:: 2005 6 October :: 7.30 pm

What's up, bitches?

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:: 2005 5 October :: 11.23 pm

Hahaha....that Dane Cook is a silly bitch.

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:: 2005 4 October :: 5.55 pm

Ahhh.... the universe is screwing me over once again. :) Mmmm, it's delicious.

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:: 2005 2 October :: 2.39 pm
:: Mood: dissappointed in self

Yeah, sorry I'm so boring. Just really tired and not feeling too good right now. I wish I was cooler...

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:: 2005 30 September :: 6.45 pm
:: Mood: Fuck Yeah

I AM SO FUCKING PUMPED RIGHT NOW! I just got back from sparring where I kicked so much ass! It was even Jet Li style where you wait for the other person to attack and you unload with a counter attack! I fought six matches! Two were against a black belt ( a guy who I wanted to kick from the beginning) and I kicked him both in the chest and back and made him hit the floor! He was a fucking black belt and I knocked his ass down twice. I went against a red belt as well and ended up knocking them down to the ground three times! I also went up against sensei and didn't do half bad. I fell down once trying to backward spin kick him, but I did my little flip up thing and got right back up! Throughout all the matches I got kicked in the head, neck, and even the nuts. That last one hurt a lot, but I decided not to let it bother me and then I kicked him to the floor! Little respect for the up and coming white belt, huh? I also did ALL of this with just a head pad and chest pad. Everybody else had arm and leg pads, and I have come away with barely a scratch. I'm so fucking excited!!!!!!!!!

"Be water my friend"

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:: 2005 29 September :: 2.24 pm

Okay, now I'm going to question hell. What is so "bad" about it? It doesn't seem like it is very much different than the handlings we have in this world. Nobody every said you couldn't fight back either. If somebody was torturing you now, wouldn't you fight back? Why should it be any different in hell? Not much of a "punishment" if you ask me. It can be defeated by those who are able.

"You're the most passionate person I've ever seen"

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:: 2005 29 September :: 12.07 pm

Why must you prove yourself to God? What is your reason?
Is it because you're promised a perfect body? Well then its bribery
Is it because you're afraid of going to hell? Well then its fear
Is it because you don't know what's going to happen? Well then its confusion
Is is because everybody else is doing it? Well then its common belief

The bible states that if you don't believe, you will just be left with the knowledge that you could have done better. You already live with that knowledge here on this earth, knowing you could have done better in the past. Even if you try your best, there is always some way you convince yourself you could have done better. I know I could live with the knowledge " I could have done better ", already knowing I tried my very best this lifetime.

Chew on that. It's delicious.

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:: 2005 27 September :: 9.00 pm

I feel better now.

"Karen, is ALWAYS a doochbag!"

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:: 2005 27 September :: 12.27 am

I forgot.

I forgot how much I truly love you. I forgot how hard this really is. I forgot how much I miss you. I forgot how great you are to me. I forgot parts of the past. I forgot some of the future. I forgot the greatest thing in my life. I forgot love to the hightest degree. I remembered while listning to "I'll Be" and now can't stop feeling horrible/lonely/sad. I can't stop crying out my internal pain. My cheeks and pillow are all wet now. It just hurts a lot sometimes. How could I forget? The greatest thing ever.

.....I'm such a fucktard...

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:: 2005 26 September :: 10.09 pm

"But don't stop if I fall
And don't look back
Oh baby don't stop
Bury me and fade to black"(Hang Em' High) MCR

:( bad....

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:: 2005 23 September :: 8.23 pm

Wow! That was so much fun! I wish I could do that everynight. Three hours of pure greatness. And there wasn't anything but good conversation! The way things are supposed to be...*smile!

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:: 2005 22 September :: 2.14 pm

You don't know if you're truly immortal until you've tried to die.

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:: 2005 20 September :: 9.35 pm

I just took a test on "are you a ninja?", and it said I was a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle. Ah.. that's the best!

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:: 2005 19 September :: 5.43 pm

This weekend was mostly fun. I am so glad I decided to go back. I wish I would of only had more time though. Being out here is torture when I could be with loved ones. Thank you Amelia for being a great girlfriend. I really enjoyed the time we spent together. I'm sorry it is hard for me, but it is because you are great. Thank you Brooke for forcing me to go with you guys to the movies. I had a great time. Thank you Allan for letting me stay at your place. I appreciate it. Thank you fuckers for stealing my shit. I really don't need that right now. I hope I can make it through the next little bit until I am able to see you guys again. I miss you all. I hope things go well there and I will return again someday. Bye.

"Everything will work out."

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:: 2005 15 September :: 8.40 pm

I'm coming home tomorrow!

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