<b>Let your beauty unfold.</b>

:: 2005 28 November :: 2.37pm

"You're just mad because you are a skip-bo loser lol".

<3 ashley

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theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2005 28 November :: 2.09am
:: Music: Adam Sandler - i'll grow old with you

you be love & i'll be liar
That wonderful Someone
Who makes the stars all shine
Who fashioned the mountains
To reach to the sky
Who brings each tomorrow
Who hears every prayer
In sunshine or sorrow
If you call He'll be there
That wonderful Someone
Who makes the flowers grow
Who paints every sunset
With colors that glow
Look all around you
And these wonders you'll see
Designed by that Someone
For you and for me

*sigh*

:: 2005 27 November :: 10.45pm

Lol Lisa and I just talked on the phone for 84 minutes. Your jealous, I know.

So umm...

Break was pretty good. I seen In The Mix and Yours, Mine, and Ours. They were okay movies. I thought that Yours, Mine, and Ours was just like Cheaper By The Dozen but I was informed that Yours, Mine, and Ours was an old movie and it was re-made so I guess they didn't exactly copy. I also went to the mall with Lisa and it was so crazy there. There was so many people there I just wanted to shoot myself..haha kidding. Then I went to my friend Jessica's house and we went into her hot tub a million times with her neighbors. I'm glad we hung out because I missed her so much and we always end up talking about things that I wouldn't normally talk about with anyone here since she doesn't go to my school. They just finished their basement so her and her sister share the whole basement and it was like 2am and her sister was sleeping and we were talking and she said the funniest thing ever and I just started busting out laughing and I couldn't stop laughing and I was holding my blanket over my face so I wasn't as loud but it was still funny just because for some reason once I start laughing I just can't stop and im so damn loud when im with my friends.

But I'm getting bored so I am going to go.

<3 Ashley

I've lost myself somewhere deep inside of you.

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:: 2005 27 November :: 5.07pm
:: Mood: bitchy

i don't even care anymore
It Doesn't Even Matter Anymore

i have no feeling.

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:: 2005 27 November :: 9.33am

It's now official.
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:: 2005 27 November :: 2.37am
:: Music: bon jovi- have a nice day

crazy night, wooo
i was at my aunts house thursday until today and i came home..

and i just got home.. i was house cleaning my room rugs. earlier..[lol] and then ben calls and is like you wanna get jena and then me u and jordan hang out and i havent seen jordan in like 2 yrs so i was all excited [this kid was my bestfriend for like 5 yrs] but u see when we got together me, jena and ben went looking for something..and we didnt succeed so we called kelly and we all chilled so me jena ben kelly and audrey got together .. then just drove around and hang out.. hahaha. it was fucking sweet as hell. omg i feel so fucking stupid im tryin to type all okay like n shit. lol. now im home and its 2:45 am and i left here at like 7:30 pm, hahaha and im just chillin bout to hit the sack :):) but i had a fun time and turkey day break is going swell.

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:: 2005 26 November :: 12.09pm
:: Mood: depressed

i thought everything was going good, until last night.. and then everything got blown back up in my face.

nothings good enough for anyone, so leave me the fuck alone. everyones a fucking asshole to me anymore. i don't do anything right, and when i do do something right someone has to say something to me and make me feel like fucking shit about it.

i might as well just not have any friends or anything, it all comes back at me in my fucking face.. no matter what i do with who. it's always a problem.

STOP TXTING MY PHONE STUPID ASSHOLES. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE.. LET HIM DO WHATEVER HE WANTS WHENEVER HE WANTS WITH WHO EVER THE FUCK HE WANTS. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE, I REALLY DON'T SO STOP TELLING ME THINGS THAT JUST UPSET ME.

you don't even fucking know what goes on in my head anymore.

so fuck off, i'm so serious. don't call/text my phone anymore. i'm tired of this bullshit.. i'm not even going to talk or hang out with any of my friends anymore. maybe that'll make things better.

this is my last entry that's public.. this is MY journal. I CAN WRITE WHAT I WANT ABOUT WHO I WANT. have a problem? don't read.

the rest of my journal entries will now be "Friends Only"

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:: 2005 24 November :: 10.33pm

So you got what you want out of me
Took me for the ride but you never
Bothered saying goodbye, No return
What I have, is all that I have
And Im so afraid of losing
And Im so afraid of bruising
Cause Ive been here before
But I still want more
And I'd do it all again.

:: 2005 23 November :: 10.49pm
:: Mood: Sick

So much for all the promises you made, they served you well
and now you're gone and they're wasted on me.

Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.

One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind
I'd do anything for you
One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind

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:: 2005 23 November :: 5.28pm
:: Mood: disappointed

You're all I keep thinking of and I can't get you out of my head. No matter how hard I try it's just never gonna happen. And you know what's amazing to me, that I would do anything to be with you, and you don't see it at all. You just throw me away like I'm some freakin piece of garbage and I just keep running back to you.

Tell me what's wrong with this picture.

:: 2005 23 November :: 2.53pm
:: Mood: livid

ugh confusion it doesn't matter
I HATE GIRLS WHO RUN THERE COCKSUCKERS!!

stupid people need to shut up and keep my name out of there mouths... i love people who try to be 'cool' and say false statements bout me and saying i supposivly said this and that bout someone.. FUCK THAT!.. you must be fucking dumb to even try and pull some Bullshit with me. hahaha. :)

pay backs a biiiiitch.

not caring?

:: 2005 23 November :: 10.01am
:: Mood: okay

it's a really good day today.
i'm in a great mood.

ben and i went to rochelles last night
[awwweee love you rochelle!!]

tonight hopefully ben rochelle and i are going to hang out.
depending on if i'm still 'fighting' with my aunt loraine.
and it depends on if it snows.

awwwe.. love you two!!
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:: 2005 22 November :: 4.38pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Green day - nice guys finish last

people are really fucked you know that?
welp today was an interesting day

not only is school gay off the rocks.. but we had a bomb threat again! yes SECOND DAY IN A ROW WE HAD ONE! you would think they principles and the administration and the teachers or whoever would think 'hey we should hold off school' or hey 'lets do more action in this instead of letting these kids freeze their asses off' yeah we stood outside for like a fucking hour just cause some loser doesn't have anything better to do than call and say "your all gonna die theres a bomb.." and blah blah blah.. its funny in a way but when u make me stand outside in the cold for a fucking hour of course i'll be ticked wouldn't you? its like puemonia (sp?) weather out there!!! ugh. soooo.. I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY AND SAY " A BOMB? THERES A BOMB IN THE SCHOOL? HAH LET IT BURN bomb bomb bomb bomb" all loud 'n' shit and also i said hey is ur parents a terroist cause ur da bomb to some cute kid [lol] and i guess i was heard by a teacher so i got reported AND i told them i thought it was dumb for me gettin in trouble because its my opinon hahahaha. so my mom isn't lettin me do anything today because i made a big deal bout shit and got ISS and Detention [what else is new? lol] AND i was supposed to hang out with jena&ben so basically if i wouldnt have like smart mouthed and threw a fit cause of there stupid policys 'n' shit i could be ok and chillin with them.. so i feel real bad. but tomorrows another day!!!! and we get out at like 12:18pm; and i really do not wanna go tomorrow especially cause some retard might do the call phone again ugh. ill shove the phone riiight up there ass whenever i find out who it was.. makin me stand outside for a fuckin hr. is this coldness. piish think again biiitches! hahahaha :):)

UPDATE!!! i did hang out with jena and ben after all thank goodness. :) it was nice seeing them & hopefully we hang out tomooooorrroooowwww!!!! :):):):):) luv yins

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:: 2005 22 November :: 3.32pm

So at strike on Sunday it was pretty fun. When H went into the girls dressing room he was shocked. He said that it looked like a buffet gone wild lol. There was food all over the floor and clothes and makeup. It was gross. It was 10 times worse than the guys dressing room. H was picking stuff up and I'm like "omg there is my other sock that I couldn't find" and then he picked up some food and I'm like "oh that was mine" so since alot of it was mine he made April and I clean it. It was sooo gross. Then he told us to go through the teachers lounge to go get the mop so we did but we found tons of food so we just started eating it and we couldn't figure out what chemical to put into the water to mop the floors lol. We are pretty dumb. We finally got the mop into the makeup room and we didn't know how to mop so he had to show us. Haha all in all we had fun and I'm really happy that April and I are friends now since we weren't last year. Haha I can't imagine why!?!

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:: 2005 22 November :: 3.31pm

Yeah so maybe you should call her again. Let's see where that gets you!?!?