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2004 10 January :: 3.09pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Avril Lavigne - I don't give a damn
DON'T YOU KNOW THE REASON THAT I KISSED YOU WAS TO SAY GOODBYE!
i think i'm gonna tell him today @ the band shit...i can't take it anymore...i don't need danny in my life if all he's gonna do is make me feel like shit...
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2004 10 January :: 12.39pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Evanescence - My Immortal
fuck it
feelings are a big part of your life. so is that
mean streak. you insult and apologize at the
same time. you are the "it worries me how
dumb you are" happy bunny. unusual might
describe you best.
which sarcastic, synical, and perverted happy bunny are you?
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i had a "fight" again, with danny of course...you know what joey is right...fuck the friendship...i'll have him & denisse...& everyone else actually...danny was my life for 3 years...& i got nothing out of it...so what the fuck am i waiting for?...
i'm waiting to say...IT'S OVER!
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2004 10 January :: 10.00am
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: watching mallrats
another morning
waking up this morning was kinda funny...my dad came in my room & goes, "mija, it's time to get up"...i'm all like "WTF? IT'S SATURDAY!"...stupid dad goes,"i know i'm just fucking w/ you"...damnit...
so yeah...i'm watching mallrats right now...i was told to watch it by a few ppl...i like it really...so it was a good suggestion...
tonight we have to go to the swiss club for a band performance, playing at a surprise retirement dinner...i will be driving tonight...*yay*...when i mentioned it to joey yesterday it kinda seemed like he didn't think it was a good idea for me to drive, but then again maybe it was just me getting the wrong signals...hmm...
well i'm gonna finish watching mallrats...it's fking funny...be on again later...
i love you joey...you owe me chasing liberty this next sat...for a special reason i hope you realize...*kiss*
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2004 9 January :: 10.32pm
:: Mood: tired...if only you knew ;)
well then...
yeah i hung out w/ denisse & joey today...i went w/ joey to ec to get fries...then we hung out... ;) ...but my stomach hurts..."happy feeling gone"-finding nemo (marlon)...anyways...well just wanted to say g'nite to everyone...i'll be back in the morning...such a pathetic life i lead w/ this computer now...lol...talk later...
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2004 9 January :: 7.46am
:: Mood: touched
:: Music: Avril Lavigne - I don't give a damn
wise words from jorge:
there's a very thin line between love & insanity...
i was told to think bout this all day...hmm....talk later...
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2004 9 January :: 6.38am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: stuff on mtv & vh1
good morning...woohu!
every morning before i go to school now i've been writing in my journal or at least getting online...lately i'm afraid to predict what will come to be when i get to school...my biggest fear is fighting w/ danny, & it happens regularly...maybe selfconciously i haven't fully grasped that it's completely over...& it is...& i need to get 100% past it...& i thought i was...though i have maybe a sliver of feelings left for him, it doesn't mean that i'll want to get back w/ him...i wish i completely understood why he still loves me...he made things so hard & what i used to be like he's turned into...maybe that's why i don't like him...i hate the old me & he's changed...hmm...
*shit* i didn't do my hmwk again...what's new...
if all goes well today i'm gonna see Chasing Liberty tonight w/ joey...*whoohoo*...
i found yet another song by avri that i totally connect to right now..."i don't give a damn"...i know you all must be wondering what's up w/ my obsession w/ evanescence & avril...well here's a bit of a story for that:
when evanescence first came out with "bring me to life", i was annoyed w/ it...but my friends had me listening to more & more of it...so annoyed grew to like & like grew into love...(jeez that sounded really corney didn't it?)...& some of their songs i can really relate to...as for avril, well that to me was a blessing...i know a lot of my friends who hate her & think she's such a poser...& that's fine...but her music helped me go through my breakup w/ danny & my parents divorce...mind you this was my dad's second marriage...*ugh*...anyways, that's why they mean so much to me now...well i may write again before school...if not definetly after school...talk later...
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2004 8 January :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Hillary Duff - Come Clean
oh jeez
well my day was ok...i kinda don't care...joey & i are good again...i'm getting close a lot of times to just yelling at danny & telling him i'll never forgive him for everything he'd done to me...*ugh* that boy frustrates me...i want to tell him i hate him but i dont'...i want to tell him get over it, but then i don't...i dont' know what i want from him...not a relationship i know that...if we could be friends that'd be great but he can't handle it...
should i be w/out him as a friend?...someone please comment...talk later...
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2004 8 January :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: Garbage - Only happy when it rains
neato
SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the
Lycans extinct. This 127-year-old
"aggressive hunter of the underworld"
combines a mastery of ancient weaponry with
modern pleasures, such as driving Jaguars and
using computers. However, Selene's ambitions
are suppressed by Kraven. She longs for
Viktor's reawakening so that he becomes the
Vampire's regent once again.
Ever wish
you could be a vampire?
Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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2004 7 January :: 10.31pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Christina Aguilera - Fighter
heh heh...
Exhibitionist
The ULTIMATE personality test
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2004 7 January :: 9.02pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Evanescence - Solitude
ha this is true after today
YOU ARE A COMPLETE BITCH PEOPLE ARE PROBABLY AFRAID
OF YOU CUZ OF HOW BITCHY YOU ARE!!
are you a bitch , evil, or just plain psycho
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2004 7 January :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: something stupid on vh1
bad day...but hopefully getting better
i was reading the post before this one & realized how bad i made a pun on that...i really did (on accident mind you) punch joey...it's a long story...let me start at the beginning...
the fight we had lastnight didn't really get all that resolved but i'd forgotten some about it...when i walked into the band room things were good...danny though started in w/ a big shpeal bout how joey doesn't love me if he keeps putting off our wedding date...he basically made me feel like shit during band...so i said the fuck w/ it & when i walked into econ i wanted to cry...i walked out & before i saw danny i knew that he was gonna come up to me & apoligize to me...guess what?...HE DID...so i said yeah whatever, didn't really accept it...saw joey & when he jokingly tripped me & blew up & hit him...not just hit him...I WENT OUT & BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM...& i didn't even realize it either...i thought i hit him in the chest & kicked him in the leg...when in reality i punched him in the face & kicked him in the unmentionables...OMG I'M SO SORRY...so he wasn't really a happy camper...& saying sorry didnt' help so i felt like shit then...my math analysis teacher mr. rodgers fucking singled me out cuz i was late to class...the class was already in their seats ready for the lesson & he just opens the window & in the middle of class just asks me why i get to class so late...i got really mad cuz whenever it's one of his football or softball players he doesn't say shit to them...*ugh*...from lunch on it went better...
i have been really stressed today so i think i'm going to find something to do online...this one cute guy who i have on my msngr whom i've never talked to finally is on & i kinda felt like a dork right now...everytime i say hi for the past few weeks he ignores me...so i went ahead & said something along the lines of "do you speak?"...he responded but boy did i feel myself turn red...so yeah he'll be on again later to actually talk...lol...well have a good night...talk later...
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