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2000 11 January :: 1.30am
:: Mood: worthless
:: Music: 311
hooray for all my plans crashing through....yea, i'll explain later. its not important right now. im back in my rut. it feels good to be home again. as shitty as it is, it always seems to inspire me to write. i could fill a whole fucking notebook if i wasn't so lazy. here ya go suki:
getting away
stars everywhere
a field of dreams
nothing to do but look
i feel it coming closer around me
the un-relinquishing grip of reality
temporarily escaped
for this one night
living for the moment
with reality aside
its almost gone
the one second of time now complete
don't want to go back
i could live here
can i?
it won't let me
curse my reality
why must it hit me now?
the moment is gone
come back to me.....please
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2003 11 January :: 1.12am
God i'm happy!
My date = soo excellent!!!
wow. lol geez i'm a dork (yeah.) Heidi, Jessie & I are the pimpest girls in the world!!!!! All 3 of us successfully had the most incredible nights and ahhhhh!!!
It was actually funny.. we were guna meet at Starbucks @ 9:30 and I had Chris and Jenn looking for him because I was a chicken shit.. while we were waiting we bumped into Jacob's (Heidi's boyfriend)little sister Sarah & that was pretty cool.. I also ran into Canadian Dave's little sister Jen!
So yeah he go there... exactly 8min before I decided I was leaving. He brought me Bob the Builder stickers & I am forever indebted to him haha it was really sweet though and it just made him that much more wonderful lol well we talked for awhile then chilled @ Borders then Kevin came around 11 and we went to Mizeraks where Marc & I won 3 games of pool (i wish lol)
It was such an excellent night... I don't want it to end...ever lol
picsxstarsxdream: curious. what did your friends say?
The Cow and I: like what?
The Cow and I: well.. they talked about how like close we where and how we hit it off
The Cow and I: and like how they thought it would not work
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2000 10 January :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: nowell acoustic (killer album!)
shit
i was supposto get a call yesterday. what did i get? nothing.
today, it's almost 12:30, and still no call, other then solicitors who wake me up. assholes
what am i to do? i think im gonna call soon, cuz im very worried. i want to go back to school, soooooooo bad. i am so horribly sick of being in this house.
atleast i did get an extra week of vacation. grrr...history essay im gonna hafta make up, and bio test on thursday.....and god only knows how many movies im missing in english 3 honors. hehehe
so desperately bored. im gonna go out and get some lunch.
another worthless post
-A.J.
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2000 9 January :: 1.09am
:: Mood: insanely bored
:: Music: filter
shoot me
ok, so its now 1:15 in the morning. everyone's probably asleep now. lucky bastards. not going to school sucks soo much more then i ever thought it could. this break has been waaay too long now, and i really want to see todos my friends and everyone at school.
hopefully i can go back on friday. theres nothing to do here during the day. im not gonna complain about it too much, cuz i know everyone is really pissed or jealous that i am getting away with staying hope. suprisingly tho, i've remained decently productive. i took down all the christmas lights, cleaned my room, and rocked out on sax. crazy shit. but theres this ever gloomy feeling that i get from doing all this....like ya know the feeling when you're not doing your homework or studying, and ya know ya should, but ya put it off, and you get this inner feeling thats like a mini oh-shit alarm.....well i'm getting that from sitting home here, but there is no homework to be doing. i have no classes to prepare for, no readings, etc. it should make me feel great, but it doesnt. damn my conscience
here's the good part: (this is where i get to rub it in about getting out) im not gonna get up till after 12 tomorrow, im gonna watch the hell out of the tv, i dont hafto rush and read zen and the motorcycle something something before the quiz in tok, i didn't read lost steps, i dont hafta write my world lit paper, don't afta plan for my extended essay, im probably gonna make it through this year without writing a single research paper, or anything that requires looking up information, no more mrs schilit, no more cas, no more chugging down 10 million vocab words for spanish in 2 days (haha, like i actually did that ne ways), and theres a whole bunch more perks of not being in ib that i won't discuss here
well its late, and im the least bit tired. 1:29 about now. i think im gonna go watch tv. cheers is probably on. i wish i had something to do tomorrow. damn this is a worthless post
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2003 8 January :: 8.18pm
Hello. My head hurts less now,thank you hehe
School is actually very excellent so far with the exception of everyone getting kicked out :0( TOK is very interesting too bad Zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance isn't.
I met a boy that is wonderful.. Weird eh? It seems kind of weird but hes really cool and I think he enjoys talking to me (hope so anyways lol) Lets see... he likes Radiohead (like canadian Dave) and hes really into SKA and we have excellent conversations :0P hes NOT a republican, not gay haha, a nice guy so far. Maybe after yoga we'll get married heh (that ones for you :0P)
I think for the first time in a long time i'm in an excellent mood. This is kind of nice.
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2000 7 January :: 3.20pm
:: Mood: chilled
:: Music: KERPLUNK
mmmmmy vacation is a week longer!!
ok, so yesterday i went to the ibo. i got a reasignment form. so this morning i go to boca high, to talk to their guidance counselor, and instead of registering, he tells me exactl ywhat to put on my reassignment form so it would be accepted. so then i trek to forest hill to give them my form. the lady says it would take three days. then its back to atl to tell mrs kelli whats going on. mrs kelli officially rox in my book. she said that the county said they are leaving the reassignment up to the schools (score!) and connie and jackie were allready accepted, so when my form gets transfered to the school, i will be readmitted to atlantic. thats not gonna be until friday. so that means i have TWO MORE DAYS OFF!!! hell fuck yes! i allready had today off, and now i get wednesday off and thursday. i don't hafto register for boca high, like i thought, so i get 3 free days. nice.
we worked out my classes for when i get back. i keep ap bio, ap am. history, band, and jazz. i move to spanish 3 regular (there is no honors :( but better than the pib class), trig honors, and english 3 honors. that will make things a lot easier. also next year i only need to take a full year of english and health as a senior to graduate. i also found out that i can retake all the classes i got d's (bio h, chem, physics, spanish 3, alg 2) in during my senior year, and it will erase the d and turn it into whatever grade i get. score! yay for d-less transcripts. and yay for getting out of ib! i highly reccomend it to all.
and one more thing....my reassignment is only good for the rest of this year, so i will hafto do another one next year, but that one will take into account of senior privilege, so i will be able to stay at atl. fuck yes!!! i am soo happy right now. everything is suddenly working out in the right way for me. just the only bad thing about all of this is i found out the college i really have a hard on for (Berklee College of Music in Boston) is over $30k/year. sigh. that is way expensive for my blue-collar family. oh well. maybe scholarships. i'm done now
-A.J.
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2000 5 January :: 8.14pm
:: Mood: pissed off
decent weekend
god damn. the hurricanes and the giants, all in three days. grrrr. least theres still the jets
im sure i did something interesting on friday, i just cant remember it. oh yea. the miami game. i was pised they lost, but it was funny to see my dad cursing out the president of frito lay when he was awarding the fiesta bowl trophy. god, my dad's so bitter.
so... saturday was fun. had some oj, cable ski-ed, didnt wipe out too much, boston market, dave not feeling well. was a fun day. hung out with steph afterwards. not suprising how she hasnt changed. still all crazy and random. good stuff. phone calls to end the evening. yay for caring
woke today soo sore. why does cable skiing hafta hurt so much afterwards? work wasnt too bad. its funny tho: on friday they were about to fire me, and today they wanted to train me to be a cashier. pretty fucked up.
well im off. simpsons
-A.J.
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update
i forgot to add this when i posted it. i still havent told my parents about the kicked out of ib thing. my plan is to take the palm tran to school to go to the ibo and straighten shit out. i hope they let me stay at atl. i have a whole load of excuses: my class ring (that i didn't order), gonna try out for baseball, friends, ap classes, i ordered a yearbook (which i didnt), jazz band, my jacket (hahahah), screwey boca high schedule, etc. hopefully mrs kelli will sympathise (sp).
ok. now im done
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2003 5 January :: 9.54pm
:: Mood: in pain... lots and lots of freakin pain
snow = overrated.
sooo Vivi's snowboarding adventures recap: 1st day = very very very frustrating... i could get down the stupid bunny slope but i had no idea how to stop so everytime i wanted 2 slow down or stop i'd totally wipe out... VERY VERY PAINFUL!!! that was at Kirkwood by the way.
Today was a LOT better (well kinda)we went to Heavenly which is a HUGEEE resort on the border of Cali and Nevada. The first run of the day approx 9:00am was ehhhhh evenutally got down lol decided to take a sitter till my 11:00am private lesson. Private lesson = excellent. The best thing I could have done (plus my instructor Adam was soooooooooooooooooooooo HOT!!!!) that actually made the lesson harder cuz I wasn't really paying attention :0P Well... he did teach me a lot though... I can now officially control the stupid board and am an intermediate snowboarder :0D haha welllll I did about 11 runs today which isn't bad... only had 1 bad wipeout (not my fault.. stupid kid skiiers..) lets see... best run of the day would have to be all the way down & fell once at the bottom to avoid hitting skiiers inline for the lift (yay go me!)
That part of the day was just dandy... but around 3:20pm all hell struck (this is guna beat your story Lana!)I went up the lift again in the single line so they paired me up w/a double. 2 boarders... i was on the right. Well... for those of you who don't know where you're sitting on the lift is where you're supposed to go to get off..(left veers to the left, middle goes straight etc) well i was perfectly ready to get off veering towards the right. I was okay but unfortunately the stupid kid in the middle decided to veer to the right also. He ended up clipping me and i fell leaving the chair lift thing to come around and drag me by my hair 3ft backwards (it sucked) when the stupid lift finally stopped i pulled my head away, heard a loud rip and saw like half of my hair hanging off of the chair lift. Fun. I wasn't too happy... kinda ruined the end of my day. Luckily I have no bald spot.. proly just gota get the back evened out.
Ride home was long. Tal... ehh i'll write bout him in a later entry. I guess a pretty good day over all. I'd definately like to do it again :0)
I come home tomorrow, weeeee!
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2003 3 January :: 9.52pm
My bestfriend Tal from elementary school is here now Weee! Spent the whole day w/him in the bay area = lots of fun! Now hes playing video games w/my lil bro. Tomorrow ehh 4:30am we leave for Kirkwood to go skiing!!!! ehh snowboarding? heh should be loads of fun. The next day we're going to Heavenly which is supposed to be the best ski place around soo yay! then Vivi returns on the 5th & stupid school starts again.
so far an excellent break :0)
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2000 1 January :: 4.41pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: voo doo glow skulls
the new millennium.....
damn, i can't believe its allready the year 2000. i sure wasted these last thousand years.
newyears was decent, fun, big sandwich....lack of chicken. well here starts my new year. i promise myself this will be better. life won't bring me down so much, and i'll try to have more fun. no more alcohol.....how will i ever survive? i should start appreciating things more in life, cuz i always overlook them, or they suck to me, and i shouldnt view life like that. fuck it, im done with the inspirational A.J. messages for now.
another worthless update
-A.J.
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2003 1 January :: 1.25pm
u know your in band too long when:
~You hear music and mark the time
~You walk in step with the person in front of you
~You don't mind changing on the bus
~All the guys/girls in which you are interested are in the band
~You like your uniform
~You've had a trombone-ectomy
~You consider your drill book a necessary fashion accessory
~You practice your instrument more than you talk to your dog
~You consider getting mauled by a drum a part of normal life
~An armed guard means a girl with a pole, not a guy with a gun
~When alone, you suffocate -- no one tells you to breathe
~You name your instrument
~You know your instrument's birthday but forget your mom's
~You can make brown shoes look white
~Your uniform fits
~You see your section more than you see your family
~You think evening practice should last half an hour longer
~You accidentally call your director Dad/Mom
~You CAN sight read
~You can put on your uniform in under 10 minutes
~Your reed tastes yummy
~You think your plume is alive
~Marking tie is your favorite form of exercise
~You have neck strap harness tan lines (right drummers?)
~Numbers past eight aren't important anymore
~Letters past G aren't important anymore
~When you roll step through the cafeteria, you don't spill your lunch
~When everyone in the band fights like family
~When you practice so long the color guard is together
~You know not only your part, but everyone else's as well
~You eat lunch in the band room
~You possess two instruments:
~a good one for concert and a junky one for marching band
~You can't go to movies on the weekend with friends
~You don't see your parents on the weekend
~Your free time is spent doing homework
~Drummers actually seem to make sense
~Your furniture is dented because of you banging drumsticks on it
~The ego of the trumpet section seems normal
~You got all the jokes on this list.
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2003 1 January :: 3.55am
finally everyone left. I was the dish/serve slave of the night.. fun. Boring.
A new year, hopefully a better one.
Goodnight everyone <3
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2002 31 December :: 12.20pm
8 hrs back from Vegas. Listened to Mayonaise on repeat over 100 times. Finally I feel empty. Some people are envious of me, they shouldn't be.
For the past hour I've sat here reading everybodys' entries since the 27th. I made a comment to Andy about how depressing it was reading bout everyone bitching and moaning but then i ask myself, what is this? thats what my life has been reduced to, endless bitching and moaning? yeah.the end.
Vegas: ate way too much. Saw "O" = excellent. gambled illegally :-O!.
I miss it all
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1999 31 December :: 1.53am
:: Mood: better
:: Music: live - throwing copper
the year in review......an A.J. production
as im going through the last few hours, blah blah. fuck it. this year was decent, to say the least. it wasn't great, but didn't suck
JAN
-new computer
FEB
-2nd period donuts!
-ben and josh killing eachother
-lonely v day
MAR
-stonebitch
APRIL
-new keyboard!
-birthday
-first referral
-new sax!!
MAY
-greenday!
-depression
-breakdowns
-euro. die. euro
-end of school!
-disgustingly expensive energy drinks!
-sublime shirt!
JUNE
-first time ever going to arby's!
-sara!
-physics
-the beach!
JULY
-missing trip to keys
-missing trip cuz of physics
-die. physics. die.
-warped tour!
-surfing!
AUGUST
-new sublime cds!
-school
-band camp. die.
-new stereo amp!
-got a raise at work!
-going home drunk and not getting caught!
SEPT
-sara!
-new mission speakers!
-"doin time!"
OCT
-beer nipples!
-almost got fired from work (not the first time)
-new business
-homecomming!
-halloween!
NOV
-cd connection!
-nfg
-sevendust gone. forever. 2 times
-kfc, taco bell, orange juice!
-i screw up everything
DEC
-sellout!!
-christmas
-reflex action (electric)!
-almost getting fired from work again
-new years!
that was my year. im soo fucking lame. i wish i had my sevendust cd back
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2002 27 December :: 3.16pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: killing in the name of
fuck you mr youngman
yes, its official. i've been kicked out of ib. bright futures scholarship, down the fucking tubes. gpa for any other scholarship? naah. im pretty much fucked. hopefully they will let me stay at atlantic.
neways
my new years resolutions:
1) no smoking; cigars, cigaretts, etc.
2) no drinking; only in moderation
3) not go to boca high; no matter what the circumstances, i'm staying at atlantic
4) get my fucking permit; its been a lot more than a year and a half since i turned 15. god damn
5) buy a drum set
6) foucs on school work
7) watch less tv
8) exercise more; run/jog atleast once every other day
9) be nicer to people; be less sarcastic and mean
10) be less of a dork; haha, im writing in my journal, that is pretty dorky
11) not care what people think about me
12) try to think before i say or do anything (wish i woulda been doing this about a month ago or so)
13) no more using people; rides, hw, etc.
14) be mroe friendly
15) smile more
16) read more books
17) get better at guitar
18) start/play in a ska band where i play sax
19) learn how to sing. hahaha
20) redesign my room
21) surf more/spend more time at the beach ----> get tan
holy shit. i got a lot to acomplish. theres probably more things i should add to that list, but im not thinking so well over break. fuck it
-A.J.
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