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2004 13 June :: 4.00pm
:: Music: shekina- blindside
i cant be your savior
- cant even save myself -
but im learning well
how to just be who i am
and stop pretending
i'm what you need me to be
the truth is
at this rate
im more than youll ever be
the lies
the stupid miscommunications
it's all adding up
to be a lot of nothing
and im tired of sums
and tired of trying
i just love being the person
you refuse to know
and thats not bad
is it
it's just you've taught me
so well
something so wrong
and now its growing old
the delicateness of time
is slowly slipping by
and im still here
waiting for you
to wait for the person i truly am
but you just want
the part of me that isnt real
the person you think can save you
but im not your savior
- i cant even save myself-
im just learning to finally be
the beautiful person
you never see
- Lindsey
"There are moments such as these when time stands still, and all you can do is hold your breath and hope it will wait for you."
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lindseyethatsme
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2004 11 June :: 12.20pm
:: Mood: i dont have one for once
:: Music: anberlin
he waited for you...
there by the trees
as the morning dew
dripped down
off the leaves
alone;
he waited for you
he waited for you...
standing silent
tasting drops
of past reflection
rolling down his face
in a lonely place
he waited for you
he waited for you...
there by the pond
where blades of grass
collected under his feet
and flowers from the garden
permeated the air so sweet
he waited for you
he waited for you...
with bated breath
whispered your name
softly, slowly
again, and again
as time passed
in quiets rasp
he waited for you
he waited for you...
there with his soul
and there with his mind
yet only you would know
what he would come to find
absent without care
love would never share
wonder if you new
he waited there for you
he waited for you...
in just a split second
as the chamber turned
the flash sought reckoning
as his heart for you still yearned
-final problem solved
for all that were concerned
wondered if you new?
or of the news you have learned?
he waited...
and yet he still waits...
waits, for you
- Heather Defoggi
i love this poem. for many reasons that are going to remain unstated. if you like this poem too..leave a comment - for her sake. :)
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2004 8 June :: 10.20pm
:: Mood: worn out
:: Music: spice girls?? why is it that EVERYTIME im with the chels...im listening to something gay? hmmm
hey its me.
Lindsey: hey you, its Lindsey.
Chelsea: hey me, its you. (or nathan said that?? not sure. but i kind of like chelsea more...haha)
so tyler- whose my favorite? i know..but i'm not telling...(especiallllly with chelsea looking at the screen- haha *punched in the arm by chelsea)
alright so writing time for real. i guess i used to update pretty much every moment...but i guess when all i do is sit at home and hang out with the same people every other day...well- there's just not anything juicy to talk about. (juicy? god im gay.) so. heather's party is this saturday. FUN FUN FUN because-
FUN= birthday and
birthday= CAKE. and well
CAKE=very good and well uh
very good stuff= LINDSEY HAPPY.
WARNING: the next lines contain random thoughts that might be offensive. dont read them.
i like driving.
don't eat sour cream and cheddar chips- they make you really sick. especially when you've left the bag open in a humid heated car for 6 hours and they're kind of chewy instead of crunchy?
(sidenote about driving) chelsea connor started driving. she's driving tomorrow for driver's ed. good advice: stay off the road and pray for the drivers ed program.
this might be offensive but i just dont get how walking a marathon can cure the people with cancer.
my sister asked me the other day at the lake why two bugs were stuck together. she's 18.
im out.
like whoa?
nah.
peace.
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