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2004 10 December :: 10.36am
classes are finished as of 10:04 this morning.
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2004 9 December :: 12.27pm
AHHHHH so sick of school.
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2004 9 December :: 10.17am
Yesterday was a great day.
I made plans with Richelle to go shopping, which is awesome. I've been friends with her for such a long time and we've always talked about doing stuff together but it never happens. But this Saturday, her and I are going shopping. Yea.
I saw Dan, I love Dan, I'm really glad God gave me Dan. Or at least put Him in my life, I don't think I would be the same person I am now if we hadn't crossed paths. I feel that way about all of my friends though. Like Marisa, and Jessa, and Ryan, and Richelle, and Kelly, and Matt, and Dylan, and Michelle, and Nick, all of everyone I've ever met or talked to, I wouldn't be the same. Everyday I wake up and thank God that I have had such good people that actually care about what's inside, instead of looking at me with shallow eyes.. I love you all so very much, and I am so sorry that I haven't been there lately, but I will be. I'll be closer. speaking of which...
I'm not going to be in college anymore. After this next week, I'm going to get a job in Cedar somwhere, and possibly a car, and maybe, just maybe, some money. It'll be different, but I'll be there, and It'll be good.
I love you. all.
Talk to you later. I promise.
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2004 8 December :: 7.29pm
I dare you to say something to Brads face. You won't. Guaranteed.
Some lines from one of Joes updates that I was told to read:
"And that whole seeing brad after school thing? That's just lame. I don't need to see some douche after school every single day. If he can't cough up the balls to actually go to school instead of applying for a GED or dropping out or whatever the hell he's doing, he shouldn't have the right to hang out with all his little groupies after school. That's just my personal opinion, though. :)"
I won't ever understand that kid. He is so fucked up. Obviously it's either a jealousy thing or he's really fucking nosey. I'm going to go with both. Oh, and here's a reason why he's a hypocrite; Joey. He's one of his best friends. He's fucking 21 years old and he still visits the school, and all his little "groupies" hang out with him. Joey failed some years. Actually I'm pretty sure he got his GED.
"...he shouldn't have the right to hang out with all his little groupies after school."
Then either should Joey (wait..it's ok if he's there after school because he brings Joe home and anything that helps Joe is acceptable), Perry, or anyone that isn't in school anymore.
And Joe is lacking credits he needs. But wait, that's okay because Joe is ALWAYS right about everything and even though he does the same shit he looks down on people for it's ok for him to do it. It's clear to see that Brad being at the school has absolutely nothing to do with Joe. Yet, he complains anyway. When is that kid going to learn? Soon, I hope. For his own sake. Anyway, I don't really feel the need to go on any further. You all know Joe's an asshole, I have nothing to prove.
But hey.. that's just my personal opinion. :)
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2004 8 December :: 4.39pm
"I may be stoned out of my mind, but I don't know what I did wrong."
-My Dad
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2004 8 December :: 2.43pm
Oh my oh my. Charlie is waking up i think. Wait, no, just rolling over. Wake up wake up wake up!
In other news, I am tired of school. But really, who isn't?
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2004 8 December :: 12.26pm
Why do people suck so much??? GRRRR.
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2004 8 December :: 9.11am
JUST A MOMENT -----
by Max Lucado
It all happened in a moment, a most remarkable moment.
As moments go, that one appeared no different than any other. But in
reality, that particular moment was like none other. For through that
segment of time a spectacular thing occurred. God became a man. While
the creatures of earth walked unaware, Divinity arrived. Heaven opened
herself and placed her most precious one in a human womb.
God as a fetus. Holiness sleeping in a womb. The creator of life being
created.
God was given eyebrows, elbows, two kidneys, and a spleen. He stretched
against the walls and floated in the amniotic fluids of his mother.
God had come near.
He came, not as a flash of light or as an unapproachable conqueror, but
as one whose first cries were heard by a peasant girl and a sleepy
carpenter. The hands that first held him were unmanicured, calloused,
and dirty.
No silk. No ivory. No hype.
Were it not for the shepherds, there would have been no reception. And
were it not for a group of star-gazers, there would have been no gifts.
To think of Jesus in such a light is-well, it seems almost irreverent,
doesn't it? It's not something we like to do; it's uncomfortable. It is
much easier to keep the humanity out of the incarnation. Clean the
manure from around the manger. Wipe the sweat out of his eyes. Pretend
he never snored or blew his nose or hit his thumb with a hammer.
But don't do it. For heaven's sake, don't. Let him be as human as he
intended to be. Let him into the mire and muck of our world. For only
if we let him in can he pull us out.
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2004 6 December :: 6.16pm
Disintigrating sense of reality- why can I really relate to some of the feelings Philip K. Dick has? Sometimes I wonder if life is all a dream. If everyone is there acting for your play of a life.
"...a severe vertigo that gave him the strange sense that he was dislocated from real life. He confessed to attacks where he doubted his own existence and felt that the world around him was a thin façade over some unnameable reality."
I can relate to that.
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2004 6 December :: 5.51pm
:: Music: AFI-Third Season
I swear I had an entry earlier explaining a bit about my total disgust about the information I found out today. It's quite shocking.
"his ocean wrists run deep.
but the floods before him,
will not be cause
to drown."
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2004 6 December :: 12.31pm
OH MY GOSHHHH. You never can trust people.
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2004 5 December :: 4.15pm
:: Music: Straylight Run - Another Word for Desperate
Ok..
So, my grandma bought me a shirt.
It has a snowman on it and it says ..*tries not to burst into laughter*..
'Make me Melt!'
It's terrible.
It's one of those shirts I make fun of.
I'm so going to wear it.
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2004 3 December :: 9.49am
:: Music: Elliott- Songs In The Air
I went to school today, but did not go to skills. Yesterday I went to skills, but did not go to school. Flip-flop. I couldn't sleep at ALL last night. I kept getting up. It was SO annoying!!! And my hands still smell like fricken onions. It won't go away, no matter what I do. Dad said to put baking soda and vinegar on them, but then my hands would just smell like vinegar! YUCK! 5 minutes till class.
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2004 2 December :: 5.57pm
Goodnight, the day is done.
Death awaits.
Rest your head in wavy sun.
Come, take my hand and sing along-
The key of blue, this endless song.
His face worn through but worn with pride.
He saved us all with his hot suicide...
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2004 1 December :: 1.22pm
Dentist appointments really suck.
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2004 1 December :: 12.28pm
get to the choppa!!!
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2004 27 November :: 8.57am
I now have a second job for sure. I go down to Blythefield on Tuesday. I'm so nervous. I answered the phone and he goes "Hi, this is Chef David calling..."
It was exciting. hahaha. :-)
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2004 26 November :: 9.03pm
Good things never last.
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2004 24 November :: 7.26pm
:: Music: Queens Of The Stone Age-Mosquito Song
When you walk among the trees, listening to the leaves...
In a matter of days you are forgotten. And okay with it.
The further I go, the less I know.
P.S.- I love this song.
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2004 24 November :: 2.57pm
UPDATE: We now have snow.
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2004 24 November :: 2.55pm
Painting A Reality
How intimate it is
I drew the way your shirt flew liquidly over your body.
The way the sunlight hit your face
The glare off your somber eyes
The green grass rooted underneath our backs
That day,
That minute
was ours.
Captured forever, by pictures
and lines drawn
and memories.
We hold no lines
no boundaries
We are endless-
yet captured.
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2004 24 November :: 2.54pm
:: Music: Son Of Sam-Stray
If anyone can find/has the piano tab for The Used "Sometimes I Just Go For It" and they could get it/find it for me, that would be really awesome. I've been playing it from ear but it's just not the same. And I really want to learn it.
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2004 24 November :: 12.43pm
:: Music: Benton Falls- All These Things
JOB!!!
So cool. Career is taking flight, i think... Went to Blythfield Country Club yesterday. Kevin, the general manager was there, but he was in a meeting. When I told the guy that the 1st time I came here they called 2 days later, he said "Wow." But I don't know. Then he gave my resume to Kevin. He said they'd be in touch with me real soon. So I hope it's good. Also, I changed my recipe for Johnson & Wales, talk about last minute. I am adding a 5 oz. salmon fillet. And I need to get a bigger plate. Yeah, I'm really just blabbing to myself.
I'm just excited.
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2004 24 November :: 12.40pm
You Are a Liberal for Life |
You've got a bleeding heart - and you're proud of it.
For you, liberal means being compassionate, pro-government, and anti-business.
You believe in equality for every person, and you consider yourself universally empathetic.
Helping others is not just political for you ... it's very personal too.
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2004 23 November :: 1.44pm
KATEAMUS.. if you check thiiisss.. I need your phone number, and I'd like to know if you want to hang out today after school.
Leave a comment, punk.
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2004 23 November :: 12.33pm
almost break-time! whoooo
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2004 22 November :: 6.42pm
Okay okay okay. Hot stuff right here...no, i mean...new releases. SO EXCITED.
AFI has a new album coming out next spring.
La la la la la. Oh hells yes.
Against Me! has a new cd coming out too!
yippee!
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2004 22 November :: 1.19pm
It's usual.
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2004 22 November :: 12.29pm
Ugh. My stomach hurts. I just want to be over with today. I'm getting a 2nd job, too. And a lot of other stuff is going on. Gosh.
I am sad.
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2004 21 November :: 5.46pm
I don't know what to call it...
A metaphor to your life?
Do you know what it’s like-
To walk and search and never find?
To wander around till your heels are worn out?
Is this what it’s like when love is a drought?
A metaphor, of course, as to why something’s absent
Forever missing, to hear this lament.
Until now, no longer broken down,
No longer strung out on sound
No more wallowing here
No more swallowing tears
No more watching the rain and counting the years
A step to the front
A push from behind
I move from the back to the front of the line
My heart is not mine
My heart is not mine
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