<b>Let your beauty unfold.</b>

:: 2006 23 February :: 6.23pm

You say we're bitches but we laugh because we knew it way before you did.

2 heartless people | crush me

:: 2006 23 February :: 12.26am

all these bitches talk shit.
i love getting into fights with little bitches and black people.
fuckers. seriously i'll beat ass. i hate the bullshit.

so i left at 2 and alaina came and got me since i got into a stupid fight.. i almost killed someone, no doubt. so we went to bentworth HS and i saw all my lovely friends.. all i heard was holy shit ROACH U BACK? and its like NAH im visiting.. but i think im going back tomorrow hahahaha

:: 2006 22 February :: 3.59pm

Take me. Break me. Every mile further there's a part of me that slips away. One day you'll see, even if you got down on your knees you couldn't make me stay.

:: 2006 21 February :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: sick

I feel like shit. My lungs feel like they are going to..I don't know, fall out or something if I cough anymore. It's sucky. I hate being sick. Why can't I just be healthy for at least a month straight?

I said I wasn't going to go out tonight because I just stated that I'm sick but I don't want to cancel my plans at the last minute. I'll just go, have a good time, and not complain.

Haha what an akward day for Elyse and I. We never should have told that boy those things. Now he thinks we love him just as much as he loves us. We were only kidding. It was all just for a joke. So now I have to avoid him and when I do run into him, I just have to look the other way.

:: 2006 21 February :: 9.52am

eeekkk
It's 9:52am and i just got home from school; i'm not feeling to good once again. ugh!. my mother got on this roll about me not likeing school and i make excuses cause i'm lazy and what not. i said no mother i don't feel well.. yes I HATE SCHOOL but today had nothing to do with me not being there.. but seriously wtf-ever. I'M ACTUALLY thinking about signing myself out on february 28th, or something close to it, and just move to Colorado and go to school there. I've been thinking about that alot; i'd be alot more happier. Cause i really don't want to stop with school all together (even though i've been thinkin that as well) I mean i'm almost a senior. EEEEKKK! so yeah i have alot of ideas running through my head.

:: 2006 20 February :: 10.12pm

dont be disapointed =P
smoked
left gereds and went home
alaina came and got meeeeee
so we drove around..
i figured id just stay at her houseeee
smoked
we got lost in pittsburgh, HAH!
went out to eat
got high
got high
got drunk
smoked alil more
danced and acted goofy.
went to bed

yep yep i loved every second of it too! :):)

i need you

:: 2006 20 February :: 7.12pm

and when you finally regret it....blame yourself.

I'm only doing this because I have to.

:: 2006 19 February :: 6.48pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Panic! At The Disco//Lying Is The Most Fun...

FOR THE LOVE OF CALI!
Well....I'm going to L.A. in August. I know it's sorta far away but everyone know's how I get when it comes to California. I'm pretty stoaked for that business. I found out today that I'm going. I cannot wait. Seriously. Only 6 more months till Cali and like 1 month till Florida!

Just a little reminder:

I'm not going to try being smarter than fate. I'm not going to deny what I feel inside. I would have to say, I would do it all over again. I just want you to know.

theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2006 18 February :: 1.41pm

fuckkk
yeah i'm pretty messed up right now; you know how it is on a saturday nites :). so yeah i'm having fun!! thats all i been doing is having fun or atleast trying to. last nite we went all nite cosmo bowling and then went back to gered and got high. and i went home at 5:45am LMFAO. yeah it was crazzzyyy

.. he doesn't really love me.
atleast he hasn't been acting like it.

:(

:: 2006 17 February :: 10.21pm

I'm at my dads right now with Kelli and Brina. Kelli is downstairs in my room on my computer right now and i'm upstairs in my kitchen on my laptop. My dad hasn't gotten us wireless internet here yet for our house so I figured I wouldn't get any signal but I picked up signal from one of our neighbors so now we don't have to pay for it lol. It's pretty exciting. Brina is downstairs annoying everyone while i'm up here in the piece and quiet! Thank god.

Today Kelli and I went shopping for Brina and we got her the cutest outfits. I got her the cutest shoes too! I had to get her some pink ballet flats, of course :) and then we got her pink cowgirl boots. They're so cute. She's stylin' now.

Ohhh yeah. We can't forget this story. We were at Target today too and we got into my car and we were on our way out of the parking lot and I seen this car that was basically parked out in the middle of no where and the windows were foggy but I could still see in it and I seen this guy and girl having sex and I was like "OMG KELLI THEY'RE HAVING SEX!" and she's like "WHAT?!" so she wanted me to turn around and we pulled up right next to them and they started putting their clothes back on. I'm not even kidding about any of this. I was disgusted. Who has sex in a parking lot? I never would have sex where random people could see me. That's a little, umm GROSS!?!

I went out to dinner and to Cold Stone tonight! I love that place. If you haven't been there you probably should go.

I guess we aren't supposed to get our power back until Sunday at midnight which is too long so that's why I wont be returning there anytime soon.

I'm getting a little freaked out. I feel like i'm being watched up here. We have a huge windows in my kitchen and I just heard a loud noise in the garage so I ran downstairs.

crazything2132 (10:39:21 PM): why r u coming downstairs
crazything2132 (10:39:26 PM): is that you?
crazything2132 (10:40:42 PM): omg
crazything2132 (10:40:46 PM): what was the loud noice
crazything2132 (10:40:50 PM): are u dead?
Born2bOnStage x3 (10:41:38 PM): you heard that loud noise?

Yeah..what a nice friend haha.

I just want you to know that, I miss you, I miss you so.

6 heartless people | crush me

:: 2006 16 February :: 9.40pm

Well we don't have power here either. I'm on my laptop though. I seriously am greatful that I have one because otherwise I probably would be going nuts right now like I was a few minutes ago before I realized I could get on the internet from my laptop. My three year old cousin Brina is here and I'm watching her until Sunday and anyways she wanted to find her lip gloss that I gave her and it was upstairs in my room and she kept telling me to go get it for her because it was "too dark" upstairs so we gave her a flashlight and we told her to go get it herself and she was up there for like 5 minutes until we realized we didn't hear her anymore so then we started calling her name and she wouldn't respond and then randomly she goes "I lost my flashlight!" it was so funny. She was just sitting up there in the dark looking for it. I was cracking up when she said that. I love her so much.

He confuses me so much. Why does he keep asking. I haven't figured it out yet. Well I have one idea but who knows if that's even possiable.

:: 2006 16 February :: 12.54pm

I don't want you to know where I am because then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it. See that line, well I never should have crossed it. Stop right there. Well I never should have said that, it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. I'm ready to try and never become that way again, cause who I am hates who i've been.

:: 2006 15 February :: 9.36pm

Aww tonight was fun *smiles*.

:: 2006 15 February :: 12.55pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: i'll make the music.

back in the day.
remember in kindergarten, where it would be your 1st day and
you would meet someone new and ten minutes later you would `
be playing like you were best friends.. because back then you
didn't have to pretend to be anyone but yourself.

now it's just a fucking role.
fuckers.

_______no school still sick_______ sucks dick!