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2004 9 March :: 7.28am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: something on mtv...
festival...
well i'm gonna be late for practice but i don't care much right now...just really tired (as usual)...i was waiting for some songs to download but it's too long so fk it...anywho...festival is this friday, & to be honest i'm not sure what to expect...i just have a feeling we're gonna let mr. macon down & think we did well... :S ...*oi*...so yeah i'm not so confident i guess you could say...it'll be over soon...
gonna have to go...talk later...
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2004 8 March :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: tired & kinda grumpy...kinda bitter...really fucki
so i haven't been round here much...
i'm sorry i've been neglectant...just haven't wanted to write here in a while...too damn tired like i am right now...the days have been ok...no fights w/ anyone (yet)...track meet wednesday @ calexico so that's kidna exciting...got my band pics today & they look like shit...i'm just really out of it...
"a long december & there's reason to believe, maybe this year will be better than the last..."...counting crows...long december...nice song, you should check it out...
i'm gonna go to sleep cuz i'm not feeling too well lately...shit i've got 7:30 tomorrow...*oi*...talk later...
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2004 7 March :: 9.56pm
| Jumped off a bridge?: | nope | | If so...that was stupid...did you know that?: | duh | | Ever ran the mile?: | yeah, i run for fun! | | Walked a mile?: | damn right | | Listened to a CD straight through without skipping any songs?: | yeah, it's coo | | Eaten gum off the sidewalk?: | no...not yet ;) | | Walked through a house with muddy shoes?: | yeah | | Did you get yelled at?: | yeah | | Stuck a pencil in your eye?: | nope i'm not THAT dumb | | In someone elses eye?: | i wish @ this point | | Been in love?: | yeah twice | | Thought about suicide?: | yeah a few times | | Attempted suicide?: | like twice | | Pretended to like something or someone just so you could be liked?: | yeah unfortunetly | | Used a calculator?: | yeah | | Had sex?: | oh yeah | | With a stranger?: | no | | With a member of the same sex?: | no, but i wouldn't mind i don't think | | With a member of your family?: | nope | | Masturbated?: | yeah | | Cummed?: | yeah | | Shit or peed while doing something sexual?: | got close to it | | Taken a cold shower?: | yeah, those suck | | Streaked?: | nope | | Walked around naked?: | in my house today | | Watched Jerry Springer?: | yeah when it was old school | | How about the un-edited version?: | nope | | Was it good?: | wouldn't be able to tell you now, huh? | | Wished you could slap me upside the head?: | sure why not? let's go ape shit! | | Then go ahead....I'm leaving.: | nice meeting you | | Should I add more questions?: | sure | | Are you sick of me?: | nope | | GOODBYE!!!! UBU!!!!: | ...ok... |
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2004 6 March :: 12.05pm
:: Mood: pist off big time
:: Music: S Club 7 - Don't Stop Moving
fuck this shit...
i'm frustrated w/ her...she makes it seem like it's my fault we have friendship...she makes me want to hit her honestly, & i won't do it...i know that's what everyone else wants...but it doesn't matter...i'll lose nothing & i'll gain nothing if that happened...it doesn't mean anything to me...i just wish she'd leave me alone...stop giving me those damn dirty looks...i wish she'd focus on her "goal" & get the fk out of my life saying that i'm taking things away from her...what is she thinking anyways?...she was the one saying that she'd never like him...that he wasn't good for me, but still supported the relationship...WHAT THE FUCK IS UP W/ THAT BITCH?!...i just can't stand to be in this shit...& i wish she never told me...i swear if anything happens & she hurts him i'll fuck her up...& vice versa...GOD!...i just can't stand it anymore...
*grr*...talk later...
ps...shhh...no one say anything bout this...you know who you are...cuz i'll hurt you too...i'm serious... :@
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2004 6 March :: 10.36am
:: Mood: kinda pist, but tired mainly
:: Music: Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You
every feeling that i get, but i haven't missed you yet...
well yeah i've been in love w/ that song this week..."i hate everything about you" by three days grace...*yay*...
so i changed myself some...i'm pretty goth now...it's coo...whatever...
i've been going to the fair everyday now that it's starting to make me sick...*oi*...ni modo...
i found out i have to pretty much stop hanging out w/ someone cuz it's bothering other ppl...whatever...i hang w/ who i want...but then again, i don't care anymore i guess...
"i hate everything about you, why do i love you?"...
i wonder why?...talk later...
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2004 3 March :: 11.54pm
:: Mood: happy & *grr*
long long night....& still going
well i've decided to go for something that i've never thought i'd go for...i guess some ppl will see...
beauty hurts...damn i'm gonna be in pain,...so yeah...whatever the fk that means...
as for joey's comment, i had the feeling of not wanting to care...it's his choice for not wanting to write in here & it's his choice to call me stuborn & say he's like me...*oi*...sometimes i just don't know what to do w/ you joey...I JUST DON'T KNOW...
i went to the fair tonight & had fun...but i feel sick so yeah...
i tried to get my ear pierced, but damn that didn't work...long story...
i was really tired & kinda feeling sick today so i didn't go to practice because of that...& other things... :@
well i'm in the middle of my "rennovation" i guess you could say...i've heard from someone once that they can't believe i've changed...
i can't believe i'm allowing it...talk later...
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2004 3 March :: 3.06pm
:: Mood: don't even ask cuz i don't even know
damn poems of mine
LEAVE ME
the firey look in your eyes has burned my heart to more than ashes
a consistant shot at me everyday & somehow i still can walk
but i can't take this any longer
i stress, i cry, you see me dying
& all you do is pick my faults when my faults are of none
tell me it's over, leave me to bleed
leave me in my dark corner, dead
(UNTITLED)
i know you can't stand me when i shut down
but it's frustrating to me when you're around
i like the silence & i like my pain
i love deep depression in a hard rain
can't stand your words & happiness
it seems you've made my life a mess
i'm used to pain & i'm prone to disappointment
all of this i've endured in a single moment
you say you're sorry, your love is said
i'm used to this shit; i say i'm dead
talk later...
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2004 3 March :: 7.14am
:: Mood: tired as hell
:: Music: something on vh1
i've been gone a bit huh?
just want to let ppl know i'm ok...just don't feel like writing here...i've been tired...from track to fair, from home to work...*oi*...i need sleep...
so yeah i'll do that in school...lol...talk later...
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2004 29 February :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: crazy
happy leap year
You feel happy, and loved. Nothing could be any
better for you....you may even have a love one
in your life....go you. (Please Vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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2004 29 February :: 1.16pm
:: Mood: happy, scared, worried, bored, etc, etc, etc...
i'm gonna leave it all behind soon...
well i had fun lastnight @ the fair...it was coo...i went w/ joey lina & ben...then we met up w/ jeremy & alex...that's always fun...i think the highlight of the night was when i got hypnotized w/ joey & alex & lacy...i have the tape so that'll be coo...we got there round 3 & stayed there til like after 10...i was tired, but it was worth it...
on the way there we saw this blue truck fishtail it near a red light & he ran into the light post...it was freaky, but kinda funny...the guy wasn't injured, but i guess he was pist & started yelling & hitting things in the car...lol...
i woke up this morning & went downstairs & found something great there...a letter from chc...
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so guess what?...
I'M IN!...I'VE BEEN ACCEPTED TO CHRISTIAN HERITAGE COLLEGE!!!...
don't worry, i'll give you guys the address later...*sigh*...i'm so happy...
i've been taking a walk down memory lane this week...just yesterday i saw my old neighbor from when i lived in the blue apts, & i was talking bout how fun it was to piss off our manager...he was the last one of "the group" to live there...*sigh*...then this morning i took danny to the middle school & we hung out there...out near the bars & we raced...just the way him & his friends used to & how me & my friends would...i passed by my old friend's house & almost cried because i'll never see her again...she moved to sacramento suposedly...amber was her name...it sux to think that we grew up & now we won't be there for prom or graduation or when i get married, or to even know i'm going to chc... :( ...time flys...*sigh*...
well i better start working on my chc papers...this is so cool...talk later...
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2004 29 February :: 7.59am
:: Mood: awake
awww
You Should Take the Plunge and Propose
This may take a little courage on your part, so don't let your chance pass you by
You want to get married - and more importantly, your guy seems like he wants to marry you
For the ultimate proposal, spring for a simple white gold band to present him
Or just propose spontaneously... but plan out your words, so he'll know that you mean it
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Find the Love of Your Life
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heh heh, that's kinda cute...
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