woohoo

oh yes buddy. you better believe it! 2 hours. TWO HOURS after my curfew, i am STILL ON. look at me go. look at me go!

man. its sad i can get such a high off breaking such a stupid rule... but who cares! yay.

yay
HEY LOOK EVERYONE! I'M ON AFTER MY COMPUTER CURFEW! WOOH! GO ME!

...i just had to do that. i feel so..naughty. yay.

blah blah. blah blah. 4 weeks. blah blah. blah blah.

i've come no where close to my goals. but one was unreasonable anyway. i cant eat anyone. not possible. ah well.

Goal #3 Make semi-realistic goals.

Goal #4 stop STOP STOP!!!

Why am I so...ugh. pathetic. indeed. pathetic. very.

By the way. I like this song a lot. And this guy that sings it is really hot. 'cause I saw the video.

dammit gosh. i am going to kill someone really soon. ugh.......in the last few weeks i've had this temper like so short. everything rubs me the wrong way and i just want to bah. i dont know. i'm just really mad.

so. i talked to robbie today. i haven't talked to him in....like...2 months or something. i saw him once but all we said was hi. yeah. i DONT like him anymore. but it was nice to talk to him. it was quite an odd conversation though. hmph.

anyway. i've been writing this for a long time because i keep doing other things. so. i'll go now. later.

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soooooo. i went to dani's last night. that was fun. we went to the lowell game and beans found cal and so me and dani went off and left them alone. oh dani, sorry about the guy on crutches and the..um..whole incident. but it was funny :) but i didnt mean to embarrass you. :) so anyway. we had fun. and dani's grampa is really funny.

spud- i read your email and all i really have to say i guess is 'okay' ... but i didnt want to write you an email that just said okay. so ...i'm just telling you now. :\

bah. i'm tired. and i'm mad at my mom. well, she's just being a ...yeah. i dont know. like always.

i guess thats all i have to say. i'm too tired. bye.

" i've been filtered for purity. and i'm enhanced with minerals! "
yes, i think i have a problem with downloading elvis music. i keep doing it. something about elvis just cheers me up.....should i be ashamed of that? oh well. i dont care.

so..school um. eh. its okay. kind of boring. biology, its ok, the picture of the moose keeps me amused. but every time josh kidder reads a question or an answer or something he always says 'orgasm' instead of 'organism' and frankly, its getting annoying. it's one of those funny once, not funny again kind of things. because i think he's doing it on purpose now. eh. oh well.
mr jensens 2 classes are getting a little better i guess. mr jensen let me and jess move to our own seperate little table in math so we can sit by each other instead of behind stinky kids who wear black gloves and too much BAD cologne. =)

anyway. i dont really know what to talk about. my mom is really getting on my nerves again lately. gahh. i'm reeeeeeaalllly tired. and i have homework yet. i want to sleep. ow. my head hurts. ok... i think i'll go now. goodbye.

" life is a risky business jessie, dont be afraid to take the risk "

ha. hahahaha. right. yeah, i dont know what to do anymore. answers? suggestions? anyone?

Goal #1. Stop inventing crazy ideas in my head that WILL NEVER HAPPEN.

*I'm gonna get free, I'm gonna get free, I'm gonna get free, ride into the sun.*
"you are not very concerned with anyone's feelings are you?"

"except yours"

*but you just smile politely, and i grow weaker and i*...
dammit.

okay. ****I KNOW SOMETHING YOU DONT KNOW!!!**** its so great. well, no. it's really horrible. its just great that i know it. so instead of being like "man this sucks" i can be like "hahaha, it sucks NOW, but in a few weeks..." yeah. okay, no one knows what i'm talking about. but i do. and thats the great thing. yay. but, no. i shouldnt be happy. because its a bad thing. ehhh. on to a new subject...

happpy september. this bites. its not supposed to be september. soon there will be snow. bah. i need summer. not snow. okay, i'll be going now. bye

i feel the need to update. but what about. i dont know. i\'m annoyed with myself and my feelings about stuff. and i need to get stuff straightened out in my head, but i cant. and i need to get over stuff and i cant. and i need to stop listening to this damn song. argh. ok thats better. john mayer. good. anyhoo. this is my favorite john mayer song, yay.

so, anyway. i cant really make up my mind if i\'m happy in my life right now or not. like, so many things suck, but i dont have it bad. i\'ve got it good actually, it\'s just hard to see that. especially right now. yeah. deffinetly. ugh. i dont know. i have people that care about me, so i should be happy for that. and i am, its just ..ugh, i guess its just that i used to have it even better, and i miss that. bah. whatever. i need to shut up.

argh. i think i\'ll go now.