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2004 8 February :: 8.56pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Placebo-Sleeping With Ghosts
What good's religion when it's each other we despise?
marissa was here but she just now left *sad* she had her hair straightened..she looked older..she said the woman who took her picture thot her and her dad were married...lol how disturbing...she left her book of poems here...these are a few of my favorites..."my angel's suicide"made me cry when i heard it on the phone
"My Angel's Suicide"
The light was too bright
So he hid from the sun
In his dark place
He held the gun
Closed his eyes
And held his breath...
Gripping the gun
Waiting for death
Placed his fingers
In a perfect position
The gun well loaded
Full with ammunition
Raising the gun up to his head
He ran from his life
Choosing death instead
Pulled the trigger and fired the shot
Dropping the gun, the barrel still hot
And in that split second
Before he died
I swear I saw it
My angel cried
"Mommy"
Mommy, when I went to school today the kids all laughed and stared
They made fun of my clothes, Mommy, and the way I wore my hair
I asked them to stop, Mommy, I begged, and pleaded, and cried
But it only made them laugh harder, Mommy, it was tearing me up inside
I tried to answer a question in math, Mommy, but I got it wrong
They told me I was stupid, Mommy, they told me I was dumb
Why is this happening to me, Mommy?
Did I do something bad?
Why do they treat me like this, Mommy?
Why am I so sad?
Why can't they understand, Mommy, that I have feelings too?
Why do they abuse me, Mommy?
Why do they think it's cool?
I can't take it anymore, Mommy
It's gone on way too long
They treat me as if I were different, Mommy, they say I don't belong
The pills are in my pocket, Mommy, I wonder if they will work?
I hope I die quickly, Mommy, I hope it doesn't hurt
Please don't feel guilty, Mommy, tell Daddy it's not his fault
Please tell my brothers, Mommy, that they helped me out a lot
I'm sorry but I must go now, Mommy, I've taken the pills
I'm starting to feel dizzy, Mommy, I'm starting to feel ill
Please pray for me, Mommy
Pray that the angels will take me way
Please ask God for a favor, Mommy, that with Him I will always stay
I'll miss you a lot, Mommy
I'll miss Dad and my brothers, too
I want all of you to know now, Mommy, that I'm sorry and I love you
"My Suicide"
I'll be your hope
I'll be your pride
You'll be my rope
My suicide
I'll be your appraiser
I'll be your love
You'll be my razor
And my blood
I'll be your life
I'll be your guide
You'l be my knife
My suicide
"Afraid"
When I first saw you
I was afraid to meet you
When I first met you
I was afraid to like you
When I first liked you
I was afraid to love you
Now that I love you
I'm afraid to lose you
And this one's funny...
"All Because"
I climbed up the door and opened the stairs
I said my pajamas and put on my prayers
I turned off the bed and crawled into the light
All because you kissed me goodnight
Next morning I woke up and scrambled the news
Picked up my eggs and toasted the shoes
I couldn't tell left from right
All because you kissed me goodnight
That evening I felt normal at last
So I picked up my mother and called the phone
Spoke to the puppy and threw my Dad a bone
Even at midnight the sun was still bright
All because you kissed me goodnight
*sigh* i havent done my gay science project or my gay english project..and ive only done some of my algebra II...owell
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2004 5 February :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Placebo-Plasticine
The only thing you can rely on is that there is nothing you can rely on
I got my Placebo cd in tha mail! woot! i already made a copy of it cuz i dont want my baby to be scratched *pets cd*
still nothing on the mouse front..woop-dee-frickin-doo...i think im the only one who remembers...guh..
but my printer isnt working either..so im gonna have to get my current event at school and come really early for the science one. fun fun....and julia..if u read this..which u probly wont cuz ur a loser...WAVE AT ME! psh....
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2004 3 February :: 6.15am
:: Mood: bvdsjhvbrhjvbgejbfdj
:: Music: Britney Spears- Toxic
la la la la la
"Never argue with an idiot. They'll bring you down to their level and beat you by experience."
just when i was starting to hate her britney comes out with a song i like...
mouse still isnt working..actually you can move it up and down all you like but it wont move sideways..guh...how helpful, no?
shit i just remembered i forgot again to get House of the Scorpion back out of the library...guh....
*sigh* never anything exciting to talk about...
im out..like a fat kid in dodgeball
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2004 30 January :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: GRARF!
:: Music: the humming of the computer
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAY!
jay gordon's birthday is today..hope hes having a better day than i am cuz its beenboring..and my mouse isnt working...
i spilled ramen soup on the desk and some of it got into the mouse and now its all broken..we have to take it apart and clean it...ive been doing everything with the keys...guh.
i shud probly call meagan since shes been bugging me too every day..not sure what the big deal is..i mean we talk at school...
but whatever...my dad got my mom flowers today...*collective awww*
im out.
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2004 28 January :: 8.52pm
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: Zeromancer- Philharmonic
YEAH!
Bobby's back in Orgy!
I knew he'd be back..Orgy just isnt Orgy without him.
And I preordered PSP on Amazon with the gift certificate I got from the PBK contest thing and I ordered a Placebo cd too... I emailed the receipt to Grace and hopefully I'm gonna get an Advanced cd and I'll buy the retail cd when it comes out in Febuary... btw....
PSP IS COMING OUT ON FEBUARY 24TH! EVERYONE MUST BUY IT OR YOU WILL SUFFER AN EXTREMELY PAINFUL PUNISHMENT!!!!!!
ok..that's done..now I just have to wait for a reply
*impatient*
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2004 26 January :: 9.39pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: 30 Seconds To Mars- Buddha For Mary
Guh.
Meagan's house went okay..her bed sqeaks like hell and I had this weird dream..I don't remember what the dream was but..I remember getting hit in the back of the head with something at the end of it..and I could feel it but it didn't hurt..I think it was a plank of wood..I dunno...
School went okay...and the parents have resumed thier normal fighting schedule..oh joy.
I am so god damn jealous of Lea! GOD! She got a bass guitar! Urg I want to play bass...it looks almost the same as Paige's only it's dark red....I don't know what brand it was..I didn't ask..I was too busy how I was going to kill her and steal the guitar without Meagan noticing...
So yeah.. I'm also pissed because none of Meagan's friends even notice me.. I mean they don't have to be great friends with me but they don't even LOOK at me...guh.
So yeah...
grr....bzoink isn't working for me..and neither is quizilla...
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2004 25 January :: 2.52pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Placebo-This Picture
I like Babybel cheese...
Psh..my parents were fighting last night (it all started when my mom's car got stolen)and theyre still fighting..guh i received two lovely cuts on my feet from broken glass from a picture frame my mom through down the stairs at my dad(didnt hit him)...*sigh* my dad called the cops this morning..they didnt tell about the fight..just the stolen car...but whatever at least this fight i didnt have a gun pointed at my head -_-U hopefull my mom will be going to rehab soon.
I'm spending the night at Meagan's tonight so I can get away from this mess...guh but I'll have to go home tomorrow after school..I hate coming home.
Despite all this I'm not in a bad mood. Why you ask? I don't know.
Barbie Got Back! Go you! You're the closest thing ever to a true black Barbie. Shake that fat ass of yours.
If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be? brought to you by Quizilla
hahaha..omg thats great!
Well it seems like you're already a ring bearer, you don't need the Ruling Ring. Of course, you constantly think of all the things you could do with ultimate power!
If You Received The One Ring, How Would It Affect You? brought to you by Quizilla
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2004 23 January :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: bored...still
:: Music: Orgy- Leave Me Out
Julia..I'm mad at your parents
..That was some fucked up shit to say...ur aunt too..just goes to show they don't know you as well as they think they do.
I wanna find out what thise Bubble Tea stuff is as well. (totally unrelated I know)
Basically... | your name please?: | Sierra, yo | location as of now:: | G.P. Texas | place you wish you were:: | Arizona / Germany | zodiac sign:: | libra | chinese zodiac sign:: | snake | got a/any lover(s)?: | no | Favourites... | colour:: | blue | time of day:: | sleepy time | subject in school:: | advanced art | celebrity:: | uh...i dunno | type of music:: | hmm...rock | candy flavor:: | strawberry(the best flavor for everything) | television programa:: | Viva la Bam, Jackass, Wild Boys, home makeover shows, Ambush Makeover, uh....and Made...i wish MTV wud bring back that show "becoming (i think it was called) that was awesome | Dog or Cat?... | spotted or striped?: | striped | dead or alive?: | inbetween | up or down?: | down | heaven or hell?: | I'd rather float around as a ghost and when I get bored I can float off to different galaxies | hippopotamus or patypus?: | Hippo | light or dark?: | dark | rain or shine?: | rain | black and white or technicolor?: | technicolor...NEON technicolor | have you evers... | smoked a cigarette?: | no | smoked weed...anyother drug of choice?: | no | had sex?: | no | been cheated on?: | no | ran away?: | no | skipped classes?: | yes | had a party without your parents knowing?: | no | stole anything relatively valuable (not a stick of gum)?: | duh | passed out?: | no | for or against: | pre-marital sex?: | don't care | abortion?: | If it's the only option u have | animal rights?: | for | urban sprawl?: | guh? | self mutilation?: | hmm...I don't know since I do that sometimes | drugs?: | don't know | guns?: | sure | war?: | is stupid | arranged marriages?: | hell nah | those [stupid] reality-marry-for-money shows?: | should burn in..a burning place |
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*Basics* | Name::: | Sierra | Nickname::: | Paige | Age::: | 14 | Sex::: | female | Location::: | G.P. Texas | Status::: | single..but not looking..fuck off | *Love and such* | Are you bi/lesbian/gay/straight?::: | straight | Are you in love?::: | no | Do you kiss on a first date?::: | dont go on dates | Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?::: | no | Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?::: | no | Have you ever kissed a member of the opposite sex?::: | no | If no, have you ever been curious to what either one would be like?::: | not really | Last sexual thing that happend to you?::: | uh..no | *Family and friends* | Favorite family member?::: | none of them, thank you | Best friend?::: | Marissa | Second family?::: | Marissa's family | Who can you trust with your life?::: | look up | *Do you...* | Do drugs?::: | no | Drink?::: | no | Smoke?::: | no | Cut yourself?::: | sometimes | Attempt suicide?::: | no..thats for weaklings | Flirt?::: | no | Wear makeup?::: | sometimes | Fool around with the same/opposite sex?::: | no | *Have you ever* | Jumped out of a plane?::: | no | Drove a car?::: | no | Ran/drove away from the cops?::: | no | Had sex?::: | no | Got close to having sex?::: | no | *This or that* | Cheese or pepperoni?::: | cheese | Pepsi or Coke?::: | Dr.Pepper actually | Pac Sun or Hot Topic?::: | Hot Topic | Aeropostal or Weathervane?::: | neither | Male or female?::: | male | Blue or pink?::: | blue | Movie or video game?::: | movie | TV or movie?::: | movie | *Random* | Bra size?::: | nun ya | Pants size?::: | nun ya | Shirt size?::: | nun ya | Shoe size?::: | 9 or 9 1/2 *has big feet...better to kick ur ass with* | Carry a purse?::: | no | Boxers or breifs?::: | uh..I'm female | Do you have AIM/AOL?::: | AIM | What kind of music do you like?::: | a variety | I am a tall lt brown hair, green eyed 18 year old, do I sound hot/pretty?::: | sure I guess..need to be more specific tho | Do you like tootsie rolls?::: | yeah | What school do you go to?::: | Jackson yo | What day is it?::: | Friday | What time is it?::: | 9:01 pm | *Silly shit* | What color underwear are you wearing?::: | black | Do you think cows are funny?::: | cows go moo | Do you enjoy sexual situations(Ie: being fucked, eaten out, blowed?)::: | ^_- | Ever rode a horse?::: | yes | How about an elephant?::: | yes | What about a guy ;-)?::: | ur so immature | Do you like Outkast?::: | sure | Have any siblings?::: | brother | Any people really close to siblings?::: | my friends | Think Im annoying?::: | yup | *Favorites* | Food?::: | shrimp,pasta,cheese,chcolate,mexican,chinese | Drink?::: | milk | Band?::: | Orgy \m/ PSP Feb 24, 2004! | Color?::: | blue | Website?::: | homestarrunner.com and bigbunny.com | Screen name(your or someone elses)?::: | ScHizzEdOUtBUNNY...hehe i forgot who's it was | Person?::: | Paige Haley | TV show?::: | u already asked that | Movie?::: | The Princess Bride | Quote?::: | "Smack an ass!" | *Word assosiation* | Fuck::: | you | Lick::: | balls o.0 | Stripe::: | candycane | Pants::: | Pantalones from D1 | Richard::: | Grasmick | Sammy::: | Sosa (wtf?) | Tim::: | Burton | Helga::: | from Hey Arnold | *Do you/are you*: | duwhaaaa? | Wear thongs?:: | Suck dick?::: | I know u do | Want to get me horny ;-)?::: | not really | Horny?::: | ur mama does |
*Long Survey* brought to you by BZOINK!
What would you be if you were a kind/brand of: | animal?: | Jellyfish | fruit?: | tomato (am I fruity or no?) | vegetable?: | look up | shoe?: | furry platform boots..hells yeah | purfume/cologne:: | uh..something..good smelling | lipgloss/chapstick?: | the one that Paige uses | hat?: | the cat in the hat's hat | car?: | Monte Carlo | soda?: | Dr.Pepper | book?: | a sci-fi fantasy one with alien rockstars and vampires...yeah | movie?: | same as the book | art?: | music | stuffed animal?: | The Orgy bear in the Stitches video | color?: | NEON blue..\m/ | guitar?: | bass guitar | fast food?: | Braum's | cartoon character?: | a weird one | musician/singer?: | someone like Orgy | pencil/pen?: | neon gel pen | font?: | either Terminal, Furturi, or Symbol | clothes?: | clothes like from cyberdog.com |
What would you be if.... brought to you by BZOINK!
Sad... You use the darkness to hide yourself from the world. Something has really hurt you, which made you turn dark. Darkness makes you feel save and that is why you stay there.
Please rate ^^
What kind of dark person are you? brought to you by Quizilla
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2004 23 January :: 8.07pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Placebo -Bitter End
Reminds me of the summertime on this winter's day
I hold an image of the ashtray girl
As the cigarette burns on my chest
I wrote a poem that described her world
That put my friendship to the test
And late at night
Whilst on all fours
She used to watch me kiss the floor
What's wrong with this picture?
What's wrong with this picture?
Farewell the ashtray girl
Forbidden snowflake
Beware this troubled world
Watch out for earthquakes
Goodbye to open sores
To broken SEMIPHORES
you know you miss her
you miss her picture
Sometimes it's faded
Disintegrated
For fear of growing old
Sometimes it's faded
Assassinated
For fear of growing old
Farewell the ashtray girl
Angelic fruitcake
Beware this troubled world
Control your intake
Goodbye to open sores
Goodbye and furthermore
you know you miss her
you miss her picture
Sometimes it's faded
Disintegrated
For fear of growing old
Sometimes it's faded
Assassinated
For fear of growing old
-Placebo"This Picture"
Psh..weekend..it would be nice if I had something to do but I don't...someone save me from boredom....please?
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2004 22 January :: 9.31pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Orgy-Vague
GUH
So hectic..my brother is over..my parents are home Pati is here..my sister in laws coming over too (and she isn't in the greatest of moods)...and we all have to have dinner together...torture that is....my 2 yr old neice is coming over as well...
Not to mention being the slacker I am I should be done with my science project which is due tomorrow but I haven't done nada.....
So...I'm a bit stressed...but whatever.
I'm out.
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2004 20 January :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Rammstein- Engel
wowza
I got the music on there finally...the gay school comps wudnt let me do it so i had to wait till i got home...and then it took half an hour to find the right song....i was gonna do an orgy song at first but decided on rammstein since richard is my icon at the moment.
and being the slacker i am i didnt do a damn ounce of homework tonight..oh yeah baby
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2004 20 January :: 11.33am
:: Mood: at school
:: Music: HIM-Death's In Love With Us(in my head)
Julia told me to..so I'm updating...
...So.
I think I'm gonna add one of those nifty music thingers like on Julia's journal. Hopefully they'll have some Orgy music.
These school computers are SLOW.
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2004 18 January :: 3.19pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Rammstein- Seemann
Ein Sturm kommt auf und es wird Nacht
I went to Marissa's g-mas last night..went at about 4 and stayed till bout 12:30..it was fun..I watched The Crow the first time from beginning to end...thats a great movie..made me cry at the end lol.Then we had a water balloon fight..fun fun...her cousin gave me (well actually I had to pay 10$ for it) one of his cd's and signed it....
i found the picture marissa gave me of her and her sis and mom and dad..my mom had it..eek cant let that happen again....
hmmm.not much else except im sick of my house and i need to do homework...
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2004 15 January :: 6.13pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: The Darkness- I Believe In A Thing Called Love
Some people are very tall and merciless.Quincy is destroying San Antonio!
your shit.
What swear word are you? brought to you by Quizilla
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I had a coupla weird dreams last night.
In the first one im walking with some other people that i think i know and we come to this water fountain that io remember from a dream i had a few months ago(things like that happen..ill see things or people in my dreams that i had in a dream before) and carson wiggs comes up and puts 4 quarters in the fountain to get some water and then throws me some quearters and says "get me on a bus" and when the bus comes he gets i some kind of hole in the side or sumthin and i put the quarters in the change slot thing. i only got three in so i had to ride to teh next station(which took about 2 seconds) to give the other quarter to some guy that worked for the bus peoples..and then tha guy gave me a ride back to the water fountain on his motorcycle....weird
and the second one was kinda scary. me and lea and meagan were crossing a street at night and by the house across the street there were a bunch of cop cars and stuff..so we walk over to see whats happening(stupid i know) and meagan and lea get on the lawn but im last so im still on the sidewalk when this blonde girl on the lawn (about 17 years old or so) starts chasing them off the lawn growling and shit. and were all like running away fromt eh house and we stop to look back and the girl is still like foaming at the mouth..i think she was a vampire..and stuff but her dads holding her and keeping her from us....and so we keep running away but now shes following us and her dad is missing or sumthin..and i see the words "dont blink" so i yell to meagan and lea not to blink and then its me and lea laying on the ground..dunno where meagan went..but were laying there all scared..trying not to blink..and the girl is crawling sniffing the ground around where where were laying and shes getting closer to our feet...and i blink..and she looks at me and hisses and theres stuff dripping from her fangs.. and then i wake up
that was a fucked up dream..it wud make an awesome movie tho
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2004 10 January :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Korn- A.D.I.D.A.S. (wet dream mix)
I see hell in your eyes
Iv'e made myself semi-happy...WITH QUIZZES!!!!
Laura's Levels Of Hell
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0. Heaven: Laura's friends, people who meet her most stringent standards for not sucking, people who figured out how to pass the quiz, and people who like Susan.
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1. Purgatory: People who pluralize (or possesify) non-plural or possessive establishments, i.e. "Barnes and Noble's," "Costco's" and "Eckerd's," people who refer to kissing or fornicating as "hooking up," people who hate macs, and people who watch too much television.
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2. The Boring and Grammatically Incorrect: Compulsive askers of "whats up?" "what's happening?" "how are you?" "what's your major" and instigators of other small talk, people who misuse object and subject pronouns, people who constantly speak or write in the passive voice, and people who type LOL too much.
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3. The Young and Misguided: People who care where other people buy their clothes and talk about things being "trendy" and "selling out," people who try to be random and talk about squirrels all the time, people who fancy themselves either nerds or avid fans of any or all of the following: Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, anime.
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4. The Idiots: Boys who say they like blow jobs and posters of women with big boobs and feel manly for doing so, girls who like those kind of boys, fraternity members, sorority members, people who talk about liking beer or pot too much, people who punctuate with "yo," and the Dave Matthews Band.
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5. The Wavering: Democrats who voted for nader in the 2000 election, Democrats who didn't vote in the 2000 election, people who don't think that Bush is "that bad" or who had no stance on the recent war, yet attest to being 'political' and yet are otherwise politically noncommittal.
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6. The Miscellaneous Hates: Vegans who wear leather, smokers who worry about eating healthy, people who steal their friends' boyfriends or girlfriends, say mean things about their best friends behind their backs, or don't think Laura's funny.
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7. The Hipster Fucks: People who say they like sarcasm and irony. People who are smarmy. People who listen to music they don't really like, watch movies they don't really like, wear trucker hats, say things like "rock out" and "hip" all for the sake of irony.
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8. The Immorally-moral: Republicans, SUV drivers, suburb dwellers, people who homeschool their children, the religious right, other anti-abortionists, including ones who shoot abortion doctors, assholes, people who think that porn is sinful, jerks, and people who think "Taylor" and "Madison" are nice names for babies.
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Where will Laura send you? (The first place she's sending you is mewing.net) |
take the non-offensive quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
find YOUR drag persona
and go to mewing.net. where all the men wear skirts.
because i thought this picture was pretty, laura of mewing.net told me this: "it seems you enjoy dancing, drinking, eating, orgies, and expensive perfume. you're the type of person who buys brand-name socks--but you are also the type of person who has been electricuted by the toaster at least seven times. you were at the top of the class in elementary school, but faltered in junior high, because you didn't understand algebra. your favorite singer, suprisingly, is prince, and in your spare time you can be found tinkering with broken calculators and atari home videogame units."
whatever will laura tell you??
what's your battle cry? |
mewing.net | merchandise!
what kind of tard are YOU?
and go to mewing.net.
take the nerd test.
and go to mewing.net. a nerd utopia.
The type of ex I am is: |
m i s e r a b l e |
My ex hurt me a lot, but I can't stop feeling as though I am in love. Maybe someday I will get over it, but it is a matter of decades, not years. Potential new lovers: beware. There is a big, black monolith in my heart. |
what type of ex are you?
| mewing.net. 'EX'cellent. HA. |
what celebrity feature are you?
mewing.net
take the taboo quiz.
and go to mewing.net. nothing is taboo there.
take the death quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
take the jeans quiz. gus made it!
and go to mewing.net. because laura and gus collectively own over 30 pairs of jeans.
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