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2006 2 February :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: WOWZERS
:: Music: IM IN LUV WIT A STRIPPPPPPPPERRR
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today was my first day back to school since last friday; lol.. whoa crazy.. i would have never thought in a million years anyone would miss me.. but they did.. hehe!! and my day went okay and got even better when my good ol friend autumn told me that she SWEARS ON HER LIFE THOUGHT SHE SEEN JORDAN! (my ex bestfriend) my mouth dropped and she said hes gettin enrolled.. she described him to me.. and it fits the figure! OMFG IM SO HAPPY even though we havent talked.. i miss him and hes still my buddy..always and forever <3.. but yea that was my highlight. YaY. but yeah lastnite i got my nails done and went to my aunts and to the mall and what not so it was cool.. nothing to exciting except me tormenting my friend gump; hes such a cry baby. LOL!!
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2006 31 January :: 5.20pm
I can't stand Ms. Eilola anymore. Yesterday she wouldn't let me take a test because of an un-excused absense which I previously stated and I sort of understand her reaons but, then again I don't. Anyways, that's not my point. My point is that today I asked her if I could make up a differen't test that I also missed while I was out of school with mono and she told me no because it was too late. She can't just tell me I can't take a test. My grade was an A and now it's a C all because of that test I missed. I'm going to talk to Mr. A about it tomorrow I guess. She's dumb, I'm pissed, that's all there is to it.
I don't really have anything of importance to say. I can't believe H actually asked me if I was pregnant. Too bad i'm NOT.
I'm going to the game tonight with Emily, Logan, and Trisha. I have to drive because we all decided we don't want to die with Logan since he almost killed us the other day. He's a bad driver, not as bad as Dani though. You gotta love her.
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2006 30 January :: 8.16pm
The worst part about being lied to is knowing I wasn't worth the truth. Oh well, whatever.
I've ate so much food today. I went out to lunch with Dani and we went to Arbys. Then when I came home I ate tons of chocolate chip bananna bread. After that I ate popcorn chicken. After that I ate shrimp and french fries from Red Lobster (I went there this weekend). Then after that my dad brought me fettichini alfredo *sp*, key lime shrimp, and oreo cheesecake. So I ate all that too. Haha I eat all the time. Stacy does too haha. I don't understand why i'm not fat. Seriously. I'm not complaining though, I just don't understand.
Ms. Eilola is really getting on my nerves. We have a student teacher so Ms. Eilola isn't even in our classroom and today she was standing outside the classroom like a little spy and she was looking into the little window on the door because when I came out she goes "Ashley, do you value your i-Pod?" and i'm like "yeah I guess" and she goes "well are you allowed to listen to it in school?" and i'm like "yeah, I am" and she got all pissed because I was being a bitch right back and she's like "no your not...next time I see you with that out i'm going to take it away" I was just like "okay haha w/e". So after that I walk away and then Josh comes out and I heard her say "Josh, do you value your cell phone?" I was like c'mon seriously shut up. She just finds ways to make everyones lives miserable, like mine isn't miserable enough!?!?! When she asked me if I valued my i-Pod I should have told her no because I can just buy a new one. That would really piss her off. So then I was pissed about that and our student teacher told me to come in during seminar to make up a test we had on Friday. So I come in and when I get there she tells me i'm not allowed to take it because Ms. Eilola said so. She's like "Ms. Eilola said you're not allowed to take it because you have an unexcused absense for Friday" That's so dumb. So because I wasn't in that class on Friday I get a zero for my test. Um ok. I wasn't really aware things work that way.
It really starts to hurt when I pretend that it doesn't. I try hiding it but I can't pretend it doesn't matter anymore. It does. Everyone can see all the things I don't want them to see. It happens. It's obvious. End of story.
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2006 30 January :: 7.18pm
:: Mood: sick/sore/sleepy
:: Music: ME COUGHING
sick as a dog.. RUFF RUFF
yeaaaaah how bout i'm terribly sick.. bad sinus infection that is messing with my joints and what not so i'm like sore as all hell.. the doctor SHOVED A FUCKING TUBE up my nose.. IT WAS LIKE A FUCKIN HOSE!!! #%@!..those bastards.. but ya my friend Gered took me cause hes a sweetie!. and then we went to pick his brother up from school (were i should have been, hehe) and then we went to chill at his house. BUT if i didn't go to the doctors i would probably be even more miserable and top of that wine and cry lol like a little baby that i am. but yeah so no school tomorrow for me just like today :).. so yeah I HOPE I FEEL BETTER DAMNIT >_<
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2006 30 January :: 6.04pm
You make me sick. I can never trust you again. Everything I thought was real, turned out to be all a lie.
It doesn't matter what you do, it's what you did thats hurting you. All I needed was the truth, now i'm gone.
Seriously, for all of us, grow up.
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2006 29 January :: 9.50pm
I don't know why I always do these when I get bored.
Today did you...
1. Talk to someone you liked: It doesn't matter if I like them anymore.
2. Buy something: Nope.
3. Get sick: I’ve been sick.
4. Sing: Yeah.
5. Make out: Yeah, because I have mono!?!?
8. Talk to an ex: Yeah basically.
9. Miss someone: Yep.
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Last person who....
10. Slept in your bed: Danielle Hansing always sleeps in my bed but this weekend I made Kelli and Elyse both sleep on the floor.
11. Saw you cry: My mom seen me crying today. Well she didn’t really see me cry but when I got home I could tell she noticed I was crying.
12. Made you cry: I'm pretty sure he knows who he is.
13. Went to the movies with?: I don’t remember.
14. You went to the mall with: Elyse
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16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: No.
17. Been to California: Yes!
18. Been to Mexico: Cancun!
19. Been to Canada: Yeah.
20. Been to Europe: Nope.
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Random.....
21. Do you have a crush on someone: No.
22. What book are you reading now: A Gossip Girl Book.
23. Best feeling in the world: Being happy.
25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: No.
26. What's under your bed: Purses.
27. Favorite sports to watch: Basketball.
28. Location: Mi casa.
29. Piercing/Tattoos: My ears.
30. What are you most scared of right now: We wont go there.
31. Where do you want to get married?: Not sure.
32. Who do you really hate?: I only hate one person and she isn't even worth mentioning.
33. Do you have a job: Haha yeah right.
34. Do you like being around people?: Yeah most of the time.
35. Have you ever liked someone u didn't have a chance with?: Looks that way doesn't it?
36. Have you ever cried: What kind of question is this? Obviously everyone's cried.
37. Are you lonely right now: Not really.
38. Song that's stuck in your head right now: So sick of love songs, so tired of tears, so sick of wishing you were still here.
40. Gotten beaten up: No.
42. Been on radio/TV: TV a few times but not the radio.
43. Been in a mosh-pit: No.
44. Ever liked someone, but u think they never noticed you? No I’m pretty sure if I like someone then I will make them notice me.
45. Ever liked someone who treated you like shit? Yep.
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Everyone has their firsts....
1. First real best friend: Probably Chloe.
2. First school: I don’t remember what it was called.
3. First screenname: I don’t remember. It was something about being a spoiled brat.
4. First funeral: I’ve been to so many I don’t even remember.
5. First big trip: I don’t know maybe Florida or Cancun or Cali. I can’t remember.
6. First flight: I don’t remember.
7. First celebrity love: I don’t know.
8. First job: I’ve never had a job.
*Everyone also has their lasts...
1. Last person you hugged: My dad!!
2. Last song you heard: Fall To Pieces. It makes me sad.
3. Last car ride: A few hours ago.
4. Last time you cried: Today. Jeez.
5. Last movie you watched: Wedding Crashers
6. Last food you ate: I haven’t ate all day.
7. Last person of the opposite sex that you talked to: Ian.
8. Last item bought: Clothes at the mall yesterday.
9. Last shirt worn: a pink abercrombie tank top
10. Last phone call: Emily Sorensen called like an hour ago.
11. Last text message: like five minutes ago
12. Last thing you touched: Keyboard
13. Last Funeral: My uncles.
14. Last time at the mall?: Saturday.
15. Last time you were excited about something? I’m not excited for anything anymore.
16. Last person you saw: Sister.
17. Last thing you said to someone: I said "So Em wants to hang out on Tuesday okay?"
18. Last person that broke ur heart: Like I would really put his name here.
19. Last time you've been happy: A while ago.
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2006 29 January :: 12.58pm
I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you.
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2006 28 January :: 11.16pm
CRAZY AS FUCK
lastnite was crazzzzy. i went to jenas 18th bday party and i got fucking hammered.. i swear i'm never drinking again Lmao. (yaa rightttttt) but anyways i had fun.. things happened! lmao *cough cough* but yeah and this morning i was hungover like real bad and that never flippin happens.. fucker.. so i puked like 38948 times and my mom told me your going to be like your father i was like wtf no i'm not. but she laughed and told me not to vomit all over her car; and i made her get me mcdonalds haha. so i came hoem bout 12ish and i slept til bout 4:30pm.. and i miss talkin to ISAIAH! arg. but ya anyways.. grr NITE
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2006 27 January :: 4.09pm
So we pretty much got caught. It was bound to happen anyways. I just feel bad now but somehow I always do.
Last night I was driving and Elyse wanted to steer my car so I was letting her and when she turned she hit a snowbank. It was hilarious.
The cemetary thing didn't go so well today. Never ever go in one of those. It was just a bad idea.
And no I'm not going bowling. Everyone knows I hate bowling so if I wont go for anyone else i'm sure as hell not going for you.
You probably should stop making this into something it's not and just believe me when I tell you that I don't.
Anyways i'll update more later I gotta go to Brittanys.
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2006 27 January :: 12.00am
:: Mood: happy
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY
TO ME!
kbye.
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2006 26 January :: 11.06pm
1. HAVE YOU EVER SEEN SOMEONE FROM YOUR PAST OR AN EX AND IT WAS AKWARD?
Sometimes it's akward and sometimes it's not. It depends on the person. I see people I had "things" with all the time and most of the time I just ignore them...
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS OF YOUR ROOM?
Pictures, posters, other stuff.
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
I don’t know how to describe it..sparkly maybe lol
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
All kinds..
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Yeah, 2:22 AM
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To do something I’m not allowed to do haha..
7. WHO DO YOU MISS?
I don't miss anyone.
8. WHAT ARE YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSIONS?
My cell phone, my family, my friends, and my trusty credit card!
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Yeah esp. when H locked me in a locker at strike and he put a pencil through the little hole and I couldn’t get out..
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Sometimes after I watch scary movies haha
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Nobody's worth crying over.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
ABERCROMBiE AND FiTCH!!
14. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU GOT YELLED AT?
Haha at school..in math...me and april and cohen...yeah we're just a little too loud. It was a bad choice to sit us next to each other..
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO?
Umm I don’t know I don’t really think about these things
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Coffee for sure
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Haha pepperoni I guess
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Nothing I’m not even hungry
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
I have no idea
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
Like I remember...
22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Obviously
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
No
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Abercrombie, Juicy Couture..or stuff from Urban Outfitters.
25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I don’t know lol I don’t really pay attention to cars..
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Yeah lol.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
Dogs and cats.
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
I would try not to since I would just get screwed over but you can’t help how you feel.
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
To tell them lol
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
2
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes; because someone has to be smart.
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
I call a lot of numbers often...pretty much the ppl that are important to me.
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
A lot of things...umm when people wear black and brown together or when people talk a lot ..like a lot a lot and they don’t know when to shut up and when people straighten/blow dry their hair too much and it looks all fried and dead...it's gross.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yeah many times
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
I care too much.
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
YES!!! Lots of them!
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Who can honestly say they haven’t?
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
I was hanging out with my lovers at the v-ball game
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I wouldn’t...
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Something to do while I’m waiting.
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My hair or outfits or purses
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME iLLEGAL FOREVER?
Nothing. It’s not the end of the world.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Umm I don’t know it’s a ways away
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
Like a million haha kidding I don’t know yet
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
I don’t think so
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
I used to until I realized the wishes never come true and I’m just wasting my time.
48. WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?
Well I slept until 10:00 then I went to school for a while then I picked up Britt and Elyse and we went to the v-ball game.
49. WHAT DID YOU LAST EAT?
Pizza earlier and then a ring pop a few minutes ago
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yeah sometimes
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ugh..idk
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Yeah. A lot.
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
I don’t really know lol...
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yeah
55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Only because I had to
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Yeah I guess in some ways
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I don’t really have anger problems so I wouldn’t know
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
My dads house lol
59. WHO IS YOUR FAMOUS/ ACTOR/ SINGER CRUSH?
Gerard Way, Orlando Bloom, Adam Brody (Seth Cohen <3)
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Haha probably my babies
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
I don’t know I’ve never counted
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Yeah
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
Nope
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Umm ask me if you really want to know that bad...
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
My mom and step dad always call me by my middle name (Megan) and Logan and Justin call me Laguna because they say I remind them of the girls on Laguna Beach and then Little One at school
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Birthday Cake @ Coldstone Creamery is sooo good if you haven’t been there you pry should.
73. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
I don’t miss anyone or anything
74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
Haha I don’t know
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
I could care less
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Panic! At the disco
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Water
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Umm Emily Sorensen just called me a few minutes ago
79. THE FUNNIEST THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY?
Omg I don’t know I’m always laughing but probably at the v-ball game when Elyse made me tell this joke thing to Katie, Jacque, Angela Klementowski, and Marissa Walker..we all were dying laughing...
80. LAST THING SOMEONE SUGGESTED?
Well today Mike Kratjewski haha I don’t think that’s how you spell his last name but anyways he said that he thinks I should go to the next away bball game with him and so should Lisa.
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Favorite thing? Let's try "favorite people"
82. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TEXT MSG’D YOU?
Logan just did like five minutes ago..
83. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TALKED TO YOU ONLINE?
Aaron Cohen or Stacy
84. FAVORITE COLORS?
Pink & Orange
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Brown
86. EYE COLOR?
Hazel
87. HEIGHT?
UMM... 5'3
88. SIBLINGS?
Like a million
89. FAVORITE MONTH?
June since that’s when school gets out or July since that’s usually when I go to Cali<3
90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
YES!!
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
The v-ball games and The O.C!!!!!
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Christmas, My Birthday..and the whole summer counts as my favorite too.
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Yeah probably
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
BOTH!
96. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU BORROWED?
Umm I don't know lol I don't usually borrow things but Ryan Case and I both love Life As We Know It so he just told me I can borrow the first season of it because he's just that nice lol.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Clothes
98. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I got bit by a dog.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
The very last Gossip Girl book!!
100. ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
Yeah basically...
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2006 26 January :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: tired as fuckkk
WaS iT a DrEaM
today was retarded; just like every other day i got my report card. I did okay i guess.. 1 a. some b's and c;s and 1 d. yeah im cool *sigh* but ya that sums up my day.. and i just want it to be summer already!!!!!!!!!!! im counting the days..
oh ya tomorrow is jenas bday HAPPY BDAY JENA! lol. luv u
If this is where I'll hide
It was built deep inside
Yeah I'm a selfish bastard
But at least I'm not alone
My intentions never change
What I want still stays the same
And I know what I should do
Is understand myself
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I
Your reflection I've erased
Like a thousand guns I asked today
Believe me when I say goodbye forever
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2006 26 January :: 4.41pm
What an ass.
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2006 25 January :: 7.11pm
Today was definitely exhausting. It was my first full day back.
Today in Anatomy we had to disect sheep brains and it was alright I guess but Bruce Hunter and I always joke around and pretend to be mad at each other even though we never could possiably be mad at each other, we just like pretending and anyways we were cutting our brain and he was just messing around and he threw a piece of the brain at me and it hit me and then some of it went into my mouth. I wanted to throw up lol. He kept looking at me and smiling afterwards to see if I would smile back at him because thats just what we do to show we are kidding and then I wouldn't smile back and then when class was over he's like "Bye Ashley!" and I just walked out and he goes "Fine, I see how it is!?!?" and I didn't say anything so now he really thinks i'm pissed off about it but I really don't even care I thought it was gross, yeah but it was also funny.
"I'm just going to forget all about them when i'm famous and they wont get my money" haha Mishy it's true..they don't get my money now lol.
Oh and yeah stacy and I went to McWendys today. It was pretty sweet. I totally said that by acciden't and then today I was standing there after school and Ashley Marini comes running up to me and she gave me a huge hug and she was freaking out because she hasn't seen me in so long. Aww she's so cute I love her.
Wow I can't believe he called me. :) That was a nice suprise. Seriously.
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2006 24 January :: 7.20pm
Aww Stacy my background makes me so sad. It's so good but it just makes me sad to look at it because of everything we talked about. I hate seeing people cry and looking at my own picture of me crying is sad. I <3 you!
It's pretty much true though....
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