I am to return to the doctors on Wednesday. I know I shouldn't be worried but I am. I fear what her words could be.
It is possible that I may have to undergo surgery if there is something wrong. I never consider surgery serious, hell, I wouldn't even consider brain surgery serious.
But, if this should happen even more restrictions would be placed upon me. I'm not one to deal well with being restricted in case you already didn't know that.
Perhaps I'm simply over-reacting. Maybe I'm just being childish...
I don't know.

Damn doctors!
Damn this thing is so irritating! I'm complaining I know I'll shut up in a minute. It's bad enough I have to try to live out daily life through a box and wires. What the hell!? "Go out and run, do some strenuous exercises, drink caffine, pretend it's like a two day vacation." Okay first of all, if I were on a vacation, I wouldn't have wires all over me, I wouldn't have to be in school, and I wouldn't be doing things that could either severely hurt me or kill me! Honestly, this damn thing hurts, it's irritating, I have to watch everything I do so no one breaks it, and I can't do anything withough pulling on wires! From now on, even if I think I'm on the verge of dieing, I'm not going to say a word...well, for the sake of keeping who and what I love, I suppose I can deal with the irritation of wires...heh, and they think stress could be the problem. Well, yeah, I'm going to be stressed with wires and a box attached to me while trying to finish two projects and study for continuous tests, while living out my annoying, 'daily life'.
The only reasons I am ever happy, content, or calm are as follows:
1) Adam, Bo, Carley, Andy, and Eric (Caylie annoys the hell out of me)
2) The sun still sets, the world is still cast into the shadows when the majority of people sleep, but I in all honesty, thrive to live it.
3) Knowing that even though people think I am strange, or stupid, I know more than they do. (In terms of life, and other things, don't start with school or you'll hear another rant)
4) Music, can't live without music.
5) My view of the world, I've always seen it differently, I always will, and I love the way I see it.

So, there you go, I'm done.