school
wellllllllllllll. school was okay. it had one major low point. but besides that. eh.

band is band. biology-mr armstrong cracks me up, even just when he's talking. i just find him amusing. i dont know why. but i just feel like i'm going to burst out laughing for no reason at all. that wouldn't be good.
PE, i dont know what to expect. bah. but jessi and denee' and michelle all got put in the other class:( when they split us up. ARGH! I hate alphebetical order!!
lunch was, eh, fine i guess. honors english was pretty good. mrs. olsen cracks me up too. i dont really know why, but when she said "I grew up in Cedar Springs, I'm a home-grown kid" me and Justin H looked at each other and just started laughing so hard. i really dont know why but we couldn't stop laughing and we had to hold it in because everything was silent except for mrs. olsen talking. eh, i dont know i just was in a really giggly mood today i guess. so then me and jess have mr jensen for two hours ...that was okay. he didnt give us seats so me and jess got to sit by each other and talk basically the whole time. so that was nice. BUT OH MAN, that foundations algebra is the most retarded class in the world!!! me and jess are in there with all these ....well i dont want to stereotype but, all these...bad type kids. well matt and heidie are like the only people that dont scare me in that class. i know this sounds mean, but i just felt like a DUMB ASS in that class. Mr. Jenson's like "ok, turn your page to roman numeral 3, that's I, I, I. Ok, question one, what's 0 times 5?" 0 TIMES 5?! woah boy. i need to get out of that class, and jess, you're coming with me. I thought that I should switch from algebra 1 to that class....but i think i was wrong. I dont know, I'll see how it goes. but man.
so it seems like the day goes by fast and its okay. but i keep getting lost. like if i decide to take a different set of stairs, i lose my locker. eh. i'll get used to it.

well. band tonight. wooh wooh. see you all tomorrow. and some of you tonight.

I've never been a strong person
I've always been the weaker one.

I've never been independent
I've always depended on everyone else.

And then I let you see me.
I let it go.

And here we go again.
I'll put up my front again.

oh my goodness. i feel like crying my eyes out for 300 years this is absolutely the sweetest song i've ever heard. yeah, its better than that song i said i loved. ahh. its so sweet. soooo sweet and so sad. i dont know if its the music or the guys voice or the words...but its sooo sweet. :( and it has the coolest piano music and its great. and i suggest you ALL go download it or listen to it someway RIGHT NOW. cuz its great. ahh. i'm pathetic. :( whatever. i like it. and now i'm going to post the lyrics.
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Oh no, I see
The spider web is tangled up with me
And I lost my head
And thought of all the stupid things I'd said

Oh no, what's this?
A spider web and I'm caught in the middle
So I turn to run
And thought of all the stupid things I'd done

And I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And ah, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh, no I never meant to do you harm

Oh no, I see
The spider web and it's me in the middle
So I twist and turn
But here am I in my little bubble

Singing out
I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And ah, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh, no I never meant to do you harm

They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me
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i like the chorus the most...the whole spider web thing..eh. kinda weird.

*sigh* this is my new favorite song. and i'm going to listen to it and be happy. thanks andy for telling me to listen to it. :)

buh bye.

*I'm gonna get free, I'm gonna get free, I'm gonna get free, ride into the sun. She never loved me, she never loved me, she never loved me, why should anyone*
I love these songs. Both the one I'm listening to and the one I was singing in the subject. hehe. anyhoo. um. ummmm.

last night was pretty fun. I got to see a lot of people i haven't seen in a long time. and the band was good. so... all in all i had a pretty good night.

man, i update waaaay too much. but it's like the only thing i do online...talk to people and go on woohu. OH WELL.

tomorrow is the last day before school. eek. it's going to be nice to see all my friends. but when i went to lazer skate last night, i was reminded of all the snotty preppy annoying people in my grade and such. ARGH. so i dont want to see those people, but i do want to see my friends. although i worry about being stepped on by all those tall people.=)

i think i'm done now. goodbye.

hahaha!!!!!! I FOUND IT! Home Town Hero- Eighteen. I REALLY don\'t know why I like this song so much. but. I do. So whatever. now i\'m just trying to download it.
so yeah. we had some drama last night. i wont go into it. i just woke up at 2 a.m. and heard a lot of shouting and stuff. ehhhhhhhhh.
yay. i downloaded a bunch of new music and its so great.
so , like 3 more days till school. *freaks out* yikes.

so here are the lyrics to the song i LOVE
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You\'ll steal my heart
I\'ll count to three
You\'ll walk away
Just like on TV
You left enchanted.

All those things you said to me, well
Made me cry myself to sleep and
Kinda think I like it
Pretty sure I like it.

All those things you said to me, well
Made me cry myself to sleep and
kinda think I like it
Pretty sure I like it.

You\'ll steal my heart,
I\'ll count to three
You\'ll walk away
Just like on TV
You left enchanted

It\'s what I want
What I want
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There we go. gahh. GOD SHE WILL NEVER STOP WORRYING MY GOD !!!!!!! ITS FUCKING OVER AND SHE STILL IS WORRYING ABOUT IT. ugh. *sigh*

geez. sorry for that. i think i\'ll go. before i have another little outburst ;) buhbye

i dont know what i'm doing. i am so incredibly confused yet happy and frusterated and annoyed and i'll be so dissapointed if i .....if what i think isnt correct. and i know i am making absolutely no sense but. eh. ...is that how you spell absolutely? urg.

so i heard that song again, the song i love. after listening to GRD forever and then i was so happy i was jumping all around and now i know like all the lyrics and i tried searching for what i thought the song might be called, but no luck. urrr. if anybody knows a good lyric searching site besides songmeanings, please tell me.

bah. i'm tired and my feet are really cold. but my hair smells like strawberries. mmm. cuz i just bought new shampoo woohoo. new shampoo cheers me up. yay.

so spud you need to get aol or msn so we can TALK. ok?

man. i hate this stupid rule about how i have to be off the computer by 10. that sucks. but...yeah i can't change it. so i'll be heading off to bed or something now. g'night.

eh. i'm tired.
how many days till school? 4? wow. i am NOT going to be able to get up for school. i got up at 8:30 today and i almost fell over when i was putting my pants on. and that's with about 3 more hours of sleep than i would be getting on a school day. heh. ah well.

oh i love this song by john mayer- love song for no one. here's some of it.-

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
Get here

Searching all my days just to find you
Not sure what I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then I'll hide in my bedroom
Just staying up all night just to write
A love song, for no one

anyhoo. so there's this song i heard today and i decided i love it. but i dont know who it's by nor what it's called. sooo....i can't download it. and i tried seaching for the lyrics on songmeanings...but its not working. bah! it's bugging the crap out of me.

so my big plans for the day are....to sit on my butt. oh! mom ordered me piano music! yay! ben folds five (woohoo!!!!!!!) and vanessa carlton, cuz i like her stuff too, even if it is sort of pop-ish music.
well. i guess i'll be going now. bye bye.

hahahhaha. :(
ah. stef burned me the john mayer cd but it won't play in my cd player. only in the computer.
well i had a dentist app. at 8 am this morning. :D i got up at 6:40. wow. that's the earliest i've gotten up all summer. and now i'm really tired.
so last night. my pool party was really fun. i'm not going to go on about it though.
Well last night I was trying to call Danielle and I called the wrong number then after I hung up I relized I had just called Mike!!! So then I called him back quick and talked to him for like 10 minutes. It was a weird coincidence but Mike is such a good guy so I was glad to get to talk to him.
baah. my mom is sooo grouchy and mean. she always gets mad at me for the dumbest things.

so. i figured out the perfect song. Dashboard Confessional- So Long Sweet Summer. here it is. :(
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So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you’re gracefully falling our way

Hey thanks
Thanks for that summer
It’s cold where you’re going
I hope that your heart’s always warm
I gave you the best
Gave you the best that I had
You passed on the letters and passed on the best that I had

So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you’re gracefully falling our way

I hate the winter in Lexington
I hate the winter in Lexington
Lexington
Lexington
Lexington

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Yeah. so by the way. I think the Jewett idea is on hold. i have no driver and school is starting now and i think i'm ready for it.
well. that's all I have to talk about. BYEBYE.

soooo. i don't know what to write. ....

band last night was okay. pretty fun. we had a pow wow. that was good. :)

so today i'm having a pool party. It's going to be fun, I hope. And I hope it's not cold. Because it's at night.

Well. I was happy for school to be starting, but now it's like. eh. I don't know. I'm still excited for it I guess. But I don't want to get up that early. ah well.

ok i'm going to go now. i'm picking up jess at the high school at 1. wooh. buhbye. oh and i changed the lay out on my diary.

uggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh
noooo. you dont even

understand.

i dont want to update.
but i think i should.

i'm sick of crying and wallowing in self pity and listening to my ben folds five cd over and over and over like a big luss. soooooooooooooo
ooooooooooooooo
ooooooooooooooo
ooooooooooooooo
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I'VE DECIDED: I'm moving to JEWETT, EASTERN TEXAS!!!!! It's circled on the map. And I think that makes it official. I just need someone to drive me there. Any takers? It'd be a fun road trip. It's kinda near Austin. Texas that is. Right now, in Jewett, it's 93 degrees! I don't know if I like that idea or not. But oh well.

you know. it'd be sort of nice if you'd talk to me. maybe.

wow. i've been sitting here updating for an hour. i just havent clicked that button yet.

I guess I will now.
Jewett, Texas, Here I Come.

in no way do these things relate to each other :0 totally random.
PMAC D' NAB. darn it.

pmac
d'
nab.


and my dad went to new york. :\

hmm i've been thinking.

BAH! :*

hmm. So I got that hug I needed yesterday. Kevin and Dusty stopped over for a minute yesterday. So yay. I was in a much better mood after that. :)

umm. I got my real schedule today and I changed around some stuff. But it's better now. I still have B lunch and now I have another class with Jessie. So now my schedule is....
1. band
2. biology
3. pe/health
4. honors english
5. current events
6. found. of algebra.
I feel sorta bad about that last one but I just really don't get math and stupid Mr. Smith was a bad math teacher so yeah. I figured I'd rather be in an easy math class then fail the regular one.

Pit tonight. woohoo. anything to get out of the house is a GOOD thing. Yes, indeed.

Okay. Well I'm going to go so BYE!

ugh. i am soooooooooooooooooooo bored. so i just come to my journal. cuz that keeps me busy i guess. i was trying to find a new picture but i cant find any good ones. bah. i'm downloading blink 182 roller coaster so thats cheering me up:) 70% woohoo.

well i havent- oh i love this part of the movie woohoo!!!- anyway. i haven't got my real schedule in the mail yet and my mom went to the school today and i guess mrs. z has it now or something..ugh its messed up.

i'm really bored but i really shouldn't be complaining because i'm sitting here with a pool in my backyard so really i'm one lucky... kid. *sigh* maybe i'll go swimming. ...*looks out window* its raining. of course. ugh crap that sucks! ok so forget that idea whats next on the list... sit on the computer all day. that sounds good...not.

bleh. this sprite tastes really nasty. yet i'm still drinking it. yuck i hate sprite.

ugh its pouring now and its all dark and now its thundering. today really sucks!!!!! although i like rain somewhat but i'd rather go swimming.

actually, I just need a hug.