hiccup. can i get u a tissue?
so yeah when does school suck these days? i dont think it ever does. i got everything i need right in the comfort of my own school. but not no more...

+Hema is leaving to Spanish River
+Ally is just dropping IB
+Dominic is leaving to boca high
as for me.... i'm almost outta there. give it til' the end of the year.... jonah is praying that i fail out. cuz then.... santaluces, here i come.

ib is like a family. u know who everyone is, and whether they are ur bros and sisters or if they are ur annoying uncles and aunts. lol its great. wutta good description, get off me. lol goodness. only i dont have any ib ppl who i would like to relate as my annoying aunts and uncles because as i wuz telling jonah... these ppl are "special" they are ppl who are respectful and intelligent. u will never find a bunch of friends like this... ever again. the rest just talk bullshit and try to be swift and talk. but it just doesnt work.

chem - normal? lol she looks like a groundhog! MOLE! lmao.

spanish - lotsa food for us. our group did our presentation... .go us!

lunch - um.... we ate?

english - got hit on by an unusual person... jonah wants to come to school... to beat him up... but i don't think thats necessary. pretam remember.... he also said that black girl wuz hot... lol.

p.e. - jimmy wuz there! ALLYSON BLAIS! ally come on lets kill clark... we won't see him again after exams lol no evidence lets go!

bus ride home - ummm o yeah i sat with my brother... jb. he's so awesome, no matter wut ppl say about him. i am the only one allowed to say anything about him... cuz he's my brother lol. mommy mommy! lol

got home... found out sumthin with jonah. talked to whitney about it. whitney reassured me that everything wuz ok. i couldn't reach hema... she wuz at work, so i couldnt talk to her about it. but jonah got online... and i confronted him about telling sum girl that him and i were going to break up and that i gave jonah a bj... which i didn't do because i have only seen jonah a few times in my life and never wuz it for a sexual reason.... nor would i do that in the first place, considering i am rather.... innocent. (that may be an amazement to most, but its the damn truth) however he told me that it wuz all ok and that he wuz just pissed that day... and as a witness.... i know that when he is mad, things happen with him that cause trouble... so i'm not all that worried of wut he said. we spent a good amount of hours on the phone laughing our booties off about absolutely nothing... i think the both of us were in tears because we were laughing so hard. we called whitney and her n i totally doube teamed him... lol he claims she is turning me into a devil, but omg, so not tru because he has made me want to become a better person... and i... in my opinion, i think i have. except i have this one problem that consists of cracking on ppl that i dont believe fit into society... which i am still trying to fix that habit. but its almost better.

we talked about everything. from sean white to JLO to britney spears to whitney n jonahs old relationship to not being seen in public with him to baseball players and braiding butt hairs to dogs to whitney being rich lol. great times.

lil runt... lol. blub blub. pass the dutch baby. wow.... lmao W-O-W

i wanna runaway n get married lol. run faaaaarrrrrr away... i lov u jonah.

o guess wut... on to better things, lol jk jonah. but... for real i get my wisdom teeth pulled in less than 11 hours... supposively its going to hurt and because i ate kinda late, i might throw up 2morrow.... hooray?! i think not. but i can't wait at the same time... i wont let this hurt me. nooooo way lol. wish me luck.

o.... i dont know if any of u recall but, some time ago.... Amy Duane wuz arrested for having sex with a 13 yr. old and for giving alcohol to underage kids that would consistently visit her house. well this lady wuz the mother of my sister's best friend. and i'd hafta admit that she wuz really cool, i mean i would talk to her every so often and she wuznt bad... but once this incident happened... they moved, and well she went to court today and wuz sentenced to four years of prison and 60 days of sum kinda community stuff. so... her children will be alone with their father for .... 4 years. shame... she wuz shedding tears... i can't begin to accept that someone i knew and talked to every other day for about a year while picking up and dropping off my sister would do such a thing... wow. disappointment.

anyways i am out for the night because i hafta be well rested for this surgery of the wisdom teeth... to think, i am already blonde and now they wanna get rid of the only thing that might of still been keeping me wise? o well. hopefully, i don't get any stupider lol cuz i already be IB stupid. lol goodnight <3

ha i'm busy dancin' hold up
school wuz great.

bus - sucked.

b4 1st period - hung out with the minority group. pretam throwing his calc book lol.

chem - normal? i missed hema.

spanish - went by kinda fast. i think ms. french thinks i'm smart cuz everytime i answered a question she answered back with, "excellent," or "good job," or "well done". congrats to those groups who went today who weren't really prepared... lol

english - tons of free time.

Briana: ur the bitch
pretam: no ur the bitch
briana: i'm no bitch ur the bitch
pretam: ur the bitch.
briana: i da babi, u da bitch.

Pretam: My AIDS test wuz flawless.
Briana (to Anand): His AIDS test wuz flawless.
Anand: 100% AIDS free.

p.e. - congrats ally lol.
briana: if i wuz married to him, i'd shoot myself.
carly: i agree.
ally: is she ok?!

from the game last night:
Ruby: when we do the move it cheer, we are going... *points to the left* that way.
Ally: do we take our stuff?

i've sent myself on a mission: MaKe ALL DePreSSed iB people, happy. ... sum ppl say this is mission iMPOSSiBLE.

sumthin' i thought about today:
-- i wuz on the bus ride home and noticed how far apart the both of us have grown. we used to say best friends forever and now it's a simple "hello, what's up?" kinda conversation. ppl weren't able to tell us apart b4 and now... ur u, and i'm me. it's great to feel independent, but i just miss that "connection". however, i think it's because the both of us have found others to confide in. its kinda funny, when we meant we thought we were so similiar, but i think it was only because we both only looked for similiarities to make each other more alike. but now, i tend to realize the differences in us. i dont think that other people would ever suspect us to be best friends... i dont think we even give off that best friend vib anymore. but hopefully... @ heart, we r.... its just not the same, but hey ppl grow up and change. maybe i'm just reminiscing on my childhood, trying not to let go of the last thing i had thought i had left. ... i shoulda known this wuz coming... i had seen it happening last year. <3

congrats 2: C_ _ _ _ _ y & R _ _ h
who r engaged =)


*I never wanted to be so unkind
The only one thing on my mind
is just kicking it with you girl

Baby, its not the way I feel you know you must
Believe me baby, its not part of the deal (oh no no)

Baby when the lights go out every single word
Could not express the love and tenderness
I'll show you what its all about babe, I swear you
Will come to me So baby come to me
When the lights go out*

jonah, will u marry me? lol. lov u.

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*the party is over here.*
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hema - ally - bri

Have u ever asked yourself the question, what makes me me?
For all of u depressed children, i found this article, in the Dec. 2003/Jan 2004 Issue of Cosmo Girl called "Honor Your Spirit" on pg. 145. "instead of seeing yourself from the outside in, take a look from the inside out--and find the key to your happiness." Read it. its very good.

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Dmx504boyz (9:14:15 PM): .........u wish u cud go out with me :-P
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:14:31 PM): i wish soooooo badly
Dmx504boyz (9:15:56 PM): aawwwwww im sry u cant tho cus i go out with this girl named bri thats really pretty and has the perfect body and i really really lov her and think about her 24/7 and i wonna see her every second of everyday so i cud kiss her and cuddle with her..............
Dmx504boyz (9:16:18 PM): .......sry lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:16:54 PM): seems like u guys are perfect for each other.... i bet she feels the same way about u
Dmx504boyz (9:17:45 PM): i hope so cus she has a spot in my heart that no1 else has ever reached and im not gonna let her leave that spot
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (9:18:27 PM): awwww jonah, imma get happy tears
Dmx504boyz (9:18:47 PM): those r good for u dont worry
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that wuz from last night...

also, for the record, i locked myself in the garage last night for about an hour - an hour n a 1/2. it wuz an accident. o well.

school wuz jolly today.
chem- normal. hema n i talked. we hadda sub.

i went to maloney's class n got a new uniform, yippy, everyone in statz thought i wuz skipping.

statz- i wuz shoutin out answers left n right. i totally get this stuff.

econ- squeak squeak. he looks like a crow. lol. CAW CAW lol... mr. epstein told me i couldn't go to the bathroom after i finished filling out the pass.... so, i kinda flicked him off. oops.

art hist- test. alright. the essays were easy lol. hmmm i wonder why? could it be? it could lol hema. fun day after the test. joey, r u gay? lol, n the water bottle.

bus ride home- 3 to a seat. good stuff. camilo is funny. the hick kid... funny crap.

redneck: i'm thinking about all of them together, wut about u? wut r u thinkin about?
jb: nutn, i'm just thinkin about how all 3 of them aren't thinking about u.

lol. wonderful. antonio came over. so i left him in my room alone n i took a shower, i didnt want anything to do with him. then later... santos came over, but he's cool, i dont mind him. o n i cleaned my room. lovely stuff, so fresh so clean clean.

working 2morrow = 9-4pm
game @ Boynton High = 6-9:30pm.

u do the math. when am i gonna be home?

<3 ya.

to everyone out there who isn't feeling up to par: "Growing up stinks and not all kisses are magical and most boys don't live up to your expectations, but there are those times - when everything - I mean love, romance, relationships.... it all falls together perfectly, and its incredible... its those moments, no matter how depressingly few and far between that make growing up worth it and it'll be okay." -- Dawson's Creek.

my advice, 4 those of u who choose to take it: "ignore the world around u, become comfortable in ur own skin, spend time alone, even if it causes u to think. think. don't confuse urself, don't hurt ur heart, and don't draw blood. forget about all the bad things, i know it isn't easy, but for every bad thing going for u right now, replace it with something positive. and think about how u can continue that positive issue. keep positive goals. don't focus on finding a soulmate or nothing, just focus on finding happiness in ur heart. tap ur third eye."

i love u dearly. have a problem, come to me. i will help. i promise.

goodnight.
<3 i lov u jonah

i open christina's journal just to listen to this song, because i can spend hours listening to it but i am just to lazy to download it =)
um... yesterday wuz turkey day =) hope everyone wuz thankful for something.

i am thankful for:
+having friends who r there 4 the good and bad times.
+my boyfriend whoms lovs me and i lov him.
+family, i will always be able to count on.
+teachers who have made a difference in my life and that have helped me gain knowledge to bring me where i am today.
+my talents that i have that were given to me as a gift from lord.
+my tolerance level and my mental strength.
+the life i live, and the way i live it.
+the person that i am and the ability to be able to stay in shape...
+dear lord, please make others realize how thankful they are and those who don't have much to be thankful for... may u give them something to be happy about and let ur creations think positively. amen.

hm.... those cranberries i had were yummy. i never used to like them, but now i find them inresistable. but 2 many r unhealthy for u. ouch. anyways imma go cuz... well i dont have anything to do. but i shall find something cuz i cant sit here no more. +cough+ A.D.D. +cough+ lol j/k

+*--UPdate--*+

goodness, i have this urge to be famous. i just don't know how to get there. like, u know how celebs say that when they get on stage they feel home? thats how i feel. i just can't seem to get there and stay there.
things i need:
website, cell phone, demo, plane ticket, photos, microphone.

bbl

i luv this show. i've seen this episode on t.v. like 20 times today but i dont mind.

last night i talked to jonah for 6 hours. from 10pm to 4am.
+cat's a-hole
+kwanzaa is jewish.
+hey ap.
+all the singing.

today i talked to him for 3 more hours. =) and then some more online. i lov u.

not wuv, not luv, not love, but lov.

being grounded.... sux.

tomorrow is Turkey Day. everyone have a lot of the turkey, and come back to school fat. then, we'll all work it off together. =)

someone save me from this boredom-ness. i can't sleep and the parents r in the living room watching BRUCE ALMIGHTY that we just bought. (good movie)

things i can't stop thinking about:
+jonah.
+getting the blink182 cd.

BORRRRRRREDOM. BRiNG ME SUM FREEDOM!

always, i know, u'll b, @ my show.
we had skool today, now where's the 5 day vacation?! yippy!

turkey, where r thou?

i got shoved in a cabinet today. thank u jb n adam. thank u christina n hema 4 making sure i wuz ok. =)

spanish= grrrr.... patrick can suck my cock. lol. its all in love, yeah, bitch thats wut i say. n i didnt feel the love. if u cared, u woulda got me outta the cabinet in chem bitch lol.

lunch = alright.

english= funny stuff. i coulda punched all 4 of them in the balls in like one second. and wut about that split lol. and the music in the beginning of class, anand wanting to do the disco, break it out man. and then, pretam's daybook lol, close to spectacular, this poem is crazy lol.

p.e. wuz boring got tortured by coach clark. SHORTY is in TOWN! lol mannnnnnnn mean.

bus ride home wuz fun. britt needs to learn to shut his mouth tho. Michael: maybe the bad connection is because ur so low to the ground.

lotsa energy.
my roof is getting redone. i cant tell whether someone is banging on the door for clemency <---- (vocab word) or if its just the roof ppl.

i wanna start a band. i had the urge to do that all day today lol.

these r from last night.... my boredom.


This is my teddy.


Got lost in my train of thought instead of eating my ice cream.


i wuz really hyper, and desi wuz telling to me calm down and so wuz jonah. GRRR, i like being hyper and happy.

<3 bri

He said a man's reach must exceed his grasp,
Or what is Heaven for?
=Robert Browning.

go run a mile.
i spend all my lucious time just drifting away with my thoughts of u.

today has seemed like a daze.

i woke up at around 12:15pm after falling asleep at 5a.m. last night. perhaps it wuz b/c of the way i felt, and all the thoughts that i had to clear.

christina i'd have to say that wuz one of the sweetest things i've heard anyone say to me in awhile. thank u, angel. [referring to the comment she left in my previous entry]

i talked to jonah from the time i woke up til about 5pm. so for about five hours i had complete happiness. everything is settled and done.

don't come knockin' on my door. =britney spears.

i need to get that blink182 cd, my head is going crazy not being able to hear such a band. their voices just make me melt.

props to mandy moore, christina aguilera, britney spears, jessica simpson, mariah carey and blink182. <--- my all time favorites.

keep ur hands to urself, or leave them in the finger paint.

i talked to desi over the phone 2 times today and i saw robert r. i told him i missed him and he got all conceided lol, but i do. he wuz one that could always make me laugh and ever since him n britt broke up, i havent seen him or been able to enjoy his friendly company. bro & sis 4 life.

guess wut? he's putting his cup on. lol. how sexy. why don't girls ask guys their cup size, but all guys ask girls for their bra size? lol jonah ur all mine =) i luv u. even if u dont think i say it enuff lol. i know u dont like being in here but ur part of my life. =) and um... this 5 day break... oooo shit its on. muah! lol

danielle: get better. luv ya.

everyone else whom is sick: u shall recover soon. luv 2 ya.

--dare to b different. its not a crime. being known as the worst dressed gathers attention and proves that u weren't afraid to try something new.

i shall continue to wait until my mom returns home with the triple A batteries that i have been longing for.

good night world.

i feel better tonight.

like the new journal?
i'm psyched about it.


the night wuz horrible. then it got 2 b awsum once i talked to him. n then one tear dripped.

Dmx504boyz: yah and im sick of thinkin bout it so im gonna go dream bout sumbody else

goodnight world.

broken hearts ache. <\3
and if it aches, let it heal.

come on let me hold u
hey hey hey

lets see....
thurs- made the appointment to get my wisdom teeth pulled on the 11th of december. hema is so funny. "awwww imma come visit u and bring u wutever u need" she's my brown sister.

friday - school sucked except for 7th period. cuz i skipped and went to stats. with jessica danielle carlos and jb. it wuz funny i wish i had their class lol great times.

** a day i will never forget **

yes, i got in a car accident friday, n when i sneezed, my mom made a U turn and hit another car. everyone is ok. i didnt even see the accident considering my eyes closed when i had sneezed. it wuz so ironic because thursday i saw 2 accidents happen and friday i get into one... ouch.

saturday - i worked from 11-6pm geesh. but it wuz alright. i miss jay. i talked to him today and he wuz all dressed up. it wuz funny and then he wuz mean cuz he knew i wuz grounded... lol everyone knows, but him and this other kid that works with me tortured me about it to no end.


PKDOGG05: can you belive what they be doing to mike
PKDOGG05: thats wrong
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: mike?
PKDOGG05: jackson
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: o
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: wut r they doing?
PKDOGG05: trying to put him in jail
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: o yeah but he paid the 3 mil
PKDOGG05: yeh i know
PKDOGG05: just becuase mike loves the kids
PKDOGG05: pshh