the worst place to be is somewhere your not w a n t e d....
yeah so today... I guess me n Jill rn't friends anymore... yeah
I was crying n all then I went inside n got in a fight wif my sister and my dad strted yellin at meh for swearing so I told him to not talk to me n he ran after me n threw sumthing and hit me in the fuckin head wif it... fuckin ass.. n then he told me to get out so I went to the camper.. n he came in n told muh friends all this stuff n looked at meh n said noones cares bout meh so I sat right there n said... do u guys care about meh? and they didnt answer... a true friend would answer that!.. so I started walking down the road I could hardly see from all the tears ya no? I was fuckin histerical... and I was just walking n jade followed me n said she did care n I said if she did she woulda said when I asked her ya know? well she kept following n told meh that I had a good life n my parents loved me blah blah blah.. but she dotn get it.. how my life really is.. I dont tell ppl cuzh I dotn want them to know how bad it really is... ya no? n yeah so she just kept saying so many ppl loved me... n I just finally like 20 mins latah broke down in her arms in the middle of the road on a corner n all I could say was "he fuckin doesnt care, he doesnt call me, he hates me, he doesnt care" n I was talking about Cole .. but I dunno how it all came to that.. just a feeling that was in the back of my mind.. I love him with all that I am .. beyond compare.. and he knows that .. but it dont seem like it n he says he loves meh 2 but then he dont call n is wif his friends always n I dont think he even thinks bout meh... I mean he dont call meh or niuthing.. like im not alive or sumthing.. I mean if he loved me wouldnt he wanna talk to meh? n e ways my dad came along n picked me up n threw me in the fuckin car after telling me to get out.. I just kept crying n telling him to let me go.. I was bound to kill myself.. but jade wouldnt let me.. then jade left cuhz "I dont think she cares" but yeah... n there all mad at meh cuz all I talk abotu is jill n the york boys when theyve been here longer n shyt.. but I talk to them n tell them everything cuzh I cant tell the ppl here... n I mean I dont have n e Yorkers n e more.. cept Josh kinda.. but u no he's wif bri boo now n he always talks to her n i dont mind but he dont talk to me really so i dont have him no more so i dont know what in the hell they are talking about... well I cant be on the computer anymore or have a cell.. it may change but w.e i gtg bye
....and knowing it
I made that in desktop publishing class =)
n thats meh n my babii after we was walkin in the rain =)
n thats my bestest buddy and bestest guy friend n like best friend overall Joshie =)
n thats meh n muh Sammie babii =P
n thats Bri n Sammie at school =P
