yooooou suuuuuuck

oh no!

no, yes!!!!!!!!

ugh. my head and my heart are not friends and like to disagree.

this is a good thing!..... no. it doesnt matter to me. who am i kidding of COURSE it does. pretend it doesnt.

ok. sounds good to me. bleh...

and i love this song as well.


wait. the thing i'm not realizing and half-trying to ignore is... how things will turn out. think of now and not the future? .... i dont know. maybe that's not the way to go. but for now. i'm happy?

i love this song.


well. i must say:
that was nice.

:) ..... that's it.

and in this perfect weather. we'll find a place together.

my throat hurts. i'm getting sick. no wait, i am sick.

and get this. i got SUNBURNT yesterday. how crazy is that. it sucks.

get ready for SCHOOL tomorrow!!!! i need sleep.

hehe


hey. well right now gunnie is over. brandon (my bro) and him are playing a bored game. ooh go gunnie! 8 pieces of cheese! my brother is such a cheater. haha.

anyhoo! today. hmm. well last night i went to the game played in the band of course. had fun, and then came back after band and yeah that wasnt so fun but then i went to danielle and denee's house and angeeh came too. we had a lot of fun. yeah then we had to get up at 6 this morning and that sucked. then we had to go band! at 7. woohoo! i was almost sleeping on the band floor i was sooooo tired. but we had fun. then me and angeeh had to go in the middle school band performance to hold symbols. and we had to wear those dumb sweaters! that was dumb. then yeah. i dont know band and parade yada yada. then me and my mom got in a huge ass fight. right in front of people too. but oh well. then i had to go home but i got to come back at 5 and me angeeh and andy hung out then went to the powder puff game. fun fun! and now i'm home! my day was half crappy and half fun. i'm hungry. okay i think i'm going to go. i'm so tired. bye.
oh. ps. happy 17th birthday gunnie. even though you are sitting 4 feet away from me as i type this but oh well.

even though as they all know you weren't the only one two three four.

Within a week

a lot has happened to me.

i think i've grown up.

or maybe not. ???

*sigh* life is like a total roller coaster. with all the ups and downs. seriously. i know that sounds corny but its true.

ahhh decisions.

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what do i do? stop stop stop!!!!!! *sigh*

"I dont ever wanna feel like I did that day. Take me to the place I love, take me all the way."

ugh. so many things just went wrong today. just ONE OF THOSE DAYS. a REALLY crappy one. bleh. in band, when i called my mom we got in a fight well kind of you know, and i ended up crying...bleh. the band was on the field, just pit was inside. but then they started coming inside. so then i got off the phone. grr. embarrassing. yeah. but robby was really really nice to me he was really sweet and gave me a hug and asked me if i was ok and stuff because he could tell that i had been crying. so that made me feel better. guys actually can be really sweet. :p yeah. but then when my mom picked me up we of course started fighting again. but then it finally ended i guess. she went to take brandon and shannon some place. so shes gone. i'm home alone ~woohoo~

"that's not even an issue"
hahaha. woah. you don't even know. buddy. grr. i dont know what to do.

yeah.......again, sorry for all of the complaining. this is just my source to vent.

UGH! I HAD THE WORST DAY!

Your Existing Situation:
My mom is a @#!%@# She does not trust me at all and is constantly doing things that make me want to ....grrr...do something bad.

Your Stress Sources:
My mom, my mom, my mom, my mom, my mom, school, friends, relationships....PHA!~

Your Restrained Characteristics:
Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Do what my mom says. Bite my tounge.

Your Desired Objective:
Wants mom to back off and trust me.

Your Actual Problem:
my mom.

heh heh heh.

GRRRRRRRR

justin is not afraid of anything

bah.


school is dumb. thats where i am. poo on school. :p

strange, but i think these actually do descibe people pretty well.


Your Existing Situation
Exercises initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. Either holds, or wishes to achieve, a position of authority in which control can be exerted over events.


Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.


Your Restrained Characteristics
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him.
Circumstances force her to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity.




Your Desired Objective
Seeks an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. Capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Helpful, and willing to adapt herself if necessary to realize the bond of affection she desires. Needs the same consideration and understanding from others.


Your Actual Problem
Needs to achieve a stable and peaceful condition, enabling her to free herself of the worry that she may be prevented from achieving all the things she wants.


Your Actual Problem #2
Does not wish to be involved in differences of opinion, contention or argument, preferring to be left in peace.

so confused.


wow. i dont know what to think anymore. man.

wow. wow wow wow.

so how's goal #5 coming you ask?
how did that happen? i really, really dont know. wait, it didnt happen yet. but it was realllly close. eh, i guesss i bah. nevermind

mmm, cereal=good.

i went to the soccer game/games today (not for the entire time) it was cool. jeff scored 2 goals! but i didnt see what happened after that because I had to leave. oh well. it was fun.

man. what am i going to do now. ugh. oh well. go with the flow??

adrianne said i've changed a lot. she thinks i'm turning into a bad person. i'm not.

i made justin a woohu account today. yay! haha.

and now all my friends are worried. dont be........k?

ahhhhh soooooo confuuuuussssseeedd.

*sigh*

ugh.

goal #6, is not being accomplished. what-so-ever. i am sitting here, eating ice cream. UGH STUPID. yeah, that'll cheer me right up. untill after i finish eating it and think about how many calories i just consumed. DUMB. but my mom pisses me off so much that, ugh. yeah nevermind. and believe it or not, i was actually having a GOOD day for once.

sorry i updated so many times. i'm annoying like that.