<b>Let your beauty unfold.</b>

:: 2005 13 December :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Tom Petty - Refugee

Today i didnt go to school; didnt feel up to it.

but ya anyways i went x-mas shopping with my mom earlier since i didnt go to school and then about 4:30ish-5ish i went with jena to get ben and we went to TOYS R US and then the MALL. i had a nice time. i missed hanging out with them. i got home bout 7 jena had to go somewhere, while i was at the mall i got my baby something and i hope he likes it.

but ya thats all for now.
i have to go back to school tomorrow. BAHHH!

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:: 2005 13 December :: 4.56pm

Incase you failed to notice, incase you failed to see, this is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees.

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:: 2005 13 December :: 4.08pm

Sometimes it's so hard for me to not say what I really want to say. I am very opinionated and I usually say what's on my mind but today I figured I probably should keep my mouth shut because I can say some really mean things so I decided I should just not say anything but I can't hold it in anymore so I'm just going to say what I really think and hopefully I don't end up regreting what I say.

I'm sorry but that whole idea just isn't going to work for some of us.

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:: 2005 12 December :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: gittery
:: Music: atreyu- demonolgy & heartache

12.12.05
Love kills, romance is dead
And I don't even trust myself
But I love you
And you can pull my wings apart
And pin me down under glass
Until the end of days if it can help you
Discover that we share the same pain
I just hope you write your thesis
Before your subject is dead
No life after death

only 2 more weeks til x-mas woo. and that means i get to see my baby!! wooooo. i wish it was soooner though!!!!!!

:: 2005 11 December :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Tom Petty - Into the great wide open

rebel without a clue
Spiders in my hair and guns on my mind
Thinking about the people who've been so unkind
If looks could kill them
I might make myself blind

if i could do lastnite over again
i would do it all the time, baby!

:: 2005 11 December :: 12.46am

GREAT DAY
today was the bestest day ever

i went to the mall to see jason and we got along and hit it off well (i knew we would) but things are going great, we just talked and hung out. took some pictures with his digital, so it was real cute!<3. im just glad things are working out for me; finally. his mom said im cute (haha) so she will pick me up on weekends 'n' shit SO EXCITED! mwahaha. this kid is the bestest. MUAH. so ya good day for both of us. towards the end he asked me to be his girl :) so ya im all giddy and giggly. YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN ME EARLIER i was so nervous though i was like calling jena sayin what if he thinks im ugly? LMAO i dunno i was being insercure but things are gggrreeaatt.

tomorrow i dont think im doing anything, i would like to see jena butttttt i dunnno so mabey she will calllll meeeee wooo woooo wooooo!!!!

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:: 2005 10 December :: 4.34pm

If this what you want. This is what you get.

:: 2005 9 December :: 11.49pm

Alright so maybe it was worth it.

Tonight was fun. I love Dani, Megan, Emily Sorensen, Aaron, Scott, Matt, Emily E, Brittany. We always have so much fun.

But I should go to sleep now. I couldn't even stay awake for the movie.

<3 Ashley

:: 2005 8 December :: 7.11pm

Today was probably one of the worst days of my life and I don't think it's going to get any easier until that day comes. The truth behind the reason why I didn't come to school yesterday wasn't all because I woke up late and I was sick. Yeah, both of those things are true but Veronica's mom did call me Tuesday night and she told me she was going to bring her to school on Wednesday and I was scared. I was scared to see her so I didn't want to go and when I got to school today I soon found out she was coming today. I can't begin to explain how scared I was. I don't know why I was scared. It's not like she was going to hurt me or something. I just couldn't handle it. I barely could look at her and when I did look at her for the first time, I can't even explain how it felt. I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't even introduce myself. Sam Foley had to tell her who I was. The only reason why I went near her was because someone told me that I might be the person to spark her memory. So I did it, just for her. It hurts so bad seeing your best friend look at you as if she's never seen you before. I just want to tell her all of our memories and I wanted to show her our spot but I knew it wouldn't help. It seems like were missing so much of our friendship. I feel like she's running out of time and it's frustrating because I want her to remember so bad, but she can't and I know it's not her fault. I miss her so much and I would do anything to help her, but unfortunately theres nothing I can do. Getting up every morning for school is just going to get harder and harder until she comes back. And if you don't understand how I feel, think about it happening to YOUR best friend. I think I'll probably cry tomorrow too. I feel like I still need to cry which is weird but thats just how I feel. Stacy told me I was cute when I cried and it's cute how many people kiss me when I cry. They did that in the play too.

It`s unbelieveable how we pick ourselves up everyday, just to be let down anyways.

That hurt. It's okay, I'll remember that next time.

Ashley

:: 2005 8 December :: 3.23pm

my face hurts.
I GOT HIT IN THE FACE WITH A BADMITTEN BIRDIE or however the fuck you spell it. haha it sucked so bad i was so flippin mad. ugh anyways!!!

im extremely tired, i havent been able to sleep STILL.
im poor no money; and x-mas is not to far away. ahh!
and i suck at life :):):).

the xmas dance is saturday and im NOT going everyone is like 'awww i cant wait til the dance' & blah blah blah, and they're like 'are you going hun?' fuck no im not going, im poor and no date and why would i want to anyways i dont even know if ill go to prom lol seriously.

::its so cold out my joints are hurting real bad.. i swear its the old age kicking in, LMAO

:: 2005 7 December :: 2.58pm

Remember when we said we'd never part
No purple tears and break each other's heart
Now I'm the fool for trusting this far
'Cause now you are my favorite scar

So tick tock 'bout time for the pain come in
When you said we'd all be friends in the end
I hope you'll find what you need
'Cause I won't be those things in your magazine.

ONLY LIKE 3 DAYS LEFT TIL SATURDAY!! oh boy oh boy!! hehe:):):)

:: 2005 7 December :: 1.07pm

They said I can't take, what, what do they know, any girl who's anyone is out at the mall and I can't dress up, what, outta control. My friends stand out so I wanna be bold. Even no make-up, what they're outta touch. They think my blue mascara is way too much. It gets a girl wondering what's wrong with this world when a girl can't choose how to be a girl. They said you're going the wrong way, the wrong way to no where but I said it's the right way, the right way to get there. They said I'm too young to follow my own way to the future but I stand in my own way, right or wrong, it's the only way
that I'll get there.....

:: 2005 7 December :: 11.43am

I didn't go to school today. My alarm never went off and when I did wake up Lisa was calling me and it was like 7:20 so I wouldn't have had time to get ready anyways. I don't feel good and I hate school so I guess it's okay.

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TheEdgeofYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 6 December :: 11.30pm
:: Mood: aombie mode

12.6.05
welp how bout today was my moms birthday and we didnt get along so i went to school crying, like all day; i slept in late cause i dont have an alarm and she just freaked saying ' you want the easy way out of like ' so i was like uhh ok? mom.. cool u no sure i want the easy way out of life cause i slept in a extra 20mins. not my fault wtf? retarded we usually have a few time periods were we have our arguements and retardness just i felt like a jackoff for being a bitch to her since it was her birthday!!! but i called her from school and was like 'im sorry' and shes like its ok i forgive THEN I COME HOME AND it happens again. oh so sweet aye? blah anyways im tired i havent slept right in 3 days i feel like a zombie.. i just want a good nites rest so ima try. nite alllll!