More of me.

:: 2011 30 December :: 4.06pm

guess who got the phone interview?

:: 2011 21 December :: 3.10pm

I feel like I'm getting better at managing my self diagnosed bi-polar disorder. Mostly the last week has been a test of this.

I'm all moved into the new place, which is a huge weight off of my shoulders. My room mates are awesome.

next step is to go and sign up at a recruiter. Not totally sure which one or who to go to though.

spud	:: 2011 18 December :: 3.16am Gig was good. Facebook crew disappointed me as usual. But it was reeeeeeeeeally good. Despite the rocky start. 2 drinks \| have a drink

spud

:: 2011 15 December :: 3.16pm

i need to stop watching cheesy romantic comedies. but i can't. because it's christmastime, and they're on every freaking channel. and they're adorable.

i'm not really even sure i want that. but i certainly enjoy watching others' conceptualizations of it. it's a nice idle fancy.

2 drinks | have a drink

:: 2011 14 December :: 10.09pm

I know who I am, you're the dude who don't know what dude he is

valoth

:: 2011 13 December :: 5.18pm

Holidays are depressing.

Im sinking into oblivion again this winter. As per usual. Alone.

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2011 7 December :: 7.40pm

i am so overjoyed to finally become what i always knew i was meant to be. <3 <3 <3

3 drinks | have a drink

:: 2011 6 December :: 2.08am

never met the bitch but I fucked her like I missed her

:: 2011 6 December :: 2.02am

DJ Cupps in the mix... rockin the 1's and 2's

:: 2011 2 December :: 11.36am

Sometimes I like to sport a hearty rager and try to get people to look at it.

4 drinks | have a drink

:: 2011 28 November :: 11.30pm

Well... now that there's a hole in my door I think moving out is the only option I have.

spud	:: 2011 28 November :: 1.47pm Damn You Auto Correct i get an unexpected day off, and this is what i'm doing. feels good to laugh, though. 2 drinks \| have a drink

spud

:: 2011 27 November :: 4.16pm

so, friday didn't go very well. i still enjoyed myself, to a certain extent, but it definitely did not go like i had hoped. i just have too much faith in people being open-minded. i really need to learn to keep my trap shut, because not everyone is as accepting of differences as i am. or as tolerant of stupid shit.

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thursday was fine. there was food. the lions lost. my family sat around. the highlight of my evening was playing liar's dice with the alspaugh guys.

last night was fairly epic, if uneventful.

and i got my scooter fix for the weekend. so that's good.

valoth

:: 2011 26 November :: 1.01am

Seriously?
Wow. Just...wow. This totally just broadsided me.

I hate fb so much at times. Most the time.
This is one of them.

A picture of the person I like(read: Im trying not to like) with someone who was a friend online entitled "ha".

Hows that for a big "Fuck you" moment? I feel insulted, jealous, irate, and put-off. How can I not?

Im angry that the plan changed, that things between us changed, and now this...

"Nails in the coffin" of the issue is how I feel about the you and these issues. I get riled up about this whole thing very easy because of my current mental state. Its very low fyi. Though in my defense being alone all the time can do this do a person.

Im so cynical all the time and thinking every ones out to cut me down. Today Im right. Today I am being cut down and someone is trying to push my buttons.

Can I curl up in a ball now? Id love to do that about now.

6months ago, I pictured this going so much differently. Now that Im here I want to rewind the tape, give the middle finger to it all, and just move on.

:: 2011 25 November :: 12.54pm

Thanksgiving was good with the exception of the reffing in the lions game. What the fuck was that? I guess if Aaron Rodgers can't actually produce the yardage to get to the red zone you have to give it to him.

whatever.

Other then that everything is gravy :)

I dont' think I've ever been this full in my life.

Is someone really going to hire me?

valoth

:: 2011 24 November :: 10.59am

Fuck holidays.

Im mad that you havent come to vie for my attention! Grr! I hate it.

I need to fix this, but I cant myself to have the words on how to do that.

Whats worse is that even if I do fix this, will it be fixed so I dont keep wallowing in that strange territory that you put me into.

Do you even understand my side of things in the slightest? Do you even try to understand my side?

:: 2011 23 November :: 11.35am

I may retire from this site.

7 drinks | have a drink

:: 2011 22 November :: 10.48pm

Meanwhile at DSI, things are ok.

:: 2011 21 November :: 4.07pm

Passive Restraints