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swimfan14

:: 2005 24 October :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: Scared
:: Music: Avril Lavigne-Why

Yesterday is already over, today sucks, and tomorrow is bound to be just as fucked up.


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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 23 October :: 8.13pm
:: Mood: cheerful

It was a great weekend.. starting with Friday.

8th period on Friday someone was like "Jena, you have to read this note." So I read it, and it's this note that was found on the ground about how this girl is totally in love with Jim. LMAO. Make me laugh! So everyone read it (before I got it) and everyone was laughing their asses off also. Friday night Becky and I went to a haunted house, it was okay, not as good as we had hoped.. but we did have fun. (love you BECKY!)

Saturday morning was PowderPuff practice, after that Randi, Becky and I stopped at McDonalds to get something to eat. I dropped Becky off at her house, then went to Jims. (We mostly stayed in his bed!) haha. I got there about noon, then left at 3:00 to go to work. After work I just went home and went to sleep.

Today was the PowderPuff game against the Juniors. WE KICKED THEIR ASSES! hahaha. 12-0. Seniors=undefeted. Hell yes. After the game me, Becky, Randi, Sam, Jason, Nick, and Zack went to eat at Kings. Then we decided not to eat there, left and went to Pizza Hut. Then we went to Wal*Mart, messed around then went home. I got home around 7:00.

Yeah, it was a great weekend!

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 23 October :: 1.09pm
:: Mood: bored

whoa
stupid bitches just can't seem to keep there mouths shut

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swimfan14

:: 2005 22 October :: 7.21pm

I JUST THINK YOUR A FUCKING BITCH AND I HATE YOU!!

Nothing personal.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 21 October :: 12.12pm

We used to be able to talk about everything but now it's hard to start a decent conversation with you. You can't deny things haven't changed, we've grown apart and you have to face the fact that I will no longer be there every single time you need me. The truth is what it is and that is, I do not have anymore respect for you as an individual now, you're just another face in the crowd.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 19 October :: 10.13pm

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why



Thats a gorgeous song. It reminds me of someone :(

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swimfan14

:: 2005 18 October :: 11.22pm

The famous work of Mishy lol

Original Picture:
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Her creation:
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swimfan14

:: 2005 17 October :: 6.03pm

Mishy made this for me. She mad tons more but I'll post them later, since this is my favorite one with one of my favorite songs on it and she just so happened to be so smart and actually put the best lyrics from the song in there too!!


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and just in case you are blind or something it says "I want you but I'm not giving in this time" and at the bottom it says "goodbye to you"

Yeah I know, it's cute.

I'm having OC withdrawls....I've watched the first and second season so many times I can repeat every line if you asked me too. I watch it everday. I'm serious. Two and a half more weeks until it's back on.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 17 October :: 5.53pm
:: Mood: content

I am online.. at my house!

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 15 October :: 2.14am
:: Music: lalalala

blah today sucks ass. but when doesn't it?

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swimfan14

:: 2005 13 October :: 7.03pm

It's not up to me anymore. If you really want me in your life then you'll find a way to put me there.

Yesterday at lunch everyone said that they can picture me living in Laguna Beach and they can picture me being one of the girls on the show. Then today everyone at lunch said they can imagine me being on sweet sixteen and having my birthday party like that. I sometimes can picture those things too lol. Megan was like "your just an MTV'er" lol.

Anyways I'm in a better mood now. Today I stepped on this boys(im leaving his name out of this little thing) foot while we were walking in the halls and then online he goes:

Ashley-feelings I used to have aren't there and for the first time in so long I really don't care. says:
Umm it was kind of boring. I thought I would get in trouble for my skirt being too short but I didn't lol.

Ashley-feelings I used to have aren't there and for the first time in so long I really don't care. says:
How was yours?

anonymous boy:
well this girl in a skirt stepped on my foot

Ashley-feelings I used to have aren't there and for the first time in so long I really don't care. says:
aww why would she do that ;)

anonymous boy says:
i guess she thinks she isn't a bitch or something

anonymous boy:
lol

anonymous boy:
j/p

Ashley-feelings I used to have aren't there and for the first time in so long I really don't care. says:
lol i'm not a bitch!!

anonymous boy:
j/p your not a bitch your a hottie

Ashley-feelings I used to have aren't there and for the first time in so long I really don't care. says:
lol thanks....


He's so sweet.

<3 ashley




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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 13 October :: 12.58pm

Okay, last night was Powder Puff practice last night, Becky and I went.. good times.

After that I went over Jims house for a little bit.. then I stopped at GE to get bread and milk. I got home about 9:30.

Today is PSSA tutoring again.. gayyyy. I'm taking Roxy and Merry home, and Krysta and I have to work on our projects for English. GAyyyyy. But anyways.. the internet will be hooked up on Monday for my new computer. I'm so excited!

k, see ya!
Jena

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TheEdgeofYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 12 October :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: stressed

im so fucking stresed.. i thought my aunt and cuz would be cool livin here.. but things never go as they seem.. im so sick of it.. so fuckign stressful.. i cant deal with the drama.


i just cant..



..plus i miss all my friends from bentworth
i have no job, im poor. heh
i dont do anything right
ifuckup

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swimfan14

:: 2005 12 October :: 8.59pm

Okay, so weird things keep happening to me and it's not just a coincidence anymore.

I will try to tell all of them if I can remember everything.

Oh and these aren't in any special order either.

I already told this story a while ago during the summer but I'll refresh everyones memory.

1) I was in Detriot and I had a dream that Mischa Barton was on the cover of Cosmo Girl. I woke up and I told my cousins friend about it and she said it would be really scary if she was on the cover of the magazine so that day we went to the store and we checked and she wasn't on the cover of it. I went home like a week later and when I walked in my room there sitting on my bed were all my magazines that I get and on the cover of Cosmo Girl was Mischa Barton and she looked exactly like she did in my dream and the reason why she wasn't on the cover in the stores is because that was that months issue and I get them a month early. So I thought that, that was really freaky considering how I'm obsessed with her. So of all people, it was her. I just don't know.

2) A few weeks ago I was at Sam Ballews and I stayed the night at her house because we had pictures the next day and we wanted to get ready together and then before I left I got into a fight with my mom because my phone charger just went missing out of my room and I wrote about this in woohu too. So before I left Sam and I checked my room everywhere and we took everything out of my bag because we were folding stuff to wear for the next day and putting it in there. I am 100% sure it wasn't in there because everything was taken out of it and Sam can confirm this too. So we get to Sam's and she wanted to use my hair krimper thing so I had to take it out of my bag and my phone charger was not in there..so then in the morning I opened my bag and there on top of all my clothes was my phone charger. I have no idea how that happened and Sam was even freaked out.
3) I had a dream a few weeks ago that my best friends parents were going to get divorced and then she called me a week later crying telling me that they were. (Chloe)
4)I went tanning a while ago with Kourtney and Lisa and Lisas car was broke and my tanning lotion was in her glove box so I asked if I could use my sisters because she has the same exact one and my sister said I could so then in the morning when Lisa picked me up she had her car back so now I had my tanning lotion in her glove box and my sisters in my purse and then after school we went to go tanning and I got mine out because I didn't want to use my sisters since I had my own back and then when we got to the tanning place I couldn't find my sisters and I searched Lisa's car everywhere and Kourtney and Lisa couldn't find it and I swear to god I had them both because I remember trying to figure out which one was mine and then when I got home I went into my room it was sitting on my bed..I was like omg.
5) The other day Lisa and I were at Target and we got into her car to leave and then an alarm went off right next to us and then another one right after, and then another one. I don't know what the point of that was or why it happened but I just thought it was weird.
6) The other day at school Lisa goes "omg I just..." and right before she said anything more I was like "got really dizzy" and she started freaking out because thats what she was going to say. So we both got dizzy at the same time. Odd!
7)Oh and yesterday I was talking to Erika Bauer, DeAnna, and Katie about how I never have subs in school and then today I had three of them. Weird!!
8) I had a dream about police officers and it had something to do with Lisa and then she got a ticket for speeding and then also she said shes been seeing a million more cops that normal and the other day we were on the freeway and she was going 85 and then someone passed us and it was dark by the way and were like "wtf why are they going so fast" and it was a cop and he didn't even give her a ticket for speeding..but that was just weird too.


and I know theres a few more things but I just cant think of them right now so I'll add them when I do.


EDIT

okay so more weird things I thought of.

Before I went to the Red Flannel Pageant with Elyse and Em we were talking about who we thought would win I said Sam, Brittany, and Lauren on my first guess. Elyse was suprised when she found out that my guess was true.

Then a while ago I went and seen Flightplan and before we left the person I went with asked me what I thought happened to the girl and I told them exactly what I thought and it turns out thats exactly what happened but I dont want to say it because it will give it away if you haven't seen the movie. Also I don't really remember how many people on the plane there was but I think it was 400 something and only two people on the whole entrire plane knew what happened to the girl and I guessed the two people.

Weird. Then the other day in the car with Lisa she goes "you know what song I really like" and instantly I said "photograph-nickelback"
and that was the song she was going to say. I don't know how these things happen anymore.............

yay mishy im sooo excited for my pictures and whatever your doing with those songs....

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 12 October :: 12.03pm
:: Mood: amused

lmao.. freshmen make me laugh.

especially when they think that I care that they talk about me.


ahahaha. hahaha. haha.

I love it.

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