<b>Let your beauty unfold.</b>

:: 2006 24 January :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: GRRRRRRRRRROWWWLLL
:: Music: Ludacris - Yous a Ho

banana oil (nonsense)
the other day jason threatened me again; i'm gettin real sick of this bullshit.. seriously i honestly don't care anymore. so fuck it!. and i talked to gered the other day and he over heard at his party that 'i was mad at him cause some girl was all over him' i denied it and hes all like 'your lieing to me' and i'm like no dude wtf shut up. When really im not jealous.. i mean hes a really great friend, funny, cool, cute, i have a good time when i'm around him.. i don't know i'm all blank lol. but that nite at the party was crazy..BLAH AND i mean yeah i'm young but so confused about everything. sometimes i don't know what i want but thats another day..... But yaaa i think Gered is mad at me for the fact he thinks lied and i went all wack-o when he asked me if i was mad.. and hes like 'u don't wanna see/hang out with me and everything anymore huh?' and i said ' no gered that isn't it.. u JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND' and clearly i don't either.. so yeah i apologized cause i guess i'm a moronic fool. BLAH sorry for rambling on i guess i just needed to vent it out. arg

but friday is my bestest friend jenas 18 MOTHERFUCKING BIRTHDAY (YAAA BIIITCHES) and its gonna kickass!! so i cant wait to see her cause it seeems like a fucking year. err LOVE U!

i wanna see my baby isaiah. arg!!!!! =)

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:: 2006 24 January :: 12.08am

That's what makes me so crazy, the difference between us. You can be heart broken and you can just...move on and I am just....broken.

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:: 2006 23 January :: 11.36am

The year is half way over. I'm happy about it and also in a way, sad about it. Lisa and I now have our 2nd hour together. We're pretty happy about that. It most likely isn't going to benefit us considering we already got in trouble for talking and we weren't even in there for 10 minutes yet lol. Oh yeah, we can't forget this.... The one person that I basically hate is in our class too. Lisa and I about died when we heard her name being called. I don't know why but i've never liked her and after everything last year she gave me a reason to hate her. She's going to get on my nerves real fast. Ohhh I can already tell this is going to be a long rest of the year.

I just want to get this over and done with. The easier it will be for me.

:: 2006 22 January :: 7.10pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: Twiztid - darkness

lastnite i went to Gered's. i didn't think i was going.. cause i thought he blew me off since he was supposed to be here anywhere from 8:30-9:30. it was bout 10:10 when he called.. so yeah He wasn't supposed to have a party
but he did anyways, so i was like whoaa. We all got trashed.. i didn't even know wtf was going on. Even though i remember EVERYTHING. And something happened that reallllllly shouldn't of have =); but that would have never happened if 'she' wasn't there..~~stupid hoe~~. but yeah overall i did have a good time; i called Alaina and was like 'you need to get here, everyone wants you too' so she did.. she came bout 3am and we both left at 5am. Went to Mcdonalds since Wendy's wasn't open (fuckers) haha. and we got breakfast.. you know ate, was goofy, played in the playhouse thingy! then we just went back to her house and ate some pizza and fell asleep. Today we just drove around alittle and she brought me home. SOooO now i'm just relaxing thinking bout how crazy my night was and what to do and at the same time i'm pretty fucking tired and alil hungry. EeeRrr.

:: 2006 22 January :: 12.48pm

It's all because of the way it was.

:: 2006 22 January :: 12.05pm
:: Mood: Tired

I can't do that to you. I just can't.

I would never hurt you like you hurt me.

:: 2006 21 January :: 1.44am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: ICP - homies

=]
Just got home; i was with Gered all night basically. :) had a nice time... i needed to do something since lastnite my mom and step dad got into it.. err. wasnt to pretty; but when is it ever?. tomorrow well i should say later on today i think im going back to Gereds to chill and party! wooooweee* hes such a sweetie. but yeah anyways im outtie!!

go steelers wooooo

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:: 2006 20 January :: 11.36pm

Aww I love Annalise!! She's too sweet to me!

Haha I love how someone will call me and then I didn't hear my phone ring and I notice that I have a missed call about two seconds after they called so I call them back and they are right in the middle of leaving me a voicemail and then listening to their voicemail cracks me up because sometimes they don't know if they should stop talking and switch over, or what. I don't know it just has happened to me a lot with many people and it's pretty funny.

Emily called me tonight and that happened, but that isn't my point. She wants to come over tomorrow with Logan and Justin to visit me. Afterwards she said she is feeling sick and she thinks she has mono from me.. Everyone who gets sick all of the sudden think they have mono lol. Let's hope not.

Thank god I only have like 10 minutes left. Robot mode is over soon Stacy lol.

Well this was pointless so I'm going to stop rambling on.

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:: 2006 20 January :: 1.32pm

Last night I was in the hospital again. I was actually going to explain everything thats going on, but now I don't really feel like wasting my time. If you're important then i'll let you know what happened.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I can't wait until I can go back to school next week.

I probably wont ever say that again.

TheEdgeofYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 18 January :: 8.04pm
:: Mood: tired

been staying home past 2 days; no school. went with gered the other nite.. had a nice time:: today i went with alaina since i didnt go to school, we took a ride and then went to mikes and drove around.. got high, ya that how ordeal lol. i just woke up alittle bit ago... ate and went to sleep, hehe. and i really dont appreciate my friends 'talking' to my ex boyfriend.. kinda i dunno PISSES ME OFF. but yeah. me and him are still yet not talking and todays his 19th b-day so i told him happy birthday.. but we didnt talk, =\, oh well!

:: 2006 18 January :: 6.59pm

Today was a long long day. I haven't slept very much today. I had a lot of friends come over to visit me :) I love them. They're too sweet.

Now my sleeping schedule is off track. At around 3:30 am my mom wakes me up to so I can take my medicine. I fall back asleep. Then at 7:30am she comes and wakes me up again so I can take more medicine. I sometimes get up and go visit everyone who's getting ready for work and school or sometimes I just fall back asleep. I sleep until around 11:30 when she wakes me up again. I get up..she makes me eat something..I watch a movie...I sleep until 3:30..usually by then someones here to see me..I see them for a while...I usally sleep some more..wake up..i'm forced to eat..I watch tv for a while then I sometimes fall asleep and at 11:30 before my mom goes to bed she wakes me up again and makes me take more medicine...

Haha im going to be addicted now.

I pretty much didn't do that at all today so tonight's probably going to be rough.

I'm going into my 3rd hour (drama) for like 20 minutes just so I can talk to H and see what I'm going to do about the play and I have to get all my homework from the rest of my teachers. Ugh..

Josh's letter he wrote me was so cute. I'm so sad for him. He has to face Ms. Eilola alone...oh well things happen. I'll write his letter tonight, and I can't forget to write Lisa's and Kelli's too.

When I got my picture taken for my license the lady was like "you could have at least smiled" since I was complaining about me looking horriable and then she said that and I just wanted to slap her and be like "umm maybe you should shut the fuck up I have mono and I've been in the hospital" and then I also just wanted to lick her or something so then she'd get mono too.

Anyways I don't really have much to say and too many people are talking to me and my brain still can't function very well and im getting too confused so I can't do all this at once.

~mCaLa~ says:
bummer....so H found out today, did u hear this story yet?
*ASH*-forget the things we swore we meant <3 says:
no
*ASH*-forget the things we swore we meant <3 says:
lol
~mCaLa~ says:
oh...well he was in shock..he's like "are you serious? lil one has mono?" we're all like "umm..yea" he let out a yell..lol

Hope this was fast enough Stacy!!

<3 ashley

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:: 2006 17 January :: 11.23pm

I'm not really mad at you. I just don't think you meant what you said. You lied to me and from now on I can no longer believe anything you say.

:: 2006 17 January :: 12.22am

i went with gered and his brother today job searching.. well they did not me and then we went back to there house to chill. i had a nice relaxing time..

then i get on AIM and me and jason get into it. and i mean like hardcore. what an ass. i was called a whore and pathetich and stupid and etc.. i dont feel like whipping out the convo, ive cried enough.

fuck it; fuck you.

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