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2004 10 February :: 7.11am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Beyonce - Me, Myself, & I
damn it's too cold in the morning...
i'm gonna have to go to school early...well at least i can kinda get some hm/wk done @ school...lol...i slept good last night i think...OH DAMN!...the only reason i got online was to look for lyrics, but i got distracted & now i remembered...lol...well tonight is the radio show so we'll see how that goes...
gotta get ready for school...so talk later...
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2004 9 February :: 8.25pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: watching "a thing called love"
the day is done...finally
so the day was ok...by myself mostly...i made dinner for my dad & left to go film something for joey & fabi...it was coo...& fking cold too...lol...so yeah...this movie i'm watching is pretty coo...it's a country movie...bout a singer/songwriter from new york moving into nashville to make it big in the local bar scene...it's funny cuz when i watch these kinda movies they tend to inspire me some, or motivate me to the point where i'm like "yeah, that's what i'm gonna do, that's me right there"...then i wake up!...lol...anywho...well tomorrow & probably forever more i'm getting taken to school by my dad...how crappy it is to have to go to school @ 7:30 when school doesn't really start til 8:15!...yeah i'm kinda pist bout that...ni modo eh?...
well it's getting late & i'm gonna try to fix something on my computer...talk later...
i love you joey :)
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2004 9 February :: 10.55am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Evanescence - Forever Gone, Forever You
*blah*
so another long morning is passing me by...i'm having to clean the room but i haven't gotten very far...i hope i can do something today...i hate it when my dad yells at me cuz then i feel like i'm nothing...i'm worthless or something...he makes me feel inferior to mankind...wow that sounded kinda deep...anyways so i get all depressing & shit after our fights...& i hate to feel like that...*sigh*...i dunno what to do anymore...oh well i guess...
i'm gonna keep cleaning & listen to evanescence like mad (what's new)...talk later...
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2004 8 February :: 10.27pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: watching "you've got mail"
the last town carnival in my damn senior life...awww :(
Going Under
What Evanescence Song Are You? (pics)
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well after the last post joey called to tell me he was coming over...he appoligized & so did i...i really hate fighting w/ him cuz i guess it's just so much more serious when we fight...that's the thing...i've never really had someone who would fight w/ me...i usually was the only one to bitch bout things...but to me fighting is healthy in a relationship i guess...it'd be too bland if everything was perfect, though in our society we strive for perfection...anywho...so we spent much of the day @ the carnival again...i went home for a bit & got in trouble for...yeah if you really want to know just email me...but yeah...so anyways...went back & hung out w/ joey & some other ppl...then danny hung out w/ us for a little bit too...today was lu's 18th bday, but since he's a j/w, i had to tell him sad 18th...lol funny stuff man...so hanging out was coo today i guess...just really tiring...we have no school tomorrow, so i'ma stay home & clean my room cuz i need to be able to go out this weekend...well i'm out of things to say except that EVANESCENCE WON BEST NEW ARTIST & BEST ROCK PERFORMANCE @ THE GRAMMYS!!!...that's my band ;)...
i love you joey...talk later...
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2004 8 February :: 1.17pm
:: Mood: crying
:: Music: Evanescence - Forgive Me
everyone hates me now
i feel like i'm losing denisse & mark...my two friends that liked eachother this week i have a feeling i'm losing too...
now joey & i kinda got into a fight & i didn't want it to go there... :'( ...he hates me & the way i am i know it...i'm not the one for him...there's gotta be someone better than me...someone he can trust & his parents & sister can love to be around...someone...someone...someone...
but not me...
talk later...
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2004 8 February :: 9.26am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: the tv
a long night...
well the carnival was coo...joey & i got eachother rings so that was kick ass...then we got (or i won) 2 stuffed pugs...we named them pugsly & wednesday (like from the adams family)...so yeah that was coo...i took care of him some cuz we both got sick, but he got it worse than me...but i think he's ok now...hopefully we can hang out today...i dunno yet...well i better get going to get ready for church right now...talk later...
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2004 7 February :: 10.42am
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Evanescence - Field Of Innocence
"say you're here & IT'S ALL OVER NOW"...
well it's over...my last holtville parade, my last parade in general i think...i almost cried in the middle of the performance, but it wasn't worth it...
i couldn't talk to denisse & mark cuz they seemed preoccupied today...actually everyday now...& danny was too busy looking for "someone"...*ugh*...yeah i guess i'm pathetic...
i'm gonna try to go & have fun @ the carnival...but something in me says it will never be the same...
*sigh*...talk later...
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2004 7 February :: 8.39am
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: Evanescence - Forever Gone, Forever You
check this out if you'd like:
www.blurty.com/users/viking_punk
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2004 7 February :: 7.45am
http://images.trafficmp.com/tmpad/content/hotbar/Hot9/362.html
it's so cute...lol...the one in the middle...yeah i'ma dork...talk later...
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2004 7 February :: 7.20am
:: Mood: blah
carrot parade is today...*oi*
i slept kinda ok lastnight...my stomach has been hurting nonstop since last night...maybe it's cramps or something i ate lastnight...or maybe i'm really worried bout that damn parade today...maybe it's also the fact that i'm still annoyed w/ something...*oi*...
yesterday i took lina down to the ground...you know how jokes kinda get turned into maybe insults or something & one person gets hurt by it so they start to fight?...well that's what happened...one thing went to another & i think she thought i was joking but i was getting upset so i got her in some kinda hold...it's funny to think bout it now, but then i was so mad that i wanted to punch her, but i didn't realize that i'd done that & i was afraid that ben, joey, or even mr. macon was watching & gonna pull us apart, so i held myself from punching her...& after the whole thing i felt bad, cuz i didn't know what came over me...i'm not so much the violent, i'ma-kick-yo-ass kinda person...& i kinda feel bad bout it...but when i think it over, part of me wishes i punched her...just cuz...
today is my last parade...*oi*...
we're probably gonna go to the carnival afterwards...it's gonna be different...cuz i have a new bf...& the friends i have i feel distant from because, i dunno, maybe they just don't like the way i am...i was asking one of my friends the other day if i was (hypothetically speaking) frustrating to ppl, & he flat out told me yes, but chose not to discuss the matter... :( ...so how do i know when i'm doing something wrong?...
i think i grew out of the carnival...the rides don't seem appealing to me anymore...i wonder why that is...
this is something i always say...& i'ma say it again...i can't accept change very well...& this year was the worst... :( ...
i'ma go now, still have to get ready for the parade & yeah...wish me good luck...talk later...
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