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2006 14 February :: 6.02pm
:: Mood: awful
sick of this
the weekend was alright, just like it always is, me and stacey went out gered to hang out with everyone. so it was fun. except for the fact gered was being alittle like grump =P. then sunday i started to get sick and monday was worse so i went to the hospital; they don't know whats wrong.. but i had to get blood taken and IVs and they told me my heart pulse is faint.. so it sucks real bad. i feel like shit and i just want to get better! i just need to take it easy.. wow what a valentines day! not like i have a valentine anyways. just another day.
but to everyone and their lovers HAPPY V-DAY!. <3
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2006 14 February :: 4.44pm
The things I thought you'd never know about me were the things I guess you always understood.
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2006 11 February :: 1.29pm
JUST GOT HOME.
blahhh
i was at gered lastnite and we just hung out some some people and didnt go to sleep til bout 3:30am LOL. so yeah we both slept til bout 12:30pm. but yeah it was a cool nite.. nothing exciting really
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2006 10 February :: 5.28pm
So I kind of have a differen't Spring Break plan. Lisa and I were going to go to Atlantis in the Bahamas this year but my dad decided that he want's us to go next year and it will be our graduation present so that's next year and he said he'll probably let us go by ourselves if we wait until next year so that's even better. He promised that we can go next year so i'm really excited for that. This year he wants us to stay in the U.S. haha so we are going to Florida. I'm pretty excited for that too. We can't decide which day we want to leave to go there. We have to leave Florida by April 7th because my grandma is going to go to where my family is from (Italy) so yeah she's pretty lucky she's going there.
So I guess that's really all. Spring Break isn't all that far away. I can't wait!!
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2006 9 February :: 9.55pm
blah
TODAY was such a fuckkked up day; like seriously.. it feels like everything is going down hill.. just like before.. OH YIPPY YAY! fucking sucks!! arg. anyways ya i've been being a real big bitch lately to like everyone.. mom, sister, friends... i feel so bad buti am sorry.. i don't know whats comeing over me. gosh!! i'm such a wench LOL. but ya tomorrow Lais comin to get me after school; then were drivin around chillin and saturday is drinkin nite.. every sat is! lol. but yeah wooo go me. cause i'm a loser! =D..
VALENTINES DAY CAN KISS MY MUTHAFUCKINN ASSSSSSSS!!!
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2006 8 February :: 11.05pm
:: Mood: cold
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school was gay... my crazy friend ron told me a TERRIFYING COMMENT! HE WANTS TO GET A ROOM TOGETHER WITH ALL OF OUR 11TH PD CLASS OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL.. i said why so we can kill each other? and hes like no so i can rape someone *stops and looks at me while smiling*. i said WTF DID U SAY!?!
dude.. forrealll wtf? scary as shit
then i went with stacee today and just chilled for a bit. had fun!
and now i'm home tired as fuckkkk. talking to the greatest people ever!! isaiah, stevie, stacee, jena... oh and ya mark is talking to me again he said hes sorry for givin me the cold shoulder and he feels like an asshole..
^ya he stopped talkin to me for like 6 months. wtf.
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2006 8 February :: 10.19pm
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is
Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say its okay
It's okay
It's okay
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2006 7 February :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: TIRED
The Play
Mishy's comment:
Re:, 02-07-06 10:21pm
You did too, I'm very proud of you.
You're on your way.
Remember me when you're famous, and remember the knives stabbing your back if your turn it to the audience hahah :)
Mishy would always tell me that to prevent me from turning my back to the audience and it would always work, so thank you.
I'm sad the play is over just because it was fun while it lasted but i'm also glad it's over because I really am exhausted with the practices and everything. I'm tired. We all did it, it's over and done with. It was awesome tonight. The talent in our class is great. I think everyone did a good job.
I was a lot more scared tonight than last night. I knew a lot of people there so it made me nervous. I seen a lot of people who I haven't seen in a long time so that made me really happy.
There's nothing like that.
I just wanted to let you know that i'm really dissapointed in you.
I have to go to bed. I'm falling asleep here.
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2006 7 February :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: No doubt - foxy foxy
WEEEEE!!
No school.
Still pain.
Went with Alaina.
Got fuccckkkedd up.
ate at long john silvers.
came home.
did english.
Aim.
now bed.
nite!!
We're knocked down and getting up
We try to fight it, the agony and ecstasy
and Its painful but it's worth it
'Cause you're so foxy and I think you're kinda good for me
oh You're so foxy
Mental earthquakes, conversation mistakes
and My army of words
I can't believe you're crawling back for more out of desire
Destiny or chemicals, emotions are susceptible
And you I can't resist
I can't seem to walk away from this
So show me how much you can take, are you in or out?
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2006 6 February :: 10.48pm
:: Mood: pissy
:: Music: coheed & cambria - welcome home
2-6-06
absent x dreams: earlier u told me u were done with me..
LiLJy18: because you had given up
LiLJy18: but now your back
absent x dreams: yeah im back
LiLJy18: i noticed
LiLJy18: what is it you want
LiLJy18: and i dont meen from me
LiLJy18: what do you want out of your life
LiLJy18: out of this world
LiLJy18: this simple exsistence
absent x dreams: i want to succeed
what the hell am i supposed to say
then he went rambling on about what i want in life and what i succeeded and what didn't i succeed and why.. i dunno fucking retarded so i gave him answers but obviously it wasn't good enough cause he asked "isnt everything you failed on worth more then the things you gained"... umm ?!?!?!?! *grrr* so i asked him to tell me why hes asking me these things and i got the response..
LiLJy18: maybe one day youll understand and i wont have to
LiLJy18: and if you dont
LiLJy18: then such is life
..blah BASTARD..
anyways...
today was my first day back at the hellhole since lastweek i only went thursday lmao.. i got used to a vacation hehe. but i did have a 2 hr delay wooo but only got a half hour of sleep outta it.. arg!! but yea..... and also tonite i poured out my heart to isaiah.
i wonder sometimes how he feels; and is it the same way?
i don't know what i would do without him seriously..
i'd give up everything just to stand beside him
gosh am i a loser? errrr
love you.
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2006 6 February :: 9.30pm
The play was awesome. Good job to everyone. We all did wonderful!
I was so scared before my monologue. I kept going over my lines in my head and I would completely forget them. I thought I was going to throw up and I really didn't enjoy how close the audience was. H wanted it to be "personal" and it definitely was personal enough for me when people were not even a foot away from my face. I'm also proud of myself and I never missed a single line. I know I need to talk slower though but I just get so nervous I talk really fast.
Tomorrow is the last night of the play. Thank god. I'm so tired of practicing and staying up late to memorize my lines. I'm happy that it will be over and it was an expierence i'll never forget.
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2006 5 February :: 5.51pm
:: Mood: Tired/Exhausted
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World-Futures
Spring Hill was definitely amazing.
I don't really know how to explain it. I guess I basically just have a new outlook on everything.
I'm so tired and I feel like my arms are going to fall off. We were supposed to only have 16 girls in our cabin but somehow we ended up with 22 girls so a lot of us had to share beds. My cabin consisited of Brittany, Lisa, Me, Emily S, Dani, Megan, Annalise, Brittani, Lindsey, Janie, Sam, Kendra, Amber, Trisha, Pam, Ari, Erica, and then a few other people but I don't know all their names. It was so much fun in our cabin. I don't think any of us really slept much. Emily and I laughed all night so we kept a lot of people up.
We all went tubing a lot. I mean a lot, a lot. We went last night at midnight and we had 6 girls plus Austin and Bruce and we only had three tubes for all 8 of us. We all had to pile on and I was always on top of everyone because I was the lightest and I thought I was going to fall off and die. Lisa and I both fell off once but I didn't die though. It was a scary thing.
We won broomball again. Exciting? I know.
Ummm i'm trying to think of more stories....oh yeah..last night it was like almost 1am and I was taking a shower and then I came out of the bathroom and Austin, Cory, and Tyler were all standing there and they chased me and everyone got into a snowball fight.
The speaker was amazing. I could relate to almost everything he was saying. He made me laugh and cry basically all at the same time. The whole expierence changed me. I never really thought that going to something for one weekend could do that but, it does.
The band was awesome. Everyone knows why.
I can't really think of anything else right now but it was really awesome and if you didn't go this year then you should go next year. It's worth it, trust me.
I'll post Spring Hill pictures later.
I love you all.
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2006 5 February :: 2.44pm
:: Mood: HUNGRY, rawr
:: Music: HERE WE GO STEELERS, HERE WE GOOOO..PITTSBURGHS GOING TO THE SUPERBOWL..
Saturday Nites=<3<3
just got home alittle bit ago, figured i would update lol.
lastnite i went with this girl stacee to the mall and wal*mart and she dropped me off at home bout 6:00pm. and as i got in the door Gered calls and i seen on caller id that he called like 9 times.. lmfao. and he was like 'WHERE R U?' im like 'uhh home?!' and hes like ' WELLLL WERE COMING TO KIDNAP YOU RIGHT NOW SO GET OUTSIDE!' and i said 'welp.. i'm not ready i look like shit aha' and hes like 'yaaa ok, whatever!! get outside!' so ya i went to his house to drink and plus it was Fat E's birthday ... well all got trashed outta our minds and were being so fucking goofy it wasn't even funny.. well it was funny LOL!. Gered got sick bout 2am so he passed out in the bathroom and paul left so it was Stevie (girl), Derek, Fat e, and I. we were all in Dereks room smoking, drinkin, talkin and what not. and then i woke up at 7am and was like 'whoaaaa im sleeping by derek and stevie and fat e is on the floor by me' lmfao IT WAS INSANE! everyone was layin on each other AND STEVIE HOGGED THE BLANKETS! lmfao. (love u girl) but yea my nite was pretty amazing.
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2006 3 February :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: IN PAIN!
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Yeah...i only went to school 1 day this week; and that was thursday =P..
damn kidney infection..=(
i swear i'm falling apart!! seriously what's next. errr
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