guys
so this is what i see when i log on:

anonymous guy number 1: "hey. how's it goin? how's that sunburn?" -aww that's nice of you to ask!

anonymous guy number 2: "they tried to handcuff me to the bed. although, it did put ideas in one's head. ;-) this is when you know we cyber too much." -okayy...now that was an interesting evening. but cyber too much? IMPOSSIBLE!

anonymous guy number 3: "heyy! ;-) i have this image of you grabbing ur boobs stuck in my head. o mann..oh baby oh baby. i just wanna hug you all over. and slobber all over u. man, ur fun. i'm going to love chrorale class. *image of boob grabbing* hehe mel...yummy. i love her too." -okkayyy there honey. calm down! they're just boobs! but hey, no protest here for the hugging and slobbering! (just remember, hun, that you have a girlfriend!!)

right, so. geometry HONORS (lol) and survey comp/lit finals tomorrow. should be not-so-bad. need an 82 on the geometry HONORS final to maintain a B. should be do-able. JUST LIKE MYSELF!!

so i'll end with the everpresent question: IF I TURN YOU ON, WHY WON'T YOU GO OUT WITH ME?!?!

Life is good. :0D
Today was pretty darn awesome. A few random things:

If I had the time, I would SOO lease Dante and make sure no one else could ride him. I'd make him not be grumpy and jump him HIGH. It would be fun...

Gotta love my lack of participation in Girls' Ensemble recently.

Shaull: Melissa, what do you think?
Me: Ummm...I liked the oboe and the bassoons...
Class: laughs
Shaull: I wonder why...
Monique: What? Why?
Someone: Because she PLAYS the oboe...
Monique: Ohhh...

Just read Anasasia. (Remember that Disney movie from a long time ago?) Well I didn't. But Rachel and Gabi brought it up when we were discussing Disney movies last week. But ANYWAY, I found like an 88 page book of it. So I read it in about half an hour. Very amusing. She falls in love with Dimitry in the end. SO CUTE. And the other guy's name is Vladimir. So classic. lol. Pretty cute, simplistic plot. A nice half hour.

The MSS list being posted today was SOO GREAT!! I felt just like I'd made it...but not! Ya know? It was sooo wonderful to see all of my friends from CC and GE make it! I LOVE YOU ALL!!

Math grade=not good. Bio grade=okay, but not great. French=screw it. I'll get a B+. Everything else=whatever. I'm pretty sure I have A's.

So yeah. Finals week next week. Am planning on not going completely crazy...

Jack's Journey Photos!
W00t! I can't figure out how to just post the links of the ones that are flattering, but I'll send you the link for them all if you IM me and I deem you worthy...;0)

Oh and, yeah, my smilies like this: :0D are just smilies with big noses. (Apparently they're hard to understand SARAH!)

Sorry for clogging up everyone's friends' lists! *cough YOU ALL NEED TO UPDATE MORE cough*

No killer bees today. Fun in bio when Ms. Bishop threw us an ice cream partay! (But don't tell 0 or 1st period--she doesn't love them as much!!)

Math is poopy. Need an 87 on the final just to have a B. (Well, as far as I know at this point.) Not good. WAHHH!

I just realized that this Saturday is going to ROCK!! YES!!!

Right well...got to find a compass and do my math homework. Stupid math...grumblegrumble. Oh well. I got a 95% on my Vietnam test! :0D

Yeah, k. Not wanting to do my math homework.
To days of inspiration, playing hookie, making something out of nothing, the need to express, to communicate, to going against the grain, going insane, going mad, to loving tension, no pension, to more than one dimension, to starving for attention, hating convention, hating pretension, not to mention of course, hating dear old mom and dad, to riding your bike, midday past the three- piece suits, to fruits, to no absolutes, to Absolute- to choice, to the Village Voice, to any passing fad, to being an us-for once-instead of a them, to hand-crafted beers made in local breweries, to yoga, to yogurt, to rice and beans and cheese, to leather, to dildos, to curry vindaloo, to huevos rancheros, and Maya Angelou, emotion, devotion, to causing a commotion, creation, vacation, mucho masturbation, compassion, to fashion, to passion when it's new, to Sontag, to Sondheim and anything taboo, Ginsberg, Dylan, Cunningham and Cage, Lenny Bruce, Langston Hughes, to the stage, to Uta, to Buddha, Pablo Neruda, too, Brothers! bisexuals, trisexuals, homo sapiens, carcinogens, hallucinogens, men, Pee Wee Herman, German wine, turpentine, Gertrude Stein, Antonioni, Bertolucci, Kurosawa, Carmina Burana,to apathy, to entropy, empathy, ecstasy, Vaclav Havel - The Sex Pistols, 8BC, to no shame, never playing the Fame Game, to marijuana, to sodomy, It's between God and me, to S & M, la vie Boheme!

Today I got stung by a bee!
It was really icky. It landed on my arm so I swatted at it (knowing perfectly well that this was a BAD idea) and it stung me. Its butt was attached to the stinger which was like IN MY ARM and the butt was like moving from side to side. It was very disturbing. Oh well. Mrs. Lodge got it out for me. Haha. Oh and I ran the mile in 8:24 today!! WHOO!! (Actually, probably less because people who came in after me were like 8:18 or something, but whatever.) That's good for me! Yay!

Really glad I didn't have to vocalize with Mr. Shaull today. My voice was all airy and weird and I could like HEAR the air in my head and sinuses. It was WEIRD.

So I think Sarah's bra size is...jk! But that was amusing. And frapeccino being flicked in my face...lol! (Ali, Sara, Sarah and I went downtown. Twas fun.)

I GOT THE SAME GRADE ON MY FRENCH TEST/QUIZ AS CHARLIE!! YESSS! No, I was NOT playing with his hair, I was like...smoothing it unsuccessfully. No seriously. Maybe it was unintentionally flirtatious but it was tres amusante. And yes, I did hug him. I was happy to get the same grade as him! Sheesh you guys. But whatever. Charlie's cool.

OHH BEAUUUUTIIIFULLL FOR SPAAACIOUS SKIES Is it just me or does that arrangement really SUCK? Oh well, whatever. Not looking forward to burning in the nun dresses, though. I'll miss all of the hot seniors!! And the cool girl seniors!! WAHH! (Update on that later.)

Let's see...am I done? I don't have any homework tonight but math!! WHOO! Yes, I think I'm done. Alrightey then. Ta ta!

It was hot today.
What Would You Do If
I cried:
I lied to you:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I asked you on a date:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:

Would You
Be my friend:
Be my boyf/girlf:
Buy me stuff:
Tell me the truth, no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Take me to the movies:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Do me:


The answer to the last question better be a 'yes'...;-)

Stephen is a funny, funny man...and I could count the number of people who'd get that on one hand. (Well, that read this.)

Have to say I'm glad that there wasn't Concert Choir today. An opportunity to do some last-minute studying and whatnot. Very nice.

I'm kinda sunburned from studying in the sun and swimming/eating at Ali's house. BUT I'M GONNA BE TAN!! WHOOO! Yeah okay, so I'm still albino. :-/

Kinda wondering, seeing as it's close to senior graduation and all, what I should do to bring closure to this one thing... I really don't think he has any intention of talking to me, though, so whatever. *sigh* I really don't want to be remembered as a bitch and a wanna-be whore.

It really sucks how relationships with people change so dramatically over time.

I really need to start eating better. Planning on a less-strict summer diet this year, but GOSH I've been eating horribly recently. Lots of pizza and stuff.

Right then. I'll just go along and eat some MORE carbs now. If anyone wants to help me study french tonight (like, around 8:30 or 9) feel free to call!

So apparently I'm supposed to update twice a day...
...because of obsessive people reading my journal! LOL!! Oh well, that makes me feel special...:0D

Ya know who else made me feel special today? ALI AND SARAH!! I had a plea for gummy bears as my away message so they bought me gummy bears and showed up at my house! It's been a while since people have shown up unexpectedly at my house...lol!

Ok well I'm super sleepy so sorry for a boring entry. I woke up around 9:30, had a voice lesson, went to Diddams, studied outside (and began to burn) and then ate gummy bears with Sarah and Ali! :0D Cleaned me room, begged to go to Ali's for dinner, then was allowed to after studying for 2 hours.

Studied, went to Ali's house, ate pizza and pie, swam, signed her yearbook, dove, had some spiffylicious fun with Sarah and Ali. Yup!

It's been a very pizzalicious weekend! Had pizza Wednesday at like 11 after the Choral concert and then with Louise and Nicole at Frankie, Johnny, and Luigi's on Saturday. Pizza is nummy...

So I'm really REALLY sleepy and pink on my chest and shoulder, so I'm going to go to sleep.

See you tomorrow! Everyone has to sign my yearbook!! Maybe I'll give it to somebody at brunch because I have Concert Choir at lunch...

If you were gay, that'd be okay...
I mean, cause HEY! I like you anyway!

Now before I go any further, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, JEFF!! *insert clarinet playing and card-giving here* :0D Wow I feel bad for not doing anything. :0(

Well let's see...today is the first Sunday of Pentecost...and...umm...yeah. Thomas was at church today. *nudges Nicole* He was being very dramatic. Very entertaining.

I got my yearbook on friday (did I mention that?) so you guys can all sign this week and during finals, k?

I'm sure all of the guys out there would appreciate hearing that I bought a bright pink bra and thong today. Mhmmm. I also bought some running shoes and some cute tennis shoes. Joy.

Well I really don't have anything else to say. :-/

Later!

sorry for such long posts recently...

M	Modern
U	Unforgettable
S	Shy
I	Inspirational
C	Courageous
A	Awkward
L	Luscious
B	Bold
A	Ambivalent
B	Bold
E	Elitist

TAKE ME FOR WHAT I AM!
Every single day
I walk down the street
I hear people say,
"Baby's so sweet"
Ever since puberty
Everybody stares at me
Boys - girls
I can't can't help it baby
So be kind
Don't lose your mind
Just remember that I'm your baby

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me
Take me baby or leave me

A tiger in a cage
Can never see the sun
This diva needs her stage
Baby - let's have fun!
You are the one I choose
Folks'd kill to fill your shoes
You love the limelight too, baby
So be mine
Or don't waste my time
Cryin' -- "Honeybear -- are you still my baby?"

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me

No way -- can I be what I'm not
But hey -- don't you want your girl hot!
Don't fight -- don't lose your head
Cause every night -- who's in your bed?
Who's in your bed, baby?
(Pouts in JOANNE's direction)
Kiss, Pookie.

JOANNE

It won't work.
I look before I leap
I love margins and discipline
I make lists in my sleep
Baby what's my sin?
Never quit -- I follow through
I hate mess -- but I love you
What to do
With my impromptu baby?
So be wise
This girl satisfies
You've got a prize
But don't compromise
You're one lucky baby
Take me for what I am

MAUREEN

A control freak

JOANNE

Who I was meant to be

MAUREEN

A snob -- yet over-attentive

JOANNE

And if you give a damn

MAUREEN

A lovable, droll geek

JOANNE

Take me baby or leave me

MAUREEN

And anal retentive

BOTH

That's it!

JOANNE

The straw that breaks my back

BOTH

I quit

JOANNE

Unless you take it back

BOTH

Women

MAUREEN

What is it about them?

BOTH

Can't live --
With them --
Or without them!
Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me
Take me baby
Or leave me
Guess I'm leavin'
I'm gone!

(They both sit.)



"I'm going to have to be frank with you." (Wow, that takes on a WHOLE new meaning after seeing a reinactment of Anne Frank.)

But ANYWAY. I think I've heard that line enough this week. I think I've heard just about EVERYTHING this week.

The main thing I'd like to bring up is how often people tell me that I'm a bitch.

In short: I'm sick of it! Easy solution if you think I'm a bitch: DON'T TALK TO ME!! Stay as far away from me as you possibly can, ignore me, and go on with your life! YOU'RE NOT HELPING ANYTHING BY WHINING ABOUT HOW BITCHY I AM!

Well, now that that's out of the way, I had a VERY enjoyable evening. I went to see a reinactment of Anne Frank at PALY with Rachel and Gabi. We also saw Sophie there! :0D Beth was fabuloso and so was EVERYBODY!! I mean WOW. It was soo incredibly scary and moving and well-done! You guys are so awesome.

So then, being very scared, Gabi and I talked on our cell phones in bed for about half an hour. Very fun. I love you, Gabi!!

I really wish I could have seen Shrek 2 with Nicole and Louise and Molly today or that I could go to Great America with Ali and Sarah on sunday!! I'M MISSING ALL THESE COOL THINGS!!! Oh well. At least I can go to the Tech Museum for some Bio extra credit with Emily P. and Caitlin! :0D

(Now I didn't really mean to make a statement just then, but only one of all of those people has ever called me a bitch.)

***Umm, since I'm all for being open and stuff, it should go without saying that it really hurts when people say things like that to me. I may shrug it off or say something mean back to you, but I do really think about what you say to me. I'm opinionated, I know that, and it goes without saying that I readily share those opinions, but I really don't think that I've hurt anyone to the point of justifying a 'bitch' stature. One of you out there is saying "Oh there she goes, being the pretentious little self-centered, white trash, straight-A, prissy ass, whore without courage, slutty bitch." Well okay then. I respect your opinion. Next time, just don't talk to me.***

And that's a peak into the mind of Melissa.

COMING UP:
*Goodbye wishes to my favorite seniors
*Best memories of the 2003-2004 school year
*Summer plans

ANNOUNCEMENT TO THE WORLD:
Please leave me the fuck alone. I'm busy. I don't want to hear from you. So kindly shut the hell up.

Thanks.

(This doesn't apply to everyone.)

??????
OH. MY. GOD.


WHAT. THE. HELL?!?!

and that's all i have to say about that.

CHANTICLEER IS SOOOO AWESOME!! WHOOO!

(more in a private entry. maybe i shouldn't say that, but, as always, you're welcome to ask me what it says. believe me, i'll tell you EVERYTHING.)

so of course i'm updating on a day when i have SOOO much to do...
I want anyone and everyone who reads this to post in here something they would LIKE to do with me SOMEDAY.

hrm...could get some interesting answers there.

Well...I think that's all for now, actually. Today was better. :0) Nothing especially happened, but nothing BAD happened, so that's good...

hahaha

THIS WAY UP á

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