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:: 2003 12 October :: 2.30 am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: sweetest sin - jessica simpson

can u imagine us makin' luv?
ur lips upon my lips, can u just vision it?
ur fingertips on my fingertips,
ur skin upon my skin,
wud b the sweetest sin...

i went 2 the mall today looked 4 a homecoming dress... me n danielle had WAY 2 much fun... but @ the same time, we just chilled... idk it wuz cool.

4 those who care: i am doin' iight, my back is still a lil' sore, n i am kinda just relaxin'. i prolly aint showin up 4 skool on monday or tuesday.

o, giorgio (hema's friend) wanted 2 hook me up w/ his cuz 4 homecoming.... i wuz like nah thats iight. n giorgio kept insisting, he's like, "he's really hot, hema even knows lol" n i wuz laughin, but, i told him no, n he asked y, n of course.... one reason, jonah.
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n with all that.... jonah has just informed me that him n i are going out.... +jumps up n down+ ouch, my back... lol ah, hell who cares. well, carlos thinks i am too busy talkin to jonah now to talk to him about missy elliott n wyclef.... lol so imma go, maybe get some rest soon. ttyl peace homes

1 sEx DriVE | are oUT rAge OuS


:: 2003 10 October :: 6.31 pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: my mom singing

my first time at the ER
good evening. i missed all of u. i wish 2day would have turned out to be a normal day in school rather then how it actually turned out.

as u know i had sum pains in my back... well around 2pm it got so bad that i called my mom screaming in pain.... funny, the pain wuz only on my right side near my spinal cord, n like in the middle. so she came home early and took me to the pedatrican which wuznt the best idea cuz he didnt do anything but make me cry from the pain he put me thro so he saw my pain n my mom wuz telling me how she heard it in my voice so we took my first trip to the ER.

the guy that took care of me wuz so cute... n he wuz the funniest thing, i get out of the bathroom after telling him that i had just peed earlier so i wouldnt be able to go... n i told him i forced it outta me for this shit. n he goes shit, u did it like a champ! my mom just laughed.

i got better after doing a lotta peeing... i mean that definitely eased the pressure. but i wuz still sore as a mofo. i got called in around 4:30 didnt get out til 5:30 and all they told me wuz that i hadda get an ultrasound... because chances are that i have a kidney stone. the purpose of going there wuz to get the ultrasound but it wuz 2 late in the day to do it she said... my mom wuz so funny she wuz like goin nutz. n she wuz mad n is like "since when do u hafta pay $75 to go pee?" because basically thats all i did there wuz pee. but i had fun n laughed so hard n it made my back get even worse.... o well lol i liked my trip there.

always positive. =)
that trip there just totally proved myself and staying happy even during the worst of times, i mean i even had the doctor laughing.

but when i wuz riding home... i realized how much i care about everyone... n u know like the feeling when u think ur gonna die er something... i just felt so good coming home knowing that people were going to hug me n make sure i wuz ok... n i also thought about jonah too.... my mom knew i wuz thinking about him n she wuz like... aww, ur so cute... idk but i am about to leave to jj muggs.... n go get my perscription so i can at least rest well. muahz...

thank u for those of u who care.

4 sEx DriVEs | are oUT rAge OuS


:: 2003 10 October :: 8.53 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: the condom commerical on MTV

u reminded me i could still have fun....
i wuz on my way 2 skool...

i woke up at 6:20am... kinda realized that i missed my ride (danielle) to the bus stop, yet alone, i missed the bus period. so my mom wuz gonna take me to skool, we got in the car, but hadnt gotten on I-95 yet, n my back pains were springing so my mom asked me if i just wanted to stay home, so she turned around n we went to... Burger King. i got a bacon, egg, n cheese crossiant with some cini-minis. sounds good... but now i am sitting here with some sharp pain in my back... i might make a new homepage or re-do my journal =) anyways, i will ttyl peace.

are oUT rAge OuS


:: 2003 9 October :: 8.35 pm
:: Mood: wired
:: Music: science of selling yourself short - less than jake

i just wanna b friends.
finally i have time to update.... omg britney's new song just came on the radio, i must do some choreographing.

ok all done.... u should see the choregraphing i just made for that song.... so tight. anyways back to updating.

this week has been really harsh, but 2morrow is friday and i think i might be able to get to bed early... ever since monday night i was going to bed at 1am... i took a long ass nap today... it wuz great and now i am up, thinking about jonah as usual while my dad is bitching at someone in the living room. wuts new? lol um... i got a 76/135 on my chem test.... making it a 52%. i got an 84% on the great gatsby test! n i still dont know about economics, but i am afraid to find out... o i got a.... 53 on the stats test... another F... santaluces here i come!

anyways i didnt go to the jv game cuz of the damn economics project... which we have been set to present but.... because of all this weird shit that u dont need to hear about... we cant lol, GREAT.

DANIELLE = GRINCH? lol believe it, i have proof!

monumentally!
prostrate... lol
stop listening to my mother!
it wiggles... stop the wiggling... lol

i feel really wired right now... i need some more sugar. its really nice to have sugar, it keeps me sane... the sugar rush i had today occurred in art history... idk wut the fuck i wuz on... i wuz ribbiting to carlos... lol dont ask. but um... yeah i might join the palm beach elite team with ebony n jackie as soon as ebony brings me the papers! i am excited.

ugh i dont feel good.... i am like seriously coughing and very stuffy but my mom refuses to do anything about it... except continuously give me aspirin which wont help because that is for pain. but wutever... she wont listen to me, i will just take it and not argue.

next subject: britt n i are not going out. no matter wut u see... we are not going out lol. omg it wuz so nice to get that out... no1 listens tho.

it wuz nice to hang out with all the guys this morning... instead... i mean wow... 1 girl, 8 guys, n its funny gettin in their convos and everything... like me n jb were fighting like bro n sis.... n we got into this convo about being bro n sis, n then once again something came up about my height... nothing new.... and um... after that we got talking about how NOBODY did the stats hw. but wutever. it wuz just dandy.

shout out to hema my nukka! lol dont ask, i just felt like sayin hi to hema in my journal altho she is online. ANTIPERSPIRANT?! LMAO

i miss u ally! lol FL wants u more than PA, lol.

n-e-ways, i am going to go make up an 8 count for ashley t =) so peace out homies, n may the love of the world love u more than anyone else.

1 sEx DriVE | are oUT rAge OuS


:: 2003 8 October :: 11.07 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Me Against The Music - Britney Spears n Madonna

** ...The Lyrics... **

All my people in the crowd
Grab a partner take it down!

It´s me against the music
Uh uh
It´s just me
And me
Yeah
C´mon
Hey Britney?
Are you ready?
Uh uh, are you?

No one cares
It´s whippin´my hair, it´s pullin´ my waist
To hell with stares
The sweat is drippin´ all over my face
No one´s there
I´m the only one dancin´up in this place
Tonight I´m here
Feel the beat of the drum, gotta get with that bass

I´m up against the speaker, tryin´ to take on the music
It´s like a competition, me against the beat
I wanna get in a zone, I wanna get in a zone
If you really wanna battle, saddle up and get your rhythm
Tryin' to hit it, chic-a-taa
In a minute I´m a take a you on, I´m a take a you on
Hey, hey, hey

All my people on the floor
Let me see you dance
Let me see ya
All my people wantin´ more
Let me see you dance
I wanna see ya
All my people round and round
Let me see you dance
Let me see ya
All my people in the crowd
Let me see you dance
I wanna see ya

So how would you like a friendly competition
Let´s take on the song
It´s you and me baby, we´re the music
Time to party all night long

We´re almost there
I´m feelin´ it bad and I can´t explain
My soul is bare
My hips are movin´ at a rapid pace
Baby feel it burn
From the tip of my toes, runnin´ through my veins
And now´s your turn
Let me see what you got, don´t hesitate

I´m up against the speaker, tryin´ to take on the music
It´s like a competition, me against the beat
I wanna get in a zone, I wanna get in a zone
If you really wanna battle, saddle up and get your rhythm
Tryin´ to hit it, chic-a-taa
In a minute I´m a take a you on, I´m a take a you on
Hey, hey, hey

All my people on the floor
Let me see you dance
Let me see ya
All my people wantin´ more
Let me see you dance
I wanna see ya
All my people round and round
Let me see you dance
Let me see ya
All my people in the crowd
Let me see you dance
I wanna see ya

Get on the floor, baby lose control
Just work your body and let it go
If you wanna party, just grab somebody
Hey Britney
We can dance all night long

Hey Britney, you say you wanna lose control
Come over here I got somethin´ to show ya
Sexy lady, I´d rather see you bare your soul
If you think you´re so hot, better show me what you got
All my people in the crowd, let me see you dance
C´mon Britney lose control, watch you take it down

Get on the floor, baby lose control
Just work your body and let it go
If you wanna party, just grab somebody
Hey Britney
We can dance all night long

All my people on the floor
Let me see you dance
Let me see ya
All my people wantin´ more
Let me see you dance
I wanna see ya
All my people round and round
Let me see you dance
Let me see ya
All my people in the crowd
Let me see you dance
I wanna see ya

All my people in the crowd, let me see you dance
C´mon Britney take it down, make the music dance
All my people round and round, party all night long
C´mon Britney lose control, watch you take it down

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:: 2003 4 October :: 11.49 pm
:: Mood: childish
:: Music: Girls Dem Sugar - Beenie Man n Mya

eh........ yikes.
ok... so i had work from 11:30am - 5:30pm

got there... wuz really bored, me kettly n victoria talked for a lil, then i talked to victoria n we chilled...

b4 lunch... i confronted walter bout trying to hook me up wit sum kid that works wit us... his name is sean n he is so ugly but he is my age... eh i dont like him he is too shy. but yeah walter denied it n victoria knew he wuz doin it too n he still wouldnt come out wit it lol o well. then i took my lunch break n walter wanted me to go watch the gators game for him n report the score... in which i did, cuz i had nothin else to do. so i spent my half hour talking to jay n then watching the game. went downstairs n started to get back to work.

walter n i talked from like 3-4:30pm... eh it wuz kinda kewl... we talked about things like baby food, the zoo, balloons, christian being gay, the kids at the pay phone, n a buncha other stuff... he wuz gonna lift me to get a balloon off the ceiling but jean kept yellin at us to get back to work. finally at 5pm Jacob came in... YIPPY! he is victoria's boyfriend, yet victoria wuz there, n off work, but i wuz there so she wouldnt talk to him... he talked to melissa instead... n thats where walter went at 4:30pm... instead of talking 2 me, but near the end he came back 2 me n talked with me b4 he left, n i walked a lady out n he wuz already out there, n he wuz done before me, so he walked down where i wuz n got some carts, meanwhile i hadda beg him to take my one cart compared to his 30 he wouldnt take one more lol o well i pushed it in with his n then he gave me a ride on them n smashed me into the door it wuz sooooo funny, then walter complained about his finger hurting AGAIN n jacob n i both thought of the same exact thing... n walter goes, "look i cant point straight n-e-more" n jacob n i just about peed our pants... sooooo sadly funny. umm... some lady ran into a pole with her car... fudgin hilarious... lol omg... u dont even know.

came home, talked to ally, she is sleeping over 2morrow nite, YIPPY.... hopefully hema can too, i gotta ask my mommy. but if they both can, we are gonna go meet jonah at the movies... yippy! totally awsum dude. hm... i went to the tanning salon again, it is too awsum bein there... the smoothies n everything is just outta this world. my butt is red lol, but i am not red at all just tanner, its sweet... but like... brittany is red as a lobster, n i saw danielle g after her first time and she wuz red too. she still is... its so sad but funny. ROBERT thro a lizard on me. omg it wuz funny. brittany beat the shit outta him but i just thought it wuz funny. i talked to jonah, man i miss him, we had some interesting convos... lol dont ask. brittany n i randomly decided to go to walmart... SUPER walmart... so we drove to boynton for super walmart, just to walk in there n do nothing lol. who knows.... robert set off an alarm it wuz funny. but now i am home n i am tired so i think i should go to sleep ttyl xoxo peace homes.... much <3.

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:: 2003 4 October :: 11.35 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: can i come over - aaliyah

survey
taken from danielle lol sry buddi


.:c.u.r.r.e.n.t:.
[ current clothes ] black tank, n a pair of boxers w/ hearts
[ current mood ] sleepy, childish, lonely
[ current music ] Can i Come Over? - Aaliyah
[ current taste ] twix
[ current hair ] blonde... straight n down
[ current annoyance ] the feel of the seatbelt still on me from the car earlier
[ current smell ] nose is stuffy
[ current thing I ought to be doing ] checkin my email from sum1
[ current favorite group ] Fountains Of Wayne
[ current book you're reading] supposed 2 b reading the great gatsby
[ current movie in dvd player ] 2 fast 2 furious
[ current color of toenails ] clear
[ current refreshment ] saliva en mi boca
[ current worry ] y isn't jonah online? y didn't sherman write back? will hema sleep over 2morrow w/ ally?

.:l.a.s.t p.e.r.s.o.n:.
[ you touched ] can't remember
[ you talked to ] brittany
[ you hugged ] idk
[ you yelled at ] idk
[ you kissed ] omg idk

.:f.a.v.o.r.i.t.e:.
[ food ] fruit
[ drink ] water
[ color ] pink
[ album ] charmbracelet
[ shoes ] flip flops
[ candy ] twix
[ animal ] monkey lol walter!
[ TV show ] wuz Punk'd
[ movie ] fast n the furious, 2 fast 2 furious, cinderella, lil mermaid
[ dance ] ??
[ song ] too many
[ vegetable ] corn
[ fruit ] i love all fruit
[ cartoon ] garfield

.:are.you.:.
[ understanding] sumtimes
[ open-minded ] sumtimes
[ arrogant ] no but i know who is
[ insecure ] eh... sorta not really
[ interesting ] no
[ random ] no?
[ hungry ] no
[ friendly ] yeah
[ smart ] hell no.
[ moody ] not really
[ childish ] o most definitely.
[ independent ] eh when i wanna b
[ hard working ] depends
[ organized ] sorta
[ healthy ] yes
[ emotionally stable ] most of the time i can handle it
[ shy ] no
[ difficult ] 2 get/understand? no
[ attractive ] eh...
[ bored easily ] yep
[ messy ] o u don't hafta ask twice! hell yea!
[ thirsty ] no
[ responsible ] yeah
[ obsessed ] no
[ angry ] no
[ sad ] at times...
[ happy ] yes, always, whether i show it er not, there's always a part of me thats happy
[ hyper ] eh... when i wanna b
[ trusting ] yes
[ talkative ] eh... yeah

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:: 2003 3 October :: 11.25 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: unwell - matchbox 20

do u know wut the hell is going on?
i feel so empty

no1 here, no1 there, no1 2 help, no1 2 <3, no1.

yuck... i hate feeling like this. but everyday is a new day, maybe i should get some rest and 2morrow might be good.

i feel lyk sleeping in the dark, maybe puttin my lil' lights on n reading my lil mermaid book.

lyfe is crazee... but it is always kind. just be kind to it.... n get someone to love.

goodnight.

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:: 2003 2 October :: 10.56 pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: put it in ur mouth

my bum is on the chair
ATL WON DA GAME WOOH WOOH!
boca lost, they can go screw each other cuz they were so rude.... o man. we went up 2 shake all their hands (cuz we r nice cheerleaders) n man, none of them even put out their hands.... wutever... n then hema n i hadda blast omg omg! WE GONNA WIN YEAH WE GONNA WIN YEAH!

omg but we had so much fun for only having like 6 cheerleaders there.... eh... wutever i am tired n so glad to be outta that uniform.

shoutin' out 2 jessica, ashleigh, n brittany, 4 bein' at the game....

ashleigh: "now watch they aren't gonna let me in..."
briana: "ur an atlantic cheerleader, rah rah" lol

jessica: pump it up lol!

brittany: but i gotta waste the film! holla lol!

hope everyone feels better.... ebony, lara, brittany h, n everyone else who wuz dyin. much luv 2 ya every1 who stuck it out...

now peace. <3

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:: 2003 2 October :: 4.58 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: tick tock tick tock

thursday is plain, they're all the same.
good morning america how are you?

um... i havent updated in a few days.... but thats ok i have been busy =) i settled everything with jonah, my wuver =) omg i wuz so happy! but anyways.... tuesday... i did nothing, wednesday i had cheerleading practice afterskool which wuz probably the best thing in the world. i think i laughed so hard that i have abs now =) yippy! i stayed up all of last night studying for my wonderful tests in which i know i failed.

+chem: study, if u study u will do good.
+statz: hard as a rock, altho dr.baum said it wuz the easiest.... it woulda been if i knew wut i wuz doing.
+economics: read the chapter. study block grants for the ap question.

homecoming is getting close! yippy! oct. 25th babii.... who u goin wit nukka! lol hema

me, ally, n hema tried the salads in skool 2day... they were really good n it didnt feel like i wuz stuffed er anything. ally, omg i cant believe ur string.... lmao its ok nobody saw!

i am talking to sherman via text message.... he claims i have sum email... eh... i really should check it.

Ashley C: "is she getting off 2 my hair?"

omg that wuz wrong. but funny at the same time. danielle WINK WINK! lol

carlos: CHA CHA CHA CHARMIN lol...

anyways, i must go get ready 4 the game.... ATL vs BOCA at atlantic. COME GET THE PARTY STARTED lol with all the fucking parents at these gay JV games.... lol peace n mucho dinero. lol no i mean mucho <3

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:: 2003 29 September :: 5.58 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: drip, drop, drip, drop.... its raining its pooring.

monday sux, monday sux.
woke up. got dressed. went to skool. felt quite bummish 2day (jackie lol).

the morning wuz ok, i found out that ms. swanson wuz also at the FIF concert.... kinda kool. but her class wuz o so boring.

spanish class wuz gay as fuck, we hadda sub, n the class remained silent 99.9% of the time. i swear, i need a boyfriend because all this shit with these guys r just getting annoying.... like everyone hadda go turn their papers in n sub wuz sitting right next to me so everyone walked by me when they turned in their papers.... outta all like 40 students... the only 2 that bopped me across the head... were.... guess? PATRICK N BRITT.... i wuz just like... ok, wutever, i mean, i dont think patrick likes me, so it doesnt bother me as much as it does britt, because he is only making an ass outta himself. like right before class began he came up to me n said, "i came over here to tell u that u are short." i wuz like.... wutta fucking idiot.... ashley treu n i just looked at each other.... we both know he is stupid. but patrick, he is cool, he doesnt do the stupid shit, he talks to me n we mess around so its all good. u know wut really pissed me off tho wuz when britt and patrick called me over to them at the end of class to "settle something" n britt holds me n goes "go patrick" n patrick kicked his leg up n tried kicking me in the butt, but then he raised his leg to c if he could kick above my head. i mean.... can we say... getta life? lol.

+lunch... jessica, hema, ally, n i were talking about how we should find a way to get rid of peter because he is always taking our seats, even after there are ants all over the table, wut is wrong with him? o well.

+english wuz ok. we took the vocab test, i have a feeling i failed because i finished super early. i listened to some cameron jaymes, n took some notes.... talked to pretam, dom, sterling, amanda, n anand, other than that, it wuz boring.

+weight training wuz tight as fuck even tho my boy tyler lol wuznt there.... ally n i are total blondes lol, "i hope it..... doesn't stay dry out." lmao.... um... "ur stalker kid came up 2 me and asked, 'where's my girl?'" meanwhile, ally is tellin a story about how dumb the kid is n he is standing right in front of us. "wait til i get my boo." lol. omg n "u have a pack of abs u just dont know how to use them, its like when u make something outta legos n it looks fine but u still have left over legos." lol o n christy n her comebacks to all the fucking assholes that came in the shower room while we were laying down.... um.... i met christy's boyfriend! wutta hottie! omg n he is so sweet 2! hm... i needa boyfriend. i mentioned that already. if i have one, i wont hafta worry about all the hits i get from guys... u know? like for real, last year.... i wuz so hooked on neil, that none of this ever happened. o n ally n i "rain rain go away come again another day, n if u dont i dont care, i'll pull down ur underwear" lol we thought that wuz how the song went.... we convinced ourselves that until christy n carly told us otherwise... we realized we had made the rainy halloween day remix! lol wutever! anyways, i went to woodlands, saw jeff stanley, major hottie, mrs. barbose's kids were there, that are soooo gorgeous, n kolarich n i talked about chem... the mole... lol. courtney did the judging for me i just wrote it down lol, TUMBLE! lol gosh. she's so pretty, i like noticed it today she wuz in pink n it wuz just cute idk lol but she is soooo funny n awsum, i thought she wuz a bitch in middle skool. but wutever. now i am gonna go do the homework that i hate to do.... ttyl xoxo peace out homes.

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:: 2003 29 September :: 5.38 pm
:: Mood: weird

time 4 an update
lets start with saturday n sunday that i never got to talk about.

+saturday: i worked from 8-3pm it wuz gay as hell.... nobody wuz there except me n victoria so we talked like every chance we got.... n altho she is a slut, (i can now label her as an official slut, because i have facts) she is still rather nice, n cool 2 talk to.

saturday night: off the chain! it started with danielle's cousin (megan) picking us all up (danielle, ashley c, christina, and me) n we got to the concert. megan called us rich girls because we figured her car doors would lock automatically, unfortunately.... they were manual lol n she locked them all of us. we got in the room n got our spots (in the front) n waited for the concert to begin which wuz a long time. the concert opened up with cameron jaymes, which is a major hottie with a lotta talent. then we moved on to holland, where they dedicated a song to megan because she asked so respectfully. =) she also got a guitar pick from them =) next bleach came on and thats when most of the crowd surfing started but bleach kept telling people to stop it because they didnt want people to be getting hurt.... like christina, when some kid landed on her, i swore i thought the kid broke her neck. um.... christina and i lost ashley, danielle n megan.... but we found them again n danielle pushed me to the front that way i could get my hip bruise.... but i wuz intelligent n stayed behind people that were RIGHT in front of the stage so i wouldnt have been pushed into the stage..... but finally Five Iron Frenzy (FiF) came on.... and it wuz totally awsum! the lead singer (reese) coulda been a cheerleader with all the jumps he wuz doin. he wuz sweating so bad that he wuz making lil puddles on stage.... lol when he rang out his shirt.... omg it wuz sick cuz there wuz a lotta water that came from it. um... yeah, after the concert, christina got a pic with cameron, n i got his cd, n a FiF shirt.... which i wore to skool 2day. (mommy didn't do laundry) lol we left the concert, danielle wuz forced to stop traffic so megan could pull out.... n we got on the road n these guys waved at us n started following us.... they were about to turn n decided not to n decided to follow us, n they even ran a red light to catch up with us..... right... finally we made it home safely.

+sunday: i wuz supposed to work (according to my mom) but she wrote my schedule down wrong so after talking with nicole. victoria, walter, and kimberly, i went n called brittany to pick me up. we went out to mc donalds, then to her apartment.... chilled.... went to danielle g's apartment had pizza n then brittany took me driving. reminder.... brittany is only 18, so i wuz KINDA breaking the law lol.... but after that i pretty much went home n did nothing.... i didnt go to bed til..... 12:30....

that my dear wuz my weekend.... now tune into my next entry for today's highlights. lol, its just cuz this one is so long that i dont feel like making it longer.... lol <3

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:: 2003 26 September :: 11.03 pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Perfect - simple Plan

i'm sorry i can't be perfect...
lets start with skool.

+ woke up, got readi, missed the bus, went to McDonalds for breakfast.... danielle n the wipes lol... skool wuz gay
+first period: boring, 2nd period: 58% on the stats test.... damn. o well. 4th period... i think i fell asleep. 6th period... o man it wuz horrible, i just wasnt feeling good... went to the bathroom, came back n felt worse, but carlos n me wrote notes back n forth makin me feel better.
+bus ride home.... wow.... britt flirts soooo obviously. lyk the whole... holding hands thing, n not letting me go.... even after i pulled away several times. i mean holding someone's hand feels great, i cant remember the last time i held a guy's hand or anything.... but i mean i liked it because it wuz a guy's hand... not because it wuz britt... cuz i dont like him. know wut i mean? i wuz wishing it wuz someone else.... +cough+ jonah +cough+ but i really messed it up with him.

+i told him about britt, n like then i told jonah i wanted him, which wuz messed up of me, but i do soooo badly. n who doesnt know that u know?! but obviously he doesnt, n i dont blame him for not wantin to talk to me after i said the shit i said.... but i am just stupid dude, i wanted him n i hadda chance, i ruined it soooo badly. wut's a girl to do?

+right after that, i left for cityplace, we picked up ashley t, n met everyone there.... omg there were so many people we ran into... we met this kid that used to cheer for top gun, n this kid that christina n danielle n everyone else but like.... me has met off of woohu.... well yeah. they were kewl. cityplace wuz alright, we all hung out, n just had our fun, i didnt like that we were all split up tho... o well.

+our ride home wuz funny... ashley's dad is hilarious.... him n his stupid comments lol ashley. we hadda a fun time.

+now-- i am sitting here listening to my anthem.... cupid - 112... makes me think of jonah so much, someone that i just can't have.... so outta reach.

*cupid doesn't lie, but u won't know unless u give it a try. tru love won't last, but we won't know unless we give it a try.*

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:: 2003 25 September :: 3.54 pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Holiday Inn - chingy ft. snoop dogg

someone get that girl a mood ring.
skool wuz great, this morning i got to see carlos... he wuz my bodyguard, danielle saved me from that ugly boy, i can't thank her enuff.

i fell asleep in 1st period. o well. i love listening to patrick sing, it just eases my moods.

3rd period we hadda sub, n i wuz walking to class n britt is outside the door, and he pulls me lyk he meant to kiss me or something and he didn't let go, idk, but i lyked the way it felt. our sub wuz retarded, but lyk it wuz all good i guess. britt kept throwing shit at me n acting up... wutta fool.
patrick: "1... 2... 3.... 4.... 4 n 1/2..."
lmao, that wuz great.

5th period wuz none the less boring, walked in, left to get my ID pic which might i mention sux, came back, sat around with dom, sterling, pretam n anand. at about 12pm mr. mo decided to start the class, n a 1/2 hour later, my mom came n got me.

we headed to the mall, n went shopping. she got some shizzles, n i got some cute panties at victoria's secret. =)

the nightmare began at the dentist. i walked into the ortho, aware that, once again they told me i wuz getting my braces off. in which they did not take them off. instead my ortho decides to put this fucking thing on my front tooth that looks soooooo ridiculous that its appearance in my mouth caused me to sit in the chair n cry for like an hour. i told my ortho that i wanted it off n postponed until next week.... after pictures, and after my damn girl problems so i wont be so bitchy about the thing, but he refused. he would not take it off no matter how much i complained. its the ugliest thing in my life right now.... why must i be so concerned about the way i look? o i know.... maybe because i might actually have a chance with this guy that i like.... but now that this has ruined me, for awhile.... none of the guys that i feel like wanting or flirting with will catch a lot of me being happy n flirting without being highly embarrassed. its hard to keep.... 1.... 2.... 3.... 4.... 5... 6.... 6 guys interested in talking to u. ya know? i mean i like them all.... some i like more than others, but i do like them all, i think i might have a chance with one of them tho... thats fo sho. n idk maybe its the way that all the guys treat me here... i know there are those stalkers, but besides them, i like being with these guys here. at times its hard, but i gotta just get thro it i guess....

listen to me here geesh, i am like being my own psychologist. thats ok. cuz i know i need one..... i wuz expecting this lil mood to hit me sooner er later, cuz i havent felt bad like this in awhile, n i've been good on predicting when i am not going to have a good day, and i have made the best of them. =) but for now, as the newest IB nerd, n the newest edition to the ugliest girl is school because of this brace thing in the front of my mouth, i shall go jump into my bed n get some rest for i have not slept more than i would say 4 hours every night, or i may just complete my economics homework that i am so honored to have.

ttyl

i <333333 this guy.
n of course, i <3333333 u.

o my mom is getting her tattoo, meaning i am one step closer to getting my belly pierced. as she said before, "once i get my tattoo, we will explain to ur father about the belly ring n u will get it.... with his consent."

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:: 2003 24 September :: 10.35 pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: She's Famous Now - Reel Big Fish

water sux, it really really sux! u suck!
idk why but i think this song would be awsum to dance to lyk in the dance recital... lol i love it... i jump around and dance to it, omg its great.

+yes, i dealt with the stalker kid this morning and i told my mom about the both of them. n hema goes, "well u just need to put some hema into u." lol n i definitely agree.

+chem wuz boring, nothin new, i wuz kinda bitchy, i apologize, omg, but my desk.... squeaks! who doesnt like squeaking? i could b entertained by that noise for hours, its wonderful. o n patrick wuz singing too, why do people get annoyed with his songs? i love listening to him sing too... why do people find these things annoying? u need to learn to have more patience n loosen up.

+stats class wuz awsum omg, dr. baum wuznt there the first half so me, patrick n mike were messin with my knee. they took graphing calculators n tried checking my reflexes.... guess wut, i dont think i have any. they numbed my knee so badly.... lmao it wuz awsum. o n avi fucked with that lee kid all damn class cuz lee wuz being stubborn n wouldnt move his damn seat up so avi could put a desk behind him... not that lee had any friends to talk to in the first place as avi said. omg it wuz great.

+economics is simply: GAY. that class always smells n lunch is rarely entertaining...

+art history, i failed yet another test, but i talked to my bestest buddi carlos, i love that kid, he is awsum, i love talking to him all the time, we just have the greatest things to say, "dur, da da da dur" lol luv ya!

HAPPY BiRTHDAY SUNiL!

hema came home with me afterskool, we chilled and talked.

the game wuz great, we actually stunted. omg, olympic heights's cheerleaders are tight, i like wanted to go cheer with them, they were so kool wit us! um.... we beat them tho, 42 to 18. DAMN! aint bad. ha ha! we creamed them, but eric had caused us to lose one touchdown, so imma kick his ass 2morrow! uh oh watch out eric lol! way to go #54! lol alicia. t-t-t-t-t-t-t touchdown! lol. can we pivot for the last 7 minutes? no u shithead. bri bri, r they with u? no. uh oh. lol but we just made a touchdown. NO SHIT! lol omg great times, great times. anyways, i miss jonah. i wanna talk to him so badly. he hasnt been online all night i guess. =/ but time for a shower, n bed. xoxo ttyl peace.

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