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2003 28 November :: 9.03 am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: With out you
Hi. my stomache hurts really bad. when i was on the phone with reid last night this pain just shot threw my stomache. it hurt sooo freakin bad....... ohwell.....
i was going to go shopping today... you kno for all the "early bird" sales because its the biggest shopping day, but i had a fever and a headache.. i think im getting sick
i cant get sick
im supposed to see reid..... i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to see him... we talked alot again last night..... about like everything.... again. i love having someone like that in my life.....
he has turned ita ll around..... i havnt had any time to think about bad stuff... onnly good. i love how life looks up. its the best feeling in the world!
my dog is looking at my like im possessed or something..... hmmmmmmmmmm oh welll...... i get to put up my christmas tree today.! every year i have this one tree that only i put up and it looks like a Charlie brown tree! its so cute. i put rainbow lights on it n stuff. its going to be the onyl christmas tree upstairs.! im kinda mad... we have usually like 5 trees in our house. this year we only have 3 :'( i think ill have to live cuz the 2 trees that we got rid of went to people that didnt have a treee. i think ima lil greedy :'(
nicola asked me what i watned for my bday ((thats in 10 days)) n i really have no idea. i think i dont kno because i dont care abotu it! ill write later!! mom comin in tha room
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2003 27 November :: 8.51 am
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: american pie
Hi!
today was actually a pretty good day. today was thanksgiving. we went over to grammy n pappys hosue. it was nice... i was swimming like the whole time tho lol......
i finally updated my backround ont his thing... it took me long enough to figure out but hey! its lauren your workin with! actually cassie is the one who told me how to do it or i woulda bin a dumb one n not have known. lol.....
NeWAY
the rEAAAAL reason im wrigin is to inform you
REID LOVES ME!!!!!omg .... he said that to me lsat night.... we tlaked for 2 hrs n 8 mins..... omg i love him soooooooo much!
i was sooooooooooooo happy... i told him ALOt about me... that only a couple people know...... then he told me alot about him. it juss makes me soooooo happy
OOOOOOOOh reid juss called........ i gotta call him back at 9 01 tho... because then its freeeee....... lol..... ok i gotta walk my lazy ass upstairs!!!!
MUAH~~~~
i love when life is actually going my way!!!!!!
56-2738
LaUr!
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2003 26 November :: 2.24 am
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: Wobble wobble
Hi!,
Today i read like a bajillion other peoples journals! i dont feel like my life is a total pointless thing completely anymoer!! haha. i talked to reid... hes with ryan today :'( i was supposed to see him today and fuk in the pool. lol. ((Jusssssssss Kiddin)) He didnt get his liscense cuz his mom was a bitch n didnt wanna stay forever at the DMV.... i need to take a drug n alchohol test lol.... i still needa... hummmmmmm at least if they did like take a pee sample i wouldnt have anything to worry about !!
Im trying to put music on this god damn journal thing. its juss not working n so im pisse.d i have like this one song that sumerizes my life down to a T. haha that rymed.
I cant wait till friday!!!!! reid said hed pick me up even tho he didnt get his liscence..... he cant get it until tues. due to the holiday!
i snuck amandas cell last night to talk to him. i needed to talk to him....hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i think im obsessed.. but then again.................. im not!
my birthday is in 12 days!!!!! i cant wait.... i have an all-county audition on ummmmmmm tuesday i think at cypress...... its kinda a waste of a night but what the hell. who cares?
im going to update you later. im still trying to change my journal to make it look cooler.
Love Yah!
MuAh!
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2003 25 November :: 10.18 am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: i dont give a fuck
wow! this thing is sooooooooooo cool.! haliey..... oops spelled name wrong but oh well taught me how to do this!!!! hheheheheh. anyways, i neeeeed to talk to him. i might go with him tomorro i cant wait.... i kno def. on frday ima go ovre his house. im so exceited.! ig ot my cell taken away lol i was on the phn wtih reid!
i fell asleep on alexs shoulder.. ooooops
i got a 96 on my bio test! things are actually starting to go well for me...!!!!!!! im happy. the thing someone posted really pisses me off..... arent i allowed to ever be happy and have a melodramatic thing anyway???? hmmmmm oh well well im a get in trouble if im caught on this late i lvoe you
call my cell even tho i might not answer
560-2738
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2003 23 November :: 4.18 am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: bruised and broken
HeyHeyHey!
im in a luvly mood this afternoon!
my bedroom is finnnnnnallly put together!!!1 we finished today... well this morning.. ivve been sick all weekend but thats okay because i had nothing better to do with my life so i went to bed lol all of yesturday. today i did alot of running around with the church so im kinda tired.
i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALYL like Reid.. alex's friend. i dunno just something about his personallity i just cant get over. we talked for over 3 hours last night and finally got off the phn at like 3 am... it was sooooooooo great. i have had him on my mind all day long.
i want him to call me
i cant stop thinking.. i wanna go out with him really bad
i never knew he went out with noelle stilson.. that was a shocker for me
hes gone out with sooooooo many of the so called "popular" people so thats why im wondering why he wants to go out with me..
he gets his liceence on... wednesday... sometime in the morning and wed. is the first of 5 dfays for thanksgiving break.
oooooooooh i need to talk to him....... i love his personalyy. he cares soooooo much for people... and thats the biggest thing that i look for in a guy.... whether they actually care or not
alex doesnt he told me... so yeh im kind over that guy........ humm
i havnt felt this sincce uhhh....carlos?? lol
but its different. now i cant wait for him to call me. i need him to call me or itsl ike... something is missing its so weird. im not even goin gout with the kid..
i dont kno if he wants to be more then just friends tho... thats the thing. i think he does because of alot of what we talked about which was about everything under then sun.. its soooooo... AHH i just have butterflies in my stomache when i see on the caller id that its him.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going to call him
i love you!!!!!!!
MUAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!
LAUREN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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2003 21 November :: 5.11 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: american pie
hi!
i finally got the comp. im moved in! i have been for like 2 weeks. its sooooooo nice to have my own room. you have no idea about how much i missed. it . the sucky thing is tho is that i dont have blinds yet so yeah i gotta get changed in my closet. hahaha
yesturday was my concert. hehe it osunded sooo bad all me n nicola did was laugh becyase we sounded dthat pathetic,. haaha.i spent like the WHOLE time after schooool with alex. it was nice
but amanada wants on.. ill tell you more later
Lauren
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2003 7 November :: 7.37 am
:: Mood: listless
:: Music: im ok
i hate living up to other peoples expectations.. im so sick of worrying about what other people think of me.. im so tired of crying to myself and not being able to cry outloud...
i have so much kept inside of me.. i want to let it all out.. but i cant...
i hate having ups and downs... i hate getting into petty little quarrels with my friends. its so worthless.... why do we bother to live if all that happens is pain.. i dont kno.. everything i do comes back to bite me in the ass.. my eye hurts like fuck... my stomache hurts really bad. i dont wanna stand up because then itll make me fell like i have to throw up again..
everyone is at the fair or the movies right now.. except for me..
im still stuck here... so fucking bored. but hey, i finally have the house to myself... im actually starting to cry...
this song can help me to cry.. i love this song...
"bruises fade father but the pain remains the same.. and i still remember how u kept me so.. so afraid.. the strenth is my mother for all the love she gave... all the morning that i pray.. i look back at yesturday... not so easy to forget.. hall the marks you left along her neck... when i was thrown against cold stairs.. and every day to come home and be afraid what i might see next..." "the strencght i my mother for all you gave.. every morning that i pray.. i look back at yesturday... and im ok....'
i really wish that i was ok..
i always have to deal with this damn internal struggle that hurts me so much all the time... i dont even know why i have this journal fore eeryone to read but really i dont give a shit. people think im the worst sucidialsist slut int he world..
i dont give a shit anymore..
i want to get my own room.. i want to get my puppy..
i want to cry... i want to cry everything that is being kept inside of me... its horrible. i cant stand the pain n e more... its soo.. i dont kno... its confusng.. i want to tell my mom so much.. but im afraid of some of the things that she'll asay.. i mean i shouldnt feel like that because shes my mom n all.. but im scared if i tell her that i lost it... and that i dont kno... that i hate like everything... and that i am kinda suicidal.. i have been tho.. she prolly knows.. and ill jusst get grounde.d. my dad reads my other journal anway... i guess thats why i dont write there anymore and i think ive learned how ot write faster on the compputer.. expectially when im sad or something..
i want my house.... i want a life... i want to feel better... i want to have fun... i want to be.. me..
what if people really knew me... i mean id be soo fucking quiet.. haha... maybe i wouldnt get the rep i have if i was just this quiet ugly thing that just sat there and took up room.. that someone else could be using...
i guess im just sad tonight because im stuck here thinking about the last month and ewll.. even last weekend.
yea i fucked everything up
i mean im lauren
i fuck everything up
there is no end to me messing things up..
i dont kno anymore... i really just dont kno
i think this is the longest thing ive ever writeen... haha i think it was because i need to get so much out.. i have alot more.. but i dont know... people seem to get so offesive.. but i mean its my thoughts.. theyd rather hear them then let me think it but when they find out what i really dothink they get all pissy about it with me... i dont understand anymore... well i dont kno ill prolly come back and write some more later.. i need to sort threw my thoughts
Lauren
560-2738
what the hell... ok i dont like anyone anymore.. i think peopel are gay.. i dont want to do anythiing with anyone... im sick of it
i got the biggest scare of my life alreayd... i dont want that to happen aagain
its so pathetic.. to lose one of your closests friends because they think you said stuff wen well... you really didnt.
its hard to know that people can be so immature and you acnt do anything about it... im still thihkning about switching over to cypres.s.. thats stil how bad i hate people at fortmyers.
i mean i dont hate them but.. jesus! i wish i could kill someone right now.. i dont feel good. im so sick of drama. im so siick of crying. im so sick of everythjing.
all i want to do is have fun.
so much for that happeneing.. i just dont kno anymore.. i really just dont kno..
if you want gimme a ring... 560-2738
just dont call to bitch me out.. anyone
Lauren
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2003 5 November :: 4.57 am
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: so fly
omg hi! i have had so much fun after school lately... im spending it with alex... the guy who was there when i got wasted that tiffany likes... geeze i wish she didnt like him ecause i do... i dont kno it kinda sux... like bruno.. she saw uswalking together... again..
and shes like.. "oh looks like lauren got what she wanted" and i said what doi want.. n she said "you know" n alex said "well she aint got me.."
that made me kinda sad.. but hey i juss met him... haha ill prolly end up doin stupid shit like wyatt...
lol
school really sucks.. idont kno. im koo wth all the people now.. its just i duno i really hate doing all the work
oh yeah my lil sister got a C- on her report card n didnt even get in the slghtest bit of trouble.
hum n i was 20 mins late yesturday n i got into a lot oftrouble
when i left today alex with with all these girls playing with them in the rain picking them up n stuff... he told me i was heavy when i weigh less then alot of people... :'(
my bruise looks like a picece of shitl. it definatly got worse..
i talked to brian today.. the relaly hott guy... haha hes not mad at me.. thank god..
i got my homecoming pictuires,..
i wish they were better..
half of them didnt even come out.. it wasnt fair because i had sooo many pictures.. i got like 16 outta 27 back... cuz it was sooo freakin dark
i should start writing in muh regular pen n paper journal too because this is online and i have alot more to say that i cant put in here because eah alot of people read this thing and are dumb bitches abtou by lieaving annonymus messageswhen they leave one...
thats rallly want i hate.. oh well life sucks
me and chad are friends again.. i talked to him a loooong tim elast night.. i love being able to talk to him again..
sugar how u get so fly...
sugar sugar how u get so fly...
hi. the weekend was soo interesting. but i lovedit. i wanna do it again lol.... the ferraris were so awesoome looking... m so tired. ZzzZzzzz
my head really hurts kinDa. i was really out of it today ecause my hhead hurt... my eye is turning black and blue.. i feel so so dumb... i saw alex today.. but hey, hes tiffanys man so yeah i needa stay away .. :( oooooh well............
alexa is breaking up with wyatt... i don kno why i caer... but im out
i love oyu
call me
560-2738
~LaUr~
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2003 2 November :: 3.04 pm
:: Mood: wasted
:: Music: so fly
holy shitterz! i juss got home. i went with tiffany to the resort thing and we eneded up going camping with her one friends.. damn the one guy, brian, hes a fucking hott thing. and i got really wasted and started flipping out. they are prolly never gunna see me again. i wanna cry....:'( i wanted to be with brian the whole night.. but i fuced that up... i drank like half a thing of straight up liquor... wow im fuckinng dumbass.... i got a bruise on my eye..... its like puffy... ill write later
i love you!
Call Me!!!!
560-2738
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2003 1 November :: 2.00 am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: p imp
hi. im at tiffanys house. its not halloween anymore!!! god im tired. lol its in the morning.... 2 oclock to be exact... im going to spend the whole weekend with her that should be fun... i love her house~
damn i wish i were rich.. hum oh well! we have a house! i cant wait to move into it... itll be the best thing in the world..... lalallalala
im here with chelsea n tiff,,, were juss chillin
there was other girls here but they're off getting laid. haha oh well
the guy realy doesnt care i could be sittin here with a big ass problem. humm i called him n i was like... yeah u kno i dont no whats going on
n hes like ok sure can i talk to arynna now?
i was like damn
janna got homecoming pictures! we looked posssesd in most of them. haha but they were pretty good. i need a new face. the one i have now is pretty ugly..
grrr hard to believe halloween is almost over. ok well every one is like sleeping
MYUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH! I LOVE LIFFE
I LOVE YOU
LAUREN!~~~~~~~~
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2003 30 October :: 9.53 am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: if we fall
Hi. today was much better. i retook the test cuz im ina better mood n look
My inner child is one year old!
Everything is new to me. I like watching the world go by around me, and I don't sweat the small stuff--or the large stuff, either. Just so long as I stay warm and safe and dry, life's pretty good.
lol 10-1 years old is a big ifference. the bad thing about woohuis all your entries, people never look at lol like all my good happy times are in the back entries ffrom like a year ago. lol.. oh well
i wanna talk to alexa but i cant. she still chose a guy over me and i cant stand that. i know tyler is mad at her about that because well its pathetic.
tomoror is halloween i need to fix my costume
juss wanted to say i felt alot better today. i actually didnt cry at all... haha what a world we live in
i love yah always
laur
The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost in a good book, or giggling with my best friend, I live in a world apart, one full of adventure and wonder and other stuff adults don't understand.
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2003 29 October :: 4.34 am
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: 98 degress- i cherish you
it all falls apart
it always falls apart at the end.
there is never anything good to come out of anything.
its sad
Neutral:
Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the world in a negative or positive way and you'll never judge or assume a situation- you just look at the facts. People like you are peaceful and accepting.
well alexa is now going out with wyatt..
what a great friend she is..
how could she do that
how>????? how could she call meher friend??? its over between us... ima miss her but i dont want someone who likes it when guys lie to her
i think its just pathetic.
i cried again at the ned of schoool
brandon hates me... i duno i hate when things go this way
"Pain pays the income of each precious thing."
- William Shakespeare
Oft expectation fails, and most oft where most it promises; and oft it hits where hope is coldest; and despair most sits."
-William Shakespeare
In time we hate that which we often fear."
-William Shakespeare
"Each present joy or sorrow seems the chief."
-William Shakespeare
"I had rather have a fool make me merry, than experience make me sad."
-William Shakespeare
Psalms 34:18
The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.
all these are quotes that i like..
i think they go with my feelings
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And he shall direct your paths.
wow... guys are lame.. i really hate them n really wish theyd die. lemmme start with the decorating yestruday..
well it was 6 hrs of tyingballoons but the result was sooo pretty. there was ballooons everywhere... my dress for the dance was pretty. i wore the black one... janna did my hair. hers was really poofy but it was pretty. i saw brandon there... he was making out with this blonde chik that i really wanted to slap cuz i was looking for him the whole time n she said she loved him cuz i could read her lips.
idanced with soo many people. me n alexa had sum lil girlgirl dance goin lol it was sooo funny. we purposly did it... hahahahahaa...
it wasa lotta fun. i got to dance with jj!!! lexa gotta dance with robert saafeld tho... that makes me a lil jealous but lol oh well
today i went on the ghost tour thing which was such a snoozer... alexa, sammeer, n wyatt were there... i really wish i hadnt gone because i cant stand to see wyatt anmore... all he knows how to do is use girls to get what he wants
he got what he wanted from me. he got it... now he wont even talk to me n denys eevrything. he looked alexa in the eyes n told her that nothing happend that day i went over his house
heres mt away message
juss wanna be left alone..
i really hate guys
all they know how to do is get girls to do stuff..
then after she tells her besftfriend that she lost her virginity n to who
he denys everything..
im off crying right now because im such a dummbass for ever trusting a guy n believe he loved me
wow i juss wanna keep crying..
.i think alexa is going out withhim now too...
wowo guys suck
call
560-2738
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2003 23 October :: 9.21 am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: like whoa
hi. today was okay. im really just starting to not even think during shcool anymore. its all... dumb.. i mean its school... i cried today in brandons arms.... i tried to get him to open up to me because hwas really sad but then i ended up crying because beofer some of my friends um.. killed themselves.. they didnt open up.. ad i guess im scared is all... i owouldnt be able to take losing another friend...
i love having this cable modem.. lol ona lighter note... i duno its ummm confusing i guess... humm...
im still confused about homecoming. iknow im going but i duno. something is juss missing.. its hard to expplain. i wish there was some way taht i could sort threw my feelings.
me n sum of the girls that got into fights are on a ........ok saide of eahothr... i hope it stays taht way
always
lauren
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2003 21 October :: 9.38 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: pizza hut commerical
hi. today is homecoming week, i hava ticket to go.. but im still not sure if i wanna use it... humi dunno.. i guess im ovr people. right now im jussa loner, :'( oh well.. me and wyatt are close again. for some reason i just cant stand when hes mad at me... last weekend i kinda got in "trouble" with some guy but i wont get into that.. i dont think anyone knows him... who knows i couldbe wrong.
today was the luau.. it was inteesting. i waited 3 hours listening to the matching band play the same song.. over and over and over again! some soak up the song crap. oh i dont kno.. today was great.. i was "leighed" many times by many people. lol.. oh! at the luau, i was tlaking to this one band... n omg the one guy was really hott n he gave me a bandanna and got my email addy!!!!!! lol email isnt as good as a phn # but yeah still. hes a junior at north. oh yeah, i hate brandon. i think hes a dumbass lier. yeah dont get me into that one.... i wanna b a cheerleader. it looks liek fun. i wish i was like really flexable.. i mean i am but im not... i dont kno f u get it or not... lol... i mean i can do alot but i cant strtch right n stuff so i end up hurting myself or looking like an idiot if i havnt pracitced anything.. it took me FOREVER to learn hwo to do a backbend. lol n all these people can do bakc tucks n stff.. oh well...i got straight As on my report card.. i must bea nerd. lol i skipped 5th period today too! e nad janna boy were dumb. lol... jj said that they catch everyone that skips... dun dun dun! lol but hey i shoudl go.. i needa shower
Muah!
i want sum messages! WHO POSTED THE ONE SYAING""Bitch your gunna go"
?
Laur
hola chicos. i feel alil better. look how lame..
UFsweetii: y am i on ur journal
UFsweetii: y am i on ur journal
TasteZLykECherrY: um what part
TasteZLykECherrY: i put alot of people when im mad
UFsweetii: like everytime someone says they heard something about you you're like from who ashley keyes wtf
TasteZLykECherrY: if you dont like what i say, dont read it. im really not in the mood. maybe later.
UFsweetii: what the hell you were in the mood 5 minutes ago when you asked if i said crap to erika
TasteZLykECherrY: im not anymore.
TasteZLykECherrY: dnt get yourself involved cuz i really dont want to get itno it
UFsweetii: fuck that im in the mood u need to shut the fuck up if you don't like what ppl say about you then don't fuckin listen
TasteZLykECherrY: are u done yet
UFsweetii: and i never talk about you
UFsweetii: why woulgd i waste my time
UFsweetii: no i'll be done when i say im done bitch
TasteZLykECherrY: good your done
TasteZLykECherrY: this is broing
TasteZLykECherrY: boring*
UFsweetii: if you say ur not a slut and you hate all these ppl why don'y you confront them instaed of writing it in ur lame ass journal
UFsweetii: shut the fuck up ur boring don't ever talk to me again fuck ass hoe
TasteZLykECherrY: lol.
TasteZLykECherrY: i didnt want to talk to you
TasteZLykECherrY: bye ashley
UFsweetii: u imed me like 5 minutes ago
UFsweetii: stop actin like ur so cool u make me sick bye fag
TasteZLykECherrY: bye
TasteZLykECherrY: try not to wear a shirt to small tomorro, wouldnt want that gut to hang out!
UFsweetii: shut up try not to let ur stuffin hang out i wouldn't ppl askin me what size ur boobs really are
TasteZLykECherrY: lol took you that long to think of that?
Previous message was not received by UFsweetii because of error: User UFsweetii is not available.
lol thats so great. my stuffing! HEY GUYS! I GOT SUM STUFFING TO SHOW YAH!!!! TAKEA LOOK! YOU ALLLLL KNO U WANNA SEE IT. wow i feel high. lol.. never bin high but i feel that way.
ok well right now, me and eileen are on similar terms i think... i hope... se agrees with me on sum stuff so i think its cool. ill talk o her tomorro. im sick. i didnt tell yah. i have to stay after till bout 6 to watch the freshman football game. it shold be boring except there playing dunbar n i think chad is on that team!! hhaha wouldnt that be interesting.
how dou stuff a bra??? like woldnt you be un-equal?? sorry lol that bothers me. youd be like all lumpy. n itd be a waste of perfectly good stuffing. do u use toilet paper or klennez. ?? maybe i should try it one day lol see if anyone notices. omg! thats the best idea. lol
oh yeah. this journal is so gay.. so whyd she read it??? hum whatever. my poor throat. its all scratchy. mommy n daddy are home!! YAY
TasteZLykECherrY: hey hun
GEXPOSFAN13: hi\
TasteZLykECherrY: did yah like the thing about 007??
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: who was thatrT
TasteZLykECherrY: that was so great
TasteZLykECherrY: u actually think its about 007?
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: but i was like omg we were all like wut a dumb girl lol
GEXPOSFAN13: who was that ?
TasteZLykECherrY: why was she so dumb
TasteZLykECherrY: one of muh best friends lol
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: no seriously, why was she so dumb
TasteZLykECherrY: ??
TasteZLykECherrY: ?/????
GEXPOSFAN13: because she was the only one tro say anthinin
GEXPOSFAN13: g
TasteZLykECherrY: hun , its not about 007
GEXPOSFAN13: i know
GEXPOSFAN13: god
TasteZLykECherrY: its about mtv stuff
GEXPOSFAN13: soounds grand
TasteZLykECherrY: n everyone at the meetings said.."if they pull you out say its about 007"
TasteZLykECherrY: cuz they filmed us talking about "007"
GEXPOSFAN13: was that u ?
GEXPOSFAN13: it was u on tv wasnt it
TasteZLykECherrY: um yeah.. i juss woke up so i didnt kno what was talking about...
GEXPOSFAN13: wut?
GEXPOSFAN13: u were the one oon the tv
GEXPOSFAN13: ?
TasteZLykECherrY: TasteZLykECherrY: um yeah.. i juss woke up so i didnt kno what was talking about...
GEXPOSFAN13: just woke up?
GEXPOSFAN13: wutever hey i gtg
GEXPOSFAN13: bye
TasteZLykECherrY: sure
GEXPOSFAN13: talk to u later
TasteZLykECherrY: why not
TasteZLykECherrY: now im fukn pissed
TasteZLykECherrY: bye
GEXPOSFAN13: why?
GEXPOSFAN13: are u mad?
GEXPOSFAN13: ?
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah. you called me fukn dumb when thats what i was supposed to do
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: so sry
GEXPOSFAN13: well at least i ddint call out ho
GEXPOSFAN13: when i saw u on tv
TasteZLykECherrY: what
GEXPOSFAN13: thats wut one girl said in my bio class shes like omg tht girl is the bigggest slut
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: im like who is it
TasteZLykECherrY: who said that
TasteZLykECherrY: ??
GEXPOSFAN13: some girl
GEXPOSFAN13: in my bio class
TasteZLykECherrY: give me a name
GEXPOSFAN13: i dont know
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah u do
GEXPOSFAN13: i just got in to a new bio class last week
TasteZLykECherrY: see thats why i hate people
TasteZLykECherrY: did she have black hair
GEXPOSFAN13: i dont know everyones name yet
TasteZLykECherrY: was it..ashley keyes?
GEXPOSFAN13: um
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: ashley is kool
TasteZLykECherrY: what color hai
GEXPOSFAN13: and shes not in my bio class
TasteZLykECherrY: hair*
GEXPOSFAN13: i thnk blonde
TasteZLykECherrY: tall?? short?? from dunbar??
TasteZLykECherrY: thats nice.. im the biggest slut
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: i want outta ft myers so fukn bad i hate it there
GEXPOSFAN13: from dunbar ya
TasteZLykECherrY: sara meadors
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: that name rings a bell
GEXPOSFAN13: i thnk it may be her
TasteZLykECherrY: oh looky there i got it right?
TasteZLykECherrY: is sh tall
TasteZLykECherrY: she**
GEXPOSFAN13: im not totlay sure
GEXPOSFAN13: but the name sounds familiar
GEXPOSFAN13: um
GEXPOSFAN13: i dunno
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: ...
GEXPOSFAN13: hey
GEXPOSFAN13: i gtg tlak to u later
GEXPOSFAN13: bye
TasteZLykECherrY: wow hum bye
GEXPOSFAN13: hum?
TasteZLykECherrY: look iget why u wont talk to me
TasteZLykECherrY: but ok
TasteZLykECherrY: sure
GEXPOSFAN13: why?
GEXPOSFAN13: dont i tlak to u ?
TasteZLykECherrY: once i said i was me.. yer like..
"oh i gottag o!"
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: i need ot take a shower
GEXPOSFAN13: i had lifting today
GEXPOSFAN13: and im guna go take a nap
GEXPOSFAN13: k
GEXPOSFAN13: and by the way i thought u looked pretty hot
TasteZLykECherrY: haha no
GEXPOSFAN13: but thats just my opinion and im sure u dont care
GEXPOSFAN13: so
TasteZLykECherrY: why wouldnt i care
GEXPOSFAN13: um
GEXPOSFAN13: u sure dont seem like u would
TasteZLykECherrY: how
GEXPOSFAN13: nvm
GEXPOSFAN13: u just dont
TasteZLykECherrY: um ok..
TasteZLykECherrY: do i really seem like a slut
GEXPOSFAN13: i havent tlaked to u in person
GEXPOSFAN13: but hey i gtg
GEXPOSFAN13: k
TasteZLykECherrY: by.
GEXPOSFAN13: bye
GEXPOSFAN13 signed off at 4:19:07 PM.
muh god. i really cant stand people. the people that came from dunbar need o go fuk themselves. i really cant stand any of hem anymore. i wanna juss take a knife n mutilate them into tiny little pieces to match the broken pieces in my mind n heart. i hope every1 fukn dies
::
2003 5 October :: 8.45 am
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: whatever is on the tv
TasteZLykECherrY: heyheyheyehyey
ThIz RaP gAmE: hi
ThIz RaP gAmE: hold on
ThIz RaP gAmE: hey baby whats up
TasteZLykECherrY: nuthin
TasteZLykECherrY: im juss sittin here
ThIz RaP gAmE: kool
ThIz RaP gAmE: did u find ur pw
TasteZLykECherrY: no.... but i was going to get new pics this week..
ThIz RaP gAmE: really
TasteZLykECherrY: really...
ThIz RaP gAmE: nice
TasteZLykECherrY: sure i guess
ThIz RaP gAmE: did you take them?
TasteZLykECherrY: i am tomorro.. no school
ThIz RaP gAmE: ohh ok same here
ThIz RaP gAmE: send them tomorrow?
TasteZLykECherrY: i will try
ThIz RaP gAmE: alright
TasteZLykECherrY: am i ever gunna see u agn
ThIz RaP gAmE: i really dont know
ThIz RaP gAmE: i would hope so
ThIz RaP gAmE: why do u ask
TasteZLykECherrY: beccause i really wnana see u
ThIz RaP gAmE: lauren
ThIz RaP gAmE: do you have a bf
TasteZLykECherrY: nope
ThIz RaP gAmE: do you like anyone at your school or do u have ur heart set on someone?
TasteZLykECherrY: nope
ThIz RaP gAmE: are you sure
TasteZLykECherrY: lol im pretty easy goin irght now
TasteZLykECherrY: i really like u but yeah im never gunna seeu
ThIz RaP gAmE: i know same with me
ThIz RaP gAmE: i dont like ne one its really weird
TasteZLykECherrY: lol i kno
ThIz RaP gAmE: but when i talk to u i feel different
ThIz RaP gAmE: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: usually i have a list
ThIz RaP gAmE: shit same here
TasteZLykECherrY: n ash is like.. lauren theres sumpthin wrong lol
ThIz RaP gAmE: heh
TasteZLykECherrY: its odd
ThIz RaP gAmE: yea
TasteZLykECherrY: hum
TasteZLykECherrY: whys it diff when u talk to me
ThIz RaP gAmE: i dont know i feel....just different, cant explain it
ThIz RaP gAmE: like like umm no other girl matters to me
ThIz RaP gAmE: in the world.....
TasteZLykECherrY: awww!!
ThIz RaP gAmE: like ur the only one
TasteZLykECherrY: nah yer juss kiddin lol
ThIz RaP gAmE: no im not lauren
ThIz RaP gAmE: i wouldnt lie to you
TasteZLykECherrY: :-D:-D no whats weird.. lol we really only talked in person... twice
ThIz RaP gAmE: i know
TasteZLykECherrY: :-):-)
omg i love carson! lol ill prolly never see him aain but!! YAY im in really good mood. i have been. my house is almost done!! HOOORAY!!!!
i love everything right now. ilove it when my life juss flutters..like a butterfly n nothing can matter. illove it. itll all change lol so it really shouldnt matter that i feel this way.. i love feeling liekthis.. i havnt felt happy.. in a long time
i love you! MuahMuah!
were celebrating my lil sisters bday... alll week lol i swear.. well, lets se... friday night was the football game i really wanted to go but i couldnt get a ride beecause it was my lil sisters 13th bday!! aww shes getting so old. lol now me n muh sisters are... 13 14 n 15... wow thats pretty odd... odd is a cool word.. anyway,
i went to the mall on saturday n i found the CUTEST swimsuits at gadzooks but yeah i wanted to show my mom and i jjuss shoulda bought it because we never went back! grr i was mad.. it was sooo xheapp too!! omg u got no idea... i think im oging o the mall tomorro since there no shcool. thank god. i am sooo sick of school. i dont know why.. well actually i do. lol... i said hhi to erika today online.. she was being nice the 2 timing bitch. . im trying to see if someone wants to go tomorro with me. i really wanna hook up wit muh frinds this weekend. brandon had to close the store yesturday so yeah.. he wanted to og the movies with me his weekend. but i gues plans.. change.. ill haveto update later. i have to try on this shirt my lil sister got from american eagle. im going to wear it alot. lol she might as well let me buy it off her beaue i like it..... (shes reading as i type so .. **hint hint**) lol
i love yah MUAH!
leave me messages if u wanna be nice
i get my celly next weekened!! YAY!!
Laur
ZITRO89: y arnt u @ the game
TasteZLykECherrY: becase i cant ok...
ZITRO89: wats wrong
TasteZLykECherrY: y rnt u there
ZITRO89: im still a little bit sick
ZITRO89: and my mom said she wants me to feel better
TasteZLykECherrY: that makes sense
ZITRO89: ya
TasteZLykECherrY: read the latest jrnl entry..... www.woohu.com/~playachika
TasteZLykECherrY: ..
ZITRO89: who is that person
ZITRO89: Ekika?
TasteZLykECherrY: erika latt
TasteZLykECherrY: i dont kno where she got any of that
ZITRO89: oh
ZITRO89: ya
ZITRO89: not all that is true
TasteZLykECherrY: not all?
TasteZLykECherrY: dont u mean.. any
ZITRO89: did u ask this chick if u should give a hot guy a blow job for his b-day
TasteZLykECherrY: no
ZITRO89: alot of peeps say shit behind ur back
ZITRO89: none of it is true
ZITRO89: ok
TasteZLykECherrY: wht else do they say that youve heard
ZITRO89: they call u a slut
ZITRO89: hor
ZITRO89: and alot of other crap
TasteZLykECherrY: who... just give me an idea
ZITRO89: i just hear this in the halls
ZITRO89: ive told u before
TasteZLykECherrY: how do u kno there talking about me
ZITRO89: sometimes I walk around and listen to otha people and the say ur name
ZITRO89: they
TasteZLykECherrY: wow... this is why i really hate life
ZITRO89: dont hate life
ZITRO89: do u kno how many people made fun of me and called me all of these names last year
ZITRO89: most of my skool
ZITRO89: i didnt listen and let it go in one ear and out the other
ZITRO89: thats wat u need to do
TasteZLykECherrY: i cant do that ok
TasteZLykECherrY: i just cant
i hate school. i hate ft myers.. i hate evrything.. i cant stand anything or anyone again. i really need to get some help.. u hate these lows and highs.,.. i hate it all.... jesus wish people would change.. maybe i should juss change myself..
TasteZLykECherrY: wtf is yer problem
Ekika14: lauren im seriously not even gonna get into this w/ u if u dont give a shit then y r u bothering
TasteZLykECherrY: lol get into it
TasteZLykECherrY: i want to know wtf you have to say
Ekika14: lauren from what ive heard about u...u r the last person i would want to be friends w/ if u need to tell ppl u have aids to see who ure real friends are then first of all ure gay! and if u need to kno if u should give a hot guy a blow job for his birthday than i think thats a little dirrty! and if u need to sound suicidal to get attention than thats pretty lame! and when i see u in the hallway y is it that u need to be all over a guy! do u not kno what ppl say about u behind ure back! n when u got all upset
Ekika14: about it when they were running their mouths when u won secretary u should have done something about it but u sat there and let them say their crap..y didnt u just not prove what they were saying insteading of walking around and being all over the guys
TasteZLykECherrY: im not all over guys
TasteZLykECherrY: where did u get all that shit from
TasteZLykECherrY: ashley keyes?
Ekika14: that bull lauren n u kno it cuz im not the only person that sees it
Ekika14: no
TasteZLykECherrY: alot of ppl frrom dubar dint likeme
Ekika14: it doesnt matter who i got it from i heard it from more than one person
TasteZLykECherrY: lol thats funny
TasteZLykECherrY: for you to believe other people then me
TasteZLykECherrY: sound suicidal for attention?
TasteZLykECherrY: ikno who said taht one
Ekika14: what does that have to do w/ anything cuz a lot of ppl dont like u anyway....y shouldnt i believe them ive been friends w/ the ppl i heard it from longer than u so i could trust them more
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: sure ok
TasteZLykECherrY: i kno alot that dont like u either
Ekika14: yah but i dont do shit to get ppls attention...u kno like tell them i have aids or hang all over their boyfriends so i really dont care
TasteZLykECherrY: what are u talking about!!!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: who even has a boyfriend!!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: i dont hang on anyone
TasteZLykECherrY: cuz i really dont like n e guys at our school n e more
Ekika14: w/e lauren i kno u hang on guys n i dont have to hear it from anyone cuz ppl see it
TasteZLykECherrY: like who!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: please tell me
Ekika14: y the hell owuld i kno their names do u want me to walk up n be like r u the one lauren was maulling earlier in the hallway o by the way whats ure name
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: thats funny
TasteZLykECherrY: go ahead
TasteZLykECherrY: look sweety, you dont know anything about me
TasteZLykECherrY: you HEAR stuff about me but it doesnt mean its the truth
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah you might hear alot, from different people, but rumers do go to more than one person
Ekika14: lauren u freaking asked me if u should give head to someone as their birthday present how the hell r u going to tell me that u didnt say that
TasteZLykECherrY: lol..
Ekika14: yah but lauren ppl who WERE ure friends and all tell me all the say the same story...how r u going to tell me they r lying
TasteZLykECherrY: lol..
TasteZLykECherrY: who WEREE my friends dont mean they are anymore
TasteZLykECherrY: you think i dont kno who says this stuff
TasteZLykECherrY: everything always gets back to me
TasteZLykECherrY: thats how i kno u called me a slut on....wednsday
Ekika14: wow o ure now
Ekika14: o u mean from jenna
Ekika14: i told her she could tell u
TasteZLykECherrY: but u couldnt even say it to my face
TasteZLykECherrY: thts like eileen i kno ye friends with her
TasteZLykECherrY: she couldnt tell me what she tought to my face.. but oculd tell me someowhere n someone else
Ekika14: o hunni if u want me to call u a slut to ure face i would be more than happy too
TasteZLykECherrY: go head
Ekika14: i dont even kno eileen sweety so shows how much u kno about me
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah, you do
TasteZLykECherrY: ive seen u talking to her
Ekika14: ok considering i dont kno her but w/e
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah w/e thats all you can sya
TasteZLykECherrY: 8say
TasteZLykECherrY: *say
Ekika14: yah cuz i dont kno who she is what do u want me to do lie n i say i kno her
TasteZLykECherrY: um no.
Ekika14: no im sorry that would make me look like u...like i want attention
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah thats right
TasteZLykECherrY: i crave attentiion
Ekika14: obviously
::
2003 26 September :: 9.20 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: pimp
TasteZLykECherrY: did u say u wanted to fight me
LeenyGurl77: who is this?
LeenyGurl77: is this monica?
TasteZLykECherrY: no
TasteZLykECherrY: lauren
LeenyGurl77: lauren who?
TasteZLykECherrY: smith
LeenyGurl77: ohh no lol why would i fight you?
TasteZLykECherrY: dont kno
TasteZLykECherrY: thats what someone told me
TasteZLykECherrY: n i didnt wanna say anything to anyone before i knew what was goin on
LeenyGurl77: lol well neither do i
LeenyGurl77: well i didnt know that and no i dont hate you and no i dont wanna fight you
LeenyGurl77: and i think you did tell
LeenyGurl77: but its over and done with so whatever
TasteZLykECherrY: lol u really think i told someone?
TasteZLykECherrY: as far as anyone besides freshman at the meeting kno, were doin 007
LeenyGurl77: yeah your friend or something but this is so old why are you still talking about it?
TasteZLykECherrY: uh i didnt bring it up
TasteZLykECherrY: you ddi
TasteZLykECherrY: did*
LeenyGurl77: what the hell?! you imed me
LeenyGurl77: isnt that what this was all about?
TasteZLykECherrY: what.. i juss wanted to kno if u told ppl u wanted to fight me.
LeenyGurl77: nope
TasteZLykECherrY: well then i didnt bring anything up
LeenyGurl77: ok lol my bad
thats so.... ahh i juss wanna scream. why do people actually think i told?? and i didnt bring it up, she did. whatever
i think its funny tho. people think so badly of me. hum,. i dont even kno what i did to epoepl. they juss gotta get over it i guess
