:: 2003 23 December :: 9.43 pm

:-/
i think i mentioned a while ago how weird it was that the only communication i have with my dad (besides when he takes me to shows) is through AIM and how he tries to be all teenager-ish by using 'u' for 'you' and stuff. yeah. it's weird. but weirder still, he used the word 'gud' today. in context, it was clear that he meant 'good', but i have to think...WHERE THE HELL DID HE GET THAT?!?! gud...lol weird.

second item of business with my dad: he wants to go shopping with me. hrm. how do i get out of this? shopping with my mom is one thing, but shopping with my dad??? *shudder*

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:: 2003 22 December :: 7.30 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Evanescence-I Belive in You

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:: 2003 22 December :: 3.13 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: the stupid christmas pageant crap!! arg!!

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:: 2003 21 December :: 1.07 pm

uh oh...
i have a dilemma. i told jeff i'd be at the wassail party tonight, but i also have plans with church to go shopping at toys r us for needy children. now, the choice WOULD be easy, i'd just go to the wassail party, but honestly, what would i do there? i don't know like ANYBODY, and i'm not even sure what i'd be doing!! on the other hand, i have to spend my own money if i go shopping with the youth group for toys, but i'd definately get satisfaction and happiness out of it, PLUS i'd be comfortable with the people i'd be around. i dunno, i can just picture myself wandering around feeling stupid. hmmm...i'm really leaning towards the toys r us shopping...it's just a safer bet!! but then again, i told jeff i'd be there!! ahhh! i'd be okay if i had someone to go with, but the only person who'd want to go, nicole, is away seeing rotk, and i can't ask her. what to do, what to do??? i'm afraid to NOT go to the wassail party cuz jeff's expecting me, but i'm afraid to go cuz i think i'll be alone and feel stupid. *whine* oh i don't know!!

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:: 2003 19 December :: 7.59 pm

IT'S BREAK!!
yay!!!! it would have been nice to start the break a little happier, but oh well. my french final was...surprisingly awful. we had to write a little essay about throwing a birthday party for your best friend. first of all, WHO THROWS BIRTHDAY PARTIES FOR THEIR FRIENDS?? and second of all, what do you really do to set up for a birthday party? third of all, why would you go out AFTER the party, and then have all the guests leave?? i mean, i couldnt've written much on this topic IN ENGLISH let alone french!! ugh. oh well. it's over. *letting it go...* my horseback riding lesson also sucked. it was POURING. and for some reason the office thought i was gone from the barn until next year, so i wasn't on the list. i ended up riding Lulu, who tends to go crazy 1) in the covered arena (where we were riding cuz it was insane to try to ride in the rain) and 2) when it gets dark. (and it was dark by 5-ish.) so yeah. not fun. she's a really downhill thoroughbred who lost her left eye to an infection. did i mention that she's insane? yeah. so much for a good lesson.

should be a lazy day tomorrow. i'm not doing anything. that sort of seems like the doom of my holiday...at least after christmas. sunday, monday, and tuesday i have practice for the pageant, but once that's over...nada. i'm so jealous of all you guys who are going away!! not fair!! oh well. it should be quite amusing to make a complete fool of myself as a part in the pageant. our choir is singing all of this really old (and awful) music in latin and such and then the lines are like...poorly written and really modern-sounding. one of the worst is like 'wow! that's terrific!' my personal favorite, that i actually have to say, is 'oh francis, it's beautiful!' *insert gagging here* oh well. i have a feeling we'll have a lot of fun making fun of the whole thing behind stephen's back. i'm surprised he dared to write something that awful, though!!

on a random note, you no longer need a code to get a livejournal!! how weird is that?!? i would have DIED to be able to make myself a livejournal a year ago! oh well. i'm thankful that nicole found woohu and that we've made our own little community. screw livejournal, woohu's just as good!!

ooo nicole!! GUESS WHAT?!?!? PIZZA MAN'S SINGING AT OUR CHURCH ON SUNDAY!! no joke!!! my mom told me!! they're singing some christmas oratorio thing and mark invited some alumns (as well as therapist) to sing!! ahhh!! so you simply MUST come. i think thomas is in texas, but i'm sure i'd enjoy pizza man more sitting there with you. then we can whisper about him. lol. apparently he has more facial hair. well we'll see. maybe you can fantasize about him instead of mr. amarosa until he's over that other person. and it won't be the same to have ruthie, chris, and i do our pizza man and therapist dances... it's so weird to think about how long ago it was that we made that all up...

okay well. i'm done. sorry this didn't make any sense to most of you. hope you all have wonderful breaks!!

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:: 2003 18 December :: 3.04 pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: Clay AIken-Invisible

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:: 2003 10 December :: 9.11 pm

this is going to be rather random...i don't feel like being especially coherent. (not that i ever am...)

it's crazy how late i get back from the barn on tuesdays...

my lips are SOOO chapped. i've had a cronic stuffy nose so i have to breathe through my mouth at night, and i randomly wake up with new cuts in my lips...ya know when it gets really chapped and your lips just sort of crack? ick.

i haven't looked for any books on homosexual marriage OR appendicitis...both bibliographies have to have a certain amount of non-internet sites...crap.

dan, my newly forced-apon parterner for my appendicitis project, MIGHT bring a posterboard to school tomorrow to work on our poster, which is now optional. so basically, i did the entire project. and i just realized that i said i'd work with him on it at lunch tomorrow, but i have choral union tomorrow. great. i have his number, but i'm NOT calling him. crap.

i'm tired again. not cool. i don't want to get sick.

finals suck. i don't remember anything from any of the other chapters of bio, not to mention the one we're doing right now. and we have a test on friday. great.

the kitty (whose name is Amber, by the way...yes, this is a new thing) is now mingling with the other cats. and they're not killing her. i guess this is a good sign...

i'm REALLY starting to feel guilty about mr. smith's whole "you must work really hard and not slack off right now" speech. i read someone else's essay and it uhhh....wasn't so good...so idk. it has to be memorized by tuesday. ugh.

tomorrow should be lazy. well, unless mr. shaull get's really worked up. p.e., girls' ensemble, and french, in which we're watching a movie.

i really really don't want to be sick. *yawn* it makes me tend to space and be completely out of it and half alseep. or maybe it's just me. i don't know. well i'm cold and sleepy and not feeling well and worried about finals. and i'm kind of jealous about random crap that i shouldn't even be thinking about...and i won't elaborate. and my horseback riding lesson sucked. i got put on this random horse who's like everywhere and on his forehand and strong and evil to turn. grrr... alright...well. i think that's enough bitching for one day.

nevermind. one more thing. if it's possible, brian and my mom are making out with each other MORE than before.

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:: 2003 7 December :: 9.39 pm

WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?!?!
OH MY GOD. after seeing cirque du soleil with my dad, he took me out to dinner. between dinner and dessert, he gets all serious and is like: melissa, there's something really important i need to talk to you about.

HE THEN GOES ON TO GIVE ME AN ENTIRE SEX TALK!! OMG!! ABOUT HOW AIDS IS A HUGE PROBLEM AND THE STRAINS ARE GETTING STRONGER AND BLAH BLAH BLAH! AHHH!!!! AND THEN HE DID THE WHOLE 'YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING' THING! AHH!!!

okay, i've used WAY too many caps in the past few entries. i apologize. i'll try to stay less....hyper, i guess.

oh, and allegria was good. i liked that i knew some of the music. that was cool. alright, well, that's all for now. be glad you don't have a father who gives you AIDS/sex talks in nice restaurants.

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:: 2003 6 December :: 1.20 am

boys and HOLY F*CK!
so you're not in suspence, the HOLY F*CK was becuase SHIBOUNE POSTED A REPLY IN SCOTT HAYMAN'S LJ!! (okay, none of you but nicole will get this) OMG!! THAT IS SO F-ED UP!! WEIRD!! yeah, check it out. she has a xanga AND a LJ with the same username. *shudder* okay that was random.

news.

1) MY MOM KNOWS JEFF KISSED ME!! AHH!! AND GUESS HOW?? MRS. BIRRELL TOLD BECKY TOLD MY MOM!! HOW DID MRS. BIRRELL KNOW?? SHE SAW!!! YES, MRS. BIRRELL SAW JEFF KISS ME!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!

2)MY MOM'S GIVING ME PERMISSION TO DATE!! YESSSSSSSSSSS!!! (not that the negation of this was specifically mentioned to me EVER. but yeah...)

saw nutcracker. ali was awesome!! as was ruthie! fun times with sarah, sara, and nicole....we were a tad crazy. just a tad. sarah in her hoochy skirt, nicole in her peacoat...oh yeah baby. we were HOT.

apparently flirted with "george" (aka danny koehler) in the library today. WHICH I WASN'T!! he was whispering 'jeff hayman is soooo hot...i loooove jeff hayman....oohhhhh jeff...' and i was cracking up and smiling. all these sophmores in our bio class like look over and are like 'oohhh i see some body language goin on there!! mel and danny...ooooo' um no. like NO.

and I DO NOT FLIRT WITH (wow, i totally just blanked on his name....) ummm...DEVIN IN GEOMETRY!! I DON'T!! well...not intentionally!! sheesh.

take a look at louise and nicole's perception of my biggest fault. BOTH of them say something like 'being unable to NOT smile in the presence of guys" I'M SORRY, OKAY? I JUST SMILE!! I DON'T LIKE THEM!! STOP SAYING I FLIRT WITH THESE PEOPLE!! oh and don't even get me started on charlie...AHHHRGGGG!!

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:: 2003 4 December :: 4.23 pm

shtuff (pronounced how it's spelled)
so, i've decided not to go to the stag dance. why? well there are a few reasons. (in no particular order.)

1) no one's going
2) i realize that i'd much rather spend time with jeff, which, i realize, is impossible all month, but, as he said when i was trying to get him to ask me to homecoming, we can talk and hang out and have just as good a time without spending any money.
3) i never want to HAVE to be stag again.
4) the fact that i miss jeff's company so much has given me reason to believe that i'd feel awful dancing with anyone else. (which i definately would, even though it IS a stag dance, you don't necessarily have to dance with people you like, and jeff doesn't like to dance anyway.)

hmmm...2 reasons having to do with jeff, 1 having to do with everybody else. i sure hope the rest of you don't feel like i'm leaving you out. i guess it's not a change though, seeing as guys have ALWAYS been on my mind, whether i'm single or they themselves are...(that hasn't seemed to stop me yet...)

SOOO

my plans for friday include horseback riding and then going to dance connection's Nutcracker.

my plea:
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GO WITH ME TO THE NUTCRACKER!! I DON'T WANT TO BE ALL ALONE!!

thank you for your consideration. and don't say i never invite you to do things with me. there have been other such invitations in my journal. you have nothing to complain about.

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:: 2003 3 December :: 5.03 pm
:: Mood: angry

total number of expected voice lessons not recieved: 3

AGAIN, mr. troll fails to show up to give me my voice lesson. my mom's fed up. i'm getting a new teacher. maybe this one won't crack dry jokes about me loving to act but being "shy". or think that my head voice is fucked up. (which it is NOT according to mr. shaull.)

so, mr. troll, i have one last thing to say: SCREW YOU!!

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:: 2003 3 December :: 4.23 pm

I WAS FLOCKED!!
sorry for the random after-post, but i just remembered. I WAS FLOCKED LAST NIGHT!! heehee. so yeah, i didn't go crazy and put tons of plastic pink flamingo's in my yard and bushes. i was flocked by my dad. well, technically, by gabi and sarah, but y'know...

heehee. my house looks funky.

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:: 2003 3 December :: 4.11 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: memories of mss

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:: 2003 1 December :: 7.05 pm

okay okay, i'll go do my homework!

How old are you? (how cliche of me):	14
Do you like sports?:	yes. soccer, volleyball, and horseback riding
What kind of movies do you like?:	romance, chick flick, comedies, horror...anything
Are you a virgin? (Come on Claire, answer the question!):	YES
Do you get it?:	no
Are you a fan of pop culture from the 80's?:	no
Are your parents still together?:	no
What is your favorite article of clothing?:	depends...sweatshirts, i guess
Why is rap popular?:	it expresses the majority of teenagers...(nearly half of lahs has got to be on antidepressants)
Why are you taking this quiz?:	i found it in the random trombone player's that's on nicole's friends list
How'd you find bzoink?:	i didn't. i just clicked the link.
What kind of IM service do you use?:	AIM
What is your e-mail domain?:	sbcglobal
Are you a thespian?:	YES
How about a techie?:	YES (nicole and i are great)
Do you know what a techie is (explain)?:	someone who works lights/soud/backstage crap (okay, so we weren't really TECHIES) for a show
Are monkeys cool?:	sure...
Even tho they fling poo?:	i suppose...
Where do you rent your movies from?:	blockbuster
Is the movie theater a rip off?:	yes. because i'm ten times happier on jeff's couch...:0D
Do you go to concerts or shows?:	shows.
Is punk a fashion statement?:	no. it's ugly.
What time is it?:	5:41
Are you cold?:	no
Do your hands get cold if you type for a long time?:	no
Have you ever seen The Rocky Horror Picture Show?:	YES.
Did you find Tim Curry Sexy?:	yes, but it was SO annoying watching him in Clue after i figured out it was him...mr. body in drag....HAHA
Who is Billy?:	billy. you know him, right? duh! (sheesh, i dunno...)
Why can't Coke and Pepsi get along?:	they're two similar products competing...
Would you ever be a communist?:	no
Was communism just a red herring?:	ummm
Did you get that?:	no
Tim Curry really is amazing, huh?:	YES. very talented.
Ever heard Lucky Boys Confusion?:	nope.
What do you think of them?:	haven't heard em.
Do you read Shakespeare?:	not since summer at PYT
Do you like country music?:	a little
Do you find Tim McGraw strangely sexy?:	no
What about Faith Hill?:	nope
Do you like cats?:	YES!! A NEW ADDITION TO THE FAMILY ARRIVED TODAY!! cutest kitten EVER!!
Is my cat's name (Kia-Ka) weird?:	sort of
Have you kissed someone of the same sex?:	yes.
Do you support homosexuality?:	i'm doing a persuasive speech on homosexual marriage for my english final. YEAH.
Are labels bad?:	YEAH...but pc language isn't gonna change that. (i read a funny article on it today)
What about on food?:	that's good.
Do you have good friends whose last names you don't know?:	not like...THAT good.
Have you ever had lice?:	yes.
Do you have an online diary/jurnal?:	ya think?
Wanna give me the link?:	sure
Does having one make you emo?:	no
Or just more emo than you were before?:	idk...
Do you remember when no one knew what emo meant?:	yes, because i don't know what it means
Do you remember when Good Charlotte wasn't a house hold name?:	i do.
Is "Smells Like Teen Spirit" the only Nirvana song you really know?:	yeah....how did you know?
Did u c the episode of Room Raiders when the chik said Kurt Cobain wrong?:	no
Have you seen "Tupac: Resurrection"?:	nope
If not, will you?:	nope
Do you cut yourself?:	no, but i know those who do
On purpose?:	*rolls eyes* it's sad that i assumed that
Did a friend tell you about sex as a child?:	no, i was pretty innocent
Who is your hero?:	YOU. heather robinson. ummm...mr shaull. others.
Have you done drugs?:	no
Are you sXe?:	i'm not sure...is that short for sexy? if so, yes.
Do you know what that is?:	i just made a guess...am i right?
Is it wrong to be brutally honest, in your opinion?:	depends on the situation.
Does it bother you that my spelling sucks?:	not a bit
Do you know the difference between there, their and they're?:	i do
Have you had your wisdome teeth out?:	not yet
Why is 69 such a funny number to some people?:	gee, i wonder...
What about 420?:	i don't know that one
Who actually gets high at 4:20?:	keiran
Do you get high every day?:	no
Are you a lush?:	i'm not sure
Does your gf/bf hate it?:	maybe if i knew what that was...
Did you get that?:	no
Do you know what a lush is?:	no
Do you think lush is a weird last name?:	ummm
What is the weirdest way you've seen Ryan spelt?:	i've never seen it spelled differently than that
Are you bored of my quiz?:	a little, i have to go do homework
Did you take it cuz you were bored?:	yes, and for procrastination purposes
Do you like Christina Aguleria?:	no, never did
Does her song about her dad make you cry?:	i've never heard it
Have you heard "Touch of My Hand" yet?:	no
Do you get it on with yourself?:	no
Do you believe that "99% of people do and 1% lie":	no
Would you believe me if I swore I don't?:	no, especially if you're a guy
Really, my anti-depresants kill my sex drive
Who is Fred Larry?:	no idea
Why do I get so much junk mail?:	you're stupid
What will you do when you're done with this?:	homework
What time is it now?:	5:52
Do you like your middle name?:	no, because i hate the person i was named after...grrr
Are you glad I'm done?:	yes
I can keep going if you like =)

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:: 2003 1 December :: 5.36 pm
:: Music: Christmas Star (or something) y'know from girls ensemble...

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