<b>Let your beauty unfold.</b>

:: 2005 11 October :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: Happy

Maybe it's time you looked at yourself & stopped blaming your life on everyone else.

<3 ashley

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

:: 2005 11 October :: 9.54am

Your Birthdate: January 27

Your birth on the 27th day of the month (9 energy) adds a tone of selflessness and humanitarianism to your life path.

Certainly, you are one who can work very well with people, but at the same time you need a good bit of time to be by yourself to rest and meditate.

There is a very humanistic and philanthropic approach in most of things that you do.

This birthday helps you be broadminded, tolerant, generous and very cooperative.

You are the type of person who uses persuasion rather than force to achieve your ends.

You tend to be very sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you able to give much in the way of friendship without expecting a lot in return.

24 heartless people | crush me

:: 2005 10 October :: 5.40pm

Here is a picture of just us girls before homecoming. I'll post more later.

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:: 2005 10 October :: 3.23pm

I definately will do it this time.

Only a week though.

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:: 2005 10 October :: 11.31am

I bought a computer.
It's a 2005, HP.. I got a 17" monitor.. I'm calling to connect the internet today.

I'll update more later.

<33333

Lots of drama with Jim and I last night.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 9 October :: 11.19pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Cradle of filth - nymphetamine

long tiring day
Well today i did absolutly nothing, i basically bummed it out all day.. i was supposed to go with my friend but things came up. so its ok, i talked to steph today, and of course the only reason why she hasnt called is cause she has been busy.. with her new bf.. and thats ok i mean w/e but i got to chit chat with her so its all good. ALSO i talked to jack, fuuuuck him hes like 'wanna hang out' im like 'no, u left me high and dry at that party (lastweekend) when i was puking and u didnt even care u went and got ur pp sucked' so no fuck all that. anyways.. i have school tomorrow, buttttt who has skewl on COLUMBUS DAY?! fucking ringgold.. them pussy batards. UGH so yeah im not really having a wonderous day as planned, i dont feel good neither so yeah.. but im jetting so later.

Do you know
The story from the start
And do you know me
Like you've always told me
Do you see the whispers in my heart against your kindness
My eternal blindness
Do you see...

yourxsoxspecial

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:: 2005 9 October :: 4.36pm
:: Mood: Happy
:: Music: Let Me Hold You-Bow Wow

Homecoming
This weekend was pretty fun. Friday I went and got my nails done and then I went to the game but Lisa, Brittney, and I left early because it was too cold.

Saturday I got my hair done for homecoming then like 17 people all went to Kourtney's for pictures, then we went to tgi fridays and then to the dance. It was really fun up until I seen someone who I wasn't expecting to be there and then I just ignored him and then I seen him walking over to me so I grabbed Emily Sorensen and Lisa and we ran out of there and he followed me and came up to me and started talking to me. It was akward and then Emily was just like "okay lets go" so it gave me an excuse to stop talking to him but I definately didn't know what to say or do at that moment. Lisa, Katy, Brittney, and I all went looking for little 9th grade guys and we would just go up to them and start like grinding on them..lol it was hilarious..some of them didn't even know what to do and some of them started dancing with us. It was definately fun. Afterwards a bunch of people went to Justins house. I hung out with everyone for a while and then I got really tired so I'm just like "yeah I'm going to go to sleep now" and some of us were inside and cohen was next to me on the couch so im like "okay im going to sleep on your lap" and I just fell asleep and then we left at like 2 and then Lisa came over and stayed the night. Today I went shopping and I bought two pairs of shoes that I didn't need but I also donated money to the hurricane katrina relief and then I went to Olive Garden (again for the second time this week) lol..so other than that, thats what I did and then tonight im hanging out with Andrea and Brie.

But I g2g get ready to leave. <3 ashley

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theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2005 8 October :: 8.27pm
:: Music: oasis - wonderwall

HhMmm
And I was drifting away
like a drop in the ocean
And now I realize that
nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw heaven's skies
In your eyes

hows about i seen my ex bf smokeys MOM lastnite at the gas station and she was like 'he writes me everyday (causes hes in jail) and tells me he misses u and needs u and wants to marry u' im like ..uhm no sorry *runs out the door* LOL oh well not my problem but ya anyways! MY COUSIN AND AUNT came in from South Carolina the other day so its pretty cool, lastnite also we worked the haunted house. woo for fun and for me for some extra- community service. WOOWEE. anyways ya.. today was a pocketful of awesome though..

:: 2005 7 October :: 10.49pm
:: Music: Wake Me Up When September Ends

For some reason this song (Wake Me Up When September Ends) makes me really upset and sad. Yes I do know that the music video is sad but the actual song makes me sad and I don't even get what it's about but it just makes me think about someone and then it just makes me sad, like that.

I am so tired I don't think I can stay awake any longer. This morning I woke up at like 6:30 (which is early for me) and I got ready and then I went back to bed and I set my alarm for like 7:10 and I turned it off and then my dad came downstairs at like 7:20 and was like "Ashley!?! What are you doing?" and I woke up and I'm like "sleeepiing" but I wasn't late for school, I was just later than I normally am. I have to get up at 8:00 tomorrow but on Sunday I AM sleeping in whether anyone wants me to or not. I haven't been going to bed this past week until 12:00-1:30 and it sucks. Anyways, After school I went and got my nails done with Kourtney, Megan, Brittney, Emily, and Ashley.I spent $50 just on my nails today and then tuesday I went shopping and I spent $200 then Wednesday I spent $140 and last night I spent $100. I need to stop spending money thats not even mine!!! Ahhh...im so bad. I went out to eat again last night, so that would make it the third night in a row. I'm so excited for Homecoming tomorrow and I think afterwards were going midnight bowling, and everyone knows how I bowl lol, esp Brianna, Dan, and Kevin. They all laughed at me and I came in last place during our first game but then the second game I was came in second place, how I don't know!? But most of my friends suck at bowling so I guess it's okay lol. Sunday I'm hanging out with Andrea and Monday we don't have school so I don't know what I'm doing yet. I didn't find out that we didn't have school Monday until yesterday.

Kourtney and Brittney think I should have a party for my birthday which I think if I do I'm going to just invite my close friends and go stay at a hotel with them for a weekend since I did that before and it was fun and thats what we all decided we think I should do for my birthday. I remember for my 11th birthday I had a limo and my friends and I went to the mall lol and I remember I didn't invite Megan because we hated each other and she always thought Brittney and I were going to be better friends than they were. Which was dumb because we were 11!!! Anyways yeah so I think thats what I'm going to do. Sounds like a plan.

Anyways I will update about my weekend and homecoming in the next few days. Anyone who is going, have fun! I'm a moron and I haven't charged my phone in two days so obviously it's been turned off so now I have four voicemails to go listen to and text messages to read.

Much Love, Ash

P.S.-If anyone heard H's speach, it was really sad!! I started crying even though I've heard it over the years. When he was like "do you see that chair, LOOK AT THE CHAIR...that could be YOU" I was like "nooo..stop it, it's not going to be me!" I guess that speach was juat a reality check.

What does it tell you when you realize we've never been just friends?

2 heartless people | crush me

:: 2005 6 October :: 10.53pm

I hate how we don't talk for weeks but then all of the sudden you talk to me again and it's like as if nothing happened and I slowy start falling for you all over again.

~Ashley Megan~

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:: 2005 6 October :: 12.01pm

I hope that I don't run out of gas going to the gas station after school today.. I'm way below E.. again.

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:: 2005 5 October :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Unwritten Law- Save Me

My days...
So things have been pretty good lately. I still think about it whether I should or not and I still wonder what happened with us. Anyways last night I went shopping with Lisa to get all our homecoming stuff (yeah I know it's late to go shopping for homecoming but we just decided we were going the other day) and then we went to Olive Garden and I seen Spike from my drama class (last years class) and she walked up to our table and I didn't even recognize her and she recognized me and she had to tell me who she was because she looks so differen't but she is coming to the play to watch me and everyone else that she knows from Cedar so I thought that that was pretty cool. On the way home we got lost. We always get lost because we had to go to my dads house to bring him food from Olive Garden and we got on the wrong highway/freeway I dont know the difference between the two. We are horriable with directions. Then today I went shopping again and I went out to eat at The Outback Steakhouse...it was pretty fun but I have to go do my homework. Ugh...

ashley

:: 2005 5 October :: 9.59am
:: Mood: giddy

I went home early yesterday.. I have a bladder infection so I went to the doctors to get a prescription. I called off work, and then went home and slept for a few hours. I ate dinner, then went over Jims. Me, him and Christian went to GE to rent a movie, I picked it out.. it was really dumb. Anways, I went home around 11:00.

It was an okay night. :)

6 heartless people | crush me

:: 2005 4 October :: 9.56pm

Wow..so much for going for the whole "month" thing.