crazy 4 u.
one thing leading to another let the party begin.

damn man, these are gonna be the good ol' dayz.

everyone is absent and sick or grounded. school is getting boring.

grade update:
Chem: 64. 8 D
Spanish: 80.2 B
English: ? B
Wgt Training: 95 A (how do u get 100/100 and have a 95%??)
Statz: 72.82 C
Econ: 77.17 C
Art Hist: 82.8 B

not bad, hoping to raise my chem, spanish and econ grade up...

hung out with the minority circle again today, very funny. i feel like sucha guy with them, but i gotz boobs, no dick. =P

so it seems i am grounded but i am not at the same time... like i have my computer, but i still can't do cheerleading or go out places after school, but i am allowed out, and i am allowed to use the phone and everything... idk. like right now i am on the phone talking to hema =)

+brb+

ok now i am off the phone... i am talking to jonah online right now, gosh i luv him. luv is so hard. i think about him all the time.

anyways, i must be going, hw needs to be done. and outfits need to be picked. much love.

<3333 bri -n- jonah

its easy if ur happy.
things make u so sad that u just wanna throw it all up.

first it wuz the grounded thing. then there wuz not goin to hema's. then there's was that, and now there is this. but i can't explain that and this b/c i just can't.

all i can say is i wish jonah woulda spent the night with us. it wuz: Ally, Hema, Me, Elise, Jenelle, Megan, Neil, Zil, and Andrew. the party wuz good. i talked to jonah a lot. met max and brian. max=perv.... jonah didn't seem to care ugh! lol, but brian wuz tight. and felipe's shoes were off the heezy.

hadda shaving cream fight... there wuz some interesting things that all went on. i um... doubt i am grounded by the way. um... i feel sick to my stomach because something is wrong. ugh. i hate eating. not having anything to do with weight concerns but just because it kills me. like... after i eat i wanna puke cuz i always find out bad shit after i eat.

as for wut happened today... i don't know wut to even say, lol hema i wuznt mad... its just kinda nasty/wrong.... lol luv ya.
shit thats wut dirrty girls do. fuckers

i'm glad my girl had a fun night cuz i know i did and so did ally. woop. anyways i hafta bounce... skool is 2morrow and i am still trippin over this problem..


MoFo1788: nada but ur man is tripin bout ya

ouch.

if u lose that pilot, i'll come fly ur plane. i'll take u so high, u'll never wanna come down.
we all have those urges where we want to be different and just change everything about us. personality wise, look wise, attitude wise, reputation wise... etc.

lets just say i had one of those days... getting caught wuz the bad parts.

hema i love u n if i dont get to ur party.... its not... o well, its like... shit take ur car n come get me.

and jonah... i luv u, if i never c u or talk to u.... well... blame my daddy.

everyone else.... my mouth is zippered shut... sometimes u gotta realize how dumb u are... now is the time i realize how dumb i really am, and maybe i should tape my mouth and just shut up.

april, jacob, melissa, and victoria got arrested yesterday for stealing money from publix during work... wow.... the only ppl i trusted. april got the money for all of them considering she is the only one who knows the codes cuz she works in the back office with all the money... jesus. sad.

idk but if i don't write 4 awhile... its cuz i am grounded for 3 months.... but it all depends on how you work the parents. like now, i distracted my dad into talking to me that he forgot to take my computer away... so who knows.

they may think ur dumb, but in ur heart, u know u have the knowledge and the ability to accomplish wutever u need.

boom boom.
don't love scenes always make u want the one u love with u right at that moment? +nods head up -n- down+

any1 4 a car wash? just do it.

54% on statz test.
78% on art hist test.

+pat on back+ good girl.

where's that guy that keeps runnin' thru my head, altho he is probably mad @ me right now? i want him, n miss him, n luv him.

vanilla raspberry escape. wutta lovely name for ice cream. it definitely helped me escape, soooo scrummious.

tomorrow is hema's b-day i hope she enjoys it.

yucky spanish homework. eek. the OC is on... i'm talking to carlos y patrick. sleepy.

i really, really, want him. on my mind, all day. can't help it, now can i? no.

wut i have been listening to all day:
LiLLiX CD: "FALLiNG UPHiLL"
BRiTNEY SPEARS CD: "iN THE ZONE"
Blink 182: "wut went wrong", "feeling this"

good songs, good cds. buy lillix, its already out. but u guys just hafta wait til' britney's cd comes out... i don't =) muah lol

<333333

my day.
sooo....

monday i went to school.

i slept over hema's on monday night. fun fun! always fun.

took the car. drove past a ratty neighbor. found him at the front door of hema's house. ran around like chickens with their heads cut off because we thought the grouchy neighbor wuz going to tattle on us. it wuz pouring rain, and giorgio goes, "i have a way to get MYSELF outta trouble." lol. wutta nice guy. turns out that hema's dad just owed the guy money. her dad asked us to take the car to the bank. wow. lol. great. o n while we were getting outta the car, giorgio got out n then i did, n a big box of heavy tools fell right on my foot. lovely. they were numb n i musta hurt them a buncha times when we were running from getting caught.

felt guilty for not going to jonah's game. i know he hates me right now. i can seriously feel it. ouch, it hurts so bad. i haven't even talked to him yet. but i know how he is going to react. but ugh.... it wuzn't my fault. i'm so upset right now, b/c of that i dont know wut to do when he comes online. i just wanna call him n say sry but ughhhhh...

i saw DREAMCATCHER for the 2nd time, and we rented WRONG TURN... soooo scary, i wanna c it again, with jonah this time tho.

went to sleep. woke up at like 11:30am? maybe? watched harry potter, hema kinda hadda dilemma, meanwhile i wuz downstairs laughing at her dad's accent once again lmao. but anyways, hema=giorgio lol, i swear it shall b done. n now that the singleness is kickin thru.. hell yeah lol. um... we showered, took the car... again, went to pick up chris n giorgio, went to target, hema... put the markers back lol. but yeah, went to the park then to chris's house, then dropped that nigger off, lol. went to the gas station. giorgio causin all that shit in the back of the van lol soooo great. um... got to hema's and hadda big water fight in her kitchen. water everywhere. acted like fools. n then i went home.

we hadda great time tho.

heaven
i live for the nights i wil never remember with the friends i will never forget. -neil.

u're lyk a nigger eatin' chicken. lmao

+spits up, hits his head on the wall+

the roof, the roof, the roof is on fire.

i needed tonight. a night with good people, decent amount of fun. pizza. there wuz definitely a part of me that felt guilty tho... jonah... everything wuz ok.

DDDDUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSHHHHH
DDDDUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSHHHHH
DDDDUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSHHHHH

u know u wanna eat a big fat round juicy fuckin' brown dick. +nods at neil+

niglette. weed. pizza. jonah & sleep. (thoughts of 3 of the 4 ppl)

sprinklers.

wut's on the roof?... nothing sir... lmao
omg i can hear lucy n u on the damn fone this is the shizzles.
FUCKING BLONDE...
sry about that.

jonah u know i luv u n i would never do anything to hurt u like that.

Dmx504boyz: o sry bout that whole ........yea i juss flipped out
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: .... i understand, no need for apologizing.
Dmx504boyz: .......? ur lyk a telletubby u dont get mad
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lmao
Dmx504boyz: i shud have to apologize
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: y? it wuz ok, u hadda right to be worried.
Dmx504boyz: yah but i didnt have to go crazy bout it
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: ...u didnt just... dont worry about it, i luv ya
Dmx504boyz: listen........u better agree with me b4 i get mad again lol


so my night overall wuz dandy. i miss the old days.

this is supposed to be dated 11-8-03 so i can tell my buddi happy b-day.

TRAVIS SHERMAN.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEXY HEFA lol muah!

so today wuz today.
left for school. funny morning. anyone wanna come in while its raining outside?! lol krystal wuz super wet, n armando got bit by ants real bad lol.

hung out with the minority guys again lol, they're funny. i love hanging out with them, wait til' hema gets back... lol then it'll b funny.

chem wuz boring mofo. WOOOOO ding ding ding!

statz felt like spanish class today. after we got done reviewing, i took the bathroom pass n travelled to ms. maloney's class. i love bein in there lol, i had fun. pretend ur the football. lol

econ.... 72/120 on the test. a flat 60%... ouch, but i talked to him, we shall figure out how i can get a better grade.

art history: test sucked asswipes. man... did it suck. i like the old way of doing the test better. dunno why she changed it in the first place.

bus ride home: funny shizzles. jb had white powder all over his face n he thought it wuz my fault when BRITT did it, looked like coke lol. looked at the yearbook.... jb... fat lmao. found out the travis sherman is in town. omg i am sooooo happy i wanna cry lol. but he's not in town for a good reason but i have yet to continue talking to him. his b-day is saturday =D yippy!

had a hard time getting a ride home lol. don't ask.

today is my brother's b-day... fun fun, he's 14 now... still in... 7th grade, wutta failure.

talked to jonah.... weeeee lol glad we aren't like them lol... i wuzn't trying to say u suck lol i promise. scumbag.... muah lol j/k.

no mall for me today. gaybo. wutever. mommy wuz gonna drop me off but who would i go with... no1... boring. n then, brittany didnt wanna go.. she a poor folk lol

time to get ready for bed this way when my boy gets back on, i'm not up all night n then still hafta take a damn shower lol.... good luck 2nite sexy.

i got luv 4 u.

bri -N- jonah

don't forget where the heart is...

the world is so complex.

feel the happiness all around u, breathe it in, it'll make u happy too. and if it doesn't turn around and look behind you. i'll be there smiling.

and if u thought ur life wuz perfect, u're wrong.

its ok to be angry n never let go.

-----thoughts to make life a little easier-----

...life is plain. life is simple... so add sum suga n spice, and make life nice...

there's so many random thoughts going thru my head, none of which i really care about. well, i do, but none i wanna deal with. i'd rather just sit here and talk to jonah like life is so still. and let everyone else's problems go in one ear and out the other. give it some thought.

grab life by the horns.

jump into a fairy tale.

<3 i luv jonah <3

life is like fine wine.

.....sooooo pure.

Dmx504boyz: i wish i had sumthin that wud send me to ur house in less than a second but it has to be in less than a second cus i dont wonna miss one second with u
today wuz great.

i got to personally bitch at christian. which is a once in a lifetime chance. felt sooo needed because i wuz the only one there really n ran like a chicken with her head cut off. but it wuz good, cuz the clock went by fast.

got home and talked to jonah, n talked n talked n talked. babysat for carol, wuz hoping to get my belly pierced but that didnt happen.... maybe tomorrow it will? idk i dont care that much right now. i think sitting here i became one of the top ten happiest girls alive right now, i'm like probably #1 on the list.

LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (10:30:02 PM): JONAH?!
Dmx504boyz (10:30:21 PM): um yah lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (10:30:44 PM): muah!
Dmx504boyz (10:31:02 PM): lol whered that come from
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (10:31:20 PM): from da heart =)
Dmx504boyz (10:31:47 PM): omg lol
Dmx504boyz (10:31:50 PM): that was cute
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Dmx504boyz (4:27:39 PM): jeez bri i wonna break up
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:28:41 PM): then its overrrr geesh, wuts stoppin u?
Dmx504boyz (4:29:09 PM): ok then its official we're done k?
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:29:17 PM): .k.
Dmx504boyz (4:29:31 PM): good we're juss friends
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:29:44 PM): just friends.
Dmx504boyz (4:30:02 PM): im not jokin
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:30:07 PM): ok.
Dmx504boyz (4:30:39 PM): alrite!
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:31:37 PM): alrighty
Dmx504boyz (4:32:08 PM): i got a date tonite thats y i wanted to break up
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:32:31 PM): =) ok
Dmx504boyz (4:33:08 PM): u can get a friend and we can double date
Dmx504boyz (4:33:15 PM): since we're juss friends
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:34:02 PM): eh, i'll pass
Dmx504boyz (4:34:52 PM): u sure? ull see ur friend alexie lol
Dmx504boyz (4:36:18 PM): u dont wonna see alexie?
Dmx504boyz (4:36:39 PM): we can double date u go with sum1 and ill go with alexie and u two can talk
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:37:12 PM): not really
Dmx504boyz (4:37:31 PM): lol haha o shit thats mean
Dmx504boyz (4:37:37 PM): wow i luv u !
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:37:46 PM): lol no u dont
Dmx504boyz (4:38:46 PM): ok fine if u say so
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:38:54 PM): i dont lol
Dmx504boyz (4:39:25 PM): o u changed ur mind lol
Dmx504boyz (4:39:38 PM): that was good we shud be actors!

**HA HA fooled ya, didn't we?**
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Dmx504boyz (4:54:53 PM): damn! u need sum pep ur too cute lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:55:29 PM): :-) pep?
Dmx504boyz (4:55:42 PM): yah lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:55:46 PM): wuts pep?
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:55:55 PM): lyk pepper?
Dmx504boyz (4:55:56 PM): lyk enthusiasm
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:56:03 PM): oooo like pep in ur step
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:56:08 PM): got it
Dmx504boyz (4:56:09 PM): u no when ppl say u need to add sum pep in ur step?
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:56:13 PM): lol
Dmx504boyz (4:56:16 PM): lmao
Dmx504boyz (4:56:27 PM): wow..................
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:56:35 PM): i luv ya
Dmx504boyz (4:57:07 PM): luv ya 2 homie
LiLsHorTcaKe2315 (4:57:22 PM): lol homie.... homie g
Dmx504boyz (4:58:05 PM): homie g dawg funk killa funk masta flex with a lil malcolm x..................yaaaaahhh lol
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LiLsHorTcaKe2315: now wut would u do if ur power went out n a hurricane suddenly hit?!
Dmx504boyz: um idk lol
Dmx504boyz: id go over ur house!
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: :-D i'd luv that
Dmx504boyz: o plz let there be a hurricane lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: y cant u just come now
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: screw da hurricane
Dmx504boyz: cus a bike doesnt go fast lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol
Dmx504boyz: i wish i had a plane lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol y cant u just use a car?!
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Dmx504boyz: i wonna sit on a couch with u and watch pretty woman...............lol
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Dmx504boyz: ..........wut r u thinkin rite now
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: that i want u right here holding me n keeping me warm so i can kiss u
Dmx504boyz: ..........:-[:-D.......
Dmx504boyz: say it again lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: i want ur arms rapped around me so we can cuddle so closely that i can feel ur heartbeat n i can rest my head on ur chest while u softly kiss my forehead n then i can softly kiss ur lips O:-)
Dmx504boyz: is that a song lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: nope
Dmx504boyz: aaaaaaawwwwwwwwww i loved it
Dmx504boyz: i got goosebumps
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol awww
Dmx504boyz: stop that lol i got a chill!
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: ok.... shhhhhhhhhh
Dmx504boyz: no wait no lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol
Dmx504boyz: i luv u!
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: i luv u 2
Dmx504boyz: im so happy and perky rite now lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol
Dmx504boyz: i feel lyk a two year old
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: y? lol
Dmx504boyz: cus im smiling in my chair lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol im not gonna ask
Dmx504boyz: lol
Dmx504boyz: im gonna ask u wut ur thinkin from now on
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol well right this second... i gotta pee i just dont wanna get up lol
Dmx504boyz: ok i didnt ask bout that but thanx lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol i know
Dmx504boyz: im honored knowing that
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: u should be cuz ur the only one that knows except for me
Dmx504boyz: aaaawwwwwww lol
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target u with their eyes, n move with their lips, and it pulls u in.
school wuz ok.
b4 1st period: hung out with jb, avi, lawrence, logan, carlos, n and anand... i think thats all.

1st period: stunk.

3rd period: wuz alright, played simon says in espanol. loved it.

lunch: kind of depressed. unexpected reasons that ppl wouldn't understand.

5th period: always fun, hung out with dom, pretam, anand, and amanda. i miss amanda.

7th period: first half wuz awsum, i hung with tyler, mike m, mike b, eric, n sum kid that wont tell me his name. it wuz sooo funny, i like had the best time, n the showers lol, the diseased "water" wut the hell man! o my god mike, her ass is soooooooo big she looks like one those football player's girlfriends or something. i mean it is soooo round. iiiii like big butts n i cannot lie... lol
2nd half, wuz boring but me carly, n tyler talked. tyler.... coin toss into the boobs again. wutta fun game lmao.

bus ride home: fun. i love talking to jb, not flirting, not hitting him or anything, just messin' around crackin' on each other n talkin, i wish he wuz like my real brother, i'd like live happily because he is soooo easy to talk to n get along with. i dont need to act stupid to get his attention like most people do. i really miss spendin' time with him. but of course i talked to jb n britt on the way home on the bus... britt is cool, annoying at times, but he is alright when he doesnt feel the need to show off. idk how people can't just be themselves around me. i am too normal to have abnormal people around me... lol

i saw an old friend tonight. we spent hours together, walked around the neighborhood, got some candy, stuffed our faces, burnt our fingers, got called crazy, talked for hours, n just had fun. i mean those are like some of the best times. i sure miss her. we're so busy tho. damn high school. she tends to think i am a lil wild tho... lol, i know it i can see it in her eyes lol.... like, my lil bri did wut?! =)

i talked to jonah today of course. did i tell u how much i love talking to him, everything feels great talking to him because i feel so... idk wut the word is, but just good! man i wanna c him so badly. erf. i luv ya papii lol. muah.

<3 bri n jonah <3

goodnight world.

splish splash
good morning america how are u?!

weeee its about 6AM in the morning and i got soooo much sleep that i woke up at 4am n took a nice shower and got readii for school. i think i went to bed around.... 7ish?! maybe idk but it felt great. i didnt get to talk to jonah or sherman or hema tho. Hema, lol, they have the internet here?! lol wow, i miss u already, me n ally were walking down the hallway and we both turn n like.... " where's hema?" it feels soooo empty without u. ahhh lol um... jonah i wish i could talk to u right now. if i hadnt fallen asleep then it woulda been ok. omg i still hafta finish reading of mice n men for the essay test today. i feel so beautiful. omg i cant believe there wuz gum in ally's salad. idk if i wanna eat anything for lunch after that happened. epstein found out about my friend stealing the test. =/ poor poor boy, i hope he doesnt get like... killed tho. geesh. and the other boy, man he is pissed too, he didnt wanna get either of them in trouble.... =/ but wut can u do, ya know?! today is halloween everyone... its going to be boring, i have no1 to spend it with or anything... but ashley invited me to hang out with her which even tho i feel like a 5th wheel lol... i still felt special. idk but i think yesterday wuz a great day and i ended it quite well... and now, even tho i feel beautiful, i feel like i am about to puke... maybe it has something to do with not eating dinner yesterday...... and kinda well, nvm i dont think its time to share the rest of that with anyone else. i dont think they need to know. xoxo love ya lots.

**p.s. my heart goes out to valerie, the boy crazy girl who has been forced to leave atlantic.... nobody is allowed to cry today.