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2003 21 May :: 2.51pm
:: Mood: wet
:: Music: none of it
im all wet.
so im wet and stuff from 9th period. or from lack of 9th period. me alex and amanda didnt go. stood outside. now im all wet. today was normal. squeed balls bettween my legs in gym u know a normal day
Silly test
YOU ARE OLD SCHOOL PUNK!
You are so anti-social you've become the talk of
the town. You used to spend all day riding on
your skateboard and growing your mohawk, but
now you are on to bigger dreams. Your ambitions
to spend your life strung out on drugs and to
spend a whole year with out a shower is really
taking off. From the Ramones to Bad Brains you
are the true punk fan. Indeed, you are the envy
of nobody, but the attention you get all the
time is well worth it. Its a dirty job, but
someones gotta do it.
What is your anti-conformist personality?
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2003 20 May :: 9.39pm
:: Mood: i feel werid
:: Music: NIN-"Hurt"
ah im super bored.
so i dont know what to talk about really just the fact that im really bored. i went to paint a random picture before. randomly. even know i lack artisic stills. i still did. and then someone how it go all wet. so i got pissed. and i gave up. then i went to sleep for like 3hours. and i dont know where everyone is online right now but there is no one to speek with so i think ill be going to sleep soon. i think i sleeped to much today.
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2003 20 May :: 6.13pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: none
today was a normal days
so did today i went to school. i didnt get in trouble for not going to math like i thought i did. works almost over. today was sad. haha all the little kids dont want me to leave they love me hehe they say im a good after care person. oh those kiddies are so sweet. and they want me to bring my friends. and they made me chace off these boys today it was silly
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2003 19 May :: 3.06pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: nofx
today was a nice day
so i had school today. it was a nice day since i didnt go any work reallly and i didnt go to 9th period and played with that kid alex. hes a really cool kid. from the side he really looks like james. i was guna tell him but i didnt. but james is ugly. and alex isnt as ugly ...well anyways i went on then bus and anoyed "ozzy" cuz thats my buss drvies name haha i told him lou was my boyfriend can that he was the fat kid and hes like oh with the orange hair haha then we said to blow him a kiss. but he hald up his hand with a ring. so im like man women or animal. he didnt say anything. im thinking animal.
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2003 18 May :: 9.37pm
the stoping of coke is going great and all but i just cant help but want the feeling
so im doing really great. one month clean. im trying hard not to throw it all away. with one little sniff i can total ruin my cleanness. i just sometimes cant help but want that feeling. like how you can talk for endless hours. about anything. and you say stuff that at any other moment would seam total stupid and pointless to say. and you feel like you could tell people anything. and that you love your self and who ever you share that time with. its just an amazing feeling. a feeling i hope in time i forget. so iwont want to feel it again. because if i dont know how it is ill have no reason to feel it. its just hard to stop dead on. like just stop instead of stopingg by doing a little at a time. but know me i wouldnt do that. so this is the only way. well wish me luck in the next mouth. cuz its hard.
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2003 18 May :: 7.37pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: none
so maybe today wasnt to bad
so today i went to my grandmas. and guess who i saw on the way. JON GARREN! little fucker got so scared to see me. my mom was like ah lets get food but i was like half asleep and not hungry since i still feel sick but she was and wanted to feed my old grandma. so she went to wendys. and jon works there. i gues they let him get his job back.ahhh. i was soo mad. i wanted to stab him. im going to get him someday now that i know his place of work. yea food like that makes me sick its mean to eat little animals haha so i had to smell it and see it and see jon and i still dont feel good...
anyways went to tinas. my cousin. her friends came. there cool. we drove around with this kid steve playing nigger music
aww and i felt bad my bady cousin was saying how he got 2 fish but me tian and this boy saw one was dead but we just left it since we thought it looked "lifelike"
oh and dans my new boyfriend (wink wink) yummmy
its a joke..shh dont tell him...
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2003 18 May :: 10.47am
:: Music: Sublime_date rape.
a very uneventfully weekend.
so this weekend sucked. i didnt go out once and pretty much just sat around the house for the last 5 days or so with me being sick and all. the only thing that even nearly excited me, was these little boys must have been knocking on dooors and ruining but when they got to mine my dog barked. so i got up cuz i was waiting for that lady to take me to eat with them and i open the door as the little boy was knocking. and he ran to bad he stood there for like 10 secs before he took off.
i told him its only funny when you run before the person opens the dooor.
cant pull one over on cait...
so now to complete my very uneventfully weekend im going to grandmas. ah maybe ill see tina. maybe not.
my dad should be home later tonight. so ends the mother and daughter time. which is good because i dont think i can take more of this bonding....
anyways. im starting to get just as upset as i was when kris 1st left. its not like im doing it got attention or anything. i reallly miss kris. and i want to talk to him just for a little. just to make me happy for a little bit and know that my kris is just fine there.
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2003 17 May :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: depressed
little kids are the cutest arent they
so the lady next store knew i was home alone and made me go eat...well didnt make me but i went. the husband tried to make me eat alot but i didnt want to soo he got all mad haha. the littlle girl was so cute and really wants to meet my mice hah ...
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2003 17 May :: 2.58pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: tsunami bomb
my daddy is so cool.
alright so my mom may suck alot but my dad just called me and he is on trip and he is in disney world and since he knows i love toy story he got me a wheezy doll. oh yes i know im 16 i should be all happy about a doll but its soo cool i love that little bugger. my daddy hasnt bought me anything since i was like 10 so its really cool. my dads the nice one. he says he is sorry he isnt home cuz then he would have talked to my mom and i would have went out, sometimes my dad can be mean but i think its cuz he is scared of my mom. cuz who wouldnt be.
what a werd test
Grover on Ecstasy
You're funny, you're loveable, you're entertaining,
you like to call yourself "Super
Grover!"--You're obviously on ecstasy.
But that's why we love you. Be careful, ok?
Which Sesame Street Muppet's Dark Secret Are You?
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another stupid one i dont get
You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.
What Kind of Smile are You?
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-i need a life-
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2003 17 May :: 2.34pm
wait my mom had another one of her mood swings she went to her thing said when she gets back maybe i can go out. its a shame all my friends are already out. grr.
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2003 17 May :: 1.36pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: fuck
Its only fucking 1 30 and my day has already been ruined.
so today i was guna go to some kids house i didnt really know with lou, galler , fingers..you know those peopple. but i asked my mom and she said no. then i called her a whore and now she isnt guna leave me home all day like she was going to and she is staying with me. im guna die. i cant take her shit. shes so mean to mean and hate it. i want to get out of the house. next weekend i have to go to some fucking stupid party in maryland and wear a stupid fucking skirt and be happy and pretend i love my family yet again. and i cant go out for another weekend. i want to leave. i need to get out of this house.
now i think i have to go to my stupid grandmas.
well its better then siting home and painting this stupid picture frame all day.
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2003 16 May :: 10.28pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: none..
im sleepy.
So i havent been to school since wed. and i didnt go out tonight since i was still "sick". i dont really care tho since i didnt have to go to school and i can go out tommorow. but i dont think i have anyone to hang out with since i think lou and them are going some place. so im alone. unless i go valley streams. which im alowed to do. which may not turn out good since i have like 100 dollors plus 150 dollors worth of pay cheek. ah i can stay home all day also. which be great if kris was still around cuz he used to come over and we could play. but i dont have anything to do tommorow really so what im saying is if u wannan play tell me or leave one of those sillly comments or tell me because telling me just makes more sense
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2003 15 May :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Distillers
ah so its been a month today
So i was thinking about it before and its been a month today since my kris left. I still feel the same way i did when he left, i just have learned to deal with it. Russ told me that Kris's mother had a talk with Russ's mother much like mine and his did. He said that his mom thought i started Kris out. Even if it is total true i dont see how she would just think that. I think kris must have told that i did. Because i remeber he told me they asked him who starting him when he went to meetings and stuff before he went. He had told me that he made a story up. but i think he said that his girlfriend did or something thinking they woulnt tell his parents. Oh well. Russ also said that he should be geting a break soon because hes mommy said he is doing really good. i really miss kris and id love to talk to him. and see him. and kiss him. and make sure he knows i love him and miss him because i think he left on a bad note. it was just like another goodnight goodbye like anyother night. i said bye and he did also then i left and didnt call him that night. i didnt call him because i didnt want to hear him say goodbye again. because it hurt so much the 1st time so i went to sleep that night and thought id wake up and call him before he left. but i didnt it was to hard. i guess i kinda still thought he be back. my hopes where to hign. but now im geting used to it. one month is longer then people think. so much can happen. well only 11month left of no kris.
ah im guna stop rambling now.
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2003 15 May :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: sick
just like in real life hehe
Which Piercing are you?
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2003 15 May :: 8.14pm
:: Mood: unloved
:: Music: none.
my moms...shes nuts
dude my mom is crazy 1st she thought i left the house today when i was home sick sleeping all day!
then she told me all this bulshit in the car how she is guna kill her self and it will be my fault. she said she never wants to see me agian and im a bad person ect.. and she said she isnt coming home and to call someone for dinner and to take care of me and my dads away so im home alone
i think she will come home but still its unfait i didnt do shit plus im mad sick
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