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2004 22 August :: 10.31pm
Why is life such a bitch all the damn time. I mean really i finally have something going great with my life and it gets messed up what in the hell is that all about?
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2004 16 August :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: Anxious
:: Music: Buzzcocks - I Believe
Back from Auburn Hills
The Warped Tour was awesome. I went with Stacy and Dustin. We met up with Brad, Tony, Erika, Perry, and Chris there. We only hung out with Brad though, pretty much.
I got Yellowcard and Taking Back Sunday's autographs. I got to see TBS, Anti-Flag, Matchbook Romance, and Sugarcult play. Woo. We missed Yellowcard and Story of the Year, sadly. They were playing late and we were tired so we left before.
I got caught in the rush to the stage at the TBS stage. Brad had Stacy, and I had Stacy's hand, but everyone kept pulling, pushing and moving, so we couldn't hold on anymore and got seperated. It's craazy. It's hot, everyone's sweating, yelling, pushing eachother, crowd surfing, and you cannnnnot move. But it was fun. It was hard to get out of though. hah. Once my bag got taken away while I was in it. I was lucky to get it back, but my gum, a shirt I had just bought, and my almost full camera was gone. They must've fallen out when the bag was taken away. After people cleared a little, we found some cameras, all completely smashed and flat. haha. It's sad, because I had pictures of David's party on there too, but oh well I suppose. I had a good time.
When we got to our hotel afterwards, we found out that Good Charlotte and New Found Glory were staying there too. If it had just been any other bands, I would've been more excited. I kind of wanted a picture of Billy though, because he's attractive, even if his music does = shit.
I'm gonna skip a lot of details because it won't much matter to anyone besides myself, Stacy, Dustin, and probably Brad. Aaand I'm lazy.
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2004 11 August :: 5.20pm
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2004 2 August :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: disgusted
:: Music: The Clash - Spanish Bombs
I hope Rat Girl's reading this.
Okay, we got complained about at work, so they moved us to another crew. All I know is that apparently we fought with the other people on our crew, and said their music was stupid, and those are the only reasons we've gotten for it.
For one, we didn't fight with them, in fact we never talked to them. Not that we made it a thing not to talk to them, we've just had no reason to.
Now I can understand the music part, because we did talk about how their music sucked, but it's not all we talked about. We work 7 hours a day, 6 days a week, do they not expect us to repeat things? And almost anyone would agree, their music.. sucked. Here's what they listened to: Spice Girls, Brittany Spears, Simple Plan, every Now made, rap, country, and get this, Disney Soundtracks. Who wants to listen to fucking disney movie theme songs for 7 fucking hours? So yeah, we said it sucked.
And that's where I get stuck. Besides hating their music, I have no idea why they made such a big deal about us. Even when we brought our stereo, we picked through the cds for things they'd like too. Now I wish we would've played some industrial/death metal because obviously it wouldn't have made a difference.
So I talked to Ellen, the boss, and she just kept saying, "uh huh," "yep," "ok." She wouldn't even listen to me. She wouldn't give me a fucking chance. She'll believe them, but apparently our words have no merit. Which really pisses me off, because that's not fair, or just, or any of that shit. We're guilty until proven innocent.
The thing that really bothers me the most, is that they said absolutely nothing to us. We had no idea that we were bothering them, or offending them. I mean, what the fuck. They have a problem, so they run to the boss. They wouldn't tell me, and either would Ellen, exactly why we were switched. All I know is the rumors I've heard, that we fought, which I know isn't true considering we didn't talk. If they go around telling their boss, their teachers, or their moms whenever they have a problem with someone, they're going to have trouble through life. Talk to the fucking person personally. And by not telling us what exactly we did, do you think we're going to learn from it? By never even telling us we were doing something, how could you expect us to stop? We would have if you would've just mentioned something. My God. It's like you have no decency. I need to do Sorting, and I want to be a crew leader next year, I seriously need the money, but now, my chances of that happening, are probably really low. Thanks a fucking lot. You could've stopped being a pussy and told us, and I would've respected that.
So fuck you. Fuck you, Shelly. Fuck you, Shawna. Fuck you, Stephanie. Fuck you, Ellen.
Now Jacqui, I have something to say to you personally. As much as Shawna, and Shelly, and even you sometimes, annoyed me, I still defended you to Stacy and Lisa. But now that I'm just a "moron," I regret defending you at all. Forget being friends for at least 8 years. Forget you.
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2004 31 July :: 4.54pm
If anyone out there needs someone to talk to i'm a good listener so don't be afraid to call.
Home: 984 2055
Cell: 1616 970 4036
if your gonna call after 10 call my cell phone
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2004 29 July :: 11.17pm
July 26th is 2004 is cherie day
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2004 28 July :: 11.46pm
Hmmm today was actually good. My cousins wanted me to go to michigans adventure with them, and i abhor theme parks so i didn't want to. But my mom made me go. So i tried to make the best of it and just went to the water park and was in the wave pool relxin, then i got out and me and my cousin were sitten there just talkin and these 3 gorgeous girls came up and started talkin to me. They layed there stuff out and were talkin to me for a while and to my cousin a little. 2 of them went for a swim but sara wanted to stay and talk to me wich was cool because she was really nice and she was really cool. Well we were talkin for a while and she wanted my AIM, and i gave it to her and she talked some more. And sence she lived so far away just fun we wrote our names on each other in sun tan lotion so she has ben tanned into her leg and i have sara tanned into mine. Why is it girls only like me if they live far away? I know noone cares but why have a journal if i don't say when something unusual happens to me.
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2004 26 July :: 9.18pm
I really want to see Harold and Kumar go to White Castle
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2004 25 July :: 8.56pm
:: Mood: Complacent
:: Music: The Cure
I walked into the living room and my mom asks, "Do you still say you hate me on the computer?" I said, "No?" She said, "Good."
I put away the dishes.
My mother told me not to say "wigga" anymore because black people will hear me or see me post it one day and beat me up. I told her I don't say wigga and if I did, I'd shoot myself. I say wigger. She then told me not to say I'd shoot myself.
I thought then asked, "Post?"
She said, "Yeah, on Andy's website."
I said, "You read my journal?"
She said, "It doesn't matter."
"Yes it does. Do you read my journal?"
"It shouldn't matter. You shouldn't be writing anything I can't read."
It went on like that for a while.
Then I said, "Do. you. read. my. journal."
"Why does it matter?"
"It doesn't. Do you read it?"
"No, I might've once, but.. etc"
She went on about things, lecturing on how I shouldn't say bad things about her.
Regardless on if she was telling the truth or not on if she read it, my life doesn't revolve around posting bad things about her. I don't talk to everyone about her. She doesn't seem to understand that the amount of people that know, doesn't change the fact that all of the bad things are true.
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2004 24 July :: 9.48pm
:: Music: R.E.M. Everybody hurts
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when youre sure youve had enough of this life, well hang on.
Dont let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now its time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think youve had too much of this life, well hang on.
Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Dont throw your hand. Oh, no. Dont throw your hand.
If you feel like youre alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If youre on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think youve had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on.
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2004 23 July :: 5.42pm
:: Music: The Cure - Greatest Hits
"Excuse me.. that's the birthday cart. Can I get you another one?"
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2004 22 July :: 10.02pm
Wooo my name is on the varsity roster so that means i'm starting varsity
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2004 20 July :: 8.39pm
I am so l33t.
Guess where I am...
I'm at eDen! YEAH!
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2004 20 July :: 12.10am
I'm so relieved, yet at the same time it sickens me that i just wasn't there. It also got me thinking and i just can't remember what it was like, its completely gone. I hadn't thought about how long it was.
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2004 18 July :: 12.16am
mmk then for anyone out there who doesn't know my name is now Fits Patrick O'mally. You can call me fits, pat, O'mally, patrick, or whatever else fits in there, just don't call me ben anymore. I'm quiet sure why i want this but at around 3 in the morning yesterday i just yelled "My name is not ben its fits patrick o'mally" To wich my dad "replied go to sleep".
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