OMG LOOK britney spears is 2 inches away from tyler's cock!
did i mention i love weight training??? tyler and his britney spears board shorts! so good. o my poor mike got beat up in that class tho today. he got hit with the jump rope in the leg so badly that it left a mark. then the rope choked him when he tried gettin out... and while he wuz gettin choked... erica accidentally hit him with the volleyball causing him to fall! aww poor guy. o n spanish wuz boring... and jb and patrick made fun of me as usual in chem and spanish. but thats about how the day went. i wuz supposed to get my sweaty hug from tyler today while we were both practicing.... but i didnt see him +sigh+ i feel so useful between him and ally lol. so anyways....

i have a decision to make....

--go to BLU NIGHTCLUB w/ ally, hema, christina, jessica, danielle, ashley c maybe ashley t n whoever else.... i cant think of at the moment.... and maybe have a sleepover @ christinas.

^^ isn't that funny, yet cute? lol ^^

boredom...
I still have yet to do homework... i am procrastinating... i got home from work and i want giggles to get her happy ass over here cuz i am bored... and so is she.

guess wut, i am boreded....

i miss neil alot.... and travis! and LUAN! and Ashley! i wanna c them all so badly. its crazy! i might sleep over neil's house this weekend or ashley's depending on how the white lies and plans work out.

tyler told me that he went to the movies with ally! i am so happy for them, lol, making the baby steps!

Highlights of Christina's Party:

-=- Watching Bryan dance on top of altan.
-=- The mosh pit.
-=- Me n Danielle's performance 2 "Miss P" by Cherish.
-=- Watching Liz and Bryan dance.
-=- All the trains... lol

bbl time 2 eat.

hi ho, hi ho, its off 2 work we go.
so i am supposed to be headin' my happy lil ass to work from 4:30-6:30... yet i still hafta read Ethan Frome, but i am more of in the mood to re-do my journal and follow the trend. lol. but i just got home.... i got glasses today, i hafta go and pick them up 2morrow afterschool. i hate them! i hate them more than anything. i wuz tryin to pick a pair thatI liked but no my dad wanted me to get the ones that he liked.... and they're like bendable n shit.... kinda funky... but yeah did i mention i hate them? maybe my mom will like them... if she does it will make me feel all the more better. but after, i stopped in the mall and my dad picked up some shoes... and then we went to Steak n Shake.... super yummy... but now... i'mma work on changin' my journal... cuz i am not computer impaired... =)

WEEEE

last night wuz christina's party and boy did we have fun! as MISSY ELLIOTT would say everyone wuz WORKIN it! even the guys.... altan, edgar, brian, and sameen... o boi lol me, ashley n hema were there til' only like 11... but thats about when everyone else left too. but i think it turned out awsum! like... the cake, the drinks, the music, the people, just.... awsum! ha ha! but anyways time 4 me 2 go! ttyl

boop boop be doop!
dude, it wuz my first day of work... i wuz workin' a whole 10-5 ^.^ i actually had fun! let's see who did i meet 2day? christian, walter, jacob, carol, gina, victoria, and christine.

christian - resembles Ashley Treu in a way, but he is cute.... kinda stuck up... "my dad is an ear doctor, so i have the best hearing in florida".... but he is str8

walter - ha ha.... my way of meeting him wuz cuz christian sent me over there to ask him to put stuff back... and christian goes.... just say, 'i dont know where these go' +in a high ptched voice+" so i went up to walter and said.... "christian has a message... 'i dont know where these go' +using my high pitched voice" and walter laughs and i just smiled at christian.... he's like... grrrr!

jacob - wutta trouble maker! man... i left for lunch... and i come back with gum in my mouth... he goes "i thought u left" "nope, i went to subway" "u know there is a no gum rule" i wuz like... "if u just had a tuna sub, u would understand" and he goes "sure.... a sub..." i flicked him off and later went up 2 him and jumped on him... lol weee...

carol - she's like my mom's age... smoker, w/ 5 teenagers... sumhow she is still sane, and is super kewl.

gina - she is like in her early thirties too... but the district manager only allows her to work one day a week because she is a "troublemaker"

victoria -n- christine - victoria is like 17 maybe, and christine is like 18-19.... SLUTS! they are such drama queens.... blah blah blah blah blah blah blah! UGH so annoying and bitchy too.... i wuz just like.... shut the fuck up.... r all 18-19 yr old girls like that? the ones i tend to meet are! but yeah, christine needs to put a bag on her fucking head.... its like acne city! no wait... COUNTRY! damn.... soooo ugly! they get like 5 guys and i get wut.... none? sluts.... dur dur dur!

but yeah those are the people i ran into but now that i am relieved to be home i get to go over to christina's and PARTAY! yippy, i can't wait.... super fun.... muchO! weeeee ttyl! xoxo

hey good lookin, wutcha got cookin? how bout cookin somethin up with me?!
still hard to believe that luan is gone.... at times, the halls and the classes feel so, odd without being able to look at him and laugh cuz he is wearing mrs. french's jean jacket or because danielle is being a terd in chem lol.

today wuz groton's last official day here... she is moving the stuff to her new apartment 2morrow while i am in my knees with work.... o n i coulda went with neil to miami.... but i got work... and ally, tyler, christy and i are trying to plan beach stuff.... for monday... but i work.... ugh i dont like having a job already!

christina's party is 2morrow! GET LOW!! wee i can't wait! very excited.

ally n tyler r 2 funny... they are such ballers.... neither of them have concluded to just go out yet.... but tyler really wants it to happen, and so do i! i think ally does deep inside too... i love this!

i told jmmy i would do something with him next weekend if i can WOOT!

i wanna c neil really badly... i miss him a lot.... and like idk wut i want more right now than to see him.... but i wanna c him soon.... geesh....

lol, ashley cline asked me if i liked patrick today, and for a minute there, i thought i did... but i am not to sure because i mean he is cool n all but idk him much. he is a good dancer tho lol he wuz showin off in spanish while keeping score of our game! and he wore my jacket.... so funny, i had this urge to c him in it for some reason... and then i thought, he might stretch it out! awsum! this way it wont b so small! n then i didnt get my jacket back until the bus which wuz still cool! but um.... its bed time for me so ttyl peace out home fries and nuggets lol ally.... I REJECT! ha ha!

sooooo is it the end or do we save the day again by rescuing ally's agenda book?? lol
ha today wuz all good in the neighborhood, it wuz like going up a hill... it only got better.... ashley treu and i walked around skool forever trying to hide from.... someone lol. and then, we had first period chem which wuz a buncha notes, and laughing at giggles because she couldnt reach the basket under my seat cuz i would continuously move it up! lol, then spanish wuz boring as fuck, nothing new, the test wuz quite easy tho and vanessa n i shared a few laughs. um... lunch wuz decent, i love hanging with my lunch buddies, me, hema, ally, n jessica, we talked about stupid stuff forever lol then came english were me and amanda chilled, anand sat near us to, i love talking to him cuz he is so funny, we were talking about compulsive liars... how it started? we assumed someone in the class wuz a compulsive liar, if ur in the class... u will know who we are talking about because he is quite annoying.... um... on my way out the door, trevor and i had an interesting conversation about special olympics! ha ha trevor.... and then i ran to weight training.... once again, my favorite class, i get to chill with ally, mike, tyler and kristy! ally has so many stalkers as tyler and i pointed out to her.... and all these poor boys are so heartbroken cuz they cant have her because she is mine... lol! she is sucha sweetheart and like she is moving, so i dont wanna b soooo close to her cuz i cant lose ANOTHER friend.... =/ tear tear... but hey it happens to the best of us. so yeah.... but we just hung out and tyler called me his lil gnome... ha ha.... halloween.... wow... did i tell u i love that class.... weee. um... but then came cheerleading practice, which wuz rather fun, poor lil hema n her outkasted self.... and the damn gnats lol! gosh... and adrienne and her restrictions for spiriting! o n dont forget how the left side loves each other more than the right side! wow.... and the wow briana says the numbers so happily... wut has gotten into her?! lol and um... the
ebony: "hey short thing did i tell u to continue the damn cheer?"
me: "no and its mrs. midget to u" ebony: "oompa"

lol.... wow.... and i give props to those eagles that were out there longer than us, poor girls! um..... but yeah i even got a sports bra tan.... god damn it.... and then my mommy cut my hair 2day.... wutta nightmare... she cut it unevenly... so she would cut it shorter and shorter each time... and i just started crying because it upset me soooooo much that i looked into the mirror and saw how ugly i felt.... but then i talked to neil and he just made me one fuckin happy camper.... i miss him so much, he is coming to ATL one day, and plus, we're gonna go camping with a buncha people.... lol neil plans things that never happen, but its nice to imagine the stuff... and he said that since his parents are leaving in like 2 weeks he is gonna take their car and come and see me!!! omg, i miss him! and travis and ashley! o gosh... and now my pimp luan TEARS 2morrow when i see him.... i luv that boy! but u gotta live life u know.... anyways its raining and i have bedtime stuff to do so ttyl x0x0 luv ya mucho!

skool has been fairly well, i mean, i wish it could be better.... dude i am soo bored tho, i really have been thinking about wanting a boyfriend lately.... yikes. like.... cuz i mean i miss talking to neil and sherman makin me laugh everyday.... i mean everyone makes me laugh but like... its not the same cuz we laugh about stupid stuff not people... and u know jonah got online for like five seconds today! my day wuz so horrible, and then he got online... and i wuz suddenly... WOW! but his computer is still fucked up so he wasnt able to talk, resulting in him signing off =( sux major balls... ha and licks major clit.... how funny is that! weee.... i needa life. gosh. but ya, dude, its so boring at ATL... i mean i wanna act all crazee and shit but there's no1 to act crazee n stupid with cuz neil, ashley, n sherman left. ugh, life is so boring these days.

**********
HEY DAD I'M WRITING 2 U
NOT 2 TELL U THAT I STILL HATE U
JUST 2 ASK U HOW U FEEL
N HOW WE FELL APART HOW THIS FELL APART
R U HAPPY OUT THERE IN THIS GREAT WIDE WORLD?
DO U THINK ABOUT UR SONS?
DO U MISS UR LIL GIRL?
WHEN U LAY UR HEAD DOWN HOW DO U SLEEP @ NITE?
DO U EVEN WONDER IF WE'RE ALRIGHT?
WE'RE ALRIGHT, WE'RE ALRIGHT
IT'S BEEN A LONG HARD ROAD W.O U BY MY SIDE
Y WEREN'T U THERE ALL THE NITES THAT WE CRIED
U BROKE MY MOTHER'S HEART
U BROKE UR CHILDREN'S 4 LIFE
IT'S NOT OK BUT WE'RE ALRIGHT....

**Dr. Baum: have u ever noticed that parents spend a lifetime trying to teach their kid how to talk, stand and walk, but when the kid starts school we tell them to sit down and shut up.

can u shop 'til u drop?
its only around 1pm n i am tired as hell. i couldnt sleep last nite, woke up like every hour. man, i woke up at 10am... so early. no sleep at all. its hurting me, and i don't think its very healthy either. but i started to clean my room and my mommy came in and asked me if i would wanna go to the mall! wow, i wuz surprised considering my dad took the checkbook from her and everything, but we got her new comforter that she's been dying for and her cute $35 pillows. then we shopped in american eagle DUR! i can never go to a mall without stopping in there. the one lady asked me if i wuz ever gonna work there cuz she sees me in there all the time, and i told her that i wuz only 15 and she said she'll keep in touch with me so i can get a job there! ha ha! weee... that made my day brighter cuz i got a cute skirt, and this long sleeve shirt! i luv that store 2 much! $85 like a week i spend in there! gosh, and once i get a job there, o my, watch out. lol. i might just go bankrupt! lol, yeah anyways, i think i am sick...? idk if i really am, thats why the question mark is there. but i do not really know, but i dont feel up to par. ha! par, wutta great word!

u know ur bored when:
- ur amused by the air conditioning turning on and off so it sways the leaves around it.
- u can keep urself busy in a room with nothing in it, and nothing on the walls.

ha ha groton! geesh, i need some help.

and there once wuz this lil' girl.
woke up @ 6a.m. and went to orientation, found out stephanie wuz also there, so i wuznt so lonely. we talked about sooo much shit during lunch, and every break we got. we talked about skool, drugs, living up north, EVERYTHING. REBA lol that means fish is Polish she taught me that. it wuznt all that bad tho. at least we got paid right! ha ha

i got home and the second i parked in the driveway groton, robert, n brittany were at my house... ugh no sleep at all i've been waking up everyday at 4:45a.m. and then on sat. at 6a.m n i still dont sleep... i can't sleep its impossible, i am longly to sleep! but i just cant rest my head to do it.

i saw brittany's new apartment, pretty but small, then we decided to hop over to regal 18 to c Freddy VS Jason, but they were IDing at the door... there wuz no way to sneak in! ugh! so we left n went to Friendly's ate dinner n dessert, these guys kept lookin at me! ugh i hate when u know that people r checkin u out! lol but it wuz all good cuz they were cute!

when we left, we decided to drop danielle off, n on our way home there were these hott guys in this one car and i wuz like dying to c them... but it wuznt working so i couldnt n UGH it sucked! then we hung over at mikes house for a bit:

Briana: u hafta get ur letter from danielle.
Robert: she wrote u like five pages. i only got like 3 pages. urs wuz the longest.
Briana: UGH... i only got 2 pages and i'm like her sister.
Robert: yeah well, i'm her big brother.
Mike: so wut does 5 pages make me? her father?

i think i am getting sick cuz my eyes keep watering and my nose is runny n i keep sneezing! =(

time 4 me 2 go... ttyl

Hey Cheerleader, if u can't throw, don't throw at all!

my skool day!

--we missed the bus
--went to dunkin donuts, wuz forced to get milk lol
--walked around skool danielle wuznt feelin good.

CHEM: boring... i wuzn't comprhending the shit we were doing.

Stats: i gotta 70 on that quiz! AVI CAME BACK! ....so adorable! i luv this class cuz i like talkin w/ avi, anand, n logan!

Economics: this class is fun! other than the work, me, hema, valerie, ally, sameen, n danielle r all in it. it wuz funny w/ the B.o. in that class... but it is soooo si ck, someone in there smells, n we know it isnt me, hema, ally, danielle, valerie, or sameen, cause we all smelled each other. but man whoever it is needs to take a shower, this is like the second time we've smelt it and its only getting worse.

Lunch: PEEL BANANA, PEEL, PEEL, BANANA! MASH POTATOES, MASH, MASH POTATOES! lol boom, boom, boom! +hits head on table+ lol good times, good times!

Art History:

Sunil: ur the buffalo, i'm the hunter.
Briana: y can't i be the hunter?
Sunil: b/c the guy is always the hunter and the girl is the buffalo.
Hema: Woman Hater.
Danielle: The guy wants to ride the buffalo.

CARLOS WOULDN'T LET ME SLEEP! lol, o man that class is too much fun! i luv every minute of it with all these people! lol

bus ride home:
man it wuz awsum, krystal n amanda started a paper ball fight, n i started throwin balls back and kept hitting this stupid bitch n she got mad cuz supposively i couldnt throw, cuz amanda wuz one seat behind the girl, n the ball would always land on her instead of amanda. but it wuz awsum, after, i got 2 talk 2 the bus driver, he is sooo tight! n i helped him clean up the bus b4 i got off.

when i got home i went to sleep i wuz so tired, then junior came over, then i talked to tyler, and sherman! n now i just found out some one tee-peed my house! ha ha, i wish i coulda saw it but my mom cleaned it up! i bet its either travis, courtney or brittany n robert cuz brittany is moving soon.... idk.... i shall find out who did it n get them back! there's going to be WAR IN THE L.O.S. mwahahaha!

so this is wut it feels like to b living in a material world with stuff lying on the ground
so last night i saw GRIND n Mike Vogel (Eric) wuz soooo hot! but there were many annoying guys in the audience! geesh... i wanted to yell but... yeah. but it wuz just me, ashley c, n danielle b.

2day i went to the beach. then to subway, then to wal-mart where i got these cool staples that are purple! lol! um... yeah

then i went to brittany's dad's clubhouse, n i didnt swim in the pool but i went in the weight room where i twisted my ankle n now it is swollen which is why i am sitting here with ice on it. its soooo numb that i cant even feel it.

i am wondering why jonah isnt talking to me... he hasnt been on in awhile n i miss him. n then he is signin on n off... he's been doing that for a few days now, n christina is signing on n off too... its madness lol but i must go cuz my cinnamon rolls are done cooking!