kissed by the sun, straddled by you,
no deep thoughts running through my brain.
only sweet thrills of happiness
racing through my veins.
<3
lay me on the ground, fly me in the sky.

 

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godessalthena

:: 2011 11 May :: 10.12pm

I just want to get so fucking trashed I forget my life ever happened.

I hate every fucking day. I hate every fucking hour.

I feel useless, stupid, abused, victimized.

I never look forward to getting up.

The best part of my life are my nightmares. Because it's not my life.

I'm done feeling. I'm done trying. I'm just fucking done.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 10 May :: 8.15am

I feel like you have just given up on me. Like everyone else. Why should I care about myself anymore?

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 5 May :: 5.09pm

I'm working out everyday. I'm going to kill myself skinny.

I'm so tired of meeting douchebags who act like they want to be your friend, lead you on and then just stop all communication and then.. After the secretly decide they don't want to be involved with you in any form you call them out and they act like they're in the right. They are selfish disgusting fuckheads who deserve to be eliminated from the human race. It's called common courtesy people. I would think that moms taught it to their children but apparently that went of of practice in the 80's and on.

I'm tired of this place. And these people. The only people who like Spokane seem to be the fuckheads who thinks it's ok to flake. To be a hypocrite. To treat other people like shit. It's disgusting and disheartening.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 2 May :: 7.31pm

I asked myself if today could get any worse.

Yes it could.

But it's still pretty shitty.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 30 April :: 12.58am

Tonight was fun :)

And having rent is a good feeling.

I'm working OT this week. being extra responsible!

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 25 April :: 1.40pm

Lab tests and weight gain.

I'm scared. And have no comfort.

I know what a partial reason for it is. But there could be so many other things wrong. Things that idk can be fixed.

What's for sure is I need to get serious about losing this weight. I need to do something. Why can't I just get motivated?

I hate living here. I hate feeling so out of control. I feel disempowered. I feel weak. I feel hopeless. I need help, but can't afford it.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 21 April :: 7.43pm

Home of an IUD. no babies, periods or hormones for me!

It hurts but I can deal.

3 touched my hand... | and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 12 April :: 1.39am

Happy birthday to me!!

1 touched my hand | and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 10 April :: 8.56pm

April fools about the baby.
I actually am considering getting my tubes tied since the age to do it is 23 now from what I hear..

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 9 April :: 7.13am

Photobucket

New metal DDR pad :) lotsa booze breasts and fine friends. Over all a very epic birthday :D

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 8 April :: 3.02am

Birthday party tomorrow. Maybe the baby won't like the alcohol and leave. Maybe I can still have a good birthday. I hate people.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 7 April :: 11.55am

There's a hole in my heart.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 5 April :: 6.29pm

I hate my life.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 3 April :: 4.59am

This will be the death of us

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 1 April :: 3.54pm

Well it's official.. I'm going to be having a little bun growing in my oven... I honestly don't know what to think. Or do. I feel so confused. :(

1 touched my hand | and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 31 March :: 5.45pm

I feel used. Taken advantage of. Pissed.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 26 March :: 12.50pm

Last night I dreamt I had a little crab and didn't die.

and tha sun got brighter then


godessalthena

:: 2011 23 March :: 9.52pm

I'm so tired of feeling.

and tha sun got brighter then

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