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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 14 May :: 10.54pm

5-14-06
welp today since it was mothers day i made my mom dinner, got her flowers and a card.. and called it a day lol
friday and saturday i had massive amounts of alcohol in my system. woo wee! anyways. it was a goodddddd weekend.
very good weekend.
<3

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swimfan14

:: 2006 14 May :: 3.43pm

Sometimes we just have to let some things go.


TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 12 May :: 2.29pm

i haven't added an entry in forever on here..
sorry people
but WHATever i say anymore.. doesn't matter.. because it's never entertaining its all boring and what not on the same routine. hah! seriously.. but overall i've been alright had to go to the doctors a few times because of a few minor complications. and My gram has been real sick lately; just sucks i can't go get her.. oh well. my friends have been acting weird.. i miss alot of them! and i've been doing the same thing everyday.. i'm single because men tend to suck ass LoL. yeah...and schools almost out and i'm sooOo fucking excited!! omfg. YES! woooo hoo..



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swimfan14

:: 2006 12 May :: 12.09pm

$1,000 spent all on pain for me.

And now we also only have one dog.

This day has probably been the worst experience ever.


swimfan14

:: 2006 8 May :: 6.39am

Isn't this the best part of breaking up, finding someone else you can't get enough of? Someone who wants to be with you too.


TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 6 May :: 4.15pm

well everything has been fuckign shit lately.
i dont do anything besides drink, smoke, and other things..
my life is sucky.
i do the saem thing everyday
and i dont have a job

oh yippiieee!

UGH!

im sick of this fucking SHIT!

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swimfan14

:: 2006 4 May :: 11.22pm

Tonight is just one of those nights where I can't help but think about this.

As much as I try, it's never going to go away.


swimfan14

:: 2006 1 May :: 8.36pm

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Hmm well i'd say those pretty much fit.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 29 April :: 4.13pm

A lot has changed lately.

My dad called me on Thursday and told me that my stepmom was moving out. I don't really know what to think of this. At first I cried but then I realized the whole reason why I was crying wasn't because she was moving out it was because I was just scared of what was going to happen and I didn't want my dad to be alone and it hurts me to see him hurt. I guess I don't really have feelings towards this. I think it's for the best. I hated her anyways. Once she moves out my dad wants me to come over Tuesday-Thursday because he is always in Detroit all week and we need someone to take care of our dogs but there's no way I'm moving in there. I'm not going to be at a house all alone and plus once Summer comes I wont even be here anyways so it's not going to work out. I don't know what we are going to do and we are also going to put our house up for sale and move too. This whole thing is really stressing me out.

So then today my uncle needed me to drop something off at my dads so I planned on going to see my dad anyways so when I'm about five minutes away my mom calls me and tells me my dad called her and said that I can't come over right now so I wanted to know what that was all about and I called him and he said that my stepmom was there and that it just wasn't a good idea for me to be there. I got pissed off because I basically drove out there for nothing and my uncle still needed me to drop something off at my dads so I just went over there anyways and dropped it off and I walked out and then my dad came after me and we got into this huge fight and it ended up with me crying and leaving.

And now my mom and I are also in a fight because of this whole thing so I pretty much feel unwelcome at both of my houses.


She couldn't take one more day
Home was more her prison now
Independence called out
She had to get it

A fight was all she needed
To give her reason
She slammed the door with no goodbye
And that it was time

Now she's driving too fast
She didn't care to glance behind
And through her tears she laughed
It's time to kiss the past goodbye



In other news besides all the bad things that have been going on, Prom was awesome. I don't really feel like talking about it because Prom is Prom but it was really weird because everyone kept telling me last night that I looked like Mischa Barton and my Prom dress looked like her Prom dress that she wore on The O.C. and the episode just airred on Thursday so a day later we had almost the same dress. Hmm..her and I ... pretty much the same person.


swimfan14

:: 2006 29 April :: 1.21pm

You know what? I actually thought I wanted to be your friend and now I have no idea why. No idea.


swimfan14

:: 2006 26 April :: 11.48pm

Gotta love those akward moments.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 25 April :: 4.21pm

Apparently I'm not being vague enough for you. Either you pretend you don't notice or you are a complete moron. One of the two. Who knows which one that is.

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TheEdgeOfYourAtmosphere

:: 2006 23 April :: 3.18pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: atreyu - x's and oh's

er.er.
wow lots of shit have been going on besides me being depressed all the time..

my friend selenas dad got shot do i had to bare with her and go with her to the hospital to see him; so therefor i missed jenas party.. ONCE AGAIN!.. :(
cousin is in rehab while the other had passed on.. ugh
i've lost alot of things, and alot of friends.
i have.. no job
i have.. NO money errr
i wanna be happy..

all i want is to be happily ever after; like asap!!!!!!!!


im such a complainer.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 23 April :: 12.27pm

Oh, and just so everyone knows, I love Stacy Cain!

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swimfan14

:: 2006 23 April :: 11.56am

It's gonna be love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me, baby
It's gonna be you, baby
It's gonna be
It's gonna be love

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