kissed by the sun, straddled by you,
no deep thoughts running through my brain.
only sweet thrills of happiness
racing through my veins.
<3
lay me on the ground, fly me in the sky.

 

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godessalthena

:: 2011 23 January :: 11.41am

No skinny bitches please! Thanks!

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 22 January :: 4.42am

Words can't describe how shitty I feel.

1 touched my hand | and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 21 January :: 11.44am

Someone is a fucking moron.

Not naming any names, but you never fail to amaze me with how fucking close minded and stupid you are.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 21 January :: 1.26am

Warm saline..
An inability to breathe..

An allergic reaction to life.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 20 January :: 10.49am

2 more pounds down! 7 total! Go me!

And all I had to do is workout everyday and not eat anything! Go super restrictive diets! ;)

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 18 January :: 11.44am

:/ is it Feb 3 yet?

4 touched my hand... | and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 17 January :: 8.09pm

I will play DDR again. I will play DDR again. I will play DDR again.

I'm ready to move on with my life, but we'll be stuck here at least 2 more years.. Until 2013.. Summertime. I think we'll both go nucking futs. I don't think we even know what happiness is anymore. It's like forcing a cat to live underwater here. And we are both drowning. It's hard, too, as we feed of each other's unhappiness and that just makes everything that much worse.

I hope I get this new position. I hope I get it so I can get out of debt and star saving for the move and rebuilding my credit. I don't want to live paycheck to paycheck anymore. I'm ready to get ahead in my life. I'm ready to fulfill my potential and show everyone just how amazing I am. I know money can't buy happiness but it most certainly helps greatly.

I just hate waiting in purgatory for something to happen.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 16 January :: 7.46pm

Lots of bad feelings. I'm done with today.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 16 January :: 11.21am

I really hope I get this new position. 51k is way better than 31k.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 12 January :: 10.10am

I've lost 5 lbs since Monday!!!!!

I'm so happy I could scream!!!

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 9 January :: 9.45pm
:: Music: NIN - we're in this together now

"Awake to the sound as they peel apart the skin
They pick and they pull
Trying to get their fingers in
Well they've got to kill what we've found
Well they've got to hate what we fear
Well they've got to make it go away
Well they've got to make it disappear"

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 7 January :: 3.50pm

Medifast got here today and I got my hair done :D I look uber sexy! My hair is platinum with a purple shadow. It's very nice!

I'm really hoping Medifast works for me. It's helped a shit ton of people and as long as I stay strict I know I can't at least succeed a little. My starting weight is a little embarrassing so it's not going up here. But hopefully within 10 months I'll get down to 165 and be fit. Diet and exercise, school and work. It's going to be a real struggle balancing everything along with working on the relationship. How do people do it?

I know I can succeed because I have the support I need. Now I just need to see the first bit of results for motivation. I will succeed and I will DDR again.

Plus once this is all said and done I'm totally getting an augmentation. Nothing big, just up to a solid D on both sides. For celebration and self confidence.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2011 2 January :: 3.58am

Do you ever feel ridiculously ugly and unwanted...?

I hate feeling like this.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2010 28 December :: 6.34pm

I miss expressing myself.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2010 22 December :: 7.43pm

Alaska at last :)
Landed safe in Alaska :) hanging out at home with Danielle and Sus :3
Corky's a little under the weather haha but it's self-inflicted..

When shopping at Freddy's and surprisingly found a bunch of great shirts for Sus's Christmas presents :3 and no big taxes! Yay! Now all he needs is pants and he's all ready for college fashion-wise haha I'm really excited for him :)

It's nice to be on vacation away from all the stress and darkness that is Spokane. I feel happier now that we're getting a break and I can focus on trying to fix what I've broken. It's a good opportunity for me.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2010 12 December :: 12.14am

Driving on the freeway, fogged windows and the rain coming down in soft sheets, like bed clothes for my heart.. Beautiful echoing in my heart and mind. The music gently carrying me

I have to remind myself we are far from home.. And yet I still allow myself one blissful moment where I forget.

I am complete. I am home in my heart.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2010 11 December :: 1.43pm

I feel like poo... And I have to go to work.. :(

today is a blah day. I really want to just go to Alaska. I need a vacation from Spokane.

and tha sun got brighter then

godessalthena

:: 2010 3 December :: 6.57am

I'm so fat. And hideous. Perfectly um-fucking-touchable.

and tha sun got brighter then

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