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2004 26 April :: 9.48 pm
:: Mood: Eating Sour Patches
forever is never. until today.
monday = monday.
up late last night. early school day. stupid chemistry class. i don't enjoy it anymore. stupid spanish test. never enjoyed ms. french.
s0... ate lunch. laughed at steven a majority of the time. funny, funny kid. went to morone's, studied for his 30 word vocab test in 5 minutes & passed. listened to peter try & uninclude amanda in their poetry analysis presentation. o0o, i oughtta beat the shit outta him for that. morone's class was fun, after that. i love being in there with those people. EVERYONE is s0o sweet & easy to get along with. went to murnan's class... sucked. took that quest, probably failed. but for our lab assignment i got stuck with sam & chris. but that's ok, but i have yoel who is a really funny/cool kid. <3
afterschool: went to jackie's house. me, ally & jackie ate a lil' something, got ready for the beach & pimped out to alex kelso's beach in jackie's BRAND NEW baby blue convertible buggy. w00t. s0-o much fun. shitty parking job tho, jackie... lol s0-o fun. and then... the beach with kelso. <3 after the beach we ran home & got ready for cheer practice... good stuff.
now i remember why i don't enjoy cheerleading.... because of the people on the atlantic varsity team. thank u. we did stunts today, right? everyone is telling me that i will be flying.. and then... nobody puts me up. instead, they put jackie up... and jackie isn't even on the team. +shrug+ i hate this place. however, i'm still cheering until i make park vista, which i am rather scared of trying out for. but yeah. i have melinda in my ear WHINING about shit... how she came to atlantic because of me and ellis and me leaving ib is going to stink. idk whatever.
so jackie & i talked a lil' and my mom came to get me. then poof.. i was home.
walked over to carol's and talked for a bit. booty girl was talking about how her and i have the same butt lol, "come here, lemme show my boyfriend this junk in the trunk" lol.
then... i was playing with her coach shoes. she says they give her blisters... she offered to give them to me, but they're a size 7, and that... happens to be to big for me. i'm only like a size 6. but they are soooo cute.
now... imma go do that crappy art hist hw.
damn... its only monday x`o
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2004 25 April :: 4.27 pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Don't Tell Me // Avril Lavigne
work was pleasant.
i worked with walter all day today, fun! thank god he was there because it was s0o damn slow. we were picking on tom & pissing him off, making fun of kevin's hair, making fun of steven, & i was picking on walter for the wet spot he left on his butt.... eye level lol. hell yea it is.
anyways... idk why i'm s0o pissy. maybe its cause my dad is offering to pay for my phone bill this week which means i could have spent another $60 at the mall but instead i decided to save it for my bill... which i now... don't have to pay. or maybe its because my mom borrowed $100 off me... for her trip to chicago... which she claims to pay back on thursday. maybe its because i have all this money and because i want a car, i have to spend it on car insurance rather than new clothes. or maybe its because erica jipped me an hour of work today because she knew i am making $7 an hour, and didn't want me making more than i usually do.
o how i love the real world and the money.
perhaps i'm going to go out to dinner with daddy & my brother to a mexican resturant 2night. hehe.
did i mention... i love being able to spend my money... i haven't done it in so long, and i love having someone to shop with- who doesn't care about how much she spends or how long we stay in the mall, and i love being able to talk to someone who is so much older than i am about life, because her advice helps.
i love having my boyfriend, and the love. the feeling of being strong even though we rarely get together... but those butterflies that i get in my tummy every time i see him.... it just makes this world feel great. i miss hema. i love danielle & the friendship we have.
peace 0ut. A-Town Down.
P.S // thank u 4 the compliments on my journal. <3
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2004 24 April :: 9.18 pm
:: Mood: lovable.
:: Music: Turn Me On // Kevin Lyttle
today was deliciously lovely.
it's days like today that i love.
woke up at 1:30pm. found all my clothes lying around the house. here's the reason:
Daddy got home from Marlins game with Tim & my bro around 12am. Daddy & Tim hung out in my garage until about 5am this morning. Carol came here after work around 2:30am. They all went out & since she didn't wanna wear her work clothes, she grabbed some of mine.
anyways, after i woke up... Carol called & asked to go hang out at the pool with her. which i did. then around 4:30pm:
CAROL: "i REALLY want those green capris that u bought, & i have to go get my ring from the boynton mall sometime."
ME: "Let's go!"
CAROL: "Alright, let's go."
ME: "...i was only kidding."
CAROL: "o. let's go."
so we went home, got dressed, & buzzed off in the escalade lookin' all pimp. got to boynton, parked in B.F.E. & went into American Eagle. Bought a new outfit. she bought the outfit i already had cause she was dying for my pants & she bought the outfit i bought today... only in a different color & size.
got home. called jonah. went out to dinner with daddy. that chinese place had me laughing for hours. old people. old people with big white beards. chinese people with funny accents. lobster bibs. lotsa food. lotsa laughs.
now, i'm calling it a night. i might get ready for bed... do some hw. idk. we'll see.
1o.12.o3 x`o
[“•edit•“]
i can't sleep. it's 2am. re/did woohu
s0ngs 2 him:
¹. Cupid // 112
². iF i Ain'T Got y0u // Alicia Keys
³. i Pray // Amanda Perez
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2004 22 April :: 7.55 pm
shopping til' ur dropping.
Carol :
+$200 in Hollister.
+$160 on a D & B bag.
+$ 50 on Makeup.
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=$410 total.
Booty Girl :
+$150 on Coach shoes.
+$100 on Makeup.
+$ 80 in Hollister.
+$ 50 on a Coach Wallet.
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=$380 total.
Me :
+$ 68 in Hollister.
+$ 95 in American Eagle.
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=$163 total.
spending g's.
i haven't eaten anything but two candy bars today. i'm so scared.
what i've tried to do isn't right... and i can't succeed... but i'm not going to give up trying. i need to feel good again. really good. not even shopping does me anything any more... maybe because.... yeah. i'm done. i'm going to do homework.
<3 Carol & Booty. i've found new people to shop with, and talk with. that's that. i don't need anybody else anymore. i've tried getting together with people & doing those girly things with someone for too long. i'm sick of searching. i don't care how old these two are. Carol = 36 & Booty = 22. they both look 19 yrs old & some guy thought we were all sisters. so i'm done.
"this doesn't do anything for me."
"b, u wanna sign?" +in front of the Coach Manager+ haha, <3
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2004 21 April :: 10.13 pm
:: Music: listening to michael jackson sing on south park lmao
chemistry: did our lab write up. i nailed that. it was so easy. gotta have a good grade.
stats: 74% on the mock AP test. awesome. nooo cheating at all. <3
economics: listened to epstein lecture, & took the practice test 29/60. yikes.
art hist: passed notes all over. nothing special.
bus ride home: hadda boy talk between me, danielle, ashley c, and ashley t. nice stuff. i loved that.
came home, typed up all epstein's notes. now i'm stuck with writing morone's paper... which i don't want to. damn.
what to do, what to do?
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2004 21 April :: 9.54 pm
:: Mood: grateful
An Email ThaT a FrienD sEnT me.
TO REALIZE
To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.
To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.
To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.
To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.
To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has
Given birth to a premature baby.
To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.
To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has
Won a silver medal in the Olympics.
To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.
Time waits For no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.
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2004 20 April :: 11.59 pm
:: Mood: light headed
lalala
i'm walking on sunshine. so alone in this state of mind. someone join me? if u do, i'll wipe all the dirt off ur shoulders.
just be my friend.
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1o - 12 - o3
i love how u call during the bad times, like when i'm ABOUT to fall asleep. cause when i get off the phone, your simple talks release stress & energy... and it makes the world go round... much easier. i love u.
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2004 19 April :: 9.54 pm
:: Mood: dreamy
2nd entry for today.
i was just over at Carol's house. and for those of u who don't know, Carol is about 32 yrs. old, and she is the coolest person u will ever know. she's a sucker for hollister, AE, A&F, Coach, D&B, etc. she's like my second mother. <3
anyways, i told her about my day. then we got into stuff about her marriage. and then we got into shopping... we picked out the purse that we are gonna go buy thursday after school. Booty Girl (22 yrs. old, went to atlantic, her real name is Carol *also* and she used to be an eagle ette) she is goin' shoppin' with me & Carol too. "how could u not tell me that u 2 are going shopping?!" hehe. so yeah, it should be fun. anyways... i'm out for the night, a nice bubble bath & the Usher CD will do me some good.
that college lady didn't come tonight. perhaps she will REALLY come tomorrow... considering she has cancelled two times already.
let me step out of reality
and into my fantasies
with just a touch of my toe
into the rippling flow
escape from my mentality
and enter my world of love.
this place is insanity
everywhere i go
someone is asking me
they just can't let me be
where can i go?
what can i see?
some place i can call home
have my love
and not feel so alone.
written = briana.
i want my... boyfriend. send me a kiss through your prayers and into the heavens, tell god to let it land on my cheek. when i softly rub down my cheek i will feel that love and know it was there.
heaven let me feel this good. i love... love.
1o/12\o3 jonah & bri.
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2004 19 April :: 6.14 pm
:: Mood: love to love.
:: Music: everytime:: britney spears
ride or die. no in between. love or hate. nothing else matters.
i love to sing.
i love to dance.
i love to cheer.
i love to love.
i love to give.
i love to hold his hand.
i love to have friends.
i love to love my family.
i love to do things right.
i love to be pretty.
i love to try.
i love to succeed.
i love to listen to music.
i love to work.
i love to earn.
i love to kiss.
i love to flirt.
i love to have fun.
i love to shop.
i love to travel.
i love to sleep.
i love to write.
i love to be a girl.
i love to be me.
i love to live.
i love to conquer.
i love to have money.
i love to take pictures.
i love to love pink.
i love to talk.
i love to design.
i love to be with him.
i love to pay attention.
i love to argue.
i love to fight.
i love to have attention.
i love to have strong feelings.
i love to be ambitious.
i love to be optimistic.
i love to have creativity.
i love to have brains.
i love to have my personality.
i love to have my body.
i love to do the things i do.
i love to be girly.
i love to be strong.
i love to be bubbly.
i love.... to.... love... who i am.
I LOVE YOU LOVE IT OR LEAVE IT LOVE IS CHEAP MAKE LOVE NOT WAR LOVE HURTS LOVE STINKS GIMME SOME LOVE LOVE ME OR LEAVE ME LOVE FOR SALE YOU CAN'T BUY LOVE TRUE LOVE CONQUERS ALL I LOVE NEW YORK LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT I'M FALLING IN LOVE YOU NEVER FORGET YOUR FIRST LOVE ALL I NEED IS LOVE I LOVE YOU, TOO Y
i love to know who i am and how i feel at all times. i never like anticipation. patience is so hard.
i don't like to wait.
i don't like to attend school.
i don't like to be a whore.
i don't like to be the same.
i don't like to have imperfections.
i don't like to hate.
i don't like to hurt.
i don't like to cause problems.
i don't like to sit.
i don't like to become numb to pain.
be confident, like you are the only person in this world & that you are even better than britney spears. even if it isn't true. i wish everyone could feel as great as i do all the time.
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2004 18 April :: 9.59 pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: some ReGGae Stuff on 103.5
HOLL-ER
up til 5:30am with jonah on the phone. i love him s0-o much.
woke up around 3:30pm. but i got up for like a 1/2 hour cause my sister made me cinnamon rolls. s0-o cute. <3
did hw. talked to danielle. junior came over after paintball. so when he walked in my room, i walked out =D (junior's dad, dave, got a DUI.... uhoh) then antonio came over later for dinner with his family. my dad made this huge dinner for everyone. i didn't eat. well.. i had 2 pieces of lettuce. +shrug+ antonio was a biatch,
antonio:(on the phone w/ his friend from a band) dude, i'm at this girl's house, she's so boring, she's not doing anything, but her homework.
HELLO... i have a boyfriend, and why would i touch u... or talk to u after the shit u've put me through???? i really wish neil had beaten antonio's ass last year when he had the chance.
neil is funny. game OVER. hehe. song sux i swear. but yeah... 9o mg=speed. u f*ing psycho, thank u.
¿what's ahead for this week?
+ MONDAY: Art History HW #1-7o due.
Stats Multiple Choice Test.
Economics Substitute. skipping to 3rd lunch.
+ TUESDAY: Cheerleading, uniform fitting & candy sale starts.
Spanish ACT Packet.
English= stupid test on analyzing poetry.
Biology=damn lecturing.
+ WEDNESDAY: Art History #71-14o due.
+ THURSDAY: 1/2 Day. Shopping with Carol <3
+ FRIDAY: Economics Test.
Stats Short Answer Test.
WEEKEND PLANS, HOPEFULLY: see jackie, alex, jonah, neil, hema. damn, mommy is going to chicago... 2 cars... one adult... the other car is free... MWHAHA. estoy bromeando.
peace. c u 2morrow.
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2004 17 April :: 8.01 pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: THiS WAY: DiLATED PEOPLES FT. KANYE WEST
turn it up... a LiL louder.
felipe: hey hey hey
briana: hey!
briana: wuts up?
felipe: just listenin to some music, and waiting for jonah to come
briana: hmm.... i have his wallet.
felipe: lol
briana: eh... it was empty anyway O:-) lol
felipe: now it is
felipe: lol
briana: lol i swear it already was
felipe: lol i kno
briana: whatcha guys got planned?
felipe: goin to dinner
felipe: hes takin me out on a date
felipe: lol nah
briana: lol cute
felipe: i wont steal him from you
briana: lol thank u. that just simply washed my worries away <3
felipe: haha
just thought this was a funny conversation... s0-o i thought i'd add it, in addition to the recent entry <3
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2004 17 April :: 4.36 pm
:: Mood: straightened out.
:: Music: YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER:: MONiCA
my freak girl told me now she a christian, my white girl wanna move back to michigan
internet out since wednesday late night.
school can suck my left nut. i can't wait until cheerleading tryouts come for park vista so i can make my final decision on where i am going. atlantic just isn't worth it anymore. but yeah, i wanna take pretam's advice... big party where even anand is wasted getting a lap dance by some fat bitch lmao.
so yeah, yesterday was friday, and i didn't think i would end up doing anything, but i did. hadn't talked to jonah... and called him. he wanted me 2 go 2 some baseball games at SHS. he called up mike & we all hung out over there. turned out to be a great, relaxing night. almost fell asleep on his shoulder... poor me, i was s0o worn out. mike is so dumb lol, i miss that short kid. yet i still won't see him next year. and jonah is goin' to trinity for baseball... crazy. but yeah... mommy picked me up around elevenish.
+licking the phones
+jackie threatening to hurt jonah over the phone.
+messin' around in the dug-out.
+mike & his phone.
+lights out. rape. i love u.
sometimes... after so long, u forget what's important in life. u forget why u love someone, who cares 4 u, what u need 2 do 2 survive, ur wants, ur hopes & dreams...
i felt like i didn't need him anymore... but then seeing him last night... made every worry in the world go away, imagine how great life could be if i could see him everyday. i forgot who cared 4 me... until after that chem test & all i needed was a hug from my REAL best friend... someone who has been there forever. ride or die, 5 years. i forgot y school was important... i just had that mood where i'd rather drop & get the G.E.D. i forgot what i wanted out of life...
now, i'm ok. <3 the hug from her & the night with him.... i love u 2 more than this world can hold love.
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2004 14 April :: 10.24 pm
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: josie, your my source of most frustration.
kayli... that song is in my head! lol 850,000 retard points for Carrrrrrr etc. lmao
mmm chem test
mmm ap art hist test
studied all night.
break. fast. haha. back to work.
kiwi & pineapple, uhoh.
how i love morone's class with my brown friends. <3 anand & pretam.
PUNCH ME!
Anand doing my SRI for me... thank u sir.
Mason playing peekaboo... niiiice.
Neil trying to force me to fail my tests for tomorrow. thats his encouragement to get me to go to Park Vista. <3 i'm coming, soon enough.
1: u know if u blow in ur cup... it sounds like a plane is above u.
2: there's a plane in the air... above us.
{silly me, i feel... BLONDE}
i think morone makes us all feel like his dumb bitches. and to think... a pop quiz is going to help us.... HOW?! i didn't even recall the 4 questions, or the definition of duplicity (not stating what the title states) until after the quiz. and... i did read Slaughter House Five. and i still failed that test. 38pt. + 18 pt curve (supposively) = 56% niiiice. damn, homie. i hate it. i can't wait to see what that damn 10pg research paper grade was. ugh!
we need to get these Economics notes down people. let's post that plan tomorrow. lots of work, major extra credit.
MoFo1788: hey ur skipin one day wit me
MoFo1788: and sum friends
MoFo1788: ok?
MoFo1788: ok
.... really... i love how i can get my yes or no in there, in less than 2 seconds. <3 ur the best, moo. quack.
bed time. good luck. xOx
p.s. ellen, holl-er, i'll help ya with ur journal. we'll make it PuRRR-Ti.
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2004 13 April :: 9.22 pm
:: Mood: content
just to tell u... how i feel.
if u are keeping woohu... and plan on giving me the money.. the last day i'm taking it is on friday... because i'm making the money order on saturday <3
s0o i've talked to my dad about leaving atlantic... he said i can... whenever i am ready. i'm going to try out for Park Vista Cheerleading and see how those results come out. if they're good... tah tah atlantic, if they are worse than varsity... imma have to figure out a way to stay at atlantic without being in ib. but i don't find happiness in atlantic. these last 2 weeks have been better... but... its not how i want it. i've got goals, and a plan.... i need time to manage everything... and ib isn't helping me, its just a hassle. score... i'm psyched, but knowing that danielle isn't coming with me... and i won't be in the same school as her... makes me feel so.... empty. just the thought. which makes me not even want to think about it. what's a girl to do?
im talking to my home fry jose & just got done talking to alex, so imma go now. peace homes. xoxo
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