lindseyethatsme
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2007 18 March :: 12.15pm
i am trying to believe.
it is getting harder to change as i get older.
but i keep finding myself longing to have what they have.
that relationship.
that firm belief in a god.
that trust that their own life is in his hands.
and it's all taken care of.
i keep wanting to risk all of my friends, my habits, my talk, my decisions, just to have this thing that i see in all of them.
this happiness.
this indescribable unspoken pleasure.
with life.
with people.
with changes.
with worry.
i want that.
and i seriously think i'm going after it this time.
i just don't know where to begin.
i have questioned a god for so long.
but what i see in them has got to be real.
play me a melody on the piano
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