HEyHeyHey!!!!!!!
well i really havnt been keeping up wit this thing. well now lets see here...... yesturday sucked ass. i started wrigin but then my mom got to my grandmas house so i hada hurry up n get off.
im going to homecoming with brandon.... i think. i dunno he says im distant but w.e... people still think i told him what our skit was about. as far as anyone other than a freshman is concerned, the theme is 007.
uhh...... we move this weekend! haha im not looking forward to it. hum oh well. i juss started talking to carlos last night after the whole big thing that happ. haha oh well... i wanna go have sum fun, lol im sooo fukn bored. there is like nuthint oday. it was my last day on bus 298 :'( i liked that bus too!!!!!!!! min goes to tina on i think onday.. i dont wanna let her go!! but hey tinas havin aparty so yeah maybe sumpthin will happen!!!! yah neva kno!! haha.... school kinda sux at the moment.. i think already told you but i guess itll be better... all people ever do is bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch!! i mean im sick of it but what the hell. i shouldnt even care. k well im done for now. i wanna go to the movies this weekend but i dont think im allowed because i went last wweekedn and saw cabin fever. omg thats like the best movie lol.. me n janna couldnt stop laughing when we saw the esaster bunny at the end. i saw colllins hair!!!!!!!! he lokos better with hair lol chad was actually not that bad looking but i dont kno why i even pay attention to that boy anymore... hahah i mean we NEEVR talk n hed still prolly hang up on me! oh that reminds me. sameer juss called me out of the blue yesturday. lol wonder whats goin on?? hummmmmmmm????????????????? ok well i think im finally done.. now ... or am i?? uhh whatever ill try to write in here more often. i wrote in my other diary thing the one i actually use pen tho. oh yeah
someone wants to have sex with me this weekend. imean im 14... guys are gay. lol i said id go over his hosue tho!! my sister thinks my icon makes me look like a slut! the one on aim... same with the sn... tastezlykecherry..
nothing is that bad about it enless u gotta sick mind! SETH finlally has my sn!! he was like..."what tastes like cherry" lol bye

TasteZLykECherrY: hey
GreenWaveGurl32: hey
GreenWaveGurl32: wats up ?
TasteZLykECherrY: nuthin
TasteZLykECherrY: wut cha doin tonight
GreenWaveGurl32: i dunt know yet
GreenWaveGurl32: u ?
GreenWaveGurl32: i dont think anythin....
GreenWaveGurl32: cause im goin out 2 moro
TasteZLykECherrY: ooh
GreenWaveGurl32: u?
TasteZLykECherrY: nuthin that i kno if
GreenWaveGurl32: ooo
GreenWaveGurl32: so r u talk in to brandon lamb?
TasteZLykECherrY: what
TasteZLykECherrY: hes on? lol
GreenWaveGurl32: ???/talkin*
GreenWaveGurl32: no i mean like
GreenWaveGurl32: talkin to him.....
TasteZLykECherrY: yah
GreenWaveGurl32: oo i c
GreenWaveGurl32: i heard u guys liked kissed on the bus ? lol
TasteZLykECherrY: who did u hear that from
GreenWaveGurl32: i dunt know i heard it in the hall
TasteZLykECherrY: from who.
TasteZLykECherrY: when
TasteZLykECherrY: what grade was the person in
GreenWaveGurl32: lol i dunt know
GreenWaveGurl32: i think a sophmore
TasteZLykECherrY: this really pisses me off
GreenWaveGurl32: these gurl ttalkin baout it
GreenWaveGurl32: about*
TasteZLykECherrY: so they said i kissed him on the bus??
GreenWaveGurl32: in the hall
GreenWaveGurl32: yah,....
TasteZLykECherrY: lol we didnt even take abus
GreenWaveGurl32: oo
TasteZLykECherrY: lol!!!!!! do i kno these girls
GreenWaveGurl32: well theyt said u kissed on the way some were
GreenWaveGurl32: ]i dont know????????????
TasteZLykECherrY: lol when was this
TasteZLykECherrY: are u sure they said my name
GreenWaveGurl32: like durin... pasiin to lunch
GreenWaveGurl32: they said lauren smith
GreenWaveGurl32: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: oh well lol thats me
GreenWaveGurl32: ud be surprised how fast things
GreenWaveGurl32: go around schoool
GreenWaveGurl32: lol!
GreenWaveGurl32: specially in high school
TasteZLykECherrY: lol but i seriously didnt kiss him going anywhere
GreenWaveGurl32: oo lol
GreenWaveGurl32: ddid u guys do anythin
GreenWaveGurl32: ?
TasteZLykECherrY: well i did going before the bell rang yesturday
TasteZLykECherrY: n today at my locker
GreenWaveGurl32: wat?
TasteZLykECherrY: oh awit, beisiide bio
GreenWaveGurl32: wat r u taalkin about?
GreenWaveGurl32: lol?
GreenWaveGurl32: wat about thesse places....
TasteZLykECherrY: oh! thats where we kissed






this is funny. lol we didnt ride a bus. i dont even kno like ANY sophmores. how do they eeb kno my name

heyheyhey!!!!!!!!! what sup!!!!!!!! i went to teh sga rally today! omg it was sooooooooo much freakin fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this guy brandon..... brendan... one of the two well n e way hes the junior president n hes a flirt and ima flirt. and yah we spent like the whoel time together kinda. it was great. lol then we ksised yay!!!!!!!! and i didnt even think about carlos even tho i saw him! lol
read this
BaseballPr3: i dumped her
BaseballPr3: yesterday
TasteZLykECherrY: why
BaseballPr3: she wasnt worth the trouble she was casuing me
BaseballPr3: she got mad cause i left her and didnt sit with her all of lunch so she ignored me and she kept on for a lil bit and i juss got upset said i was gonna dump her adn then never did and then some1 told her what i said and she got mad again and ignored me again so i juss dumped her
TasteZLykECherrY: wht kinda of trouble
BaseballPr3: like she was juss ignoring me so i got mad
TasteZLykECherrY: oh wow thats a nice reason
BaseballPr3: well its not like she meant alot 2 me so i was juss like fuck this
TasteZLykECherrY: yre really nice then
BaseballPr3: i really dont even know why i went out with her i mean i knew eveyrhting was gonna blow up cause everything happened so fast and i didnt like her at all
BaseballPr3: well i started liking her a lil but the last day
BaseballPr3: and then we broke uyp
BaseballPr3: up*
TasteZLykECherrY: fun
BaseballPr3: yeh but i g2g
BaseballPr3: ill talk 2 u later
BaseballPr3: dont say bye then

BaseballPr3: bye.....
TasteZLykECherrY: ?
TasteZLykECherrY: what
TasteZLykECherrY: why do u gotta go
BaseballPr3: cause ui have 2 hit and then get my haircut
TasteZLykECherrY: hit what
BaseballPr3: plus my brother is sick and hes at the hospital and my mom might b trying 2 call
BaseballPr3: baseballs
TasteZLykECherrY: awwwww!!!!!!
BaseballPr3: well i have 2 go
BaseballPr3: bye
TasteZLykECherrY: bye
BaseballPr3: i read ur thing by the way
BaseballPr3: have fun with dan
BaseballPr3 signed off at 3:47:50 PM.

lol i really dont care anymore that hes single. he didnt like monica anyway. lol if he only knew what happ!!!!!! sry im just so.. happy right now i havnt noticed anything. robert let me use his cd player!!!!! lol nothing important but well hes hott as hell lol. i might have a date for homecoming!!!! YAY!

well ok it started great. me and jj are talking again. i cant wait to see him ! lol i dont kno why... lol i wanna ride in his car. he said i could!! yay!!!
but now, my mom is bitching at me because i had to go to this meetng that was just annoucned ont he morning annoucements, and pappy picked me up and my mom is all fuck this fuck that thanks lauren kinda shit! its not my fault. god damn! i cant stand her ass. i wish shed juss lay off. i wanna run away again and slap her ass and juss be like fuck you i dont need this shit anymore... its not my fault we live 10 billion miles away still... cant she juss pick me up for what... 11 more days at the most... oh my god its going to put miles on the car... its the end of the world.. i give her 2 $ to pay for each mile. i dont give a fuck. i juss got paid so yeah. ahhh someoimes i wanna take a bulllet and shoot her threw her head.. ok well shell be here soon
i love yah lots
muah i promise to write later i got alot more to tell you

well... i cant believe my wrist looks like shit agian

TasteZLykECherrY: hows u n carlos
TasteZLykEKandY: GREAT!!!
TasteZLykEKandY: :-D
TasteZLykECherrY: good
TasteZLykEKandY: yup
TasteZLykEKandY: its betta than eva
TasteZLykECherrY: y
TasteZLykECherrY: are you gusy gunna...
TasteZLykEKandY: i donno i've neva felt a connection like this! we laugh at everythin n everythin is so positive unlike how it was wit me n chad where we fight constantly its jus great we get a long so well!
TasteZLykECherrY: but dont u and chad get together...
TasteZLykEKandY: huh?
TasteZLykEKandY: what do u mean by that?? i'm such a blonde
TasteZLykECherrY: juss nvm



wow... i really wish that was me. i wish that was me again with him. i want hm back so much
i dont kno

i love this movie.. im watchin titanic
something flying machine.. up she goes... up she goes..

i cried myself saying that once.. i dont kno. maybe i juss am thinking alil too much. i just cant get over carlos n monica. i mean carlos was mine! i had him. i had someone that i loved but now i dont..

wow ashie is going out with someone and she didnt even inform me. what the hell has this world gone to? i mean i dont kno everything is juss going downhill again. i look at my wrist all the time now and i wonder if i should try again. i know i shouldnt but the temptation is there, i juss i dont kno......

It’s been a bad day,
another bad day and all I want to do
is look at you and know I’m okay.
From where I’m sittin' these shoes ain’t fittin'
and I’m walking backwards, looking down,
don’t see the sky I see the ground.

Above, below, you look and so you wonder,
where the time has gone of looking up,
tomorrows on the way.
Above, below, you look and so you say,
when I wake up in the mornin'
is it gonna be another lonely day?

She sits in church its 2 pm
and look whose back from work again.
I guess they thought you're better off,
without this life; without a job.
From where I’m sittin' these shoes ain’t fittin'
and I’m going nowhere, killing time,
just trying to feed my bleeding mind.

Above, below, you look and so you wonder,
where the time has gone of looking up,
tomorrows on the way.
Above, below, you look and so you say,
when I wake up in the morning
is it ‘gonna be another lonely day?

It’s been a bad day,
another bad day
and I cross my heart and hope to die
these dreams of yours are gonna fly.

Above, below, you look and so you wonder,
where the time has gone of looking up,
tomorrows on the way.
Above, below, you look and so you say,
when I wake up in the morning
is it ‘gonna be another lonely day?
another lonely day...
another lonely day...
another lonely day...


well..... right now thats on my mind. i dont kno... its like...... ok
i saw him today in bio, wow was i a freak. i look soooooooo pale. i think ima gettin sick. i hada really bad stomache ache yesturday when i got home. my mom took us to wendys! lol i ate soo much. then i washed the car.. and damn! i love my nwe swim suit. too bad i got no1 to impress. HUMM....... i really need to get over myself dont i??? yep i do.
awwwwwww min juss tryed to eat a lizard! lol shes sooooooo cute. i rally dont want to giver her to anyone when we move!!!!
oh yah!
they painted my house! it looks sooooo great. i really cant wait to move in. but i till got like a month and ahalf... it needs to get done faster!!!!!!! i wanna move!
ok well im out!
LOVEYAH!!!!!!

whoever reads this, look @ alll my previous ones... like the ones not shown on the page to see all the results from quizzes ive taken

:: Mood: UnLoVeD
:: Music: Finch

OnE MoRe DaY iN pArAdISe
I hate this feeling. I need something substantial in my life. LOL I don't know how to explain anything anymore. I'm just like at that point in my ife where everything seems...wrong. Nothing is going right. (Besides the fact that I'm utterly gorgeous dahhling!) Ok even praising myself doesn't work anymore. LOL I miss how I used to be. I hate that one person could make me have insecurities...yes ME with insecurities as hard as that is to comprehend. I hate feeling as if the whole world is against me. This is how he makes me feel. I can't believe I would allow someone to do this to me. It's never happened before. Why can't I go back to how things used to be...before him. I was doing fine. Now I feel as if my whole world is empty and no one is here to save me. Then when I think about it...if I could go back in time would I change it so it never happened? Ofcourse not. I would not change a thing. I would never dream of replacing the memories. But that's just me...I'm so dumb. AHHHH
XxLaUreNxX

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:: 2003 9 July :: 11.56 am
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: Vanessa Carlton

W3LL...
Hmmm....I haven't written in here for awhile. Have you ever had one of those days where you just felt numb to all feelings. Like no matter what anyone tells you, good or bad, you would feel the same? I can't explain my mood right now...I've never had this feeling before, it's really odd. Anyway...I had a really bad dream last night, more of like a nightmare. I dreamt I was in a hospital and there was this song playing in the background...the worst song I have ever heard. It sounded like something right out of a horror movie. And the lights were flickering as I walked down the hallway to the hospital room. I get to the room (along the way passing the most disturbing faces) and I felt this overwhelming sense of sadness...I look in the window of the room and see no one. An empty bed all made up with a little bear and rose on it and I just start crying. And then all of a sudden I hear someone calling my name over and over as I remain crying...and then I jumped and I woke up. Isn't that just the oddest dream?? Well I think I have blabbed on enough...I will write later maybe.
XxLaUrEnxX


wow this girl is feeling exactly the same shit as me... plus her name is lauren also.. odd.. i hada dream kinda like that but i wasnt in a hospital.. i was juss in my house



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well i guess i am like that... maybe thats why i am how iam.. i dontkno anymore.. if anyone knows anything to make me feel better feel free to post it

hi. ive been packing all morning. i think i forgot to tell you my house is sold. im finally going to move. i am really really happy. my parents were bitching up a storm tho this morning. oh well right?? i have ALOt packed. and we dont move till sept 30. when i do move i gotta stay with my grandma for 5 weeks. thats the bad thing cuz i cant go over a friendshouse or anything cuz evry weekend ima gonna have to see my dad so yeah it really sucks.
i got alot of sleep today. i babysat last night. she drained all the energy outta me. but i think i told you already lol... i slept until 1130. which is really odd for me to sleep in that late. but i guess all the stress of everything is finally catching up to me.
i hope monica n carlos are good togther... even tho its hurting the hell out of me i juss gotta be happy. i like dan anyway so it shouldnt matter... idont have a chance with him tho.. well maybe i do..... ahhi have no idea. how do i make him go.. im so fuckin ugly no1 would wanna go with me.. thats why im not gunnaask him anything...scott juss told me it doesnt matter if you like someone to go to homecomign with them.. i have bio with him monday. maybe ill talk to him them

i have achurch thing tomorro. i getta be a puppet.. lol its the kickoff for sunday school.
hehe its gunna be fun. i love helpin out wit little kids...

oh yeah way off topic..
i was going threw all ym stuff and i found allll these notes from 6th greade on. lol.. wow ir ealyl cant sepll doday can i?? haha oh well
im so bored.. nothing to do.

no what i juss realized???? if i ever get hsi sn...... hell read this entry. wow im such a loser. lol

hi, i juss got home from babysitting and geeeeeeeze am i tired. i got payd $27 for 4 1/2 hrs. not thhat bad considering i swam and watched tv. lol. it was fun. today at the pep rally, i loved it. the whole go home freshman thing was hysterical. i cant wait for another one... i took a lot of pics sorta. i was right there where all the action took place. its sam siriani day!!!! lol... janna braided my hair during lucnh so i actually almost looked cute. lol.

i dont kno about sum stuff anymore i dont kno its confusing. i cant believe moni wrote in my journall... a post.. i really shouldnt be mad but i mean... i cant stop thikning about carlos
i tryed to call but well his dad was going to pick him up when i called, so yeha i dont kno. i realyl wanna talk to him... i guess ill havawait

Laur

WEll..... it was great today. it was fun. but not anymore...

TasteZLykECherrY: hi
BaseballPr3: hey whatsup
BaseballPr3: i transfered 2 estero
TasteZLykECherrY: what..
BaseballPr3: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: what about ft myers
BaseballPr3: it never panned out
TasteZLykECherrY: why not
BaseballPr3: cause i dunno juss didnt
TasteZLykECherrY: o..
TasteZLykECherrY: i see.
BaseballPr3: yh but im trying next year so yeh
TasteZLykECherrY: i see..
BaseballPr3: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: hum.
TasteZLykECherrY: so u saw moni today
TasteZLykECherrY: who else did yah see
BaseballPr3: scott
BaseballPr3: and.....britteny g.
BaseballPr3: brandey mason
BaseballPr3: and that was it
TasteZLykECherrY: whose brittney g
TasteZLykECherrY: my friend katie told me abou ther but i dont kno who that is
BaseballPr3: shes some ugly ass girl
TasteZLykECherrY: guess what! i have a D in biology!
BaseballPr3: u suck lrrl
BaseballPr3: i have a f
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: way to go1
BaseballPr3: and then they put me in like some ese science class
TasteZLykECherrY: @ estero?
BaseballPr3: yeh lrrl
TasteZLykECherrY: lol poor thing
BaseballPr3: so i feel all dumb now lol
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah well oh well
TasteZLykECherrY: u shoulda gone to ft myers
BaseballPr3: tru
TasteZLykECherrY: then u coulda seeeeeeeeen mE!!!!!!!!!!
BaseballPr3: o yes
TasteZLykECherrY: ill be @ estero i think on the 17th for an SGA thing
BaseballPr3: koo
TasteZLykECherrY: so mayeb ill see u:-):-):-):-):-):-)
BaseballPr3: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: os..
TasteZLykECherrY: so*
BaseballPr3: ossssss....
BaseballPr3: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: anyway
TasteZLykECherrY: u have alot of classes with moni....... :'
TasteZLykECherrY: :'(
BaseballPr3: and thats bad?
TasteZLykECherrY: well u got none wiht me
BaseballPr3: lol
BaseballPr3: what would i do go 2 ft myers jss for one classs lrrl
TasteZLykECherrY: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: juss for m
TasteZLykECherrY: e
BaseballPr3: lrrl
TasteZLykECherrY: hum
BaseballPr3: hum means ur thinking lol
TasteZLykECherrY: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: howd yah kno
BaseballPr3: what r u tihnking about?
BaseballPr3: im a geniud
BaseballPr3: genius*
TasteZLykECherrY: nuffin i guess
BaseballPr3: i c
TasteZLykECherrY: whats the GEXPOSFAn13's name again?????
BaseballPr3: micheal
TasteZLykECherrY: lol i forgot
TasteZLykECherrY: whast the last name
BaseballPr3: garzynski
TasteZLykECherrY: he voted for me lol i juss found that out.
BaseballPr3: thats koo
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: u should go to ft myers
BaseballPr3: i can opnly transfer once
TasteZLykECherrY: u picked the wrong school carlos!!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: oh, do u have n e classe with a girl named jamie lyn josie
BaseballPr3: i dunno i ws only there fo one class
TasteZLykECherrY: well shes a hoe
TasteZLykECherrY: if u go out wiht her i will never talk to u again
BaseballPr3: im going ou wih monica
TasteZLykECherrY: u are?
BaseballPr3: yuperz
TasteZLykECherrY: whend this happen
BaseballPr3: ike 5 minuts ago
TasteZLykECherrY: i thought seh was going out wiht garette
BaseballPr3: wit what/
BaseballPr3: wait*
BaseballPr3: well i hope ntot lol
TasteZLykECherrY: wellt hen..


everything was okay till now. why the fuck do i like him so much. it makes no sense. ahh i wish i coudl juss get over him cuz i mean its him. but i cant. he juss fills this lil space inside of me, its so pathetic,
i love him..... but i dont
i like this guy dan. hes in my bio class...
but i love him.

hi... well i won the election for secretary... i was really really happy about it.. well but i dunt kno. alot of people are so mad that i won instead of shannon... its not my fault.. i mean how immature can people be?
ppl are saying that i purposly bent over in my speech... and that i slept with half the freshman.. n that one of my goals is to sleep with 31 guys??? where do people get this!!!!!!!! also, people like ashley keyes are making up "slogans" like....."vote for me get sex for free"
do i REALLY come off as that?? but the stupid thing its people from dunbar.. no1 new except for this rraelly fat girl i dont kno her name but shes friends with ashley. erika is def. standin up for me cuz she knows as well as the poeple saying all of it, its not true.. julie was spreading the whole 31 guy thing n so toady i threw my agenda at her face and said to find it.... you shoulda seen her face. ppl standin thought i was guna get into a fist fight wit her lol
softball conditioning is mon-thurs 230-430.. im going to hurt soo bad lol im way outta shape. we gotta lift weights and everything. im not looking forward to that part cuz ima make a fool otuta muhself lol but thats ok. i ran 5 miles int he past 3 days.. yeah thats not really alot but i think for me it is..

i go to universal tomorro.! i kinda cant wait.. i dunno its not as..... thrilling anymore. maybe its cuz my mind is full of alot of things right now.... im brining up my grades tho. thats always a good thing. now i think i only have 2 Cs. lol.

I think i need to get away. i think i told you about the whole thing with carlos right?? ill check and if not ill write to tell youa bout it... hes on my mind alot lately i dont kno why. i kinda like one person . but im not sure. well its past 11. ima quit writing

HEEEEEEEEEY. omg sooooooo much has happ. i needa keep u informed lol... ok well ima runnin for secretary in sga. i think i have a chance @ winning but well im not so sure lol........ my speech was sooo long so i think that kinda hurt muh chanced. i like 2 ppl in highschool. pathetic right??? im finally single. again. wait, i think i told u that alreayd but lol oh well. ok there wasa jamboree on friday night and slept over jannas it was ooooooooooooo much fun. lol but anyways, @ the jamboree carlos was there. and yeah i wasa bein a lil social butterfly but i juss had to talk to him since he ignored me. im one of those ppl who cant standwhen ppl are mad. so yeah i went to talk to him n then i kinad yeah made otu with him. then he asked me out again and i told him if he really loved me hed wait. so he flipped out n said it was another guy so i walked away sayin think what you want. so then, he came over to me while i was sittin thre. and he started talking tome then brought up sex. i was llike HELL no!!!!!!!!!!
it ruined like the whole night. then some stupid kid threw a rock intoa window in my house on purpose n it shattered the window. so yeah my mom was all upset.... this whole thing about selling my house is soooooooooo getting to everyone. it hink i needa takea breather away from everything. softballconditioning starts on tueday. i need to geta physical. haha oh well..... i dunno what im thinkin anymore. everyhting is soooooo confusing. lots o ppl think im this lil slut girl when well im not. lol i dont do anything. lol... someitmes lol well hey im out. its almost 10 30 muh mommas mad!!!! i love you

mah.babi.boo_ carlos _ i l o v e yoo ! ! !



so much for loving him... this always fucking happens.. i fucking lvoed him

hey guys! the 2nd week of school is finally over. there is this really hott guy named kevon in my eco class. hes like.. ok i guess. lol i dunno seems like hed be cocky. oh well im over carlos. the stupid dick thiking i cheated on him. thats him. he juss lost something good. i had to beg to get online haha ive been grounded so yeah its aight i guess now. im going to sunsplash on sunday. i really cant wati cuz sum1 i really wanna see is gunna be there. wonder what will happen!!!!! hehehehe im talkin to muh friend erika n andit right now. andit is called pepito by me. he got that name from spanish. im running for secreaty for student governament. i think i spelled that wtrong but i relaly odnt care lol.... ok well im so tired i have to tell you about everyting going on with me because there is a lot that you need to know abotu and i need to tell something/sometone because my parents want to read my diary i actually write in with a pen so now thats only for emergencies when im thinkin about suicide or seomthing.
love yah bye

BaseballPr3: u kno i love you
TasteZLykECherrY: whatever u say
BaseballPr3: no lauren
BaseballPr3: seriuosly
BaseballPr3: i love you
TasteZLykECherrY: yep u love me so much u gotta think about jolee
BaseballPr3: one fucking day
BaseballPr3: 4 like one fucking period
BaseballPr3: not even like 5 minutes
TasteZLykECherrY: yep
BaseballPr3: juss forget jolee i told u about jolee cause i wanted 2 tell u i love you and i always think aboout u
TasteZLykECherrY: the sotry keeps changing
BaseballPr3: i think of u all the time
BaseballPr3: i dream about u
BaseballPr3: i wake up thinking about u
TasteZLykECherrY: haha yeah right
BaseballPr3: if this is how u think then im not gonna do this
TasteZLykECherrY: u n jolee
BaseballPr3: what about me n her
BaseballPr3: there is no me n her


i really dont know what to beilieve

anyway
iw ent to the movies last night. it was okay i guess.. kinda boring... school is finalyl a week over! YAY! lol.. i did my bio hw it was easy... kinda interesting lol i cant beileve i said that! HAHA i watched.. queer eye for a straight guy. it was odd

hi. school is fun. i have classes with juss about evry1 but ashley n janna lol... i eat lunch wit janna tho so thats a good thing. my fave. class is yrbook so far. i got the really mean teacher for bio. ahh i hope she dies or something lol... waking up @ 5 am is WAY to much for me.. im juss so... AHHH i wanna go to bed lol omg i wanna go to bed!but i still gotta take a shower!!!!!!!! ok well im going im talking to carlos.
muah!

omg! school starts tomorro! im soooooooooooooo excited and im nervous! i went to the movies friday.. kinda sucked.. alexa dumped me for chad.. again! but oh well.. i chilled with michael kelly n his friends. i love carlos! he finally gotta cell.. haha! i dont kkno what to waer! im in such a crisis!!! soooooooo many choices! i dyed my hair too so i dont kno what looks good on me anymore! oh no!!!!!!! ok well im out lol.... ill tell you alllll about school!
Muah!

what the fucking fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE ALL YOU FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know what the fuck peoples problems are!!!!!! i dont even fucking give a shit anymore about any of this shit! i mean today started great now its juss shit agin

TasteZLykECherrY: u were there and u didnt tell me
BaseballPr3: fuck u bitch
TasteZLykECherrY: oh god who the fuck is this now!

isnt that nice??? its juss perfect isnt it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
isnt it!!!

im so fucking cold right now! ive had the chills all day and yesturday i didnt feel good either. w.e the hell is going on with me i dont care. i juss hope it fucking ends with my life or somethign

lol! its the same day i know but im taking quizzes! look!!!!!

hilarious: you are as funny as the cheekiest guys
in class and know everything thats happening on
TV and all the hot places to chill. you aren't
a typical bubblegum princess, you pride
yourself on your musical picks and your
attitude. sometimes you get carried away and
often get scolded for that, but otherwise if
people want to have fun then you're the person
they'll come to! you can be as girlie as
britney when you're in the mood and as hard
assed as pink when you want. your mates love
you for being so; fun, interesting and
unpredictable, you go girl!


what kind of girl are you?
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You represent... kindness.
You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual.
You truely care about people and are generally
well-liked. Though sometimes you may be
perceived as weak, you truely have a strong
heart and a good desire to help others.


What feeling do you represent?
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
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you are the "I hate you so bad" happy
bunny. You hate everyone and eveything and your
not ashamed of it.


which happy bunny are you?
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your bitch.


What swear word are you?
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You charming girl, you're Rose McGowan.


What sexy girl are you
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Hullo. i was outside for like an hour n 15 mins. n gotta really nice tan. yay! i got nothinto do today!!!!! tomorrow is the open house for ftmyers! i cant wait to go. itll be lots of fun! pappy is gunna take me to subway then takin me to the thing since both of my parents are working. i talked to alexa!!!!!!! ihavnt talked to her for like a month or so. we caught up! lol. lenny came hoem yesturday. i gotta call him but i think i forget his phn # haha! well im out! ~MuAh!~


Raver Bear


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well today was different. my friend got arrested. i cant say who but i mean the lady was such a bitch,they accidenly walked out of the store after they carried the thing around for 20 mins then lied and said she had to chase after us. this happened at the mall. im in just a blah mood. i juss feel like crying. i dont know why either. its a stupid feeling... i dont even kno why im bothering about it. i got a cute swim suit @ american eagle today. i guess thats a good thing. i want to move so bad, i wanna be closer to my friends. ashley is really mad @ me tho... i lied to her about something that i didnt want her to kno so i told her something else and now shes mad because i didnt tell her what really happened. i have no classes with anyone i know, im juss having a bad day ever since i got home i guess. jake got back from the keys today. he called me it was nice to talk to him after over a month. here lemme show u the words to the song im listenig to
There's a song that's inside of my soul
Its the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I will wake in the end when it calls
But you sing to me over and over and over again

Chorus:
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving you all

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours i pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

i wanna cry so bad right now... i dont know what im thinking... i dont know anymore.. i just dont kno...

Hey!!! i might getta cell phone this week! im sooo happy. my mom is finally giving in! yay! this is like the best! im so hpapy that im gettin one!!! ill have to let evry1 know of the #!!!!!!! i want long dist. all the time but hey a cell phn is a cell phn and is better than none right??? i decorated a n/b for school with magazine stuff earlier.. it loox prittttttttty cool. im @ the library right now incase you needed to know and the guy like 2 seats down keeps loking at me.. did i tellyou i got my hair cut?? it is waaaaay too short. i cant stand it. i wanna like put hair extensions on. i like broke a pair of my pants today.i liked them too.. i jus shave to sew a button on i guess to fix them. ok well im out!
i love carlos!

im finally home. YAY!!!!!!!!! im so happy. im soo tired of someone elses house. i dunno if u get that but lol still. i got my hair cute today. it was cute when i got it cut but im not sure abot it now. lol ohhh well. im watching a movie about some online perverts. i neva wanna talk to strangers. lol they are scary.... i have to pee!!!!! lol i lvoe being home!!! i talked to carlos last night.. he was supposed to clal me tonight but he.. didnt. im havin moni n ash sleep over ifthey can. that'll be fun! oh yeah! guess waht! the bottom floor of my new house has cement in it now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lucky my hosue! i cant wait to move in!1 oh yeah other big news!! my house will hopefull be do0ne by halloween cuz they are ahead of schedule!!!!!! school starts in less then 2 weeks. im not looking forward to it considering i have to wake up @ 6 10 in the mornin. ok well, im out
love yah much muah!

omg libs is on my nerves! specially all the shit about her period! no one cares! im going to emilys party soon! ima go get ready!
i wanna ride in Alex's car!! ahhhh hes hott. ok im done! love yah much1

HeY! i WeNt To LuNcH wItH mY mOm N lIbByS mOm ToDaY! i GoT tHiS rEaLlY gOoD pAsTa StUfF. MoMmY iS tAkInG mE n LiB tO tHe MaLl ToMoRrOw. I aM gOiNg To BuY mOrE cLoThEs ThAt I dOnT nEeD. ok that is taking too long to type like that. i loev carlos sooo much. i dunno why i do. libby is on the phone with amy i think. im not sure. were prolyl gunna do stuff wit her today.. i hope so i havnt seen her in forever and a day! my mom is like... i dunno... diffrent...for some reason shes mean on this trip kinda... OH GUESS WHAT! i finally got my steeler jersey ive been wanting. i got bettis. id rather have maddox but i got the running back so i guess thats good right??? maddox is bttter i think lol. i kinda wnana go home because i wanna juss lay in my bed n look @ muh pupster n talk on the phn with NO interuptions.. i guess its hard to understand that. i like the chaos of my sisters i cant believe i said that lol!!! i gave myself a french manicre yesturdya. it looks pretty damn good. i also got sum clothes. the khaki pants ar really tyte on my ass but well.. they fit the waist n that sreally what i care about cuz i got 3s in the other thing and they still have ALOT of room for me in the waist lol but my ass is squished in those too!! i cant win lol. im size like.. 2 lol.. my moms wedding dress was a size 4.. she was reall small so i wanna fit into her dress so i gotta watch how big i am cuz i LOVED hers n she said tha first to get married can have her dress if they fit into it.. itll be a passa down the dress sort of ordeal.. i like my journal thing.. im hapyp i read kimmis!!!! i havnt really talked to her tho... i dunno if she wants to tlak to me @ all.. oooh well whn i get back to florida ill find out.
My ass if liek wo
my bodys like wo
my kis sis like wo
my touch is like wo
my sex is like wo

why does everyone think im a slut??? some one one other day told me that!! HEY ITS AMANDA BANE!!! again lol. aaand ashley! SLUTS!! well not amanda but ashley.. she periced her nose! ahhit looks like a zit. but hey im out! bye!