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2004 27 January :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: sleepy
another night away...
well my night ended coo ;) ...so anyways, my day was alrighty i guess...all of a sudden everyone wants to buy tickets from me...my last day to sell is tomorrow so i'm kinda stressing over that...i was getting scared bout my dress & i still am...i'm borrowing lina's prom dress, but it's really long for me, so i dunno what i'm gonna do...oh well i'm just glad that it's gonna be over soon...even though i know w/out a doubt i'm gonna lose...
ppl say i have a bad mentallity going into this, but i mean it was my own fault for not selling tickets, plus other factors...so i'm not bitter, i'm just truthful...
well i'm getting tired & i've got pictures tomorrow for band...hope they go well...talk later...
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2004 25 January :: 10.11pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Evanescence - Whisper
fuck this shit...i'm not taking it...
Yours are DEMON wings, possibly resembling
those of a bat - huge, black, and clawed. You
are cold and impure, and a born Creature of the
Night. Possibly with an interest in those of a
vampyric nature, or possibly one yourself. You
have little sympathy or care for humanity and
see them as existing for no real purpose -
thus, you can be very manipulative and bend
them to fit YOUR purpose. And you do have a
purpose, to everything you do. Nine times out
of ten it will be strictly for your own self
gratification or perhaps merely amusement. As
soon as a person or situation is no longer
productive or pleasurable in your life, you
will rid yourself of it or them. You could very
well have just a touch of superiority complex
(or perhaps more than a touch?). Despite all of
this, you are capable of love so intense that
you place that person's wishes even above your
own - the only time that you will do so.
Chances are you are attracted to people in
which you see...yourself. Though many hate you
for your carelessness and evil...Sexy, fierce,
sinful, and mysterious...you turn me on.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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god it pisses me off everytime...DAMNIT TELL ME IF YOU WANT ME TO GET AWAY FROM HIM...
i can't take it anymore joey, tell me the fucking truth & don't make me feel like shit...
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2004 25 January :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Orgy - Stitches
repetitive loser
talking to joey made me realize right now that all i ever really talk about is the fight that danny & i had...shit why the fuck does joey love me?...sometimes i think that god should punish me by leaving me single...i hate the way i am...i hate my living conditions...i hate that i can't be trusted...i hate that i don't want to trust myself...i hate that lina & her mom & everyone else at school makes me feel stupid...
maybe i'm not the one...*sigh*...stupid stupid stupid...
fuck it i'll talk later...
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2004 25 January :: 7.01pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Evanescence - Everybody's Fool
so yeah...
well it was a long boring day...my dad got dumped i guess...so it's kinda depressing here...but that means i don't have to deal w/ her anymore, which is coo i guess...that just means that i can't use her car anymore, but then again, it's coo...lol...
well i've got nothing to say really...talk later...
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2004 24 January :: 11.34pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Brand New - The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows
damn it's getting there...
i just realized today that it's downhill now...i'm a senior & this is it...& i found that no matter what i do after high school i won't be happy...so i'm fucked in the ear...lol...i'm having problems w/ danny...(hard to believe right? *ugh*)...anyways...i can't be his friend but if i tell him that then i'll be lost...
why did he fuck up?...
"how long til i'm not just dreaming, how long til somebody cares, how long til i meet an angel to give him my heart, when can i start, how long til i fall in love?"...lyrics from dream...
i found my "angel"...joey...he made me realize that he listens & actually cares...hell he came to the concert tonight...& made me feel important...something i haven't felt in a long while...the concert by the way went ok...it just made me feel like i'm gonna miss out next year...& it makes me feel stupid for not doing it my first 2 years...
damn i'm tired & stressed out now so i'ma go now...talk later...
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2004 24 January :: 10.36pm
:: Music: Ricky Martin & Meja - Private Emotion
...
Randy: You are in the middle of being totally
honest and being too nice. You like giving
people secod chances...
Which American Idol Judge Would You Be?
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2004 24 January :: 7.52am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: fefe dobson - Everything
a long day ahead of me...
well i'm gonna have to start getting ready to leave for ec in like 40 mins...tonight is the concert, & like lastnight, i'm not excited...but it'll probably change i dunno...i was bummed out lastnight & i kinda couldn't understand why, but oh well...i'm waiting to be disapointed tonight like i always am...it sux i wanted to burn this cd but something on my computer isn't right... :( ...damnit...oh well...i guess i'll be going...i'm gonna have to put in my contacts...*fuck*...there goes like 20 mins of getting ready...lol...talk later...
wish me luck...
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2004 23 January :: 11.43pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Evanescence - Whisper
do i suck?
had honor band tonight & it was ok...i dunno i just feel outta place & don't want to go tomorrow...i supposed to sell cookies as an incentive for the carrot queen thingy, but i think brad made me see lastnight that basically i'm a total faliure & i mind as well give up...i've never been one to be a quiter, but i just can't do it...*sigh*...i suck...
lately i feel like joey's holding back from me, like there's something wrong, but i can't help...it's like that other post from yesterday..."how can i help you if i can't even help myself?"...*sigh*...once again, i suck...
what if something was wrong w/ him & i couldn't do anything?...damn i'm the worst gf i swear...*sigh*...
well i'm really tired, so i'm gonna stay online like i usually do...talk later...
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2004 22 January :: 8.41pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Evanescence - Take Me Away From Me
damnit all to hell
brad told me my name was stupid...no no no not my name my sn on messenger...i dunno i think we fucked up our friendship...*ugh*...damn emotions...
i'm sorry...
*grr* talk later...
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2004 22 January :: 6.49pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Brandy - What About Us?
*yay* i got contacts!
yeah i got them today...they were a bitch to put in...but it's coo...hopefully i'll get colored ones in the next 2 weeks when i go back...tomorrow i have the last of my finals so that's gonna be exciting...i'm getting out of math analysis class to t.a. for mr. cox...at least i'll still be somewhat working in the department of math so that's coo...more than likely it's just grading papers (which i did when i had his class & trust me they were so easy, i even finished all my homework in there & the grading papers before the class ended...but then again that's just me)...& he'll probably send me to get him cokes...he's a coke freak...so yeah that's gonna be interesting...
so yeah...talk later...
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2004 21 January :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Evanescence - Where Will You Go?
"i am so sick of speaking words that no one understands, is it clear enough that you can't live your whole life all alone, i can hear you in a whisper but you can't even hear me screaming"
i just can't stand ppl anymore, maybe just because i'm on my rag, i dunno...but i can only stand to listen to so many ppl before i just want to punch ppl...just some ppl i can't help anymore...
i can't even help myself, so how can i be of any help to you?...
talk later...
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