:: 2005 11 October :: 11.40 pm

why did this happen to me...im a good person...right...god?

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:: 2005 11 October :: 10.19 pm

Self-Assessment Checklist

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I'm often restless and irritable.

I don't enjoy hobbies, leisure activities, or time with friends and family anymore.

I have nagging aches and pains that don't get better, no matter what I do.

Vague aches and pains (e.g., joint or muscle pains)

I have trouble concentrating or making simple decisions.

People have commented on my mood or attitude lately.

I feel that my functioning in everyday life (work and my interactions with family and friends) is suffering because of these problems.

I've thought about suicide.




apparently IM to dependent as well...and the more that time goes on, and the more things i find out, the more it looks like im gonna have to get used to it

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:: 2005 11 October :: 3.38 pm

putting 2 and 2 together and then jumping to conclusions sucks...

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:: 2005 11 October :: 3.13 pm

gar, i find it really hard not to tell you the things that i am concluding...

space...must give sapce...

edit: and then get spelling lessonz!

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:: 2005 10 October :: 10.46 pm

where are you!?! your beginning to scare me w/ all that talk from earlier

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:: 2005 10 October :: 9.28 pm

well, its almost time to go home to think about everyone knows who and not be able to sleep till god knows what time in the morning, BUT on the way home i get to listen to the goddamned radio...i listen to country music...lizzy got me back into it...and of course every country song ever is about some guy losing the love of his life or something to that effect. not to mention that every other song makes me think of her...gahh! i cant fucking take this anymore, PLEASE figure it out so we can have an assload of kids live together forever

edit: heh, made it a whole six minutes w/out needing to vent...

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:: 2005 10 October :: 9.22 pm

well...tonight she told me that she might see other people...

understandable, yes, but does that make it any easier for me? FUCK NO!!!

like jena said, we belong together. i know this, she knows this, or at least i used to think she did. why would anyone let something so perfect go to waste. now im sitting here, confused and angry about something i know so little about. by the time we got done talking, she was talking about something that would COMPLETELY kill me, she knows what it is, but w/ any luck she wont read this so she can get her shit straightened out earlier. the sooner the better. like i told her, i WILL be waiting, my heart belongs to her and it always will, only problem is, i dont know how much of it will be left

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:: 2005 10 October :: 8.05 pm

Your Birthdate: December 24

Born on the 24th, you have a greater capacity for responsibility and helping others than your may have realized. You may also become the mediator and peacemaker in inharmonious situations. Devoted to family, you tend to manage and protect. This birth date adds to the emotional nature and perhaps to the sensitivities. Affections are important to you; both the giving and the receiving.

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:: 2005 10 October :: 6.39 pm

if i do continue to play WoW i have decided that this is what im gonna look like

http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a38/ElderAMOS/92d48957.jpg

thats right...UBER

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:: 2005 10 October :: 3.20 pm

bored bored bored


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:: 2005 10 October :: 2.38 pm

SOOOO BOOOORED!!!!


work sucks when you dont randomly come by

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:: 2005 9 October :: 10.23 pm
:: Mood: contemplative

i still want to know why...

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:: 2005 9 October :: 3.30 pm
:: Mood: optimistic

well

i talked to fragetti and my other and some of the other members of my {DS} family and they said to just let it go...so thats what im gonna do, its a new chance at whatever it was i was doing before, so on that note, im cancelling anything that costs a monthly fee...yes that means WoW...i dont need that, and since i broke up w/ liz i dont really have a desire to play it, as long as i have UT and BF2 who cares right? as far as liz goes, yeah it would be great to get back together, and its still hard for me to write this, but like she said, there aint much hope and i can accept that. i have no idea WHY there wouldnt be much hope since she didnt tell me, but hey, whats her business is her business. as for now i dont want to be around anyone. i need to figure some shit out on my own, and i dont know how long that can take, but i guess ill start be getting rid of some excess baggage and things i dont use. prolly the paintball guns and the SHO, plus the computer i get back from liz. im sure there is some other useless shit i have, but i cant think of it now. i start school in january, which will be another chance to fix some of the mistakes i made in the past, which brings me to another thing, lying...that shit i gotta stop...i mean WTH...look what it did to liz, who i care about so much, what was i thinking, lying to her that whole time was NOT worth ruining what was once a GREAT relationship for me to model any futher ones on that i will have in my life. i just have to find the right person, that is to say, hope they come back around. so kelly...you got a wing man lol. come lanwar...wooo....*cough*

anyways, to make a long story short, i would like to thank you, for making me step back and take a look at my life, i now realize what a fool i was, i only hope that i can take advantage of this in the future. and NO this does NOT mean that i still dont love you lizzy, i always will, but my walls are up, and thicker then ever


edited for clarification

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:: 2005 9 October :: 12.33 pm

thank you {DS}

you guys have always been there for me when i needed you

<3

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:: 2005 9 October :: 10.45 am

i cant stop reading this

i hung out with ray.
why? because I honestly couldnt be by myself and I had to hang out with someone who is an unbiased party. he was there.
it was okay. we went to the mall. I couldnt stand to be here either. the mall pretty much sucks.
i bought two new pairs of pants, cuz they were buy one get one for $1.
then I bought a pair of shoes that Id been wanting. they were $8.
He keeps my mind off of you.
talking and laughing and listening.


i feel sick...

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