<b>Let your beauty unfold.</b>

:: 2005 5 December :: 3.05pm

today sucked as always i always think about things that happened in the past. i try to show no remorse but i always fail.

i'm excited for this weekend though, i'm so happy. kelly is supposed to be taking me to c3 mall i'm giving her gas money. but the plan was she was going to take me after work on friday up there but thats not til like 7 and by the time she gets me it will be like 8ish and then the mall closes at like 9. and i really want to sit down and talk to him and spend time with him... so i asked her if saturday she could take me before work so i have all day with him and pick me up after work, but she has to see if shes doing anything ..cause shes off sunday.. but i hope that plan goes well because i really wanna see him.. i mean i'll give gas money like mad. :( ill just be real sad if i cant.. cause if things go well on sat. then hes coming down for xmas break to stay with me for a few days and i would oh so love that very much!!!

:: 2005 4 December :: 11.44pm

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This was on Saturday. We all crack up at Brittney's sign. Brittany's little cousins made our signs lol.

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theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2005 4 December :: 3.23pm
:: Mood: could choke a bitch
:: Music: linkin park - in the end

I had to fall to lose it all.
i woke up at 12:40pm to a guys soft voice saying 'hello baby, what are u doing' and i replied 'nothing who is this....-pause- JASON?' and then the voice goes 'WHO THE FUCK IS JASON!' lmfao. it was only ben hahahaha i felt dumb but yeah we talked for a few mins. and then i said so ben when we gonna hang out? and hes like 'whenever you put out we will hang out' I GOT SO PISSED i hung up on him, so ya hes tried to call saying 'im kidding and sorry' so i just went CLICK! hahaha. anyways ya hes still my friend but pisses me off. ugh. and i got into a verbal fight with this girl who is obessed with the guy im talking to, of course i showed her whose boss but still little girls and them thinking there to cool for there britches.. fuck that i would so rock her face. she doesnt need to fuck this up, ill be damned if she trys to..but im not worried about anything cause were going great. right baby? :). & hes the best things ever and i adore him so much...

anyways i cant wait til nextweekend im so excited i couldnt be happier!!! :):) oxox.

:: 2005 4 December :: 3.00pm

I pretty much just woke up and that is pretty sad lol. We didn't go to sleep until 5am and then we all had to leave at 9 so then I came home and slept until now lol.

Friday Lisa and I were at the mall and it was about to close and we had to go to the bathroom before we left and you have to go down this long hallway to get to it and I was telling her how it was sort of scary and how I've heard guys will go in a stall in the girls bathroom and wait for a girl to come in there and so she was really scared so when we went in there I started pushing all the doors open to make sure somebody wasn't in there and then when I got to this one door it wouldn't open and I totally didn't think someone would be in there so I was like pounding on it, trying to open it and then I seen their feet so then I was like omg shit and so I stopped and Lisa and I were laughing and I thought it was pretty fucking weird that the person in there didn't say something to me because apparently I didn't know they were in there but no they didn't say a word or move!! So then we were just like w/e and then we both were going to the bathroom and it was dead silent and I just busted out laughing and then afterwards Lisa did too and we both were just standing there wondering why this person was still in there not doing ANYTHING so I looked at their feet and it looked like guys shoes so then I showed Lisa and she agreed with me and so then we got out of there as fast as we could. It was pretty scary if you ask me. If I was them and I heard someone laugh (me) I would definitely laugh too but they didn't. I'm pretty sure it was a guy. Not even kidding.

Yesterday I went to the x-mas parade with Brittney, Kourtney, Emily, and Elyse. It was so cold but it was pretty cute.

Then Elyse came over and then later on we went to Sam Ballews for her body shop thing. It was pretty sweet. I had fun and I bought alot of stuff lol.

Then well I hung out with Brittany, Brittney, Megan, Emily, and Elyse. Ahaha....

This weekend wont go without repercussions.

<3 aShLeY

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:: 2005 3 December :: 3.29pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: mudvayne - determined

i saw the heavens skies in your eyes
You're super special to me babyxoxox

blah today i had to clean.. like the whole flippin' house; so now i'm tired. LOL. hopefully i do something tonite but who knows cause i'm extremely tired my mother got me up at like 8am i didnt go to bed til like 3am. i need lots of rest haha. i got a new headboard it's really pretty but it makes so much noise i freakin layed on it and moved my arm and its like 'bang'.. i could only imagine how much noise it will make at some points in time ;);).

i can't wait til next weekend, i'm so excited!!!!:)

:: 2005 3 December :: 12.08am

ahaha tonight was fun :)

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:: 2005 2 December :: 3.05pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Endo - penicillin

burr
today sucked big time.. it was freezing outside for one and snowing so we didnt have a 2-hr delay which pissed me off.. ugh anyways i have a stalker and it isnt cool. he follows me everywhere and talks to me all the time im like go away? but it never works.. so i just let it slip by..im so happy its the weekend i dont no what im doing most likely nothing just sittin on my arse. hmmm.

but...the only good thing thats happening is i met a wonderous guy.
i'm falling in love i swear

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:: 2005 1 December :: 5.31pm
:: Mood: gloomy

i'm an addict
i can't help it i'm so insecure.

i never ment to question you.. i'm so sorry i was curious but i guess i was alittle bit to probing and envious and i'm so so sorry.

i always do this.. i always do this to myself..

:: 2005 29 November :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: box car racer - i feel so

11.29.05
A kiss without commitment's
Like a flower without the rain
It only leads to pain
And it fills my heart with emptiness
Your touch without commitment's
Like a calm before the storm
The tears are starting to form in my eyes

When I kissed you I was curious
The child that I was
I never realized I would love you so
And in the magic of the moment
I was swept to the side
And I saw your heart
So small and tender..

today was gay. i hated today :) i went to the doctors cause my sister is sick and i had one too for reasons because people are assholes.. but ya anyways.. i was supposed to have an appt. for my permit also for driving but noooo not today its bullshit.. its like i will be 493094 years old before i can fucking drive i mean my liscense are already suspended for like 5months when i get them cause i was a moron last year and didnt like to come to school and always skipped. blah!!!!!

5 heartless people | crush me

:: 2005 29 November :: 7.56pm

He wont leave me alone, ever. It's getting really annoying and when I try to tell him that I DONT LIKE HIM..he doesn't get it and it freaks me out when he is like in one million of my classes and his locker is like right next to mine. Somebody save me....

It's Miller time says:
not talkin?
~Ashley~ says:
what
It's Miller time says:
you like tryed not to look at me today :(
~Ashley~ says:
um ok..srry
It's Miller time says:
i just noticed that normaly you do sometimes
It's Miller time says:
but today i would look at you and you would like look away really fast
It's Miller time says:
its alright
It's Miller time says:
just wanted to kno what was up
~Ashley~ says:
nothing
It's Miller time says:
its kewl but i just thought it was sorda weird
~Ashley~ says:
lol sorry
It's Miller time says:
i kno im geting probly anoyying with this whole thing.

^ Yeah, you think!?!?

It's Miller time says:
Hey is 1.7 in the english packet due tomarrow?
Ashley-sometimes you just don't get the hints!!!! says:
we aren't even on 1.7
It's Miller time says:
ohh really then i guess im ahead of everyone for once
Ashley-sometimes you just don't get the hints!!!! says:
umm we aren't even on that...were on 10.6..but ok..

Sometimes I can be such a bitch but if I'm nice to him then he's going to think I like him, so the only way to get my point across is to be a bitch. Oh well...he'll get over it.

Miss stacy cain you can't want that..we have a plan remember!??!

7 heartless people | crush me

:: 2005 29 November :: 6.55pm

Sometimes I just miss the way things used to be.

3 heartless people | crush me

:: 2005 28 November :: 11.41pm

I guess I'm just naive for thinking that...

But thats what I get for thinking.

:: 2005 28 November :: 5.29pm

whoaaa
well nothing exciting ever happens. so i just post lyrics cause i like to sing. [lol]

Take this pink ribbon off my eyes
I'm exposed
And it's no big surprise
Don't you think I know
Exactly where I stand
This world is forcing me
To hold your hand
'Cause I'm just a girl, little 'ol me
Don't let me out of your sight
I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite
So don't let me have any rights

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