TasteZLykECherrY: hey hun
GEXPOSFAN13: hi\
TasteZLykECherrY: did yah like the thing about 007??
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: who was thatrT
TasteZLykECherrY: that was so great
TasteZLykECherrY: u actually think its about 007?
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: but i was like omg we were all like wut a dumb girl lol
GEXPOSFAN13: who was that ?
TasteZLykECherrY: why was she so dumb
TasteZLykECherrY: one of muh best friends lol
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: no seriously, why was she so dumb
TasteZLykECherrY: ??
TasteZLykECherrY: ?/????
GEXPOSFAN13: because she was the only one tro say anthinin
GEXPOSFAN13: g
TasteZLykECherrY: hun , its not about 007
GEXPOSFAN13: i know
GEXPOSFAN13: god
TasteZLykECherrY: its about mtv stuff
GEXPOSFAN13: soounds grand
TasteZLykECherrY: n everyone at the meetings said.."if they pull you out say its about 007"
TasteZLykECherrY: cuz they filmed us talking about "007"
GEXPOSFAN13: was that u ?
GEXPOSFAN13: it was u on tv wasnt it
TasteZLykECherrY: um yeah.. i juss woke up so i didnt kno what was talking about...
GEXPOSFAN13: wut?
GEXPOSFAN13: u were the one oon the tv
GEXPOSFAN13: ?
TasteZLykECherrY: TasteZLykECherrY: um yeah.. i juss woke up so i didnt kno what was talking about...
GEXPOSFAN13: just woke up?
GEXPOSFAN13: wutever hey i gtg
GEXPOSFAN13: bye
TasteZLykECherrY: sure
GEXPOSFAN13: talk to u later
TasteZLykECherrY: why not
TasteZLykECherrY: now im fukn pissed
TasteZLykECherrY: bye
GEXPOSFAN13: why?
GEXPOSFAN13: are u mad?
GEXPOSFAN13: ?
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah. you called me fukn dumb when thats what i was supposed to do
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: so sry
GEXPOSFAN13: well at least i ddint call out ho
GEXPOSFAN13: when i saw u on tv
TasteZLykECherrY: what
GEXPOSFAN13: thats wut one girl said in my bio class shes like omg tht girl is the bigggest slut
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: im like who is it
TasteZLykECherrY: who said that
TasteZLykECherrY: ??
GEXPOSFAN13: some girl
GEXPOSFAN13: in my bio class
TasteZLykECherrY: give me a name
GEXPOSFAN13: i dont know
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah u do
GEXPOSFAN13: i just got in to a new bio class last week
TasteZLykECherrY: see thats why i hate people
TasteZLykECherrY: did she have black hair
GEXPOSFAN13: i dont know everyones name yet
TasteZLykECherrY: was it..ashley keyes?
GEXPOSFAN13: um
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: ashley is kool
TasteZLykECherrY: what color hai
GEXPOSFAN13: and shes not in my bio class
TasteZLykECherrY: hair*
GEXPOSFAN13: i thnk blonde
TasteZLykECherrY: tall?? short?? from dunbar??
TasteZLykECherrY: thats nice.. im the biggest slut
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: i want outta ft myers so fukn bad i hate it there
GEXPOSFAN13: from dunbar ya
TasteZLykECherrY: sara meadors
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
GEXPOSFAN13: that name rings a bell
GEXPOSFAN13: i thnk it may be her
TasteZLykECherrY: oh looky there i got it right?
TasteZLykECherrY: is sh tall
TasteZLykECherrY: she**
GEXPOSFAN13: im not totlay sure
GEXPOSFAN13: but the name sounds familiar
GEXPOSFAN13: um
GEXPOSFAN13: i dunno
GEXPOSFAN13: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: ...
GEXPOSFAN13: hey
GEXPOSFAN13: i gtg tlak to u later
GEXPOSFAN13: bye
TasteZLykECherrY: wow hum bye
GEXPOSFAN13: hum?
TasteZLykECherrY: look iget why u wont talk to me
TasteZLykECherrY: but ok
TasteZLykECherrY: sure
GEXPOSFAN13: why?
GEXPOSFAN13: dont i tlak to u ?
TasteZLykECherrY: once i said i was me.. yer like..
"oh i gottag o!"
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: no
GEXPOSFAN13: i need ot take a shower
GEXPOSFAN13: i had lifting today
GEXPOSFAN13: and im guna go take a nap
GEXPOSFAN13: k
GEXPOSFAN13: and by the way i thought u looked pretty hot
TasteZLykECherrY: haha no
GEXPOSFAN13: but thats just my opinion and im sure u dont care
GEXPOSFAN13: so
TasteZLykECherrY: why wouldnt i care
GEXPOSFAN13: um
GEXPOSFAN13: u sure dont seem like u would
TasteZLykECherrY: how
GEXPOSFAN13: nvm
GEXPOSFAN13: u just dont
TasteZLykECherrY: um ok..
TasteZLykECherrY: do i really seem like a slut
GEXPOSFAN13: i havent tlaked to u in person
GEXPOSFAN13: but hey i gtg
GEXPOSFAN13: k
TasteZLykECherrY: by.
GEXPOSFAN13: bye
GEXPOSFAN13 signed off at 4:19:07 PM.
muh god. i really cant stand people. the people that came from dunbar need o go fuk themselves. i really cant stand any of hem anymore. i wanna juss take a knife n mutilate them into tiny little pieces to match the broken pieces in my mind n heart. i hope every1 fukn dies
::
2003 5 October :: 8.45am
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: whatever is on the tv
TasteZLykECherrY: heyheyheyehyey
ThIz RaP gAmE: hi
ThIz RaP gAmE: hold on
ThIz RaP gAmE: hey baby whats up
TasteZLykECherrY: nuthin
TasteZLykECherrY: im juss sittin here
ThIz RaP gAmE: kool
ThIz RaP gAmE: did u find ur pw
TasteZLykECherrY: no.... but i was going to get new pics this week..
ThIz RaP gAmE: really
TasteZLykECherrY: really...
ThIz RaP gAmE: nice
TasteZLykECherrY: sure i guess
ThIz RaP gAmE: did you take them?
TasteZLykECherrY: i am tomorro.. no school
ThIz RaP gAmE: ohh ok same here
ThIz RaP gAmE: send them tomorrow?
TasteZLykECherrY: i will try
ThIz RaP gAmE: alright
TasteZLykECherrY: am i ever gunna see u agn
ThIz RaP gAmE: i really dont know
ThIz RaP gAmE: i would hope so
ThIz RaP gAmE: why do u ask
TasteZLykECherrY: beccause i really wnana see u
ThIz RaP gAmE: lauren
ThIz RaP gAmE: do you have a bf
TasteZLykECherrY: nope
ThIz RaP gAmE: do you like anyone at your school or do u have ur heart set on someone?
TasteZLykECherrY: nope
ThIz RaP gAmE: are you sure
TasteZLykECherrY: lol im pretty easy goin irght now
TasteZLykECherrY: i really like u but yeah im never gunna seeu
ThIz RaP gAmE: i know same with me
ThIz RaP gAmE: i dont like ne one its really weird
TasteZLykECherrY: lol i kno
ThIz RaP gAmE: but when i talk to u i feel different
ThIz RaP gAmE: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: usually i have a list
ThIz RaP gAmE: shit same here
TasteZLykECherrY: n ash is like.. lauren theres sumpthin wrong lol
ThIz RaP gAmE: heh
TasteZLykECherrY: its odd
ThIz RaP gAmE: yea
TasteZLykECherrY: hum
TasteZLykECherrY: whys it diff when u talk to me
ThIz RaP gAmE: i dont know i feel....just different, cant explain it
ThIz RaP gAmE: like like umm no other girl matters to me
ThIz RaP gAmE: in the world.....
TasteZLykECherrY: awww!!
ThIz RaP gAmE: like ur the only one
TasteZLykECherrY: nah yer juss kiddin lol
ThIz RaP gAmE: no im not lauren
ThIz RaP gAmE: i wouldnt lie to you
TasteZLykECherrY: :-D:-D no whats weird.. lol we really only talked in person... twice
ThIz RaP gAmE: i know
TasteZLykECherrY: :-):-)
omg i love carson! lol ill prolly never see him aain but!! YAY im in really good mood. i have been. my house is almost done!! HOOORAY!!!!
i love everything right now. ilove it when my life juss flutters..like a butterfly n nothing can matter. illove it. itll all change lol so it really shouldnt matter that i feel this way.. i love feeling liekthis.. i havnt felt happy.. in a long time
i love you! MuahMuah!
were celebrating my lil sisters bday... alll week lol i swear.. well, lets se... friday night was the football game i really wanted to go but i couldnt get a ride beecause it was my lil sisters 13th bday!! aww shes getting so old. lol now me n muh sisters are... 13 14 n 15... wow thats pretty odd... odd is a cool word.. anyway,
i went to the mall on saturday n i found the CUTEST swimsuits at gadzooks but yeah i wanted to show my mom and i jjuss shoulda bought it because we never went back! grr i was mad.. it was sooo xheapp too!! omg u got no idea... i think im oging o the mall tomorro since there no shcool. thank god. i am sooo sick of school. i dont know why.. well actually i do. lol... i said hhi to erika today online.. she was being nice the 2 timing bitch. . im trying to see if someone wants to go tomorro with me. i really wanna hook up wit muh frinds this weekend. brandon had to close the store yesturday so yeah.. he wanted to og the movies with me his weekend. but i gues plans.. change.. ill haveto update later. i have to try on this shirt my lil sister got from american eagle. im going to wear it alot. lol she might as well let me buy it off her beaue i like it..... (shes reading as i type so .. **hint hint**) lol
i love yah MUAH!
leave me messages if u wanna be nice
i get my celly next weekened!! YAY!!
Laur
ZITRO89: y arnt u @ the game
TasteZLykECherrY: becase i cant ok...
ZITRO89: wats wrong
TasteZLykECherrY: y rnt u there
ZITRO89: im still a little bit sick
ZITRO89: and my mom said she wants me to feel better
TasteZLykECherrY: that makes sense
ZITRO89: ya
TasteZLykECherrY: read the latest jrnl entry..... www.woohu.com/~playachika
TasteZLykECherrY: ..
ZITRO89: who is that person
ZITRO89: Ekika?
TasteZLykECherrY: erika latt
TasteZLykECherrY: i dont kno where she got any of that
ZITRO89: oh
ZITRO89: ya
ZITRO89: not all that is true
TasteZLykECherrY: not all?
TasteZLykECherrY: dont u mean.. any
ZITRO89: did u ask this chick if u should give a hot guy a blow job for his b-day
TasteZLykECherrY: no
ZITRO89: alot of peeps say shit behind ur back
ZITRO89: none of it is true
ZITRO89: ok
TasteZLykECherrY: wht else do they say that youve heard
ZITRO89: they call u a slut
ZITRO89: hor
ZITRO89: and alot of other crap
TasteZLykECherrY: who... just give me an idea
ZITRO89: i just hear this in the halls
ZITRO89: ive told u before
TasteZLykECherrY: how do u kno there talking about me
ZITRO89: sometimes I walk around and listen to otha people and the say ur name
ZITRO89: they
TasteZLykECherrY: wow... this is why i really hate life
ZITRO89: dont hate life
ZITRO89: do u kno how many people made fun of me and called me all of these names last year
ZITRO89: most of my skool
ZITRO89: i didnt listen and let it go in one ear and out the other
ZITRO89: thats wat u need to do
TasteZLykECherrY: i cant do that ok
TasteZLykECherrY: i just cant
i hate school. i hate ft myers.. i hate evrything.. i cant stand anything or anyone again. i really need to get some help.. u hate these lows and highs.,.. i hate it all.... jesus wish people would change.. maybe i should juss change myself..
TasteZLykECherrY: wtf is yer problem
Ekika14: lauren im seriously not even gonna get into this w/ u if u dont give a shit then y r u bothering
TasteZLykECherrY: lol get into it
TasteZLykECherrY: i want to know wtf you have to say
Ekika14: lauren from what ive heard about u...u r the last person i would want to be friends w/ if u need to tell ppl u have aids to see who ure real friends are then first of all ure gay! and if u need to kno if u should give a hot guy a blow job for his birthday than i think thats a little dirrty! and if u need to sound suicidal to get attention than thats pretty lame! and when i see u in the hallway y is it that u need to be all over a guy! do u not kno what ppl say about u behind ure back! n when u got all upset
Ekika14: about it when they were running their mouths when u won secretary u should have done something about it but u sat there and let them say their crap..y didnt u just not prove what they were saying insteading of walking around and being all over the guys
TasteZLykECherrY: im not all over guys
TasteZLykECherrY: where did u get all that shit from
TasteZLykECherrY: ashley keyes?
Ekika14: that bull lauren n u kno it cuz im not the only person that sees it
Ekika14: no
TasteZLykECherrY: alot of ppl frrom dubar dint likeme
Ekika14: it doesnt matter who i got it from i heard it from more than one person
TasteZLykECherrY: lol thats funny
TasteZLykECherrY: for you to believe other people then me
TasteZLykECherrY: sound suicidal for attention?
TasteZLykECherrY: ikno who said taht one
Ekika14: what does that have to do w/ anything cuz a lot of ppl dont like u anyway....y shouldnt i believe them ive been friends w/ the ppl i heard it from longer than u so i could trust them more
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: sure ok
TasteZLykECherrY: i kno alot that dont like u either
Ekika14: yah but i dont do shit to get ppls attention...u kno like tell them i have aids or hang all over their boyfriends so i really dont care
TasteZLykECherrY: what are u talking about!!!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: who even has a boyfriend!!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: i dont hang on anyone
TasteZLykECherrY: cuz i really dont like n e guys at our school n e more
Ekika14: w/e lauren i kno u hang on guys n i dont have to hear it from anyone cuz ppl see it
TasteZLykECherrY: like who!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: please tell me
Ekika14: y the hell owuld i kno their names do u want me to walk up n be like r u the one lauren was maulling earlier in the hallway o by the way whats ure name
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: thats funny
TasteZLykECherrY: go ahead
TasteZLykECherrY: look sweety, you dont know anything about me
TasteZLykECherrY: you HEAR stuff about me but it doesnt mean its the truth
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah you might hear alot, from different people, but rumers do go to more than one person
Ekika14: lauren u freaking asked me if u should give head to someone as their birthday present how the hell r u going to tell me that u didnt say that
TasteZLykECherrY: lol..
Ekika14: yah but lauren ppl who WERE ure friends and all tell me all the say the same story...how r u going to tell me they r lying
TasteZLykECherrY: lol..
TasteZLykECherrY: who WEREE my friends dont mean they are anymore
TasteZLykECherrY: you think i dont kno who says this stuff
TasteZLykECherrY: everything always gets back to me
TasteZLykECherrY: thats how i kno u called me a slut on....wednsday
Ekika14: wow o ure now
Ekika14: o u mean from jenna
Ekika14: i told her she could tell u
TasteZLykECherrY: but u couldnt even say it to my face
TasteZLykECherrY: thts like eileen i kno ye friends with her
TasteZLykECherrY: she couldnt tell me what she tought to my face.. but oculd tell me someowhere n someone else
Ekika14: o hunni if u want me to call u a slut to ure face i would be more than happy too
TasteZLykECherrY: go head
Ekika14: i dont even kno eileen sweety so shows how much u kno about me
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah, you do
TasteZLykECherrY: ive seen u talking to her
Ekika14: ok considering i dont kno her but w/e
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah w/e thats all you can sya
TasteZLykECherrY: 8say
TasteZLykECherrY: *say
Ekika14: yah cuz i dont kno who she is what do u want me to do lie n i say i kno her
TasteZLykECherrY: um no.
Ekika14: no im sorry that would make me look like u...like i want attention
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah thats right
TasteZLykECherrY: i crave attentiion
Ekika14: obviously
TasteZLykECherrY: did u say u wanted to fight me
LeenyGurl77: who is this?
LeenyGurl77: is this monica?
TasteZLykECherrY: no
TasteZLykECherrY: lauren
LeenyGurl77: lauren who?
TasteZLykECherrY: smith
LeenyGurl77: ohh no lol why would i fight you?
TasteZLykECherrY: dont kno
TasteZLykECherrY: thats what someone told me
TasteZLykECherrY: n i didnt wanna say anything to anyone before i knew what was goin on
LeenyGurl77: lol well neither do i
LeenyGurl77: well i didnt know that and no i dont hate you and no i dont wanna fight you
LeenyGurl77: and i think you did tell
LeenyGurl77: but its over and done with so whatever
TasteZLykECherrY: lol u really think i told someone?
TasteZLykECherrY: as far as anyone besides freshman at the meeting kno, were doin 007
LeenyGurl77: yeah your friend or something but this is so old why are you still talking about it?
TasteZLykECherrY: uh i didnt bring it up
TasteZLykECherrY: you ddi
TasteZLykECherrY: did*
LeenyGurl77: what the hell?! you imed me
LeenyGurl77: isnt that what this was all about?
TasteZLykECherrY: what.. i juss wanted to kno if u told ppl u wanted to fight me.
LeenyGurl77: nope
TasteZLykECherrY: well then i didnt bring anything up
LeenyGurl77: ok lol my bad
thats so.... ahh i juss wanna scream. why do people actually think i told?? and i didnt bring it up, she did. whatever
i think its funny tho. people think so badly of me. hum,. i dont even kno what i did to epoepl. they juss gotta get over it i guess
omg..... it going around that i fucked brandon!!!!!! fuck this shit. everyone needs to go to fukn hell im not aslut sorry to disappoint ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!! yah kno? i might as well fuck someone juss to do it. to make it stop being shit. i mean guys want it. i dotn give it. i dont get it!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELP!
::
2003 26 September :: 3.29am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: whistle while you twerk
HEyHeyHey!!!!!!!
well i really havnt been keeping up wit this thing. well now lets see here...... yesturday sucked ass. i started wrigin but then my mom got to my grandmas house so i hada hurry up n get off.
im going to homecoming with brandon.... i think. i dunno he says im distant but w.e... people still think i told him what our skit was about. as far as anyone other than a freshman is concerned, the theme is 007.
uhh...... we move this weekend! haha im not looking forward to it. hum oh well. i juss started talking to carlos last night after the whole big thing that happ. haha oh well... i wanna go have sum fun, lol im sooo fukn bored. there is like nuthint oday. it was my last day on bus 298 :'( i liked that bus too!!!!!!!! min goes to tina on i think onday.. i dont wanna let her go!! but hey tinas havin aparty so yeah maybe sumpthin will happen!!!! yah neva kno!! haha.... school kinda sux at the moment.. i think already told you but i guess itll be better... all people ever do is bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch!! i mean im sick of it but what the hell. i shouldnt even care. k well im done for now. i wanna go to the movies this weekend but i dont think im allowed because i went last wweekedn and saw cabin fever. omg thats like the best movie lol.. me n janna couldnt stop laughing when we saw the esaster bunny at the end. i saw colllins hair!!!!!!!! he lokos better with hair lol chad was actually not that bad looking but i dont kno why i even pay attention to that boy anymore... hahah i mean we NEEVR talk n hed still prolly hang up on me! oh that reminds me. sameer juss called me out of the blue yesturday. lol wonder whats goin on?? hummmmmmmm????????????????? ok well i think im finally done.. now ... or am i?? uhh whatever ill try to write in here more often. i wrote in my other diary thing the one i actually use pen tho. oh yeah
someone wants to have sex with me this weekend. imean im 14... guys are gay. lol i said id go over his hosue tho!! my sister thinks my icon makes me look like a slut! the one on aim... same with the sn... tastezlykecherry..
nothing is that bad about it enless u gotta sick mind! SETH finlally has my sn!! he was like..."what tastes like cherry" lol bye
::
2003 19 September :: 4.58am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: a bc's
TasteZLykECherrY: hey
GreenWaveGurl32: hey
GreenWaveGurl32: wats up ?
TasteZLykECherrY: nuthin
TasteZLykECherrY: wut cha doin tonight
GreenWaveGurl32: i dunt know yet
GreenWaveGurl32: u ?
GreenWaveGurl32: i dont think anythin....
GreenWaveGurl32: cause im goin out 2 moro
TasteZLykECherrY: ooh
GreenWaveGurl32: u?
TasteZLykECherrY: nuthin that i kno if
GreenWaveGurl32: ooo
GreenWaveGurl32: so r u talk in to brandon lamb?
TasteZLykECherrY: what
TasteZLykECherrY: hes on? lol
GreenWaveGurl32: ???/talkin*
GreenWaveGurl32: no i mean like
GreenWaveGurl32: talkin to him.....
TasteZLykECherrY: yah
GreenWaveGurl32: oo i c
GreenWaveGurl32: i heard u guys liked kissed on the bus ? lol
TasteZLykECherrY: who did u hear that from
GreenWaveGurl32: i dunt know i heard it in the hall
TasteZLykECherrY: from who.
TasteZLykECherrY: when
TasteZLykECherrY: what grade was the person in
GreenWaveGurl32: lol i dunt know
GreenWaveGurl32: i think a sophmore
TasteZLykECherrY: this really pisses me off
GreenWaveGurl32: these gurl ttalkin baout it
GreenWaveGurl32: about*
TasteZLykECherrY: so they said i kissed him on the bus??
GreenWaveGurl32: in the hall
GreenWaveGurl32: yah,....
TasteZLykECherrY: lol we didnt even take abus
GreenWaveGurl32: oo
TasteZLykECherrY: lol!!!!!! do i kno these girls
GreenWaveGurl32: well theyt said u kissed on the way some were
GreenWaveGurl32: ]i dont know????????????
TasteZLykECherrY: lol when was this
TasteZLykECherrY: are u sure they said my name
GreenWaveGurl32: like durin... pasiin to lunch
GreenWaveGurl32: they said lauren smith
GreenWaveGurl32: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: oh well lol thats me
GreenWaveGurl32: ud be surprised how fast things
GreenWaveGurl32: go around schoool
GreenWaveGurl32: lol!
GreenWaveGurl32: specially in high school
TasteZLykECherrY: lol but i seriously didnt kiss him going anywhere
GreenWaveGurl32: oo lol
GreenWaveGurl32: ddid u guys do anythin
GreenWaveGurl32: ?
TasteZLykECherrY: well i did going before the bell rang yesturday
TasteZLykECherrY: n today at my locker
GreenWaveGurl32: wat?
TasteZLykECherrY: oh awit, beisiide bio
GreenWaveGurl32: wat r u taalkin about?
GreenWaveGurl32: lol?
GreenWaveGurl32: wat about thesse places....
TasteZLykECherrY: oh! thats where we kissed
this is funny. lol we didnt ride a bus. i dont even kno like ANY sophmores. how do they eeb kno my name
TasteZLykEKandY: BaseballPr3 (3:06:32 PM): e?
TasteZLykEKandY (3:06:41 PM): sry u kept imin me when i was talkin to someone
BaseballPr3 (3:06:45 PM): ook lol
BaseballPr3 (3:07:03 PM): so whatsup
TasteZLykEKandY (3:07:30 PM): nm
BaseballPr3 (3:07:35 PM): koo
BaseballPr3 (3:07:59 PM): no1s home im all by myself and alll alone
TasteZLykEKandY (3:08:06 PM): o
TasteZLykEKandY (3:08:16 PM): y dont u have some chic go ova there
BaseballPr3 (3:08:31 PM): i dunno
TasteZLykEKandY (3:08:37 PM): since ur single n all....
BaseballPr3 (3:08:44 PM): r u trying 2 rub it in here
TasteZLykEKandY (3:09:01 PM): i dont kno what ur talkn about
BaseballPr3 (3:09:22 PM): well y would i when the onmly girl i like likes some1 else
TasteZLykEKandY (3:09:38 PM): well i'm sry to hear about that
BaseballPr3 (3:09:45 PM): whats ur prob?
TasteZLykEKandY (3:09:52 PM): nottin
BaseballPr3 (3:10:00 PM): somethings bothering u ur being all gay
TasteZLykEKandY (3:10:08 PM): o i'm sry
TasteZLykEKandY (3:10:21 PM): dont mean to be gay n all
TasteZLykEKandY (3:10:27 PM): nottins botherin me
BaseballPr3 (3:10:50 PM): ok?
BaseballPr3 (3:10:55 PM): so u like garret huh?
TasteZLykEKandY (3:11:15 PM): well i am goin to homecomin wit him
BaseballPr3 (3:11:25 PM): well do u like him?
TasteZLykEKandY (3:11:37 PM): i dono
BaseballPr3 (3:11:47 PM): its ok if u do im not gonna like cry or nething lrrl
BaseballPr3 (3:11:52 PM): pull off a lauren
TasteZLykEKandY (3:11:55 PM): haha
TasteZLykEKandY (3:12:00 PM): well i seriously donno
BaseballPr3 (3:12:08 PM): do u like me?
TasteZLykEKandY (3:12:17 PM): i donno
TasteZLykEKandY (3:12:23 PM): i did
BaseballPr3 (3:12:36 PM): what happened
BaseballPr3 (3:12:44 PM): u went from obsessive 2 like ignoring me
TasteZLykEKandY (3:12:45 PM): u kept pissin me off
BaseballPr3 (3:12:54 PM): and i kept saying sry
BaseballPr3 (3:12:57 PM): i didnt mean nething i said
BaseballPr3 (3:13:17 PM): i mean ive liked u4eva do u think i would try and jussget u mad
TasteZLykEKandY (3:13:21 PM): well it was ok the first time n then i forgave u but then u kpet on doin it when u knew it pissed me off the first time
BaseballPr3 (3:13:36 PM): tru
BaseballPr3 (3:13:46 PM): well hwo come u never talked 2 me about it
BaseballPr3 (3:13:51 PM): i kept asking and u never told me
TasteZLykEKandY (3:13:59 PM): cuz u have to figure things out urself
BaseballPr3 (3:14:05 PM): im carlos
BaseballPr3 (3:14:08 PM): come on now
BaseballPr3 (3:14:13 PM): i cant figure nething out
TasteZLykEKandY (3:14:32 PM): well ur gonna have to learn how to do that then ur a big boy now u can do things by urself
BaseballPr3 (3:14:53 PM): c wtf is that supposed 2 mean
TasteZLykEKandY (3:15:11 PM): it means u couldve figured it out...
BaseballPr3 (3:15:20 PM): and i didn
BaseballPr3 (3:15:21 PM): didnt*
TasteZLykEKandY (3:15:32 PM): i mean it was obvious!!! i told u what u did the first time
TasteZLykEKandY (3:15:45 PM): then i heard shit then u kept sayin shit then u lied to me
BaseballPr3 (3:15:50 PM): well im sry
BaseballPr3 (3:16:11 PM): cause i didnt want u 2 get mad at me
BaseballPr3 (3:16:32 PM): and then i slipped
TasteZLykEKandY (3:17:15 PM): well i dont care! if i already kno what u said then ur denieing it! i mean wtf u knew i knew n even if u tried to talk me out of it i would still kno u said that cuz the person that told me wouldnt lie about somethin like that... it was the fact that u lied to me! i cant stand that!
BaseballPr3 (3:17:39 PM): well i didnt wanna loose u
TasteZLykEKandY (3:18:00 PM): then u break up wit when all u keep sayn is u ddint wanna loose me
TasteZLykEKandY (3:18:09 PM): u think u put this on urself
BaseballPr3 (3:18:10 PM): cause u were gonna dump me neways
TasteZLykEKandY (3:18:45 PM): well obviously u dont care so i should've...
BaseballPr3 (3:18:53 PM): i did care
TasteZLykEKandY (3:19:02 PM): umm ok
BaseballPr3 (3:19:12 PM): god u were like half the reason i transfered
TasteZLykEKandY (3:19:21 PM): o
TasteZLykEKandY (3:19:24 PM): well thanx
BaseballPr3 (3:19:37 PM): i was gonna stay at dunbar and then u called me and i started liking u and i decided 2 go there
TasteZLykEKandY (3:19:54 PM): well then since u dont like me nemore u can leave
TasteZLykEKandY (3:20:03 PM): since thats the only reason u came
BaseballPr3 (3:20:12 PM): whos says i dont like u nemore
TasteZLykEKandY (3:20:27 PM): well u dump me.. thast showin how much u like me right there
TasteZLykEKandY (3:20:39 PM): then u take the pics and handed them to me
BaseballPr3 (3:20:45 PM): cause
BaseballPr3 (3:21:11 PM): i felt like u were gonna dump me and i knew it was gonna hurt worse if u did it 2 me so i decided id suck it up and do it
TasteZLykEKandY (3:21:14 PM): u kno what it doesnt even mattter nemore
TasteZLykEKandY (3:21:19 PM): i hate argueing!
BaseballPr3 (3:21:31 PM): it still matters 2 me
TasteZLykEKandY (3:21:44 PM): well i dont feel like talkin about it
TasteZLykEKandY (3:21:54 PM): its leading nowhere
TasteZLykEKandY (3:21:58 PM): thast how all fights r
BaseballPr3 (3:22:04 PM): who says were fighting
TasteZLykEKandY (3:22:18 PM): and i dont wanna yell at u
TasteZLykEKandY (3:22:26 PM): well i've been pretty pissed
BaseballPr3 (3:22:34 PM): and i understand i was an ass
BaseballPr3 (3:22:45 PM): i dunno i juss felt like i wasnt good enough 4 u i mean im caelosa
BaseballPr3 (3:22:47 PM): carlos*
BaseballPr3 (3:22:53 PM): yeh im caelosa
TasteZLykEKandY (3:22:54 PM): caelosa haha
BaseballPr3 (3:22:59 PM): lol
BaseballPr3 (3:23:18 PM): and i didnt think there was ne way i could get u but i came 2 estero juss 2 b around u
BaseballPr3 (3:23:37 PM): so i guesss im here for what i came for
TasteZLykEKandY (3:23:57 PM): well i jsu dont wanan be mad anymore
TasteZLykEKandY (3:24:01 PM): i swear i hate pms
BaseballPr3 (3:24:24 PM): lol
BaseballPr3 (3:24:31 PM): well i dont wanna b single nemore
TasteZLykEKandY (3:24:32 PM): n a lot of shit has been goin on and i've been takin my anger out on the wrong ppl
BaseballPr3 (3:24:40 PM): its been liek 4 hours and i hate it
TasteZLykEKandY (3:25:03 PM): haha
BaseballPr3 (3:26:38 PM): god i dunno monica i fucked up but w.e ill get over it
TasteZLykEKandY (3:27:13 PM): ya i guess u'll have to
BaseballPr3 (3:27:23 PM): y will i have 2?
TasteZLykEKandY (3:27:34 PM): i donno cuz u said u didi
BaseballPr3 (3:27:42 PM): well i mean i dunno
BaseballPr3 (3:28:28 PM): god 2 think this all started cause i walked away a lunch
BaseballPr3 (3:28:31 PM): at*
TasteZLykEKandY (3:29:01 PM): haha
BaseballPr3 (3:30:07 PM): well i knew it was 2 good 2 b tru
BaseballPr3 signed off at 3:30:15 PM.
omg this is hilarious!!!!! thats monica and carlos. wow hes a trip lol and to think he told me he never likeed her
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2003 18 September :: 3.34am
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: get low
heyheyhey!!!!!!!!! what sup!!!!!!!! i went to teh sga rally today! omg it was sooooooooo much freakin fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this guy brandon..... brendan... one of the two well n e way hes the junior president n hes a flirt and ima flirt. and yah we spent like the whoel time together kinda. it was great. lol then we ksised yay!!!!!!!! and i didnt even think about carlos even tho i saw him! lol
read this
BaseballPr3: i dumped her
BaseballPr3: yesterday
TasteZLykECherrY: why
BaseballPr3: she wasnt worth the trouble she was casuing me
BaseballPr3: she got mad cause i left her and didnt sit with her all of lunch so she ignored me and she kept on for a lil bit and i juss got upset said i was gonna dump her adn then never did and then some1 told her what i said and she got mad again and ignored me again so i juss dumped her
TasteZLykECherrY: wht kinda of trouble
BaseballPr3: like she was juss ignoring me so i got mad
TasteZLykECherrY: oh wow thats a nice reason
BaseballPr3: well its not like she meant alot 2 me so i was juss like fuck this
TasteZLykECherrY: yre really nice then
BaseballPr3: i really dont even know why i went out with her i mean i knew eveyrhting was gonna blow up cause everything happened so fast and i didnt like her at all
BaseballPr3: well i started liking her a lil but the last day
BaseballPr3: and then we broke uyp
BaseballPr3: up*
TasteZLykECherrY: fun
BaseballPr3: yeh but i g2g
BaseballPr3: ill talk 2 u later
BaseballPr3: dont say bye then
BaseballPr3: bye.....
TasteZLykECherrY: ?
TasteZLykECherrY: what
TasteZLykECherrY: why do u gotta go
BaseballPr3: cause ui have 2 hit and then get my haircut
TasteZLykECherrY: hit what
BaseballPr3: plus my brother is sick and hes at the hospital and my mom might b trying 2 call
BaseballPr3: baseballs
TasteZLykECherrY: awwwww!!!!!!
BaseballPr3: well i have 2 go
BaseballPr3: bye
TasteZLykECherrY: bye
BaseballPr3: i read ur thing by the way
BaseballPr3: have fun with dan
BaseballPr3 signed off at 3:47:50 PM.
lol i really dont care anymore that hes single. he didnt like monica anyway. lol if he only knew what happ!!!!!! sry im just so.. happy right now i havnt noticed anything. robert let me use his cd player!!!!! lol nothing important but well hes hott as hell lol. i might have a date for homecoming!!!! YAY!
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2003 17 September :: 4.35am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: what the fuck
well ok it started great. me and jj are talking again. i cant wait to see him ! lol i dont kno why... lol i wanna ride in his car. he said i could!! yay!!!
but now, my mom is bitching at me because i had to go to this meetng that was just annoucned ont he morning annoucements, and pappy picked me up and my mom is all fuck this fuck that thanks lauren kinda shit! its not my fault. god damn! i cant stand her ass. i wish shed juss lay off. i wanna run away again and slap her ass and juss be like fuck you i dont need this shit anymore... its not my fault we live 10 billion miles away still... cant she juss pick me up for what... 11 more days at the most... oh my god its going to put miles on the car... its the end of the world.. i give her 2 $ to pay for each mile. i dont give a fuck. i juss got paid so yeah. ahhh someoimes i wanna take a bulllet and shoot her threw her head.. ok well shell be here soon
i love yah lots
muah i promise to write later i got alot more to tell you
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2003 15 September :: 9.26am
:: Mood: jealous
:: Music: my heart will go on
TasteZLykECherrY: hows u n carlos
TasteZLykEKandY: GREAT!!!
TasteZLykEKandY: :-D
TasteZLykECherrY: good
TasteZLykEKandY: yup
TasteZLykEKandY: its betta than eva
TasteZLykECherrY: y
TasteZLykECherrY: are you gusy gunna...
TasteZLykEKandY: i donno i've neva felt a connection like this! we laugh at everythin n everythin is so positive unlike how it was wit me n chad where we fight constantly its jus great we get a long so well!
TasteZLykECherrY: but dont u and chad get together...
TasteZLykEKandY: huh?
TasteZLykEKandY: what do u mean by that?? i'm such a blonde
TasteZLykECherrY: juss nvm
wow... i really wish that was me. i wish that was me again with him. i want hm back so much
i dont kno
i love this movie.. im watchin titanic
something flying machine.. up she goes... up she goes..
i cried myself saying that once.. i dont kno. maybe i juss am thinking alil too much. i just cant get over carlos n monica. i mean carlos was mine! i had him. i had someone that i loved but now i dont..
wow ashie is going out with someone and she didnt even inform me. what the hell has this world gone to? i mean i dont kno everything is juss going downhill again. i look at my wrist all the time now and i wonder if i should try again. i know i shouldnt but the temptation is there, i juss i dont kno......
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2003 15 September :: 3.39am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: bad days
It’s been a bad day,
another bad day and all I want to do
is look at you and know I’m okay.
From where I’m sittin' these shoes ain’t fittin'
and I’m walking backwards, looking down,
don’t see the sky I see the ground.
Above, below, you look and so you wonder,
where the time has gone of looking up,
tomorrows on the way.
Above, below, you look and so you say,
when I wake up in the mornin'
is it gonna be another lonely day?
She sits in church its 2 pm
and look whose back from work again.
I guess they thought you're better off,
without this life; without a job.
From where I’m sittin' these shoes ain’t fittin'
and I’m going nowhere, killing time,
just trying to feed my bleeding mind.
Above, below, you look and so you wonder,
where the time has gone of looking up,
tomorrows on the way.
Above, below, you look and so you say,
when I wake up in the morning
is it ‘gonna be another lonely day?
It’s been a bad day,
another bad day
and I cross my heart and hope to die
these dreams of yours are gonna fly.
Above, below, you look and so you wonder,
where the time has gone of looking up,
tomorrows on the way.
Above, below, you look and so you say,
when I wake up in the morning
is it ‘gonna be another lonely day?
another lonely day...
another lonely day...
another lonely day...
well..... right now thats on my mind. i dont kno... its like...... ok
i saw him today in bio, wow was i a freak. i look soooooooo pale. i think ima gettin sick. i hada really bad stomache ache yesturday when i got home. my mom took us to wendys! lol i ate soo much. then i washed the car.. and damn! i love my nwe swim suit. too bad i got no1 to impress. HUMM....... i really need to get over myself dont i??? yep i do.
awwwwwww min juss tryed to eat a lizard! lol shes sooooooo cute. i rally dont want to giver her to anyone when we move!!!!
oh yah!
they painted my house! it looks sooooo great. i really cant wait to move in. but i till got like a month and ahalf... it needs to get done faster!!!!!!! i wanna move!
ok well im out!
LOVEYAH!!!!!!
whoever reads this, look @ alll my previous ones... like the ones not shown on the page to see all the results from quizzes ive taken
::
2003 13 September :: 2.12am
:: Mood: mixed
:: Music: i could sing of your love forever
:: Mood: UnLoVeD
:: Music: Finch
OnE MoRe DaY iN pArAdISe
I hate this feeling. I need something substantial in my life. LOL I don't know how to explain anything anymore. I'm just like at that point in my ife where everything seems...wrong. Nothing is going right. (Besides the fact that I'm utterly gorgeous dahhling!) Ok even praising myself doesn't work anymore. LOL I miss how I used to be. I hate that one person could make me have insecurities...yes ME with insecurities as hard as that is to comprehend. I hate feeling as if the whole world is against me. This is how he makes me feel. I can't believe I would allow someone to do this to me. It's never happened before. Why can't I go back to how things used to be...before him. I was doing fine. Now I feel as if my whole world is empty and no one is here to save me. Then when I think about it...if I could go back in time would I change it so it never happened? Ofcourse not. I would not change a thing. I would never dream of replacing the memories. But that's just me...I'm so dumb. AHHHH
XxLaUreNxX
:: 2003 9 July :: 11.56 am
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: Vanessa Carlton
W3LL...
Hmmm....I haven't written in here for awhile. Have you ever had one of those days where you just felt numb to all feelings. Like no matter what anyone tells you, good or bad, you would feel the same? I can't explain my mood right now...I've never had this feeling before, it's really odd. Anyway...I had a really bad dream last night, more of like a nightmare. I dreamt I was in a hospital and there was this song playing in the background...the worst song I have ever heard. It sounded like something right out of a horror movie. And the lights were flickering as I walked down the hallway to the hospital room. I get to the room (along the way passing the most disturbing faces) and I felt this overwhelming sense of sadness...I look in the window of the room and see no one. An empty bed all made up with a little bear and rose on it and I just start crying. And then all of a sudden I hear someone calling my name over and over as I remain crying...and then I jumped and I woke up. Isn't that just the oddest dream?? Well I think I have blabbed on enough...I will write later maybe.
XxLaUrEnxX
wow this girl is feeling exactly the same shit as me... plus her name is lauren also.. odd.. i hada dream kinda like that but i wasnt in a hospital.. i was juss in my house
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2003 13 September :: 1.31am
:: Mood: different
:: Music: cry holy
hi. ive been packing all morning. i think i forgot to tell you my house is sold. im finally going to move. i am really really happy. my parents were bitching up a storm tho this morning. oh well right?? i have ALOt packed. and we dont move till sept 30. when i do move i gotta stay with my grandma for 5 weeks. thats the bad thing cuz i cant go over a friendshouse or anything cuz evry weekend ima gonna have to see my dad so yeah it really sucks.
i got alot of sleep today. i babysat last night. she drained all the energy outta me. but i think i told you already lol... i slept until 1130. which is really odd for me to sleep in that late. but i guess all the stress of everything is finally catching up to me.
i hope monica n carlos are good togther... even tho its hurting the hell out of me i juss gotta be happy. i like dan anyway so it shouldnt matter... idont have a chance with him tho.. well maybe i do..... ahhi have no idea. how do i make him go.. im so fuckin ugly no1 would wanna go with me.. thats why im not gunnaask him anything...scott juss told me it doesnt matter if you like someone to go to homecomign with them.. i have bio with him monday. maybe ill talk to him them
i have achurch thing tomorro. i getta be a puppet.. lol its the kickoff for sunday school.
hehe its gunna be fun. i love helpin out wit little kids...
oh yeah way off topic..
i was going threw all ym stuff and i found allll these notes from 6th greade on. lol.. wow ir ealyl cant sepll doday can i?? haha oh well
im so bored.. nothing to do.
no what i juss realized???? if i ever get hsi sn...... hell read this entry. wow im such a loser. lol
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2003 12 September :: 10.45am
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: i could sing of your love forever
hi, i juss got home from babysitting and geeeeeeeze am i tired. i got payd $27 for 4 1/2 hrs. not thhat bad considering i swam and watched tv. lol. it was fun. today at the pep rally, i loved it. the whole go home freshman thing was hysterical. i cant wait for another one... i took a lot of pics sorta. i was right there where all the action took place. its sam siriani day!!!! lol... janna braided my hair during lucnh so i actually almost looked cute. lol.
i dont kno about sum stuff anymore i dont kno its confusing. i cant believe moni wrote in my journall... a post.. i really shouldnt be mad but i mean... i cant stop thikning about carlos
i tryed to call but well his dad was going to pick him up when i called, so yeha i dont kno. i realyl wanna talk to him... i guess ill havawait
::
2003 11 September :: 9.51am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: bad days
WEll..... it was great today. it was fun. but not anymore...
TasteZLykECherrY: hi
BaseballPr3: hey whatsup
BaseballPr3: i transfered 2 estero
TasteZLykECherrY: what..
BaseballPr3: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: what about ft myers
BaseballPr3: it never panned out
TasteZLykECherrY: why not
BaseballPr3: cause i dunno juss didnt
TasteZLykECherrY: o..
TasteZLykECherrY: i see.
BaseballPr3: yh but im trying next year so yeh
TasteZLykECherrY: i see..
BaseballPr3: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: hum.
TasteZLykECherrY: so u saw moni today
TasteZLykECherrY: who else did yah see
BaseballPr3: scott
BaseballPr3: and.....britteny g.
BaseballPr3: brandey mason
BaseballPr3: and that was it
TasteZLykECherrY: whose brittney g
TasteZLykECherrY: my friend katie told me abou ther but i dont kno who that is
BaseballPr3: shes some ugly ass girl
TasteZLykECherrY: guess what! i have a D in biology!
BaseballPr3: u suck lrrl
BaseballPr3: i have a f
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: way to go1
BaseballPr3: and then they put me in like some ese science class
TasteZLykECherrY: @ estero?
BaseballPr3: yeh lrrl
TasteZLykECherrY: lol poor thing
BaseballPr3: so i feel all dumb now lol
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah well oh well
TasteZLykECherrY: u shoulda gone to ft myers
BaseballPr3: tru
TasteZLykECherrY: then u coulda seeeeeeeeen mE!!!!!!!!!!
BaseballPr3: o yes
TasteZLykECherrY: ill be @ estero i think on the 17th for an SGA thing
BaseballPr3: koo
TasteZLykECherrY: so mayeb ill see u:-):-):-):-):-):-)
BaseballPr3: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: os..
TasteZLykECherrY: so*
BaseballPr3: ossssss....
BaseballPr3: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: anyway
TasteZLykECherrY: u have alot of classes with moni....... :'
TasteZLykECherrY: :'(
BaseballPr3: and thats bad?
TasteZLykECherrY: well u got none wiht me
BaseballPr3: lol
BaseballPr3: what would i do go 2 ft myers jss for one classs lrrl
TasteZLykECherrY: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: juss for m
TasteZLykECherrY: e
BaseballPr3: lrrl
TasteZLykECherrY: hum
BaseballPr3: hum means ur thinking lol
TasteZLykECherrY: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: howd yah kno
BaseballPr3: what r u tihnking about?
BaseballPr3: im a geniud
BaseballPr3: genius*
TasteZLykECherrY: nuffin i guess
BaseballPr3: i c
TasteZLykECherrY: whats the GEXPOSFAn13's name again?????
BaseballPr3: micheal
TasteZLykECherrY: lol i forgot
TasteZLykECherrY: whast the last name
BaseballPr3: garzynski
TasteZLykECherrY: he voted for me lol i juss found that out.
BaseballPr3: thats koo
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: u should go to ft myers
BaseballPr3: i can opnly transfer once
TasteZLykECherrY: u picked the wrong school carlos!!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: oh, do u have n e classe with a girl named jamie lyn josie
BaseballPr3: i dunno i ws only there fo one class
TasteZLykECherrY: well shes a hoe
TasteZLykECherrY: if u go out wiht her i will never talk to u again
BaseballPr3: im going ou wih monica
TasteZLykECherrY: u are?
BaseballPr3: yuperz
TasteZLykECherrY: whend this happen
BaseballPr3: ike 5 minuts ago
TasteZLykECherrY: i thought seh was going out wiht garette
BaseballPr3: wit what/
BaseballPr3: wait*
BaseballPr3: well i hope ntot lol
TasteZLykECherrY: wellt hen..
everything was okay till now. why the fuck do i like him so much. it makes no sense. ahh i wish i coudl juss get over him cuz i mean its him. but i cant. he juss fills this lil space inside of me, its so pathetic,
i love him..... but i dont
i like this guy dan. hes in my bio class...
but i love him.
::
2003 5 September :: 10.57am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: i want to know you more
hi... well i won the election for secretary... i was really really happy about it.. well but i dunt kno. alot of people are so mad that i won instead of shannon... its not my fault.. i mean how immature can people be?
ppl are saying that i purposly bent over in my speech... and that i slept with half the freshman.. n that one of my goals is to sleep with 31 guys??? where do people get this!!!!!!!! also, people like ashley keyes are making up "slogans" like....."vote for me get sex for free"
do i REALLY come off as that?? but the stupid thing its people from dunbar.. no1 new except for this rraelly fat girl i dont kno her name but shes friends with ashley. erika is def. standin up for me cuz she knows as well as the poeple saying all of it, its not true.. julie was spreading the whole 31 guy thing n so toady i threw my agenda at her face and said to find it.... you shoulda seen her face. ppl standin thought i was guna get into a fist fight wit her lol
softball conditioning is mon-thurs 230-430.. im going to hurt soo bad lol im way outta shape. we gotta lift weights and everything. im not looking forward to that part cuz ima make a fool otuta muhself lol but thats ok. i ran 5 miles int he past 3 days.. yeah thats not really alot but i think for me it is..
i go to universal tomorro.! i kinda cant wait.. i dunno its not as..... thrilling anymore. maybe its cuz my mind is full of alot of things right now.... im brining up my grades tho. thats always a good thing. now i think i only have 2 Cs. lol.
I think i need to get away. i think i told you about the whole thing with carlos right?? ill check and if not ill write to tell youa bout it... hes on my mind alot lately i dont kno why. i kinda like one person . but im not sure. well its past 11. ima quit writing
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2003 31 August :: 10.18am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: up in here
HEEEEEEEEEY. omg sooooooo much has happ. i needa keep u informed lol... ok well ima runnin for secretary in sga. i think i have a chance @ winning but well im not so sure lol........ my speech was sooo long so i think that kinda hurt muh chanced. i like 2 ppl in highschool. pathetic right??? im finally single. again. wait, i think i told u that alreayd but lol oh well. ok there wasa jamboree on friday night and slept over jannas it was ooooooooooooo much fun. lol but anyways, @ the jamboree carlos was there. and yeah i wasa bein a lil social butterfly but i juss had to talk to him since he ignored me. im one of those ppl who cant standwhen ppl are mad. so yeah i went to talk to him n then i kinad yeah made otu with him. then he asked me out again and i told him if he really loved me hed wait. so he flipped out n said it was another guy so i walked away sayin think what you want. so then, he came over to me while i was sittin thre. and he started talking tome then brought up sex. i was llike HELL no!!!!!!!!!!
it ruined like the whole night. then some stupid kid threw a rock intoa window in my house on purpose n it shattered the window. so yeah my mom was all upset.... this whole thing about selling my house is soooooooooo getting to everyone. it hink i needa takea breather away from everything. softballconditioning starts on tueday. i need to geta physical. haha oh well..... i dunno what im thinkin anymore. everyhting is soooooo confusing. lots o ppl think im this lil slut girl when well im not. lol i dont do anything. lol... someitmes lol well hey im out. its almost 10 30 muh mommas mad!!!! i love you
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2003 22 August :: 10.08am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: nelly- country grammer
hey guys! the 2nd week of school is finally over. there is this really hott guy named kevon in my eco class. hes like.. ok i guess. lol i dunno seems like hed be cocky. oh well im over carlos. the stupid dick thiking i cheated on him. thats him. he juss lost something good. i had to beg to get online haha ive been grounded so yeah its aight i guess now. im going to sunsplash on sunday. i really cant wati cuz sum1 i really wanna see is gunna be there. wonder what will happen!!!!! hehehehe im talkin to muh friend erika n andit right now. andit is called pepito by me. he got that name from spanish. im running for secreaty for student governament. i think i spelled that wtrong but i relaly odnt care lol.... ok well im so tired i have to tell you about everyting going on with me because there is a lot that you need to know abotu and i need to tell something/sometone because my parents want to read my diary i actually write in with a pen so now thats only for emergencies when im thinkin about suicide or seomthing.
love yah bye
TasteZLykECherrY: did u try calling m e @all
BaseballPr3: umm no
TasteZLykECherrY: umm ok
BaseballPr3: hey i dont wanna go out nemore
TasteZLykECherrY: ok
TasteZLykECherrY: bye
BaseballPr3: peace
BaseballPr3: u kno i love you
TasteZLykECherrY: whatever u say
BaseballPr3: no lauren
BaseballPr3: seriuosly
BaseballPr3: i love you
TasteZLykECherrY: yep u love me so much u gotta think about jolee
BaseballPr3: one fucking day
BaseballPr3: 4 like one fucking period
BaseballPr3: not even like 5 minutes
TasteZLykECherrY: yep
BaseballPr3: juss forget jolee i told u about jolee cause i wanted 2 tell u i love you and i always think aboout u
TasteZLykECherrY: the sotry keeps changing
BaseballPr3: i think of u all the time
BaseballPr3: i dream about u
BaseballPr3: i wake up thinking about u
TasteZLykECherrY: haha yeah right
BaseballPr3: if this is how u think then im not gonna do this
TasteZLykECherrY: u n jolee
BaseballPr3: what about me n her
BaseballPr3: there is no me n her
i really dont know what to beilieve
anyway
iw ent to the movies last night. it was okay i guess.. kinda boring... school is finalyl a week over! YAY! lol.. i did my bio hw it was easy... kinda interesting lol i cant beileve i said that! HAHA i watched.. queer eye for a straight guy. it was odd
hi. school is fun. i have classes with juss about evry1 but ashley n janna lol... i eat lunch wit janna tho so thats a good thing. my fave. class is yrbook so far. i got the really mean teacher for bio. ahh i hope she dies or something lol... waking up @ 5 am is WAY to much for me.. im juss so... AHHH i wanna go to bed lol omg i wanna go to bed!but i still gotta take a shower!!!!!!!! ok well im going im talking to carlos.
muah!
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2003 10 August :: 5.49am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: a moment like this
omg! school starts tomorro! im soooooooooooooo excited and im nervous! i went to the movies friday.. kinda sucked.. alexa dumped me for chad.. again! but oh well.. i chilled with michael kelly n his friends. i love carlos! he finally gotta cell.. haha! i dont kkno what to waer! im in such a crisis!!! soooooooo many choices! i dyed my hair too so i dont kno what looks good on me anymore! oh no!!!!!!! ok well im out lol.... ill tell you alllll about school!
Muah!
TasteZLykECherrY: hi!
BaseballPr3: hey whatsup
TasteZLykECherrY: nufffffin
BaseballPr3: koo
BaseballPr3: how come u didnt call me
TasteZLykECherrY: i couldnt
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: i was on the phn with libby
TasteZLykECherrY: lol i havnt talked with her since i left
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
BaseballPr3: i c
TasteZLykECherrY: yupyup
BaseballPr3: so
TasteZLykECherrY: HUmmmmmmmmmmmm
TasteZLykECherrY: i broke a nail
TasteZLykECherrY: it hurt
Auto response from BaseballPr3: no
BaseballPr3: that sux
TasteZLykECherrY: what does
TasteZLykECherrY: ooooooh!
TasteZLykECherrY: ibroke a nail lol!!!!!!!!
TasteZLykECherrY: sorry that didnt clik for a sec.
BaseballPr3: yup
BaseballPr3: so
TasteZLykECherrY: humm u keep sayin sooooo
TasteZLykECherrY: whats on yer mind
BaseballPr3: nothing.
TasteZLykECherrY: yup
TasteZLykECherrY: u putta . so yeah that means sumpfin
TasteZLykECherrY: ypu
BaseballPr3: the miracle game was boring
TasteZLykECherrY: lol okay
TasteZLykECherrY: they suk
BaseballPr3: yeh lol
TasteZLykECherrY: ive seen one of those
BaseballPr3: i c
TasteZLykECherrY: some lady got hit on the head witha ball
BaseballPr3: lol that sux
TasteZLykECherrY: it was interesting
TasteZLykECherrY: lots of blood
BaseballPr3: i c
TasteZLykECherrY: hunnnnnnnnn whats wrong
TasteZLykECherrY: talk to me!
TasteZLykECherrY: :'(
BaseballPr3: i wanna break up
TasteZLykECherrY: whateveru say
BaseballPr3: no i dont
BaseballPr3: lol
TasteZLykECherrY: wow.
TasteZLykECherrY: hum......
BaseballPr3: i dont kno
TasteZLykECherrY: thats nice...
TasteZLykECherrY: whatever ur gunna do juss do it
BaseballPr3: wow u sound like u wanna break up
TasteZLykECherrY: no i juss dont wanna cry even more
BaseballPr3: even more?
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah even more
BaseballPr3: what were u crying about be4
TasteZLykECherrY: are u breaking up with me or not.
TasteZLykECherrY: right now im confused
BaseballPr3: me 2
BaseballPr3: well i think ur lying 2 me
TasteZLykECherrY: w/e u wanna say carlos
TasteZLykECherrY: i dont care anymore
BaseballPr3: ok?
hes really confusing me!!!!! this is juss perfect. wow i really seem to havea good day
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2003 7 August :: 4.34am
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: some center stage thing
what the fucking fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE ALL YOU FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know what the fuck peoples problems are!!!!!! i dont even fucking give a shit anymore about any of this shit! i mean today started great now its juss shit agin
TasteZLykECherrY: u were there and u didnt tell me
BaseballPr3: fuck u bitch
TasteZLykECherrY: oh god who the fuck is this now!
isnt that nice??? its juss perfect isnt it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
isnt it!!!
im so fucking cold right now! ive had the chills all day and yesturday i didnt feel good either. w.e the hell is going on with me i dont care. i juss hope it fucking ends with my life or somethign
lol! its the same day i know but im taking quizzes! look!!!!!
hilarious: you are as funny as the cheekiest guys in class and know everything thats happening on TV and all the hot places to chill. you aren't a typical bubblegum princess, you pride yourself on your musical picks and your attitude. sometimes you get carried away and often get scolded for that, but otherwise if people want to have fun then you're the person they'll come to! you can be as girlie as britney when you're in the mood and as hard assed as pink when you want. your mates love you for being so; fun, interesting and unpredictable, you go girl!
what kind of girl are you? brought to you by Quizilla You represent... kindness.
You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual. You truely care about people and are generally well-liked. Though sometimes you may be perceived as weak, you truely have a strong heart and a good desire to help others.
What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla you are the "I hate you so bad" happy bunny. You hate everyone and eveything and your not ashamed of it.
