godessalthena
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2010 4 May :: 6.56pm
Is it honestly too much to ask to have more than one or two worthwhile people in your entire life who care?
I mean.. I know Sus cares.. And my sister is great when we hang out..
But all people here do is make me feel like shit for being me, for sharing my feelings, for expecting people to actually be a friend.. But no. People don't give a fuck no matter how loudly I scream for help, no matter how many times I try to ask...
I honestly feel like every single person I have ever cared about here thinks I'm a worthless piece of shit who's broken and just... Garbage.
Maybe I am. One person loves me unconditionally. One person reaches out when I need them.. And the rest blame me fo them not helping.
I am so scared to run out of my medicine. I don't want to die, but I know I will want to once they run out.
I just want to be happy.
To feel loved.
To not have every negative thought I have reinforced by the people in my life.
I quit.
and tha sun got brighter then
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