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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 30 December :: 11.42am

Yeah..
Jason: well regardless of what happens i still want us to be close and i still want to be around you i meen if its decided not to be together that doesnt mean me and you are going to end. id fucking go through hell before you were taken out of my life


Yeah me and him had a long convo about us.. and i dont really wanna talk about it but yeah just know im not in the best of shape. =( he just means so much to me..





Update

i was reading this girl emily's xanga (the one who keeps trying to ruin things for me) and shes basically obessed with jason. so yeah i want to to kill the bitch; and not just that but she will IM me and ask me dumb shit (like its any of her buisness?) and tells me things about him that she knows (LIKE I FUCKING CARE U STUPID WHORE!!) i really dont care. just leave me alone. k?

update he said he isnt done with me.. but were not together anymore

:(:(:(

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theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2005 29 December :: 3.43pm

teehee
im having a good break. my baby came over tuesday but left today (so im saddd) but we had a nice time.. a very nice time ;). we went to the mall/movies with jena and kelly yesterday to see the new jim carrey movie called fun with dick and jane, we all liked it. Saturday im going to jasons house to stay then sunday were all going out to the movies (me, him, his mom, his brother and his gf). so this should be fun. lol im all nnneerrrvvvoouuuss. but yeah so excited!

i adore this kid so much! xoxo.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 29 December :: 3.28pm

Stop, stare, and watch me burn. Someday it'll be your turn. You can't fool me. I can see all the things that you didn't want me to see. You threw my heart away and thats the price I paid. I know it's never fair, you promised me you'd always be there but you never really cared.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 28 December :: 11.53pm

What the hell am I supposed to say to that? Seriously. I don't think I have ever been so shocked in my entire life. That is the nicest most weird thing ever.

Stacy: I have to tell you something and I know what you told me wasn't supposed to be anything exciting but my news is. It's actually pretty much top secret. No joke.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 28 December :: 11.23am

Last night was so much fun. I love you Stacy, Mishy, Dani, and Brittani. Devin and Ben were also pretty awesome guys. Nate on the other hand, let's not go there. Stacy and I are sluts, we rocked their worlds, end of story. Kidding we aren't. We stayed out all night and we went to Morningstar, Vertigo, and Skelletones. It was so fun. We met Trisha, Natalie, and Brittani there too. Dani is the worst driver ever. I'm not kidding. We almost died a few times. She just drives downtown in GR and she doesn't even stop at red lights or stop signs. The worst part about it is that she doesn't even realize that she runs red lights and stop signs. So I figured that most of us didn't really want to die so I made sure to tell her where she needed to stop and go at. We went to Bens at around 1 and I was playing video games with Mishy and at first she was losing so she just quit and I didn't really realize this until afterwards but I got so into the stupid game. They have this video of me and I'm like freaking out while I'm playing it. It was hilarious. Anyways we didn't get home until like 4:30 and I slept probably about three hours so I'm sort of tired but I'll be okay. I had so much fun and we are going to do it again.

"Use my strong hand"

"105.4" lol

I didn't realize that if you wear a skirt in the middle of winter, it made you a slut but then again what do I know?

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 27 December :: 12.17pm
:: Music: la la la

TODAY IS THE BESTEST DAY EVER!!

my bbbaaaabbby is coming over today; i'm so excited!!!



so i mostlikely wont be online. lol so i will update later. hes staying until thursday and im so HAPPPPY! hehehe..:):)

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swimfan14

:: 2005 26 December :: 8.05pm

I'm seriously the worst minesweeper player in history. Ever.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 26 December :: 6.25pm

I don't know why but I just have a bad feeling that you lied to me and I hate being lied to more than anything.The worst part about being lied to is knowing that I wasn't worth the truth and if thats the case then we have some problems. I don't even know, maybe, just maybe I'm wrong but right now that seems highly doubtful.

TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend: Chloe
First Screen Name: I don't remember the very first one but one from millions of years ago was cutiepie15032
First Pet: Jackson (Dog)
First Piercing: When I was like 11 months old
First Crush: Curtis, my little boyfriend when I was four
First CD: Like I remember
First Word: Probably Mommy or Daddy
First Real Love: I can't really say that I have been in love
First Stuffed Animal: An elephant named Ellie

NINE LASTS
Last Alcoholic Beverage: A sour apple martini and then today at Olive Garden my sister told me to drink some of my moms drink (I don't know what she was drinking) and I thought she meant drink the whole thing but apparently I was just supposed to take a sip of it and I drank the whole thing and wow that was a mistake ;)
Car Ride: Coming home from shopping today
Last Movie Seen: I don't remember but I watched Laguna Beach this morning if that counts
Last Phone Call: Jessica (were talking on the phone right this moment and it's not going well at all)
Last CD Played: Taking Back Sunday
Last Bubble Bath: Like last Saturday
Last Time You Cried: Last night AND the day before AND this morning..wow I sound like a basketcase but each time was for a differen't and good reason.

EIGHT 'HAVE YOU EVER...'S
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: Yeah but it was just a summer fling
Have you ever been arrested: Nope
Have you ever skinny dipped: Yeah in California lol
Have you ever been on TV: Yeah on the news here but that doesn't count because here sucks but I was on National Tv when I was in LA
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Oh quite a few times
Have you ever cheated: Thats just a sketchy question to ask
Have you ever spent more than 5 hours online: Oh yes
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep: Yeah and it's not exactly fun

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. Tank Top
2. Jeans
3. Earings
4. Sweatshirt
5. Socks
6. Necklace
7. Livestrong Bracelet

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. Watched Laguna Beach
2. Bought 5 cds and lots of clothes and a purse
3. Ate at Olive Garden
4. Fought with someone
5. Drank
6. When we were walking out of Olive Garden this car almost hit us and he was supposed to stop for us but he didn't so I hit his car really hard with all my shopping bags haha

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. California
2. Modeling
3. The O.C.
4. Music
5. Clothes/Shoes/Purses

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. Chloe
2. Lisa
3. Mishy and Stacy
4. Veronica (well before her memory loss)
(that was five but I don't really care)

THREE THINGS YOU HOPE TO HAVE IN THE FUTURE
1. Love
2. Career (be famous)
3. Kids

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Go to where I'm from (ITALY!!) lol
2. Go on a road trip across America. Every state. ( I agree with Jordan on this whole little thing)

ONE SECRET
1. I'm scared to be in love.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 26 December :: 2.01am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: nickelback- because of you

12.26.05
my christmas was alright. i got everything i wanted anyways. and i decided to call my real father just to say merry xmas. even though i dont talk to him. but hes still my dad but it didnt blow over to well. i thought i would be the right thing to do.. but i guess i was wrong he basically asked me why the fuck i called him and said i thought we agreed we were done with another.. i didnt no what to say so i sat in silence he said some harsh things to me like im not his daughter and i fucked up and i mess up everything i said i was sorry.. and he said go waste your time on someone else and hung up. so ya i know im never calling him again. so im not going to ramble on about it.. just really got to me. i guess thats what i get for trying to be nice. but anyways my baby is coming over tuesday and im so excited. i dont even know how i will react lol. but ya. goodnite everyone!

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swimfan14

:: 2005 26 December :: 12.13am

I seriously can't believe my friends sometimes. Okay let's just say one of my friends in particular. I thought we were supposed to be in this whole thing together but she just proved that it's now a competion to see who is better. Yeah well we'll see about that now wont we? Sounds like someones a little jealous to me. Whatever. I'm going to go cry now and be upset like I can be because this is our first fight over the dumbest thing ever.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 24 December :: 10.21pm

MERRY CHRISTMAS! I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!!!!! says:
HEY BABY!!!!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS! I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!!!!! says:
I MISS YOU!!!

I miss Danielle too. I feel so lost without seeing some of my friends.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!!!!! says:
lol its ok...if anyone laughs ill be like "hey trailor bitches! thats one of my favorite people in the world over there face first in that snow drift with those little feet sticking straight up! so back the fuck off niggaaaaaaa!"

Haha, wow. She cracks me up.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 24 December :: 10.56am
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: A Decade Under The Influence- -Taking Back Sunday

Christmas Eve
This morning I had Christmas at my dads house. It was quite eventful. We didn't really go to bed at all. I slept for like 10 minutes here and there but other that that, we stayed up all night and we opened presents at 6am. Pretty crazy I know. I'm really tired and I want to go back to bed right now but I can't. I basically knew what I was getting the whole time anyways but I was still excited. My dad hates malls so I just went on websites and made wish lists and then he told me to just order what I wanted because he was afraid he would order the wrong thing so that basically defeats the whole "being suprised" purpose but oh well. I got a dell laptop and it's pretty awesome. I'm hoping that I will get internet for it in the next few weeks. I'm just rambling and I'm out of it so I'm going to go.

Smile cuz in one day......

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 24 December :: 2.17am
:: Mood: head hurtsss
:: Music: Tom petty - last dance with maryjane

aw come on ONCE MORE TIME TO KILL THE PAIN!
well again i got into another fight with jason, this time i claimed to gotten on his nerves about something. but hes the type who doesnt wanna talk about it ever. so yeah he gets all pissy and yells. but whatever; i told him i was sorry.

"i'm always right"




i did one more run today to the mall for last minute christmas shoppin; alaina came and got me and we went and just hung out. it was nice seeing her again. she got her liscense and a car LUCKY BITCH! lol. so ya i had a good time, we went to wal*mart first (it was insane so much traffic) but ya who goes to wallyworld and the mall a day b4 xmas eve. UHH US! haha. so yeah we saw my cousin roland and our friend steven there, they were wrapping xmas presents for people for community service LMAO and he was wearing a santa hat.. pretty freaking halarious. but yeah thats my day. i have a headache so im outtie.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 24 December :: 1.15am

I love him and I love her

mish is electric: when youre famous
mish is electric: youll get to meet him
mish is electric: and have his children

Yeah shes right. So right.

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TheEdgeofYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 23 December :: 2.55am

Ultimate survey of 2005. past, present, future, and everything random!
Basics
Time::2:24am
Name::Rochelle
Nickname(s)::Roach, Chelle, RoRo
Favorite nickname::Roach, i've had it since 4th grade.
Age::16
Age you act::older.
Age you wish you could be::18
Height::5'5
Weight::average
Shoe size::9 1/2
Siblings::Yes, one sister
Pets::No
Living situation::With my mother.
Location::Finleyville..
Childhood past and General past
Favorite toy::My ball
How did you dress?:Like a little tom boy.
Preschool::Yeah i went there
What age did you stop using the bottle?:Uhm. the bottle? like 1.
Did you prefer playing indoors or outdoors?:Outdoors
Did you have an immaginary friends?:Nope
First pet::My dog, bandit
What did you want to be when you grew up?:Vetenarian
Do you still want to be that?:No
(assuming you do) did you always have your own room?:Yep
Did you ever ask a fat lady how long she'd been pregnant for?:Sure did.
What age did you learn to read and write?:Very young
Were you quiet or nosy?:Noisy, but i was a good kid. trust me
What was your favorite story book?:Velveteen Rabbit
Second favorite?:I didnt have a 2nd
Third favorite?:I didnt have a fucking 3rd favorite.
Sum yourself up as a kid.:I was well mannered.
Who was your first best friend?:As a kid?. i didnt have any friends
How old were you when you had your first birthday party?:uhm 1? duh. first bday party.
Where was it?:My house
What was your earliest bedtime?:8
When did you learn to ride a bike?:Very young
Were you immaginative?:Yes i was.
Did you play with gender appropriate toys?:Sure did
Did you play with age appropriate toys?:Sure did..
What was your favorite stuffed animal?:My bear
How many barbies did you have?:like 39024984 x 5
Did you have carebears?:I had the tapes.. beat that biiiitch
Ninja turtles?:I LOVED THEM
That creepy bear that reads books?:Creepy bear? uhm. okay not clicking
Did you like to climb trees?:Haha, no never ask me that again
Throw tantrums?:All the time, i had to get 7 catscans
Was it hard to sleep, or did you sleep like a baby?:I slept like a baby, except for when "santa" was coming
Did you go to the zoo?:Like 2 times.
Did you scream a lot?:Sure did
Did you ever go to an amusement park?:Yep
When and where was your first kiss?:When i was in 7th grade.
Kissed someone of the opposite sex?:Yes i have..
Kissed someone of the same sex?:Yes i have.. *ahem*
how many total goldfish have you collectively owned?:5
As a kid, what was the best thing ever?:My swingset, and poga stick
The worst?:Nap time
What was the best year of your life?:When i was happy.
Generally, in the past, have you ever:
Ran away from home?:Nope
Snuck out?:Yep
Wished on a star?:Yep. never works
Danced in the rain?:Yeah all the time duh; your not cool unless u dance in the rain
Been to an unsupervised party?:Surely have
Been drunk?:Noway..
Smoked?:I smoke cigarettes.
Been beaten up?:No i will beat someones ass.
Been depressed?:Yeah who hasnt
Been lonely?:Indeed i have
Been afraid of the dark?:Yep
Cut your own hair?:Yep
Stayed up all night?:Yep
Gone streaking?:Yep
Gone skinny dipping?:Yeppp
Played strip poker?:Nope
Been on a roof?:I was on this girl angies roof. pretty nifty.
Been in a trash can?:haha yeah thanks roland!
Egged somebodies house?:LOL NOWAY! not I.
Teepeed someones house?:no dude. wtf
Cheated on a guy / girl?:No i dont believe in that shit.
Cheated on a test?:Yes
Set something on fire on purpose?:Yes
Set something on fire accidentally?:yes
Eaten squid?:eww wtf
Eaten sushi?:WTF NO
Had a cell phone?:YEA its a piece of shit
Had a computer?:Yeah and i want to kick it
Had an ipod / mp2 player?:pish not that lucky.
Broken a light bulb?:Yeah i have; over your forehead.
Cruised the streets past 3 AM?:It was wrong i know.
Did a prank call?:lmfao. ya and i almost got arressted
Gone to school with a hangover?:noway
Been in love?:Yes....
Sworn at your parents?:bloody battles.
Regretted something you did?:All the time
Regretted something you should have done but never did?:Dont fucking remind me.
Lied to your parents?:Yeah
Lied to your friends?:Yeah
Currently:
Are you a lucky person?:No
Are you a happy person?:No
Are you a virgin?:No
What are you wearing?:MY BIRTHDAY SUIT!
What did you have for breakfast?:A cheese sandwich
What kind of socks do you wear?:colorfull ones and white ones
What are your most comfortable shoes?:Audios cause there old and worn in
Are you doing well in school?:Okay i suppose.
Do you have a lot of friends?:No.
Are you happy with them?:No
Past of 2005:
Did 2005 treat you well?:i suppose.
Did it go by fast, slow, or at just the right pace?:right place?
Approximately how many parties did you go to?:Ziltch
What was your biggest acheivement this year?:To do good on my report card.
Did you change over 2005?:yeah i have
Did your hairstyle change?:yea it has
How much taller did you get from last year?:i havent grown since 7th grade
Did you make new friends?:Yes
Did you lose any old friends?:yes
Did you try new things?:Yes
Go places you've never been?:Yes
Do things you've never done?:No
Things you never thought you would do?:No
Have fun?:No
What do you miss most about 2005?:your mother.
If you could choose one thing to completely undo, what would it be?:I would have never dated daniel ray merico (aka smokey)
If you could choose one thing to redo (fix) what would it be?:I would have never dated an asshole
If you could choose one thing to relive, what would it be?:Im with a better person?
Did 2005 have a big impact on your life?:no
Do you think 2006 will be better?:no
Was 2005 special?:no
Was it the best year for you?:sure why not.
Future, mainly 2006
Have you made a resolution?:To lose weight.<-- thats mine every year.
What's one thing you will do differently in 2006?:Everything
What are your goals?:Pass 11th grade
Do you feel fullfilled?:Noway
Are you going to learn something new from 2006?:No
What's one place you want to go?:Greece
What's the main thing you want out of 2006?:for you to shut up
Back to this past year, have you bee..
Naughty or Nice?:naughty
Happy or Sad?:okay
Dull or Interesting?:dull
Boring or Fun?:boring
Cray or Normal?:normal
Wild or Calm?:wild
Mean or Kind?:both
Caring?:sure
Carefree?:no
Careless?:no
Careful?:sure?
Loud or Silent?:all depends *winks*
Smart or Stupid?:Both at times.
Last but not least..
Nine things you won't be able to live without. Go.
1.:Phone
2.:Computer
3.:Friends
4.:Jason
5.:Sleep
6.:Food
7.:Music
8.:Sweatshirts
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