sorry i haven't posted in a while...
I think i'm finally getting over my obsession with posting like twice every day. i just didn't have anything to write before. i dont really now either, but i'll think of something. hmmm what happened today? well...

2nd period: Math. easy peasy star test. i realize mr. mcgrady cannot read. that pisses me off. people need to learn to read. the star test was almost a joke. are 8th graders really gonna get 9.01 + 0.4 wrong? God, i hope not.

3rd period: French. thank God i'm writing this because i just remembered that I have to memorize 3 lines of my poem by monday. ummm we did boring stuff and read over a third poem. oh, how i love french poetry.

4th period: Science. umm evolution video and talk. ummm yeah. lauren machado copied more of my stuff. science really isnt that hard. and we go over journals IN CLASS. now how is it that she just like doesnt do things? she got all pissed off cuz i had a five dollar bill and wouldnt give her any money. since when is keeping my own money a crime? apparently i am a mean person and 'thats the last time she's ever doing anything for me.' whatever. she doesnt do anything for me anyway besides copy my science hw.

Brunch: yay. i had money. i bought myself pringles and peanut m&m's. mmmmm

5th period: Band. wtf is up with ppl and not being able to play a one octave scale on their instrument?? and secondly, not knowing what a major scale should sound like, or being able to read a key signature. u'd think this would be like, not possible to NOT be able to do, but it is... wtf was up with jon's scale? or adreena's? both didn't even sound like scales AT ALL!! i really dont have patience with the dumb ppl. you could've asked me to sing 'do re mi fa so la ti do' when i was like 6 and i couldve done it. i probably couldnt've sung arpeggio's off the top of my head but i would know when the notes were wrong!! and i am getting really pissed at charlie's oboe playing skills. HE SOUNDS LIKE A FUCKING DUCK!! (again, not a duck that's fucking...i'm not sure what a duck sounds like when they're fucking anyway...hahah lamo) he also looks like he's about to die or blow up when he's playing. his face gets all red and he blows his guts out. he's been playing for like 3 months...wtf is his teacher teaching him?? and what is wrong with the entire flute/clarinet/oboe section? why can't we play an easy rhythm without getting behind?? WHY?? I CAN!!! band is getting so frustrating...

Lunch: more food. i ate sooo much today. sandwitch, rollos, brownie, chips... o and i learned some new gossip stuff... it pays to sit with ali at the lunch tables!! hehe...jk. but yeah, i was enlightened... o and souhail's a bastard. do i look like the kind of girl that wud just go and have sex with ppl? and who the hell would want to have sex with me anyway? so why the hell did souhail go on about asking me 'where there were available rooms tonight, since i'm the expert...' I'M OFFENDED BY THAT!! I'M NOT SOME 14 YEAR OLD SLUT!! grrr fuck you souhail!! (and don't say 'sure, fuck me' cuz THATS NOT WHAT UR SUPPOSED TO SAY!!) i'm the one who's supposed to turn around that insult with 'gladly, when?' not you!!

6th period: English. grammar review (yawn) and flowers for algernon. at least we're more than half way through...he's losing intelligence already. i'm relieved, because in the original he has sex with this random lady that he meets for like 20 pages...and multiple times too...thank God they cut that out from the school version...with my luck i'd be the one reading it aloud... well, remembering that, i looked through my book for the sex parts, but i couldnt find any. its too long, i got sick of looking.... haha really, i'm not a slut. i would never actually DO IT, but the thought is appealing...

okay so now that i'm already off the topic of school, i'll start on after school. first stop Hallmark to get a charm for my mommy for mothers day. then on to the california ear institute to pick up Mom from work. then on to valley faire to find pants. very frustrating. maybe im just like REALLY picky about pants. i ended up getting a pair of pants and a pair of shorts. cute shorts. white with a green/blue/white belt. then home. and voila i am here. woohoo. too bad no one reads this thing. oh well.

PLEASE, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, NO MORE KISSING!!
WILL THEY GET THE PICTURE? I DONT WANT TO SEE THEM FUCKING KISSING EACH OTHER ALL DAY!! I WAS SITTIN HERE TALKIN TO PPL AND THEY JUST START MAKIN OUT ON THE COUCH AGAIN!! AHHHHHHHHHH!! what is it with that couch? haha jk. but it just like really pisses me off!!

hmmm. strange. i'm fine now. but its like every time i hear that kissing sound i freak out and get all pissed off. strange... ok now brian's put on this african chanting music REALLY FUCKING LOUD and i cant hear anything over it. SHUT THE FUCKING AFRICAN FUCK OFF!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! o what good is that gonna do? its gonna be on all fucking night!! o thank the lord for Sherri Elmer. she's here to look at a fucked up tree thing for the graduation night festivities and he turned it off. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. ok brian's like pissing me off. grrrrr... wow i musta said fuck or something like it like...a whole shitnoodle of times. haha. shitnoodle. ok i'm bored and this is boring and I HAVE A FUCKING MIDTERM AND A FUCKING ESSAY DUE FRIDAY!!! AND THEN A FUCKING HUGE ESSAY FOR SCIENCE DUE THE 20TH OR SOMETHING!!! ugh i wish they were all done!

i am so pissed off i could cry...hmmm maybe later...
i'm at the point where i have a complete motivation that says 'melissa, do ur hw. get ur shit done. just suck it up and write ur fucking essays' but i am completely lacking in the part where i actually get up and do stuff. i just really dont want to. i'd rather chill out and waste time and do nothing. school needs to be over and i need to have no responsibility for a few months. i'm sick of this shit. and i probably wouldnt be so pissed off, but i was reading (and have been since school got out) and mom and brian come back from the store and just stand there making out for like 5 minutes. i didnt look back, but when u stop hearing footsteps and voices, and only hear the sounds of making out (idk, just like lips coming apart and kissing noises) you just know they've gotta be making out. and ya know what? I CANT HANDLE THAT. i just cant. i just go crazy and and depressed and pissed off. and so thats how i feel right now. and since i've just had 90 minutes of pointless history, came home, read for like an hour without getting any joy from it because i was feeling bad for not working, and now gotten to experience my mom and her boyfriend making out in the kitchen for over five minutes, i dont feel too good. i dont know what i want to do right now, besides just like die. end it. and i'm not like seriously being suicidal, its just that it seems like it wud be an answer, just to get away from things. i think the making out just set me off. i'm just like really really depressed right now. hmmm these lyrics are good. this song, good charlotte-cant go on. except that its 'cant go on without you' and i really could. well, thats depending on who 'you' is referring to. but yeah. but really, if i just delete the words without you, its like perfect for my feelings right now. lets just say i'm not too worried about forgiving and forgetting anymore. cuz i haven't. so its not a problem. but WHY THE HELL DOES IT STILL HAVE TO BUG ME??? ugh.

dude, i am such a teenager. i went from one week of being horny as hell and thinking of guys and doing shit all day long and now i'm feelin like if any guy got near me i'd punch um in the balls quicker than i'd kiss um. well thats excluding andrew cuz he's a nice church boy and...yeah. man, i feel like crap. and i dont know what to do about it, cuz i dont know what wud make me feel better. besides getting all of my hw done. and i said earlier, i dont have the will to do it. but i know i'll be screwed if i dont. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! i cant handle life, i cant handle having all this time on my hands. HOW DO YOU ALL DO IT?? ok i need to like go do something. fat chance. life sucks.

well i've just been hangin out at church ALL WEEKEND!
but its been sooooo much fun. haha we were supposed to be off book for the play on saturday. haha we had rehersal from 2-6. no one had their lines memorized. well andrew had like the first page (haha) and i had like all of it SORT OF not at all memorized. and christina had like half. but actually thats a lie, thomas knew like all of his. but as jesus he really doesnt have as many as christina and me and andrew. hehe me and andrew....hehehehe. come to the show, u'll see that like andrew and i get like scenes together and we like sit together the whole show. its niiiiice... i am such a lovesick fool. i had no crush really on him before this whole thing...well sort of, but now that i'm doing this show with him its like i like him all of a sudden. its really hard to look him in the eye when i say my lines. and he doesnt have that great of a voice, but when he like randomly sings its REALLY sexy...well singing just IS sexy. so i think i'm like developing a major crush...well I KNOW that i'm developing a major crush. hehe. its goooood. so yeah. darnit stuff kept happening like sexy stuff between me and andrew and i was all like 'ooo i'm gonna post this in my blog' and then now i forget. oo yeah. i was singing respect and jerry's like moving me around (she's a fucked up lady and dancer, dont ask me why she was trying to have me do movements) and at the ending when i sing 'a little respect' like over and over i'm supposed to get closer and closer to him. and i'm like yeah it just ends like this, what should i do? and christina's like KISS HIM!! cuz i was like so close to his face....hehe. i sorta turned red cuz i seriously wudda been like YESSSS! but i was embarassed cuz andrew was sorta grinning (hehehe) and so i said like 'but i'm supposed to be mad at him...' and sat down. hehehe. so thats saturday.

today: church at 8:45. nicole came again. sunday school wit stephen cuz our bitchy teachers were in michigan. we talked about ummm..giving stuff to God. we already did that lesson. i swear we've done this whole book. we did it like 2 years ago so only the 8th graders remember. ugh. church at 10:00. haha kyle comes up to me and he's like 'melissa, acolyte' i was like what?!?! but i did. and i also had to read the gospel so it was sort of interesting. hectic service. then pizza and lunch and sitting with andrew again and hehehe. haha with my luck he has my sn somehow (cuz like he wondered if my sn was the same as my e-mail?? just makin something up here...) and is reading all this. haha. that PROBABLY aint gonna happen tho. so yeah. good lunch... then rehersal from like 1-6. andrew and i have to have a prop (that isnt made yet) for some of our lines and we had to bring pictures for this thing (another story) and he took the pics of me and was like 'ooo these are nice pics. lets use these' hehe so i started cracking up in the middle of my line when he pointed to my nose and was like 'these symbols are really unclear, what do u think this one is?' (cuz thats his line) and i just couldnt respond cuz my line is 'oo tough one. it could be tree but it might be wood' haha and it was my nose...hahaha. ok u had to be there. so yeah. sexiness with the 'nice pics' comment. he's not that cute, but like, oddly charming. you know how that is. so yeah. fun times. but jerry's coordination or brains or something is going and she CANT DIRECT FOR SHIT AND ITS PISSING THE WHOLE CAST OFF!! esp. me and andrew and thomas (hehehe thomas...sexy) because we are like musical-ish and it pisses us off when she cues us wrong. grrrrr.... ok i've gotta go to bed soon. so dinner (nice tri-tip fancy shit cuz some committee made us dinner to thank us for raising money or something...idk) and chocolate cake. mmm. then we got to take the roses and we played with them. thomas is very talented. he can balance it on his chin and walk around. very cool. we were all joking that he has 'powers from God' cuz he's jesus in the play. haha. sexy... awww but chris had to have Thumper, his bunny, put to sleep. it was really sad. ummm then we had youth group and did nothing but highs and lows. dinner took so long that we just ended up leaving after that. so i'm basically done. after riding in the elevator with chris, ruthie, and nicole for like 10 minutes, we decided we had to go. and now i'm here, drinking a diet vanilla coke...its really strange. so there's my weekend basically. really fun hanging out with the gang at church and rehearsing for the play...but OMG WE HAVE 2 MORE REHEARSALS!! AHHH! and my lines STILL arent fully memorized. ahhh! well when i post the date and time of the show U'VE GOTTA ALL COME SEE IT!!! hehe. u can see if u think andrew's hot and see sexy thomas. haha. fun fun fun! goodnight! STAR testing shit tomorrow...ugh.

ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU YAHYA!!
well actually you didnt do anything. but its because of your lj that I FOUND JEFF MARTIN'S LJ!! ahhhhh!! sexy!! i musta spent an hour just reading the whole friggin thing. it was fun. hahah shrek is hilarious. hehehe. so yeah. that was really fun. but now i'm screwed. i still hafta do like 2 pages of my english lit packet and memorize my lines...i only have 22 (which is a lot for this play) but 2 of um are friggin monologues. i have a new favorite word...well, idk how it compares with shitnoodles. its bigass. shitnoodles is more original. but bigass is just fun to say. haha. i have a bigass big ass! hehe.

talent show was great last night. although i admit i was jealous of nicole doing the spots. its okay though. i got to sit down and she didnt so HAHAHA! good little gymnasts they have at almond. and annie dow sounded really really good. (singing.) interesting dancers...ummm can i say what the fuck was up with that 5 year old strip dancer? a little bit WAYYY TOO SEXUAL there. esp. for a 5 year old...well kindergardener. sheesh. she even did the butt walk. (ask ali for a demo) but anyway mucho funno. i keep thinkin bout this thing tho...it pisses me off!

just to be random: i think i'm way too good at forgiving and forgetting. like too good for my own good. yeah. try to figure that one out.

sooo ummmm life will get crazy in an hour. rehearsal starts at 2:00 and we're supposed to be off book. now what kind of biznach play (haha i dont even know what biznach means but i like the word and it sounds derrogatory so i hope it works) makes you memorize ur lines one week after the first practice with scripts??? o well. shud be fun anyway. :0D i shud be doing shit and not writing. like english packet shit and script memorization shit. i am in for some BIGASS SHITNOODLES!! hehe. :0D

music...it means so much
when you sit down and settle in for a night of AIM and dowload-listening, do you ever come across a song that suddenly touches you? like the lyrics are EXACTLY what you're feeling or thinking? or that you're feeling a certain way and you happen to click on a song that portrays that feeling perfectly? i keep listening to all these songs and at random moments, find ones that really, like...portray my feelings exactly, or could be words that people have said to me, just in a song. and its like, really spontanious too. i suddenly realize that the lyrics mean something to me. and its kind of scary sometimes how the lyrics fit so perfectly with my life. do you ever feel that way?

maybe thats why music means so much to me. because i can relate to it. it portrays feelings. such passionate feelings, too. maybe its just a music people thing. ya know, band ppl, singer ppl. well i'm both. its no wonder there's that saying that the band ppl reproduce themselves like rabbits. its the music. its almost like drugs or something. ok i'm like really emotional right now, so i sound like a strange musicaholic. oh well. just thinking...

haha shitnoodles. i was talking to ali about dance team ppl, and sara was there. i luv u sara! and i'm really really sorry. congrats, ali, though. well, no duh. :0D jazz and ballet 4 (4/5?) has got to make like ANY school team...

well i luv u all. talent show tonight. i've been reading a lot and not doing my long term hw. i am in for it. and i hafta memorize my lines by 2 tomorrow. shitnoodles. haha. i like that. ta ta for now. and remember: SHITNOODLES!!

haha...can girls be horny? or is it a guy thing?
well either way i'm in one of those moods. all this talk of scott and nicky and gabe... haha. also mtv. but i still dont understand this obsession with kissing. a few examples:

Georgia Nicholson. she does nothing with Robbie besides kiss him!! and like...it sounds so good! haha the snogging scale and all. (this is a book, for those of you who are really confused) so like...they just get together and kiss a lot. i dont get it. maybe i just havent had the best kissing experiences. plus, like, she knows what to do. she said they snogged for 35 minutes one time at his house. am i like totally lame and uncreative? i'm thinkin, what the HELL would i do for 35 minutes? i really think i would get bored. i guess its different if you really really like the guy and you just really want to kiss him. cuz really, right now, i dont get it. and it pisses me off! i want to experience THE JOY OF KISSING!! so yeah. if you think i like you, KISS ME! haha. no don't. chances are i'll never talk to you again. haha. but yeah. i want that kind of relationship. to like, just kiss. and for the guy to like, just be happy with that. cuz really, Robbie never seems like he just wants to get into her pants. he's just content with kissing. i dont know ANY boys that would be 'just content with kissing'. maybe i'm just unfortunate... but like, i'd wanna talk too. but right now i just want kissing...yeah...

MTV. especially 'dismissed'. its crazy. the girls just like go for it. and they like DO STUFF too! tongues, varied pressure, interesting things. maybe i'm just not adventurous enough to be a good kisser. MAYBE I NEED LESSONS!! ooooo. can i decide who i want to give me lessons? hehehe... i want that hot guy from Oaklahoma. curly hair...OOO YEAH.

ok so yeah. i've been thinking of kissing...and other naughty things...hehe. ya know how u just sorta have those moods? (ur all thinking i'm a horny slut, arent you? hahahaha) not the case. hehe. i've said too much. so i'll just say more. i really dont like the fact that babies have to be involved with sex. its not fair!! really! can't we just like...do it...and like...not hafta worry about that? babies can come some other way...ya know? ok there's another thing that bugs me. who the hell invented the slang 'do it'. i mean, obviously someone who wasnt a virgin. so if they've 'done it' why are they afraid to say so? sex. sex. sex. its really an easy word to say. well i mean, for some ppl i guess. and just like, that the general word 'do' has a known double meaning. i mean, u can say 'i want to do you' and any person (besides a few asian girls our age...omg that was so racist...but they like DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT SEX...i mean, take risa, no offense) and ppl would know what u meant. i think its sort of immature. i mean, if you're going to talk about it, just say it! haha. okay that was sort of random. i need to go and lay down on my bed and fantasise since i dont have anyone to let this all out on anymore...well, i'm sure i do, but he's not online so i can't. haha. to think that we suggested 'the woods'. haha. 'into the woods...to blahblahblah and mine would be into the woods...to have sex with a guy....haha' I AM NOT A SLUT, OKAY? just want to make that known. i'm normal. maybe a bit more uhhhh needy than the rest of the girls...but umm yeah. haha. and i get pissed of when guys act too horny. sorry guys. :0(

track meets make me lonely...
hmmm. mother says that the lahs drama dept is opening a play tonight. could be fun... i have 3 books. i am already 89 pages into 'dancing in my nuddy-pants' louise, i'll probably be done by tomorrow. never fear. ok i'm bored.

4th period: Science. thank you lord, we get an extra week on our projects. ummm we discuss scientific stuff...and ummm...o yeah, a lab. cool. its about white and brown mice dying or living. like a game. our group got a little too into it. thomas (as in thomas and leo) was chanting for the death of all brown mice. haha. to lauren machado: trenti, navini, tommi. haha. good times.

5th period: Band. HOW STUPID ARE YOU PEOPLE? DO U UNDERSTAND THAT A MAJOR SCALE (no matter WHICH one) WILL SOUND THE SAME IN ANY KEY? THAT MEANS THAT IF YOU ARE PLAYING YOUR SCALE AND IT SOUNDS MINOR OR MAJORLYFUCKEDUP, ITS WRONG!! GOD!! CAN U JUST LIKE...NOT PLAY OR SOMETHING??? I MEAN, TO PLAY ONE ACCIDENTAL WRONG IS ONE THING, BUT TO NOT NOTICE AND PLAY IT WRONG 4 TIMES IS STUPIDITY!! MAN!! ok i'm done now. ppl need to learn how to play their scales, thats all. scott-ish tryptic stuff. joy. charlie needs to learn how to play oboe. his obnoxious sound is getting to me. and its truly obnoxious. if u want a reason to not ever play oboe, listen to him play. u'll think that it sounds so ugly and duck-ish that it should never have been made. its not true. u really can get a better sound out of a double reed. really, you can. just ask me for a demonstration.

Brunch. joy. no food. some talk. ummm yeah.

6th period: English. STAR language finishing up. easy peasy. i work on my packet and write notes to brittany and rachel. funishness. older guys come up in our conversation so i figure what the hell and tell rachel the story. shameful, she says. haha. luckully i finished most of it before rounding the corner to get hot lunch cuz i was finishing up and saw deanna like right in the line looking at me. ooops...haha. i dont think she heard anything worth freaking out over. o shit, she's probably reading this. oops. i luv u deanna, u just sort of go crazy on me at times. but really, i luv you. *hugs* besides eating and mr sully just happening to go around the corner when mer kicks a green-rubber ball over there and catching it (HAHAHAHALMAO!!) nothing much happened.

7th period: US HISTORY. boringness times 100. that class is turning into a modern day Nazi death camp. really. i might just die of boredom. its tortue. okay, so maybe its not as bad as hard labor and machine gunned nazis, but its bad.

i came home and read. laffed a lot. good book. mother is leaving for the airport to pick up brian. he's found someone to lease his house. so its like, still his, but some other family is paying him to live in it. yes, that means he really is moving in. ummm yeah. no comment. i'll just say things will be different. u'll all sort of have to adjust to him answering the telefone some of the times. i'm truly sorry if he does. no need to comfort me, i'm really handling this well. honestly, i dont have much feeling for any of it. maybe i'm still numb from the whole thing. either way, numness is fine for me cuz if i cant feel it, it doesnt matter. plus i might get dsl and a new computer out of it. yesss!!

ahhhhh!!
KAZAA IS FUCKING WITH MY COMPUTER!! naughty, naughty kazaa...down boy DOWN. sheesh. so much for my computer's virginity. damnit, kazaa, ur FUCKING UP MY COMPUTER!! grrrrrr....

omg...
so i was supposed to have a voice lesson today from 4:30-5:30. i sat on the bench outside the room for 15 minutes and HE DIDN'T SHOW UP!! i felt soo stupid. i thot he was like really randomly in there playing really random fancy songs on the piano and not letting me in (cuz someone was playin the piano when i got there) but then some other guy came out of the room. i was like wtf? and looked in and no1 was there. so i wait a lil longer truly confused and there's nothing. i finally get up the courage to wander around until i see a teacher and ask if they've seen him. i find a nice looking teacher in a classroom and ask if she's seen him. nope, hasnt seen him, but she'll find his phone number for me. i say okay and walk back over and sit by the room where he shud have been teaching me to sing. she cant find me. (whoops, i probably should have stayed by her and followed her around). finally, figuring she doesnt know where the hell i am, i go back into the room and am VERY RELIEVED to find her in there. i was like 'so did u get the phone number?' and she's like oops sorry i cudnt find u i thot u went home. so she goes up into the office (i follow this time) finds the number and calls. leaves a message cuz he doesnt answer. i ask if i can call my mom cuz its so late i shud just go. she lets me. thank you, nice teacher! i owe you one. she also says she'll give him a hard time about it tomorrow. i call home. no answer. shit. i call cell. lots of rings. finally an answer. THANK YOU LORD! well, thank you mom for turning on the cell. she says she'll be there in 5. i wait. she gets there. (idk if 'in five' but who cares, i didnt have a watch) so yeah. i feel sorta stupid and embarassed. not a great feeling.

haha...nice title for a song...
ok sooo my day as always. (not that you care, but i think it'll be neat to look at in a few months/years.)

1st period: P.E. hockey. joy. i stood in the goal the whole time. i thot goalie was gonna be bad, but hey, all i had to do was stand there. ooo i think i might have found the coolest deoderant in the world. its spray stuff...very cool.

2nd period: math. more curve stiching. yay! poll about who's goin to lahs next year so mrs. massaro can place us for math i think. please please please place me in honors geometry!!

3rd period: french. umm turned in hw. not much to do. half the class is gone cuz of the history thing. fun. i sit by sarah. oo we rated the sevie's maps. fun.

Brunch: bitch about history STAR test and how we're all gonna fail. fun.

4th/5th period: History STAR test. i basically failed but did better than i thot i would. haha the sample question was probably the hardest! freaked us all out. o haha funny stuff happened. someone sneezes. some random person says 'bless you' EVERYONE says bless you. its really funny. we all laff. a table collapses. pretty funny stuff. we laff. umm we finish early and write notes to each other. we laff. haha. good times.

Lunch: we talk. sara and sarah spill dr. pepper everywhere. haha. not funny. i like scream. it just eggs them on. whatever. not a big deal. ummm i stare at scott and wish he wud shave more often. i stare at nicky and think of how sexy he is. ummm nicole and i go on a fruitio rampage at the student store. yay. i got oreos and a granola bar out of it. fooood. o we watch more undercover brother. yoy.

6th period: English. we work on our lit packets. joy. i really need to work on it. uh oh...

7th period: History. since half of us dont have history today, we took the test for immigrants. u have to get 70% to pass. we didnt check all of them, but i had gotten 5 wrong from the ones we checked. i think i would have passed. go american citizens. woohoo.

now i'm home. i have a voice lesson in like an hour. too bad i dont have sheet music for aretha franklin's version of resepect. its on hold at music music music. damn them. why are they so far away? o well. who knows what i'll sing...

my day in a nutshell...
hehe i'm slowly eating a huge chocolate bunny...it has no ears, no tail, no feet...poor little bunny. it's times like these that make me proud i'm a christian...haha...i wonder if Jesus ever knew that ppl would be eating chocolate bunnies thousands of years after he rose...

ok so my day. started off differently cuz souhail was sorta hangin out with us and then nicky and devin came over and mer said nicky was starin at me...hehe i might believe her cuz he 'cut' through me during hot lunch...hmmmm...this could be GOOD!!

1st period: 90 minutes of tai bo with a huge black gay man. fun fun fun. yeah ummm not! plus arianna was being a stupid bitch (and underline STUPID cuz she really is...like below average IQ like special ed stupid) she was all like 'black guys turn u on dont they? i mean, u just luuuv darin.' and she wudnt shut up about darin. i was like 'stop...seriously. that was a loong time ago and i dont like him anymore.' i figured that saying that with a really serious face on would shut her up but NO. every time the fucking gay black guy on the tai bo video would do anything gay with the women (like feel them up and tell them to squeeze their butts or whatever) she wud be like 'oooo i bet u wish darin did that to you' omg i got sooo worked up. i like walked away and got into another line and didnt talk to her the rest of the period. SHE WUDNT FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE AND SHE DOESNT FUCKING UNDERSTAND!! grrrr. p.e. sucked major ass.

2nd period: Math. basically curve stitching the whole time. really fun. mine looks prettyful. i wish we cudda just sat there for longer.

Brunch: talk, food. nothing memorable. o i ate a cough drop because i was hungry. yum.

3rd period:French: speaking grade with will. we both got 9's for pronouncing one word wrong. vacances is vaaahcance, not vayyyance. poo. who cares, will's hot and funny. I GOT THE BEST PARTENER EVERYONE!!

Lunch: Devin, who just had P.E. and i talk about how we'll someday find the tai boe guy on a gay porn site. we make fun of him saying stuff like 'i have a webcam, and i'm alllways busy.' 'you like tai boe? its better when i'm not wearing any clothes....' haha good times. nicole, you should REALLY go out with him. i get nicky. we cud double. could be fun... ummm yeah they ran out of chicken so we had to wait for a bit. oo we see nicky and devin in mr hayman's room so we go in and they're all watching 'undercover brother'. we decide to watch. funny stuff. i've never even heard of the movie (where have i been?) but its hilarious. ummm yeah. bell rings.

laura helps me find her mom's car and cheryl drives me home. nice lady. we talk about main street and high school and languages. nice conversation. other ppl's moms are soo nice! hehe. and i'm home. woohoo for star schedules. ttyl!

haha :0D

You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.


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that WUD be funny...but i'd never wear one of those furry hats. and if i could figure out some way to achieve all that cleavage (it could probably be done) i still wouldnt show it off like that. besides that, i like the whole 'loving smile' thing...

Sunday and Today...
Sunday: church at 9:00. nicole comes with for a change. sunday school was pretty fun, lesson plan about big dilemma's or mistakes in our lives and trusting God to get you through it. haha so we had to each write down a story and explain how we trusted God. so, naturally, i thought of 'the incident' as i'm now calling it. i was like omg nicole i could do that thing....and her eyes get all big and she's like 'mel, no!' and i look at ruthie and she's like 'dont do it mel, dont do it! really girl, you dont wanna share that' so of course i share the whole deal...(well as much as i can in like the 5 minutes we have). so now the whole jr high youth knows plus christina who i told at rehersal. hehe. rehersal. from 12-6 RIGHT after church. so i've eaten breakfast at sunday school, and lunch at rehersal. REHERSAL WAS SOOOO MUCH FUN!! i have the coolest part ever!! i have like mucho lines and andrew and i are special cuz we hafta change costumes and stuff!! neither of us had even read through the script so it was sorta funny and IT WAS JUST SO DAMN FUN! hehe. its gonna be great! so yeah that was just a total blast and andrew and i had soo much fun with it and yeah. MAJOR GOOD TIMES!! yeah so i am really really excited about that!! xcept that we hafta be off book by saturday...HAH!! like thats gonna happen... ok so then nicole came back for youth group. we ate some funky mexican stuff and i sat by andrew cuz he said i could...soo cute! then we talked about the good bye party for our pastor *sniff* and the junior high watched our bodega bay video!!! MORE GOOD TIMES!! hahaha...chins...tongues... it was sooo much fun. hehe. so thats sunday.

today:
4th period: science. luckully i finished my homework and studied for the quiz within the first 5 minutes of class... then we went to the computer lab and did research for our project. i found out about some new thing called transhumanism. its the idea that we can become almost robotic and stop the aging process completely. pretty interesting. so i'm doing a report on it. shud be cool.

5th period: Band. stupid section 9 and section 2. played my scale. probably my best one yet. charlie has the most obnoxious sound i have ever heard. someone needs to learn a new ombechure... sheesh. then scott-ish tryptic. my fav piece ever!! sooo pretty. omg then some stupid ear training shit. WHAT IDIOT CAN'T DO THAT?? it was like, which rhythm is this? *she plays* we look at our sheet. umm its number 4. DUH!! grrr it got sooo annoying. what idiots we have in this world. then a stupid quiz thing. proving to me there are in fact MORE music illiterate kids in our band. i get frustrated with the dumb kids...

Brunch: nicole and i reherse my lines for the show and talk about stuff. yeah, not much here. oo i eat lots of food. thats always good.

6th period: English. STAR testing. easy shit. wooopdedoo. i get done so early i do a whole vocab unit after. whoopee.

Lunch: more talk, more food. what can i say? o i play a new chorus song that 'sounds like a main street song?!?' umm no, sorry, not relaly, on my oboe. ppl look. have they never heard an oboe before? ok maybe not. but still. i learn that we can play battle hymns for extra credit in history. fun fun fun.

7th period: U.S. History. boring. boring. i almost fall asleep. boring. we sing!! lalala! boring. boring. bell rings. thank God.

so that was my day. sunday rocked, today was okay. i'm still pretty energetic. gotta go do something. without soccer, i have like soo much more free time. explains why i write so much... hehe. come to my wedding with josh groban. yahya will be the guest singer. should be fun. haha.

singing, singing, AND MY AUDITION!!!
:0) ok so first things first....
singing: i had solo practice for the show. haha i really need to call mr. troll and bitch about how stupid jerry is. i know, and i called her 'a nice lady' before. nice personality, BAD MUSIC DIRECTOR. grrr. so yeah. she thinks that the majority of folks over 30 haven't heard RESPECT by Aretha Franklin. WHERE THE HELL WAS SHE FOR LIKE THE LAST 3 DECADES??? so yeah. she thinks that itll be okay if i sing it the fucked up way because no1 will know the song. OMG IT WAS SOO ANNOYING I WAS GETTING SOOOO PISSED AT HER!! uck. ok enough about that...it gets better...

singing: then we had a rehersal with everyone from 4-6. we worked on the company songs and they're all in harmony so i was happy. and andrew was there...and he helped me with my part cuz we screwed with the songs and wrote in harmonies when i wasnt there....hehe...the chemestry is already working!! he actually IS sort of good looking... ok so we sang that. then we sang the girls part which was fun as usual. harmony is good. then we got to hear the guy's song cuz THOMAS SHOWED UP!! ok so he was in the church the whole time but he was doing the sound for a funeral upstairs so he didnt get into the rehersal till lata. OMG HE LOOKED SOO SEXY!! idk, he was just wearing nice stuff. he's Jesus...again...sweet! and so they sang the guys song. its a beach boys medly. really sexy, like a barbershop quartet. nicole, you will LOVE THIS SONG!! and thomas has a nice long solo in the beginning...its really cute. GOD I AM SOOO GONNA MISS THOMAS! WAAAAH!! he's getting so sexy too...:0( ok so we sang and stuff. it was fun. oo we went crazy dancing cuz jerry just told us to do movement whatever we felt was appropriate. the song was about dying and goin to heaven so every time it said death we did a slit across our throat. it was funny... but then i had to leave for...

AUDITIONS FOR SETT!!! ok so this was sooo much fun. kristi sorta remembered me but molly and nicole showed up and it was sooooo fun! we all made it! we were all good. kristi liked my monologue so i'm really happy. it was just a blast. we just sat there talkin and threw in a monologue here and there. soooo much fun!! read nicoles journal cuz she'll probably post more. its gonna be SOOO FUN!!

ok so there's my day. its been good! and tomorrow will be good too. church ALL DAY!! 9-12 church 12-6 choir 6-8 youth group. YESSSSSS!!! and then STAR testing next week!! oo my life is sooo good. now if i cud meet josh groban and have yahya sing at the wedding....hmmm... that might be the ONE thing that cud be better....o maybe a date with scott...but thats pretty much all that cud make life betta! luv ya, dahlings!! (some more than others...winkwink...jk)