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:: 2005 15 November :: 9.47am
:: Mood: depressed

Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

Late nights, Late nights, playing in the dark
and waking up inside my arms
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had,
it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

I hate the way I feel.. I hate what I do to myself..

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swimfan14

:: 2005 14 November :: 11.09pm

Maybe someday I'll be able to tell you...

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swimfan14

:: 2005 14 November :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: Happy

I'm watching Laguna Beach re-runs
That wasn't what I expected. Oh well it's not like my world is going to end or anything.

Today was my Birthday so that just makes everything better. H let me leave play practice after my scene because it was my Birthday. Otherwise I would have had to stay the whole play. Thank god for Birthdays. I went out to dinner @ Olive Garden. They all sang to me and it was really embarrassing. Lisa was also there with Chris since it was their one month today and they sat pretty close to us. So I thought that that was pretty cool that they were there and so were we and we didn't plan it. All day people kept calling me,leaving voicemails, and texting me to tell me Happy Birthday. It made me happy lol. Anyways I love everyones cards and Lisa got me the coolest present ever. She gave it to me this morning in the car. Today is my cousin Zoe's 1st Birthday and my dogs birthday lol except I don't know how old he is, it's also my grandpas b-day, my grandmas dogs b-day and then today erika bauer and I both found out in 3rd hour we have the same b-days so we both thought that was cool......

Everyone should come see the play.

I'm excited for the play and for whatever this weekend brings haha..

Anyways I gotta go.

I'm so tired. I didn't really sleep last night and I didn't really all weekend either. I would go to bed but I have to at least watch Laguna Beach.

<33 ashley

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 14 November :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: depressed

So yesterday, [Sunday] Rochelle and I went to the mall/movies.

We saw SAW2.

Real good.

I went over Jims.

Jeff made me laugh.
"chilly willy" teehee

Stayed. [yayyyyyyyyyyy. I love being with him!]

Went to school.

And here I am.

What a glorious evening.

P.S.
Yes, Jim, I am jealous.
And you hold it over my head.
I hate it.
And I hate the way you talk to her on the phone.
I love you. I'll wait.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 13 November :: 1.14pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Lila McCann-With You

You're The One That I Want
Well my weekend was pretty fun ;)

I laugh at how many little hints I give out through out my journal all the time.

I got the new Gossip Girl book and The It Girl so that way Mishy, Brittney, Megan, and Brittany aren't all waiting for me to finish the one I am on! I'm so addicted to these books.

The play is next week and im stoked!

annndd

My Birthday is tomorrow!!!! I sorta forgot that it was just because I already had my party and I can't get my license on my Birthday because I'm too busy with the play to take my test but I probably will in like a week or two. But anyways I'm still excited.

I'm way tired and I should go get ready for play practice.

Oh yeah kelli I just remembered the song I made up when we were at school on Friday and I was walking up the stairs..
"I'm wallkiing up the staiiirs and im wearing a skiirrt and thhe boys behiind me cann see right upp it and they aree going too see sometthiing theyy dont deeserve to see"

"Well it's just Arden"

"Yeahh exacctlly..he'lll like it cuz he doesn't get any acctioonn!"


but I have to get going!

I love you

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 11 November :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: sick

So Wednesday night I went to sleep pretty early because I was more tired than usual.. at about 11:00, my cell rang. It was Jim. We talked for about 2 hours. It was one of the best conversations we've had in a long time. We talked about us, what's going on.. and everything is okay between us. Yes, I do still have feelings for him, and he says he feels the same.. but we're just going to stay friends for a while to see how things go.

Thursday was okay, school was long and boring. I woke up late, and didn't get a shower.. LOTS OF DRAMA WITH THE BUMPER HITTING INCIDENT in the morning!! Haha, [[I was backing up and Rocco or w/e his name is pulled right out in back of me and I hit the left side of his bumper. His mom was in the car with him and everything.. no damage. But I just don't understand how he couldn't see that I was backing up.. I was almost in my spot.. so then I locked my keys in the truck.]] We had an activity period, so I was looking for my keys to put something on it, and I couldn't find them.. so I called Uncle Don and he said he couldn't find anyone to bring the spare key out.. so he told me just to ride the bus.. but no. I couldn't ride the bus home. Becky and I had to jump in the back of Amys TRUNK to get rides home. Hahhaha. So we rode down the drive way and Amy stopped at the stop sign, and popped the trunk. Becky and I got out quickly, and jumped in the car. HAHAHA. Good times!!
I went home and slept until 5:00 [I was starting to feel sick.] then I got a shower, and got ready for our 2006 Senior Party. Becky and I dressed up as The Flinstones. Real cute. I'll post pictures later.. I definitly had a lot of fun.. After I drove Becky home, parked at Amys, and Amy drove me down Jims to stay. I stayed had a good time, I love him a lot. What am I going to do?? Ahhh.. anyways, I left about 11:30, Amy came to pick me up I stayed at her house for a while, went to Becks to drop off my costume then I went home. I got home and felt like F-ing SHIT. I slept until about 3:00, then My Aunt Di and Don R came over to take Gram out to dinner.. I went to the doctors at 4:00.. I have strep and an ear infection in my left ear. I'm on Penicillin now for 7 days. Blahhhhh.. I have being sick.

I was supposed to go to the movies with Rochelle.. but I called her house 2 times today and once no one answered, and the second some lady answered and was rude.. uhhh, okay, sorry Rochelle. I tried to call..

k,love.

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silverstar

:: 2005 10 November :: 12.19pm
:: Mood: bored

Hey...Havent updated this thing in awhile. Not much has really been goin on just the same old shit. I worked Monday, Tuesday I was off, Wednesday I worked bingo and made $45 that i desperately needed! Right now I'm in school, bored as hell. I am so tired of highschool. I'm like seriously mentally done. I cant stand anyone in bentworth except for a select few and you know who you are! haha My chub girls. Tonites the senior party and i'm not going but now i kinda wish i was. I really didnt wanna go because theres a couple of people that just really piss me off and i cant stand to be around them but since they're not going i wanna go but i have to work. Oh well it happens.
This weekend I'm going shopping with my gram, my aunt and my mom at south hills. Then were going to my aunt and uncles house because they just bought a new/old lol victorian house so i'm excited to see it. Well its time for accounting class! Fun Fun

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swimfan14

:: 2005 10 November :: 6.59am

Aww my journal is so pretty now! I love all your suprises Mishy!!


I luv you!!

<3 ashley

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 8 November :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: hopeless

what you gon do? lol
well today is tuesday and i'm rochelle and i don't know nothing at all.

i miss all my old friends but these new ones are cool and all do not get me wrong just i miss everyone, i am tryin to stay intouch with everyone. but in this new school i've been in 3 fights (go figure) cause people are morons and do not know how to stfu, i mean what else is new right? hmmm.. also i am very in need of sexual intercourse lmfao.. jena KNOWS WHAT I AM TALKING BOUT! lmao

xxx jena says: guys are f-ing stupid, and if they didn't have dicks. there would be no use for them.
absent x dreams: LMAO
absent x dreams: true
absent x dreams: 'true dat' lol



xxx jena says: I NEED SOMEONE TO HAVE SEX WITH
xxx jena says: I AM SEX DEPRIVED.
xxx jena says: i'm going to die from no sex
xxx jena says: I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!
xxx jena says: DO YOU FEEL THE SAME, OR ARE YOU GETTING SOME?!?!
absent x dreams: IM NOT GETTIN ANY!
absent x dreams: I SWEAR ITS LIKE EVOLUTION!
xxx jena says: IT HURTS..
xxx jena says: AMEN SISTA
absent x dreams: it most certainly does
absent x dreams: LOL
absent x dreams: ammeeeenn
xxx jena says: ahhh.. whatca gonna doo
absent x dreams: go look for honry young boys
xxx jena says: LMFAO
xxx jena says: I WANT AN OLD ONE!!
xxx jena says: sweet.
absent x dreams: LOL
absent x dreams: ya me to i dont really like lil boys.. lol


lmao were retarded

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 8 November :: 8.51pm
:: Mood: gloomy

So Monday, (yesterday) Jim Gabby and I went to the mall. I had a good time, I hope Jim did too.. I bought a new purse.

Today Becky and I went to Kings.

Tomorrow we're going to get our costumes for Senior Night Thursday.

Pictures::
Read more..

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swimfan14

:: 2005 7 November :: 9.05pm

Today was pretty boring at school. I realized that I'm at school for a long time. 7:30am to anywhere from 6-9pm. It totally sucks spending so much time at school. Play practice was horriable today. If she messes up/skips lines one more time I'm going to flip out. She misses her lines, which causes me to miss mine. Anyways before our scene April and I were backstage talking and this sophomore kept yelling at us because we were talking and she's like "shhh we're backstage, stop talking" and we got really mad at her because she didn't even ask us nicely so we started talking louder and she walked over to us and said it right at our faces and we kept on talking just to piss her off and we would mock her really loudly and start laughing. I was suprised she didn't come over and punch us but she was being a bitch so we decided to do anything and everything to piss her off. It would have been a differen't story if she would have asked us nicely but she didn't so too bad for her then.

My dad got a new laptop today! I'm on it right now. I can't wait until Christmas because I'm getting one. I used to have one when I was like eight but my cousin Haileigh spilt grape pop all over the keyboard so it doesn't work anymore lol.

Anyways I have to go get in the shower so I don't miss Laguna Beach @ 10!!

<3 ashley

P.S.-CALL ______ NOW!!!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!

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silverstar

:: 2005 6 November :: 8.15pm

Hey! Whats up...Today was an awesome day. I really didnt do much just hung out with Bleu most of the day. He's such an awesome guy, we could do like absolutely nothing and i still could have like the best time with him! He picked me up around 2 then we went to trax farms and got apple cider...So Good! Then we went to some place called Adam's pine creek to eat, it was alright...the place is inside of a barn so just picture that! haha but the food was all like homemade stuff so it was decent. After that we just went back to his house and watched the exorcist and like a minute of the steelers game. Now its time for me to go and do some business enterprise homework:( Then hopefully tomorrow becky will let me see her accounting cause that class kicks my ass! lol Bye:)

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swimfan14

:: 2005 6 November :: 4.17pm

Okay so my birthday party was awesome this weekend. I have to post these pictures because Kourtney is getting really impatient waiting.

Click on the read more thing (thats for dumme's like you Kourt, haha kidding)

Read more..

Okay thats all I feel like posting.

Yesterday was pretty fun. I went to Kourtneys Mary Kay party. Then we all went to the amway grand for my b-day party. We went and ate at the hotel and then we went swimming and went in the sauna haha..I don't even remember what else we did. We watched The 40 Year Old Virgin and we went wandering around the hotel since it's so big and we found this room where a convention was just over so we went in there to get a piece of candy because nobody was in there and everyone grabbed like two pieces and I took like the whole bowl and dumped it into my purse! Everyone was like "ASHLEY OMG!!!" It was pretty damn funny and then it was like 1am and Megan, Brittany, Emily, Elyse, and I wanted to go somewhere so we got into the elevator and there was this girl who was probably about 23 and the guy was about 30 and we got in and this was our convo:
I think the girls name was Nina
Nina:(looks at Elyse's basketball shirt)Are you guys here for basketball?
Elyse:Umm no we were here for a birthday party
Nina:(looks at brittanys track shirt) I used to run track, I did hurtles!!
We all look at each other thinking shes nuts!
Nina:I'm supposed to be professional but im wasted!
Me:Oh I can tell
Nina:So whos birthday is it?
Everyone points at me
Nina freaks out and starts like hugging me and then she asks me all these questions.
The elevator door opens and then Megan,Elyse,Emily,and Britt get out.
I didn't know they got out because I was shaking the guys hand cuz he said happy b-day to me and then all of the sudden they called my name and it was too late and the doors shut so now I'm here stuck in an elevator with a drunk girl and a drunk guy, alone. I thought she was going to like try to makeout with me, she was so drunk and I thought the guy was like going to rape me.
Guy:She wont kiss me
Nina: (mocking him) she wont kiss me
Me: Hmm that sucks for you two
Nina: Omg how old are you?
Me: 15
Nina: You too young to be wearing those clothes. Your a hottie though..
Me: Umm thanks..
By now I was scared and I had no idea what floor I was suposed to be on and they didn't even know what floor they were supposed to be on so we just sat there.
And then nina kept saying how I was so cute and how I should play hard to get and be the girl everyone wants but cant get..so I was like okay w/e lady thats nice and so finally I pressed like every button and finally I found what floor they were on so they were all waiting for me outside of the elevator and they were screaming my name cuz they were scared lol..and I got out and I was like thank god and then nina was yelling at us before the doors were closed about how we should play hard to get and then the elevator doors started closing and she was like "PLAY HARD TO GET PLAY HARD TO GET" were like omg shoot us. I was so scared and my dad told them that we all have to stick together and then they lost me. It was hilarious though. Then we decided we wanted to walk downtown so we started to and it was freezing so we started walking in the circle doors and a lady on the michrophone was like "please step forward and do not block the door" and then she was like "please step forward and do not block the door!!!" and emily screamed out "we would if you fucking move it" and then she moved the door for us. It was so funny we kept making fun of her.Then yesterday on the way there in the car emily was talking to my dad and she goes "do you have a summer car?" and im like "oh my gosh I can't believe shes asking him this" and then we were talking about dinner and he goes "ash you can just put it on the card" and then someone was like "that sounds so like you two are on laguna beach" and im like "um do you mean me pay for my food on the card?" and he goes "no you can pay for everyone" im like "holy cow" so he did. He's so nice!!! He was like "I dont care what you buy or what you do just don't get kicked out" so then later on that night at like 2am we were hungry so we orderd room service..then in the morning we ordered more room service..I had like a 5 course meal when I woke up. We went to chek out and my dad seen our bills and he goes "gp sports bar, room service, in room movies, room service, starbucks, etc" it was funny..When the guy that brought our room service to us she was like "just charge it to our room" lol..shes so funny. She slept on the floor under the certains cuz she was talking on the phone there and she fell asleep. We had this huge bed in our room and in kourt,megan,britt,and brittanys room they had two beds. It was weird and today we found this trapt door thing behind a mirror, well actually kourtney did but it was really awesome. Then yesterday we were in the elevator and emily was holding the door open cuz we were waiting for elyse or something and then all of the sudden the alarms started going off and so we just started running lol. Then today at starbucks the guy gave us a free frap. cuz he thought we were hot..not because he made an extra one lol..Anyways I g2g. Peace.

<3 ashley

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swimfan14

:: 2005 6 November :: 3.09pm

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I knew this would happen.

I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you.

And for you I'm pretty sure I'm starting to hate you.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 6 November :: 11.23am
:: Mood: depressed

So it has been an all around bad weekend. It started off at work Friday, though I really don't want to talk about it.. [friends only entry!]

So I tried to call Jim to see what he was doing, Jeff answered to phone. Our convo:
Jeff Hello?
me Hey, is Jim there?
Jeff Uhh, no he got kicked outta the house last night.
me What? Where did he go?
Jeff I don't know.
then we said bye or whatever.. and I haven't heard from Jim since. What a nice guy, huh? I'm sitting here worrying about him all weekend, and he probably doesn't even care. His mom keeps calling me to see if he called me to tell me where he is.. but I have to keep telling her no, because he really hasn't even called me.

Later that night Becky and I went to the football game at Ringgold. I ate like everything. The food looked soo good. We lost 7-48. We actually left early, so we didn't get to see us score a touch down.

Saturday I went to Gabrielle Brothers. I got some toys for Christmas for Gabrielle, and some shirts for myself. I spent $90.12.. good job on my part. I thought I was going to spend more. <3333
Saturday night Becky and I went to the mall.. for like 3 minutes. LMMFAO. Good times though.. we'll go again, maybe for longer this time.. and maybe I'll actually buy my purse!! We went to Burger King to see TUBBY!! [[Kristen.. love you!!]] Then I took her home, and I came home and went online for a while.

Today I'm just lounging around the house.. I'm gonna post some pictures of gabby today. Later Bridg and I are supposed to go to the movies.

kbye!

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