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2006 19 April :: 11.02pm
The fact of the matter is, we don't have anything to fix. It's to the point where I don't even care what you have to say and the whole thing where you say you don't want to see me hurt. Well it's a little too late for that. And obviously you don't care about me more or you wouldn't be doing this. That's a lie. Everything that comes out of your mouth is a lie. I would rather you just admit it than act fake about it. I know. He knows. You know. We all know.
Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's was everything
Everything I'm not
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
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2006 17 April :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: DEPRESSED
:: Music: Twiztid- afraid of me
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i wish i could tell you how i feel.
but its so fucking hard; and it hurts like crazy
But i have developed a strong likeing to you....
i just wish u could see that i could do so much more what she can, and i would give you everything that i possibly could
BUT NOONE EVER SEES THAT
cause i never get a shot at anything!
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2006 16 April :: 1.33pm
Well this weekend was pretty interesting to say the least. I pretty much just hung out with my friends and yesterday I got my prom dress.
I can't figure out why things like that happen and they always happen at the worst times. It throws everything off for me. Cheers to another akward moment.
I never knew, I never knew that everything was falling through. That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue, to turn and run when all I needed was the truth, but that's how it's gotta be.
Everyone knows I'm in over my head, with eight seconds left in overtime, she's on your mind & suddenly I become part of your past, I'm becoming the part that doesn't last, I'm losing you & it's effortless.
Stacy I'm waiting for you because I have my picture of my dress ready for you now lol.
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2006 15 April :: 4.51pm
nothing fucking matters anymore
fucking seriously....
im pretty sure theres something going on between my bestfriend and our one friend... and if so that is not good and its pretty low. UGH! its kinda sickening and its pathetic; but i have no room to talk.
and how about i love being used
its always going to happen to me
forever
i'll never be MOTHERFUCKING HAPPY.
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2006 15 April :: 12.16am
I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed, the thought of you and when you're gone, but the world spins madly on.
And everything that I said I'd do, like make the world blend in, and take the time for you, I just got lost and stepped right through the dawn, and the world spins madly on.
I let the days go by, I always say goodbye, I watch stars from my windowsill, the whole world is moving, and I'm standing still.
I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed, the night is here, the day is gone, and the world spins madly on.
The thought of you and when you're gone and the world spins madly on and the world spins madly on.
I miss you.
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2006 13 April :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: Confused
That was definitely a lot harder for me to handle than I thought.
I guess things change in time and not always the way I want them to. Oh well I guess. It's just something I'll have to deal with.
I never stopped believing in you and me.
Your leaving? It never changed things.
Ohh and we can't forget that akward moment at school today. I seriously about died. I think Stacy seriously about died witnessing this whole thing. That couldn't have happened at a worse time.
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2006 11 April :: 8.06pm
"heyya i no him he 1 of my furends, we make brownE's together n the chocolattte spill on da shirt"
That's how some of you type. That's not my point but it's true.
Stacy knows. She's one meen bug. ahahahaha
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2006 10 April :: 8.21pm
I spotted this in Detroit. Our plane just flew in, we left the aiport and were on our way to eat when we seen this. I have no idea what it is but it was dancing and I called it a douche bag and my dad got mad at me for saying that haha..it just makes me laugh because I have no idea what it is or what they are doing!?!?!
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2006 9 April :: 9.17pm
PICTURES FROM FLORIDA:
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2006 9 April :: 8.01pm
STACY I MISS YOU!
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2006 8 April :: 6.18am
Born2bOnStage x3 (6:14:13 AM): please tell me you are not up right now.
mish is electric (6:14:23 AM): I'm not up right now.
Born2bOnStage x3 (6:14:33 AM): me either. i'm sleeping.
ahaha I just had to.
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2006 7 April :: 6.25pm
I'm happy about that but yet I'm not. I'm not waiting around again. Clearly waiting around doesn't help me at all. I waited around for months for someone and that just wasn't good enough for them. If there can't be any commitment made then what the hell are we both doing?
I miss you and as much as I shouldn't say that, it's true and it's even worse when I can't do anything about.
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2006 4 April :: 6.35pm
:: Mood: Confused
Our first little fight.....ahhh..
We could end up broken hearted, if we don't remember why all this started and if they try to tell you that love fades with time, tell them there's no such thing as time.
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2006 3 April :: 9.59pm
Well these are fun...
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2006 3 April :: 12.30pm
:: Mood: Excited
:: Music: Cascada-Everytime We Touch
I guess I'll update really quick.
Saturday we went to the beach all day and went to all the little shops and then we went to the pool which is an everyday thing for us.
Sunday we went to the pool and then we went to Johns Pass and shopped. It was really pretty there and it is all over the ocean and then we went out to dinner at this resturant on the ocean.
Today we are going out on the boat to go find dolphins and then we have a party to go to later.
There's this little boy named Jake that goes to the pool everyday and he's the cutest little boy ever. I am basically in love with him. I winked at him in the pool and he didn't even know what to do. He just smiled at me. Haha. I shall keep him.
Ahh this weird thing happened yesterday with these two boys that are staying in the same condo as us. I guess I'll explain it later since I'm out of time.
I dig my toes into the sand. The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket. I lean against the wind, pretend that I am weightless and in this moment I am happy.
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here.
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