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2003 19 April :: 12.52pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: NIN
it isnt getin better
so i thought things would get better if i sleept so at like 2 30 last night (after siting here for like 6 hours not really talkin to anyone) i went into my room. it took a while but i got to sleep. and i thought id wake up alright but i feel the same it hurts sooo fucking much its like a coke down. and i know its nnot from coke cuz i quit that shit and i never got liek this in the other weeks with out it. i need kris...
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2003 18 April :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: really sad
:: Music: jonny case_hurt ...the nin one is bette
i dont know if im goin to make it
i feel realy sad i need to get this out
the truth of the matter is i spent this whole day crying and i loook like a herione addit. i cant take it i have no one to talk to or anything and all i want is to have him call me but i know it wont happen i just want him back soo much
i love kris
this is the worst i ever felt...
i know im pathic
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2003 18 April :: 4.42pm
:: Mood: soo sad
:: Music: sublime
sad.....so i take tests?
Cocaine.
You like to talk,
you like to run,
but most of all you like to have fun.
Which drug should you be hooked on? [now with
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2003 18 April :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: the movie life
i miss him
Ok everything fucking makes me thing of him its really scary.
Like:
snapple?
his ear thing that some how is randomly on my bathroon floor.
my bed
his sweater
my catch 22 sweater
screeching weasel
nofx
my sisters room
the change on her roof
my back door
my cd player....
eek
im really upset alot more then i thought i would be i mean its not even a day and its soo total diffrent with out him i cant even explain i go to call him
i know he isnt guna be there but i just want to call him cuz im so used to it ...
i cant take it
i hope i can make it
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2003 18 April :: 11.29am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: i cant ...
soo hes gone
so i went to kris's last night we did stuff
for the final time ... russ james and his friend mark went....
i cant belive he is gone it sucks soo much
our goodbye sucked....and i didnt call him last night cuz i didnt want to say "goodbye" again because i hated it so much
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2003 16 April :: 7.29pm
:: Mood: still sad
:: Music: sublime "no women no cry"
still didnt come!
so kris didnt come again too bad tonight i promise hahha
that jill girl was at my school today shes not that bad i felt bad when peter was being a dick to her cuz she isnt that bad peter just does that when someone doesnt like him haha
got my freaken belt buckle back from mayer after much pushing
i think im guna get him another one
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2003 15 April :: 9.34pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: sad
sad
so kris didnt come over last night and today he want to another one of the rehab things soo friday at one i lose my kris for a year im so mad i dont want him to go ,...he will leave forget me and find some time crack head and ill die
hes comin tonight FOR SURE if he callls back that is which he best do
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2003 14 April :: 8.11pm
:: Mood: ghetto
Im going ta write todays journal in ebonix. So ah jet ta werk it sucked alot then ah got pictures devolped from yesterday when ah jet ta muh ma fuckin grandmas an' took then at da beach
ah wants kris ta come tonight even though ah got skoo tommorow ah th'o't ill let him come what 'chew thinking man?
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2003 14 April :: 2.39pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: kris voice
well i get to go back to school
soo i had the meetin turns out its only one day suspention toooo bad oh well its only a 2 day week
YOU ARE MARRIED TO A WoODCHUCK!!!
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2003 13 April :: 11.23am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: 88 fingers louie
i am sooo bored of being home
sooo 2nd weekend in a row that i am home and cant go out and it reallly sucks
havent done anything since that 13gram thing the day before that concert a couple saturdays ago
last night kris got stuff with the money i gave russ for e cuz he cant get it
i told kris i had a bad feeling and not to come over
maybe tonight
i feel bad it must suck to have and not to do
oh well i have a meeting with my condom monday ,..... might get less days not sure yet
soo gotta go to grandmas ....mom said kris can come that be cool since we got stuff but i dont want to make him go there plus he cant go out sooo oh well
byeee
oh yea write what you think about kerri hahha and not about me who ever keeps writing in ugly and shit should reallly leave a name is really gay of u
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2003 12 April :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: sad?
:: Music: rancid
umm yea
What Kind of Drunk Are You?
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2003 11 April :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: MAD
:: Music: MAD
MAD!
so today me ashley javi and amanda deside kerri needs to get beat or at least talked to. so we go to her class and when she gets out we start to talk. she keeped walkin away and every time she did id kinda pull or push her to come back. then she went away and i pulled her and shes starts to pull my hair i punched her a couple times and shit and welll in suspended for 3 days i really hope i hurt that stupid bitch fucking i hate her so much she needed this even her friends said soo i hate her more then i can express spoild shallow fucking bitch
she only got one day also,,,bullshit
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2003 10 April :: 3.14pm
:: Music: Korky ? voice?
Illl day
sso today was cool lets start off nice and early .....got up went to school backpack less meet jen peter John Kevin Al and kristy
went over my riches and a gaurd started to follow us soo scary but we got away cuz we went in the woods
final got to my house driven my a stoner dude he was cool
got to my house smokes aloottt it was soo cute
kris came
let al and kevin taake wine
Oh and mike pierced me! haha
total of who was there...
Kevin
Korky
paul
peter
Kristy
Nicole
Jen
Kris
Al
Mike
Pau
Johnl
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2003 9 April :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: sublime
The coool kids of smithtown are going to have a cool day with one kris
soo tommorow is some dumb holocost nazi all day bullshit...its dumb
so me and peter got an idea i said lets go to my house and not school soo thats wats going on heres the line up for who is going ( a * means maybe ;) )
Peter
Mike
John
Paul
Kris
Kevin
*Al
*rich
Nicole
Kristy
Jen
its guna be cool smokign and maybe coke
mikes guna pierce me haha
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2003 7 April :: 8.45pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Misfits_fiend club
soo it snowed?
so it snowed not alot at alll and we got out of school at 1 45 instead of 1 59? isnt that great and it was dumb cuz i really dont care about stayin in math since all we did was sit there and work on a sheet with a partner so me and peter just talked
i want kris to come over tonight but i dont know since i dont want him riding his bike when there is snow and shit dont need him getin hurt now
soo ill be mad tired in school oh well not like i need engry for school anyways ;)
look what Matt and to u other kids "fingers" says hahhaha
thefon Z Z 87: as soon as kris goes away
thefon Z Z 87: we're goin out
MrLunt135: we can fuck
MrLunt135: YEsss
thefon Z Z 87: me n u baby
thefon Z Z 87: yes
MrLunt135: score
thefon Z Z 87: o yes score we will
MrLunt135: hahha i loveu
thefon Z Z 87: "clcik" ;-)
even if i really dont want kris to go away that would be a nice change hahah noo i dont want kris to leave
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