
so...today was the day of silence honoring the ignorance of people towards gays, lesbians, bisexuals and transgenders. how come i wasn't told this before 5 minutes into 1st period?!? well, i was pretty silent. i slipped up during lunch and said, on average, 5 words/phrases per class. after school i totally blew it, seeing as it was my last horseback riding lesson before the show on sunday. oh well. next year i'll be better.

now i'll review my week.

monday: a pretty typical monday. yup.
tuesday: actually DID homework after horseback riding!! organized binders, studied, and cracked open my SAT II book. i was so proud...:-)
wednesday: not the best day. my cell phone was stolen second period and we had to watch MSS leave during fourth. *tear* considering what a crappy day it was, i really wasn't too phased. i was uncannily calm and collected. weird.
thursday: spent time revising my essay (yay for me!) and went shopping!! got some *ahem* stuff... ended up getting $26 back when i exchanged my american eagle shirt!! WOOHOO!
friday (today): tried to be silent, turned in my essay, horseback riding, home. *yawn*

oh, and i got a new cell phone on wendesday afternoon-- we couldn't cancel the service without a continually active phone. IT'S SOOOO COOOL!!! i don't need a phone this sophisticated. it's color, has a camera, can log onto AIM and the internet, (i can check my e-mail on it!!) has covers that you can MAKE, and has funky games and stuff. it's pretty darn spiffy. i felt really guilty getting a neato cell phone right after mine was stolen.

number's the same, 823-1137. call me! text me! (my answering machine is SOOO dumb right now, and i haven't figured out how to change it yet...*blushes*)

sooo...should have an exciting spring break swimming, dancing, hanging out with anyone who wants to (oh, and someone who probably doesn't want to...*rplls eyes*) and studying for the biology SAT II. joy.

well, i'm glad i have a break; i'm sleepy.


Who's your inner classic movie star?

quiz...boredom...
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "too. When I returned to the wedding party, the dance was" -The View From Saturday

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: the window

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: i haven't watched tv in a while...ummm The Food Network at the end of the lock-in

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 5:21

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 6:03

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: the hum of the washing machine

7: When did you last step outside?: this morning, to get in the car and go to church

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?: my friend's list

9: What are you wearing?: blue denim whisker-wash shorts, my new bright magenta cami and my beautiful shawl

10: Did you dream last night?: yes. they were all very creepy. i can't really remembenr what they were about, though.

11: When did you last laugh?: this morning in sunday school, as everyone made fun of my love life...or at something andrew said...MY GOD HE CAN PLAY TRUMPET! (andrew, tenor, trumpet, AP student at Gunn, junior...)

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?: 2 puzzle paintings by BH Freeland, light green paint, an ivy vine (real), a painting of a waterfall in maui, tacky easter bunny lights, a shelf with a quilt hanging from it

13: Seen anything weird lately?: ummm...i don't think so...?

14: What do you think of this quiz?: eh...

15: What is the last film you saw?: Radio. (well, a whole movie: School of Rock. in the theatre: The Prince & Me)

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: clothes!! the love of my life!! (wait, that can't be bought....damnit!)

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: i'm actually having a hard time beginning my 'economic reasons for the start of WWI' essay for freeman. i NEVER have problems with freeman essays.

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: Make people realize that prejudice is wrong and gays deserve the right to marry.

19: Do you like to dance?: YES!! DANCE DANCE DANCE DANCE!

20: George Bush: Go away!

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: i have no idea

22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: Sean?

23: Would you ever consider living abroad?: possibly. does london count? haha. maybe france!

fasting
woohoo!! i successfully fasted between 6:15 yesterday evening and 6:15 tonight! we raised over $1,000 for the heiffer project!!

it really wasn't that bad. there were 11 of us, 9 youth, 2 councilors. we had a spanking time at the lock-in with our video scavenger hunt, games, and movies. i love my youth group. :0D

right, well, i'm pretty sleepy. had a great horseback riding lesson on friday, and a super time learning how to dive in p.e. i'll stop being redundant and drag my weary body around the house now...haha.

ahhh omg must add this. i bought the CUTEST tube dress at anthropologie last weekend (it LOVES me, it's pastel blue and green on top of white) and my mom bought me the CUTEST shawl from charlotte russe! yay for easter outfits!

happy easter to all you christians out there, and happy passover for all you jews! yay for everybody!

take her home! she's wasted! YAYY!!
(those are lyrics. no, my dirty mind doesn't support mentally inhibited sex!)

ohhhhhhhhhhhh. baby. yesterday was goooooood. spent my morning talking to guys. i realized in the shower that i had flirted with one guy from each grade level within the period of about an hour. (fresh-senior) NICE!

well, ya know how i have my priorities? they've changed! and OH MAN am i happy. :0D i had an especially wild time with *insert name of man from HEAVEN here*. oh my God. it was beautiful. and i needed it SOOO badly.

cybering must have been heaven sent. thank you, Lord. *looks up and smiles*

safe, erotic, and shameless! IT'S PERFECT!

now for some action in person...hehehe...;-)

omg huge grr. we didn't get to sing in church today!! WE EVEN APPEALED AND WORE OUR CHOIR ROBES OUT IN THE SANCTUARY!! but nooo. it's palm sunday! we want to sing! we neeeeed to sing! DAMN YOU, JERRY AND SPRING BREAK! *pouts* that was dissapointing.

i got to hang out with andrew, though! yay! we were part of the passion narrative. fun stuffers! oh, and OUR TEAM WON JEAPORDY!! *PHFTHHHHT!* and it WASN'T simon of cyrano. haha. great times.

what were the color of the robes jesus was said to wear during the ascention?

a.purple
b.yellow
c.white
d.unknown

me: WHERE THE HELL DID THEY GET PURPLE AND YELLOW?!?!
andrew and annie: shhh!! it's not our question!!
me: oops...

don't worry, there were some harder questions. ;-)

anthropologie splurge, (yay for gift certificates) cast list posted, choir, and youth group tonight. yay!

the fast begins friday at 6:00. we will serve communion to each other to being the fast, and then live on nothing but fruit juice and water (yeah...why fruit juice? that seems like cheating to me!) for 24 hours. our time will be spent having fun and having group discussions about world hunger. oh, and i'm sure there'll be some silent prayer, seeing as it's GOOD FRIDAY. *tear* anyone want to come to the maundy thursday service with me? *hint hint new boytoy in my life who's a METHODIST hint hint* they turn out the LIGHTS *hint hint* :0D

HAHA I LOVE YOU LOUISE!
Horseeyoregal: ORGASMIC
Wheezy6125: so then their all at dinner eating it and tita's sister Gertrudis starts getting 'hot and passionate' as some would say. i would say 'twitchy and horny and definately stoned on something inorganic'
Wheezy6125: so Gertrudis is getting all sweaty and rose scents starts coming out of her pores and she RUNS to the outdoor shower
Horseeyoregal: HAHAH!
Wheezy6125: and meanwhile, her smell has drifted down to the battlefield of the mexican revolution and this sexy hunky general who saw her the other day (and gertrudis was fantasizing about him when she was eating her cosmic horn inducing chicken) he goes riding towards the aromatic rose cloud
Horseeyoregal: HAHAHA
Wheezy6125: and she's naked in the outdoor shower and she's so hot it the water evaporates before it touches her and the shower explodes
Horseeyoregal: now that's unreasonable

(explaining some steamy spanish literature to me...LOL!)

FUCK! it sucks to be me!
in sadies related sentiments, two words come to mind: passionate and exciting.

oh wait. no. nevermind! ;-D

the two words are: denial and boy scouting. well, i suppose i've been doing both for a very long time. well, 'doing' one, 'experiencing' the other. well, now that one of the two is realized, i think i can fully devote myself to the other. or can i?

i know what i want. and i know quite a bit about my options. i can think of 5 guys right now who would easily fulfill the desire that is currently lacking in my life. (aka, a little romance, more physical contact, and a fun date who's actually willing to dance with me and touch me a little.) yes, 5. all of them close enough friends (well, make that 4) that i wouldn't feel uncomfortable with them, and trust them enough to let myself go a little.

but gosh. i'm already such a bitch in the sense that i lead guys on...wouldn't that be the same thing? i wrote a poem last night, but it's not like i needed that to tell me that i'm not willing to let go. i say it almost every day: i have my priorities! and i know where they lie. but i think i'm ready to break through the security of knowing that i'll never be touched unless i start it.

i honestly desire a little physical affection. NOT MUCH, mind you, and we all know what happens when guys take it too far with me, but DAMN, i need SOMETHING! i've always been kind of a physical person. i've had my limitations, of course, but i like hugs. i don't have a hard time showing my affection in physical manners. i like being close in the mental sense as well as in the physical. i find great comfort in snuggling into someone's arms. i don't mean to be needy, but doesn't everyone need some physical affection sometimes?

well, onto my poem. i wrote this after i got home last night.

Purity

A cup of water, filled to the brim
Full of life, experiences
Openly proclaiming choices of old
A dash of dirt for taking a chance
A bit of sand for losing himself in her eyes
Though unmistakably pure.

Another glass,
So full it spills over with life and fulfillment
Cloudy with decisions yet to be made
A thin line of silt rests at the bottom
For risking her family's trust
Going on a whim, passion replacing reason.
Less bland to the taste, willing to share her flavor
But deep inside, she wants to be pure.

She wants her life to mix, new ideas,
different water to replace some of the weakness within her own cup
She's seen the effects of mixing with a cup full of mud,
of decisions negative and a troubled past
She'll only mix with the purist she can find,
The who she secretly wishes to be,
At least to live up to the high standers of his accomplishments

As she tries to get closer, her impurities begin to spill out
She regrets her 'spur of the moment' nature
And longs to be reminded of how it is one ought to be
His clear, crystalline water slowly pours into her soul
She's renewed with puritanical visions she can't quite grasp
And curses inwardly as the water slowly trickles away,
knowing that she is unable to wash away the dirt from her past.

A thin film resides on her water, cautious of failure and bad influence
But easily broken with the slightest touch
A heavy filter surrounds the second
Allowing no one to see in, pushing away the ones who want to enter,
Changing them before their world blends with his
A hopeful stream against a dam of boulders.

Forever hopeful, she tries again
To break past the sheild
She wonders what he'd think if he saw her every move
Allowing him to analyze her life
In hopes of one day being able to pass through the filter with ease

Sweaty hands push them together, one film breaks,
one grows stronger.
As one pushes for more, the other avoids its touch
Though breaking a while, in between attempts to love,
The ever hopeful impurity struggles onward.

Finally it becomes too much.
Too many hands, dirty and curious
Trying in vain to mix the two
Who should "obviously be together"
The filters close, and push the other glass away
Telling her that he's not worth her time,
Let him be! Go on without him.

She wants him still
Admiring him from a distance.
Longing for just one more sip of his crystaline purity
More dust collects at the bottom of her glass
She tires again, draws him closer, but her thirst is not quenched
She can't stop trying. She wants it too much.
The desire to be pure. All she wants is to be pure.



interesting, no?

well, with advice from my wonderful friends greg and francesco, i've made a very unstable decision. i think i'm going to pursue other friendships with the potentential of becoming closer. i'm going to make it clear that these relationships are friends-only, in hope that they won't think of me as something more.

well, want to hear about the party? of course you do!

so we all had a little get-together at they hayman's at 6:30. the turnout included, me, jeff, ross, dmitry, dmitry's date, (who is SUPER COOL!) sarah, charlie, shannon, henry, eleanor, alex, ali, lisa, lisa's date, (funny guy!) christiana, and terrance. did i forget anybody? *thinks* i'm not sure.

we had a fun time playing the piano, me thinking that piano players are sexy (wait, i do that EVERY time i'm at jeff's house!) played some pool, talked a lot, flirted with christiana and lisa (yes, you read it correctly) was possessive of jeff, smelled terrance, slapped some asses, and had a merry little time! oh, and we ate yummy food, thanks to brenda and becky!! <3 you! oh! mackenzie was there too!

inside jokes: do you have gel? i'm being WATCHED! NO! THAT'S TOO SEXUAL! omg! they're not attached! lots of singing. you're my bitch! what kind of animal is this? SHUT UP AND EAT! i just wanted to see how long it'd take you to be quiet. fair enough. perhaps.

and uhh...yeah!! that's sadies!

conversations
Horseeyoregal: go have fun being hot and steamy!
PyroFran203: but talking to u about being hot and steamy is sooo much fun
PyroFran203: :-P
PyroFran203: hahahahahaha
Horseeyoregal: *pants*
PyroFran203: haahhahahahaha
PyroFran203: isnt this getting amusing?
Horseeyoregal: of course!
PyroFran203: duh
PyroFran203: its always amusing talking to melissa
PyroFran203: :-P
Horseeyoregal: aww thanks

SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: god im like obsessed with you
Horseeyoregal: hahaha
Horseeyoregal: was that meant for me?
Horseeyoregal: HAHAHAH
Horseeyoregal: ROTFLMAO
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: OMG I LOE YOU MORE
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: like somtimes when im around you i get this weird feelling
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: and sometime i just wont be
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: able to control it
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: and im just gonna JUMP on you
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: like a WILD
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: animal'
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: and im gonnna ruff sexxx you to the BREAK of DAWN..
Horseeyoregal: HAHAH
Horseeyoregal: i'm soo fucking excited!
Horseeyoregal: let's do it!

i'll add one more when i feel like it about me in french class today. funny stuff.

**finally added 4/3/04**

dans la classe de francias, mercredi dernier:

(pour un exercise)
melissa: J'aime les gens qui sont tres gentilles et qui aiment la musique classique. (actually, it was a different sentence, but i can't find it in my cahier. sorry!)
class (especially charlie, sarah, and ali): *laughs*
mme youatt: pourquoi est-ce que vous risez? vous soyez le garcon qu'elle dit?
class: oui.
charlie: il est ancien.
mme youatt: *confused expression* quoi?
charlie: il est comment dit on 'junior'.
mme youatt: oh, oui, pas ancien. *laughs*
charlie: oui, il a seize ans.
mme youatt: a quelle prof est-ce qu'il apprend le francais?
charlie: a vous!
mme youatt: oh! c'est jeff?
classe: oui!
mme youatt: oui, il est tres gentil et musical!
melissa: *dreamily* oui!
sarah: comment dit-on 'obsessed'?

notes
my good friend melissa (that's me!) just found this note between us from last year. ha. read on, read on.

melissa: could this BE more boring. Really, I don't think I could care less.
me: o i know...if he can act so well why doesnt he make it more interesting? jeez.
melissa: I know. I'm not convinced of his skills...ugh. this sucks. we have like over an hour of this class left...:-(
me: ugh...i think i'll keel over in a cornfield now
melissa: cornfield, huh? interesting...
me: more interesting than this, anyway
melissa: yeah. we should take a fieldtrip to a cornfield... fun.
me: haha...then we could all keel over. wahoo.

*melissa is melissa and ME is nicole

ahhh i don't want to swim for 2 hours tomorrow! but i DO want to look at hot swimmer bodies!

my horseback riding lesson (the tuesday lesson) is going to throw a kickass party 2 weeks from now. yes, kickass. you don't know these people. it shall be kickass.

SADIES IS FRIDAY!!! it needs to be friday NOW! AHHHHH!!! i need to get the bids. harhar. whoops.

I FOUND MY FRENCH SKIT FROM 8TH GRADE!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! BEAUTIOUS!

je dois pisser. again. assez pour maintenent. wow, that was FAR from gramatically correct. je dois baigner. a bientot!

survey time!
1. What time is it? 4:07PM
2. Name: Melissa
3. Name as it appears on birth certificate: Melissa Charlene Rose
4. Nickname: Mel (as started by my church family and later adopted by close friends, MelRose, as Mr. Freeman so LOVINGLY (EEK!) calls me, Squishy, from a certain encounter between my ass and Nat, and Chewy, as apparently Nat thinks my arms must be.
5. Number of candles on your last birthday cake: 15
6. Pets: 3 cats (i'm not strange!) 2 about 4 years old, brother and sister, Skittles and Mr. Mistoffolees, and a kitten, Amber (who we lovingly call 'kitty', 'kitten', or 'NO! get away from there!' and a tortoise named Tracy (gender unknown.) no seriously, the vet can't tell!
7. Natural hair color: blonde. it's soooo beautiful. or that's what i'm told.
8. What friend will have the most entertaining
answers?: who knows? i haven't even sent this yet!
9. How much do you love your job on a scale of 1 to
10: uhhh...depends on the day. 8, on average, i guess. we don't have to pay bills, but then again, we don't get paid. we get to learn some funky stuff, but then again, we have homework to do and some boring classes. we get to see our friends, but not often enough, though there's enough drama to keep us occupied all day.
10. Birth Place: Stanford Hospital in BEAUTIFUL california!
11. Current Residence: ma maison individuelle dans la rue south springer. c'est une bonne place d'habitude.
12. Favorite food: wow. i LIKE food. i'd have to say steak and garlic mashed potatoes. i also love anything pasta, and FISH. WOW I LIKE FISH. especially in maui, but any fish will do. yay for tuna sandwiches, cookie dough, taco bell, and anything fast!
13. Been to Africa? nope. it would be a nice place to visit, though. i'd have to go around singing 'we shall overcome' and random gospel melodies, though. ohhh and see all the pretty animals!
14. Been toilet papering: hahaha...no. i'm not that daring. seriously! it might be a fun thing to do at a party, though!
15. Love someone so much it made you cry?: SOOO MANY TIMES!!! i cried over dear jeffy (except that i didn't actually cry, but i was upset) just the other week!
16. Been in a car accident? nope. but mrs. olson has! and she's PREGNANT!
17. Croutons or bacon bits?: PLEASE! i love croutons and bacon bits!
18. Favorite day of the week: depends on what's going on! fridays and saturdays are generally good. sundays are the pleasant day in general.
19. Favorite word or phrase: "MON DIEU!" or..."squishy?!?!" or..."maybe i'm just hot!" or..."*drools at a hot guy*" or "really? *whatever was just said* relates to jeff! jeff jeff jeff, jeff this, jeff that, jeff jeff jeff etc etc"
20. Favorite Restaurant: for comfort food: taco bell. for nummy food: la fondue, or anything steak-ish
21. What you wanted to be when you grew up as a
child: as a child....well...i wanted to be a MAIN STREET SINGER, OF COURSE! FOREVER! hahaha. ummm, but really. some sort of musician, or maybe something relating to horses.
23. Favorite TV show: Survivor, American Idol, The O.C., anything good
24. What do you want to be when you grow up now?
now i think i'll be 1) a famous and respected broadway conductor 2) a well known theatre critic 3) a psychologist 4) a high school or junior high music teacher/school councilor/music therapist (all of the above, in that order)
25. What computer are you using now? my semi-flat screen dell pc
26. What color is your bedroom carpet? blue
27. Who sent you your last e-mail?: Alison!
28. Best place to max out ur credit card:
everywhere! ummm Charlotte Russe, PacSun, Nordstroms, Macys, Aeropostale, Gap, all of the above!
29. What do you do most often when you are bored?
go online and read livejournals of LAHS upperclassman who don't even know me. mwahaha! or sit in my room and listen to avenue Q, my oboe cd, or wicked
30. Most annoying thing people tell you: "he doesn't like you." FUCK YOU! i mean...i'd rather not hear that, thank you very much. or 'pull your pants up' that one gets me too, especially when said by mrs. satterwhite during mrs. williams' class.
31. Bedtime: it fluctuates. between 9 and 10 usually. if i'm having a good aim conversation, it can be as late as 2 or 3 on a weekend.
32. Pet Peeve: when people underestimate me. GAHHH does that piss me off!
32. Who will respond to this email the quickest?:
Melissa maybe? ;-) ummm...je ne sais pas.
33. Who is the person you sent this to that is least
likely to respond? je ne sais pas. jeff, peut-etre.
34. Weirdest thing you've ever seen: well...i really dunno.
35. Last person you went out to dinner with: nicole and louise and molly!
36. Ford or Chevy: who cares?
37. Time you finished this email: 4:24
40. Who is the slowest aka takes the longest time to
figure somethings out: m*******, because she's DUMB.
41. Who is the funniest out of your friends: ALL OF YOU ARE FUNNY!
42. Who is the quietest of all of your friends: n/a, maybe emily?
43. Who is the loudest of your friends: MEEE!!! or umm....idk.
43. who is the most perverted of all of your friends:
again, MEEE!! second would be...sarah, maybe? no, NICOLE.
44. who is the most wanna be pimp of your friends:
uhrm....n/a
45. What's your favorite color? baby blue
46. Best Actors: Johnny Depp!
46. Best movie: anything musical!
46. Best friends: many, many people. alison and nicole make the top two.
47. Favorite thing to do with each: kiss. JUST KIDDING!! shopping? theatre going? all of the above?
48. Say something about the Lion king: I WAS IN IT!! GOOOO SIMBA! ummm...it's better on broadway.
49. When do you get your biggest rush? when i'm in your arms. ;-)
50. If we were playing 'Ten Fingers', what would you lose a finger for?: the inevitable 'have you made out?' question, and then the 'have you ever been felt up' question. joy.

real entry later, for now, TAKE THAT! NOW I HAVE 2 PPL THAT SAY I HAVE A CUTE BUTT!! ONE FRESHMAN IN HS AND ONE FRESHMAN IN COLLEGE!;-p
Cookie4Nat: heeeeyy
Horseeyoregal: i just drank alcohol
Horseeyoregal: and it was ICKY
Cookie4Nat: o man....sitting on me...trying to strip me..i thought u were drunk already
Cookie4Nat: haha
Horseeyoregal: HAHA
Cookie4Nat: ;-)
Cookie4Nat: i wonder wut u would to do me when ur drunk:-*
Horseeyoregal: oohhh boy
Horseeyoregal: wouldn't you like to know
Cookie4Nat: o yess;-)...

Auto response from Horseeyoregal: lalala brb

btw, i just had a few sips of HARD liquor. and BOY WAS IT GROSS!! EWWW!

Horseeyoregal: omg
Horseeyoregal: good
Cookie4Nat: SIGH...!!!
Horseeyoregal: *whew*
Cookie4Nat: haha
Cookie4Nat: hehe
Cookie4Nat: strip me!! haha JK
Horseeyoregal: yeah u better be
Horseeyoregal: but i woudn't mind
Cookie4Nat: o really,....:-*
Horseeyoregal: so wait, i forget *innocent look* how does my ass feel again?
Cookie4Nat: hehe gooood
Horseeyoregal: and what was the adjective you used earlier today to describe it?
Cookie4Nat: sexy...
Horseeyoregal: nonono
Horseeyoregal: but it started with an 's'...
Cookie4Nat: squishy!
Cookie4Nat: haha
Horseeyoregal: yup
Horseeyoregal: haha
Cookie4Nat: haha well uve got a cute butt